Roger
Zelazny
Jack
of Shadows
Some there be that
shadows kiss, Such have but a shadow's bliss.
THE MERCHANT OF
Foreword
PEOPLE SOMETIMES ASK me whether the title Jack of Shadows
was intended to sound like a description of a playing card used in some arcane
game, as well as representing my protagonist's name and a matter of geography. Answer:
Yes. I've long been fascinated by odd decks of cards, and I had an extensive
collection of them at one time.
Ha! they usually respond on hearing this admission. Then
this business about the cards and the reference to shadows ties this story in
at some subterranean psychological level with your Amber books, right?
Well, no. The last time I was down in the catacombs I
couldn't locate any connection. I was simply attracted by the imagery. On the
other hand, nobody ever asked me, Why Jack?
I could have answered that one: Jack Vance.
In this, my tenth book, I'd decided to try for something on
the order of those rare and exotic settings I admired so much in so many of
Jack Vance's stories. It seemed only fair then, once I'd worked things out, to
find a title with Jack in it as a private bit of homage publicly displayed. Now
you all know.
I suppose the inferences concerning a relationship to Amber
could have been strengthened, though, by the fact that this book came out
between the publication of Nine Princes in Amber and The Guns of Avalon, the
first two books in that series-proximity breeding speculation and like that.
But while the setting may owe something to Jack Vance, the
character doesn't. I took my opening quotation from The Merchant of Venice only
because it seemed so apt once I'd pried it free of its context. The
Shakespearean work to which I actually do owe a debt here came along about
eight years after Merchant. I refer to Macbeth. True, Birnam Wood does not come
against Jack, and the play contains no quote I wanted to uproot and employ
here. But Jack's character undergoes an interesting progression, which owes
something to Shakespeare's portrait of the bloody Scot. I don't care to say
anything more about it, though, because I feel that introductory pieces should
not spoil story lines. Someone named J. 1. M. Stewart almost ruined Vanity Fair
for me that way years ago.
This was not one of my experimental books, such as Creatures
of Light and Darkness, Doorways in the Sand, Bridge of Ashes, Roadmarks or Eye
of Cat. Those are the five wherein I worked out lots of techniques I used in
many of the others. This was a more workmanlike job in that I knew exactly what
I wanted to do and how to do it, with the protagonist-as usual-indicating the
direction. Of the five, only Creatures of Light and Darkness preceded Jack of
Shadows. Looking back upon jack in this light, I do feel that I might have
gained a certain facility there for the brief, impressionistic description of
the exotic which could have carried over into both Nine Princes and Jack. And
maybe not. But if it owes it anything, that's it.
It is interesting to me, too, in looking at a story across
the years this way, to see it in terms of what came after as well as what
preceded it. I do feel that the shadow of Jack fell upon the protagonist of
Today We Choose Faces. Also, there is something of Jack's sardonic attitude as
well as his caution in the later tales of Dilvish the Damned-another wrongfully
punished man whose character was twisted by the act.
I have also been asked several times whether the name that
Jack assumes Dayside-Jonathan Shade-owes anything to the character of that name
in Nabokov's Pale Fire. Sorry. While I do enjoy playing an occasional literary
puzzle game, I wrote Jack of Shadows before I came to PALE FIRE.
And yes, I did once do a short graphic prequel to this book
(Shadowjack) in collaboration with artist Gray Morrow, in The Illustrated
Roger Zelazny. And no, nothing in that story is essential to the understanding
or enjoyment of this one. It is a minor piece, and totally independent. So this
is the story that Jack built-with a little help from me on the paperwork. Picture
him if you will as a Figure on a playing card. Make it a Tarot. Maybe the
Broken Tower... 1
IT HAPPENED WHEN Jack whose name is spoken in shadow went to
Igles, in the Twilight Lands, to visit the Hellgames. It was there that he was
observed while considering the situation of the Hellflame.
The Hellflame was a slim urn of silvery fires, gracefully
wrought and containing a fist-sized ruby at the uppermost tips of its blazing
fingers. These held it in an unbreakable grip, and the gemstone glimmered
coolly despite them.
Now, the Hellflame was on display for all to regard, but the
fact that Jack was seen looking at it was cause for much consternation. Newly
arrived in Igles, he was first noticed while passing amid lanterns, in line
with the other on-lookers, who were moving through the open-sided display
pavilion. He was recognized by Smage and Quazer, who had left their places of
power to come to compete for the trophy. They immediately moved to report him
to the Games Master.
Smage shifted his weight from foot to foot and tugged at his
mustache until the tears rose in his squarish eyes and he began to blink. He
stared up at his giant companion Quazer-hair, eyes, flesh all of a uniform
gray-rather than regard the colorful bulk of Benoni, the Games Master, whose
will was law in this place.
What do you two want? he inquired.
Smage continued to stare and blink until Quazer finally
spoke in his flute-like fashion.
We have information for you, he said.
I hear you. Tell it, replied Benoni.
We have recognized one whose presence here should be cause
for some concern.
Who?
We must move near to a light before I may tell you.
The Games Master twisted his head on his bulging neck, and
his amber eyes flashed as he glared first at the one, then at the other.
If this is some sort of prank he began.
It is not, said Quazer unflinchingly.
Very well, then. Follow me. He sighed; and with a swirl of
his orange and green cloak, he turned and headed toward a brightly illuminated
tent.
Inside, he faced them once again. Is this bright enough for
you?
Quazer looked about. Yes, he said. He will not overhear
us.
Who are you talking about? asked the Games Master.
Do you know of one called Jack, who always hears his name
if it is spoken in shadows?
Jack of Shadows? The thief?Yes, I've heard stories.
That is why we wished to speak with you in a brightly lit
place. He is here. Smage and I saw him only a few minutes ago. He was studying
the Hellflame.
Oh my! The Games Master's eyes were wide and his mouth
remained open after the exclamation. He'll steal it! he said.
Smage stopped touching his mustache long enough to nod
several times. ...And we're here to try to win it, he blurted. We can't if
it is stolen.
He must be stopped, said the Games Master. What do you
think I should do?
Your will is the law here, said Quazer.
True... Perhaps I should confine him to some lock-up for
the duration of the Games.
In that case, said Quazer, make certain that there are no
shadows in the place where he is captured or in the place where he is to be
confined. He is said to be exceedingly difficult to contain-especially in the
presence of shadows.
But there are shadows all over the place!
Yes. That is the main difficulty in keeping him prisoner.
Then either brilliant lights or total darkness would seem
to be the answer.
But unless all the lights are set at perfect angles, said
Quazer, and inaccessible, he will be able to create shadows with which to
work. And in darkness, if he can strike but just the smallest light, there will
be shadows.
What strength does he derive from shadows?
I know of no one who knows for certain.
He is a darksider, then? Not human?
Some say twilight, but close to the darkwhere there are
always shadows.
In that case, a trip to the Dung Pits of Glyve might be in
order.
Cruel, said Smage, and he chuckled.
Come point him out to me, said the Games Master.
They departed from the tent. The sky was gray overhead,
changing to silver in the east and black in the west. Stars dotted the darkness
above a row of stalagmitical mountains. There were no clouds.
They moved along the torchlit way that crossed the compound,
heading toward the pavilion of the Hellflame. There was a flicker of lightning
in the west, near, it seemed, to that place on the boundary where the shrines
of the helpless gods stood.
As they neared the open side of the pavilion, Quazer touched
Benoni's arm and nodded. The Games Master followed the direction of his gesture
with his eyes to where a tall, thin man stood leaning against a tent pole. His
hair was black, his complexion swarthy, his features somewhat aquiline. He wore
gray garments, and a black cloak was draped over his right shoulder. He smoked
some darkside weed rolled into a tube, and its smoke was blue in the
torchlight.
For a moment Benoni studied him, sensing that feeling men
know when confronting a creature born, not of woman but of an unknown
darkstroke, in that place men shunned.
He swallowed once, then said, All right. You may go now.
We would like to help Quazer began.
You may go now!
He watched them depart and then muttered, Trust one of them
to betray another.
He went to collect his guard force and several dozen bright
lanterns.
Jack accompanied the arresting party without offering
resistance or argument. Surrounded by a party of armed men and caught at the
center of a circle of light, he nodded slowly and followed their instructions,
not saying a word al] the while.
They conducted him to the Games Master's brightly lighted
tent. He was pushed before the table at which Benoni sat. The guards moved to
surround him once more with their lanterns and shadow-destroying mirrors.
Your name is Jack, said the Games Master.
I don't deny it.
Benoni stared into the man's dark eyes. They did not waver.
The man did not blink them at all.
...And you are sometimes called Jack of Shadows. There was
silence. Well?
A man may be called many things, Jack replied.
Benoni looked away. Bring them in, he said to one of the
guards.
The guard departed, and moments later he returned with Smage
and Quazer. Jack flicked a glance in their direction but remained
expressionless.
Do you know this man? Benoni inquired.
Yes, they said in unison.
But you are wrong in calling him a man, Quazer continued,
for he is a darksider.
Name him.
He is called Jack of Shadows.
The Games Master smiled.
It is true that a man may be called many things, he said,
but in your case there seems to be considerable agreement.I am Benoni, Master
of the Hellgames, and you are Jack of Shadows, the thief. I'd wager you are
here to steal the Hellflame. There was silence again. ... You need not deny
it or affirm it, he continued. Your presence is ample indication of your
intentions.
I might have come to compete in the games, Jack ventured.
Benoni laughed.
Of course! Of course! he said, swabbing away a tear with
his sleeve. Only there is no larceny event, so we lack a category in which you
may compete.
You prejudge me-and that is unfair, said Jack. Even if I
am he who you have named, I have done nothing to give offense.
Yet, said Benoni. The Hellflame is indeed a lovely
object, is it not?
Jack's eyes seemed to brighten for an instant as his mouth
twitched toward an unwilling smile
Most would agree on that point, he said quickly.
And you came here to win it-in your own fashion. You are
known as a most monstrous thief, darksider.
Does that rule out my being an honest spectator at a public
event?
When the Hellflame is involved-yes. It is priceless, and
both lightsiders and darksiders lust after it. As Games Master, I cannot
countenance your presence anywhere near it.
That is the trouble with bad reputations, said Jack. No
matter what you do, you are always suspect.
Enough! Did you come to steal it?
Only a fool would say yes.
Then it is impossible to get an honest answer from you.
If by honest answer you mean for me to say what you want
me to say, whether or not it is true, then I would say that you are correct.
Bind his hands behind his back, said Benoni.
This was done. How many lives do you have, darksider? the
Games Master asked.
Jack did not reply.
Come, come now! Everyone knows that darksiders have more
than one life. How many have you?
I don't like the sound of this, said Jack.
It is not as if you would be dead forever.
It is a long way back from the Dung Pits of Glyve at the
Western Pole of the world, and one must walk. It sometimes takes years to
constitute a new body.
Then you've been there before?
Yes, said Jack, testing his bonds, and I'd rather not
have to do it again.
Then you admit that you have at least one more life. Good!
In that case, I feel no compunction in ordering your immediate execution...
Wait! said Jack, tossing his head and showing his teeth. This
is ridiculous, since I have done nothing. But forget that. Whether or not I
came here to steal the Hellflame, I am obviously in no position to do it now. Release
me, and I will voluntarily exile myself for the duration of the Hellgames. I
will not enter Twilight at all, but will remain in Darkness.
What assurance have I of this?
My word.
Benoni laughed again.
The word of a darksider who is a piece of criminal
folklore? he finally said. No, Jack. I see no way to assure the safety of the
trophy but by your death. As it is within my power to order it, I do
so.Scribe! Let it be written that at this hour I have judged and ordered this
thing.
A ring-bearded hunchback, whose squint made lines on a face
as brittle as the parchment he took up, flourished a quill and began to write.
Jack drew himself to his full height and fixed the Games
Master with his half-lidded eyes.
Mortal man, he began, you fear me be cause you do not
understand me. You are a daysider with but one life in you, and when that is
gone, you will have no more. We of darkness are said not to have souls, such as
you are alleged to possess. We do, however, live many times, by means of a
process which you cannot share. I say that you are jealous of this, that you
mean to deprive me of a life. Know that dying is just as hard for one of us as
it is for one of you.
The Games Master dropped his eyes.
It is not... he began.
Accept my offer, Jack interrupted, to absent myself from
your games. Allow your order to be fulfilled, and it will be you who will be
the ultimate loser.
The hunchback stopped writing and turned toward Benoni.
Jack, said the Games Master, you did come to steal it,
didn't you?
Of course I did.
Why? It would be hard to dispose of. It is so
distinctive...
It was for a friend to whom I owe a favor. He desired the
bauble. Release me and I will tell him that I failed, which will be no less
than the truth.
I do not seek your wrath upon your return...
What you seek will mean little compared to what you will
receive, if you make that trip necessary.
...Yet a man in my position cannot readily bring himself to
trust one who is also known as Jack of Liars.
Then my word means nothing to you?
I am afraid not. And to the scribe he said, Continue your
writing.
...And my threats mean nothing?
They cause me some concern. But I must weigh your
vengeance-several years removedagainst the immediate penalties I will suffer
if the Hellflame is stolen. Try to understand my position. Jack.
I do indeed, he said, turning toward Smage and Quazer. You
of the jackass ears and yougynandromorph!neither will you be forgotten!
Smage looked at Quazer, and Quazer batted his eyelashes and
smiled. You may tell it to our patron, the Lord of Bats, he said.
Jack's face changed as his ancient enemy's name was spoken.
Because magic is slowed in Twilight, where science begins,
it was perhaps half a minute before a bat entered the tent and passed between
them. During this time, Quazer had said, We compete beneath the banner of the
Bat.
Jack's laughter was broken by the creature's passage. When
he saw it, he lowered his head and the muscles at the hinges of his jaws
tightened.
The silence that followed was interrupted only by the
scratching of the quill.
Then, So be it, said Jack.
They took Jack to the center of the compound, where the man
named Blite stood with his huge axe. Jack looked away quickly, and licked his
lips. Then his eyes were drawn irresistibly back to the blade's bright edge.
Before he was asked to kneel at the chopping block, the air
about him came alive with leathery missiles that he knew to be a horde of
dancing bats. More of them poured in from the west, but they moved too quickly
to cast him shadows that mattered.
He cursed then, knowing that his enemy had sent his minions
to mock him in his passing.
When it came to a theft, he generally succeeded. He was
irritated at having to lose one of his lives on a sloppy job. After all, he was
who he was...
He knelt and lowered his head.
As he waited, he wondered whether it was true that the head
retained consciousness for a second or two after being severed from the body. He
attempted to dismiss it, but the thought kept returning.
But could it be, he wondered, more than simply a botched
job? If the Lord of Bats had laid a trap, it could only mean that one
thing. 2
FINE LINES OF light traced in the blacknesswhite, silver,
blue, yellow, red-mainly straight, but sometimes wavering. They crossed the
entire field of darkness, and some were brighter than others...
Slowing, slowing...
Finally, the lines were no longer infinite roadways or
strands of a web.
They were long thin rods-then stickshyphens of light...
Ultimately, they were winking points.
For a long while he regarded the stars uncomprehendingly. It
was only after a great time that the word stars seeped into his consciousness
from somewhere, and a tiny glimrner began behind his staring eyes.
Silence, and no sensations but seeing...
And again after a long while, he felt himself
falling-falling as from a great height, gaining in substance, until he realized
that he was lying on his back staring upward with the full weight of his being
once again on him.
I am Shadowjack, he said within himself, still unable to
move.
He did not know where he was lying or how he had come to
that place of darkness and stars. The sensation seemed familiar; however, the
return felt like something previously experienced, though long ago.
A warmth about his heart spread outward, and he felt a
tingling that quickened all his senses. With this he knew.
Damn! was the first word he spoke, for with the return of
his sense of smell came a full awareness of his situation.
He was lying in the Dung Pits of Glyve at the West Pole of
the World in the realm of the sinister Baron of Drekkheim, through whose
kingdom all who seek resurrection must pass.
He realized therefore that he was on a mound of offal in the
middle of a lake of filth. An evil smile crossed his face as he considered for
the hundredth time that while men begin and end in such fashion, darksiders
could claim nothing better.
When he could move his right hand, he began to rub his
throat and massage his neck. There was no pain, but that last dreadful memory
came vividly to mind. How long ago had it been? Several years, most likely, he
decided. That was average for him. He shuddered and forced away the momentary
thought of the time when his last life would be expended. This shudder was
followed by a shivering which did not cease. He cursed the loss of the garments
which by now had either moldered with his former body or, more likely, had been
worn to tatters on the back of another man.
He rose slowly, requiring air but wishing that he could
forego breathing for a time. He tossed aside the eggshaped stone he had found
in his hand. It would not do to remain long in one place now that he was almost
himself again.
The East was in all directions. Gritting his teeth, he chose
what he hoped to be the easiest way.
He did not know how long it took him to achieve the shore. Though
his shadow eyes quickly accustomed him to the starlight, there were no true
shadows for him to consult.
And what is time? A year is one complete passage of a planet
about its sun. Any subdivisions of that year may be determined in accordance
with other motions of the planet... or the motions of its inhabitants.
For Jack, the four annual fluctuations of the Twilight
represented seasons. Within these time units, dates were always to be
determined more specifically by means of the stars-which were always
visible-and the application of magical principles to determine the moods of
their governing spirits. He knew that the daysiders possessed mechanical and
electrical devices for keeping track of time because he had stolen several of
these. But since they had failed to function darkside, they had been of no use
to him except as trinkets to pass on to tavern girls as amulets of great
contraceptive power.
Stripped and stinking. Jack stood upon the shore of that dark
and silent place. After catching his breath and recovering his strength, he
began his eastward trek.
The land slanted slightly upward, and there were puddles and
pools of filth all about him as he made his way. Rivers of it ran to the lake,
since all filth eventually comes to Glyve. Fountains occasionally erupted,
jetting high and spattering him as he passed. There were cracks and crevasses
from which the odor of sulfur dioxide constantly arose. Hurrying, he held his
nose and prayed to his tutelary deities. He doubted that his petition would be
heard, however, since he did not feel that the gods would devote much attention
to anything emitted from this particular portion of the world.
Moving on, he rested little. The ground continued to slope
upward, and after a time small crops of rock began to appear. Shivering, he
picked his way among them. He had forgotten-purposely, of course-many of the
worst features of this place. Small, sharp stones tore I into his soles, so he
knew that he tracked bloody footprints as he went. Faintly, at his back, he
could hear the sound of the many-footed things that emerged to lick at them. It
was said to be bad luck to look back at this point.
It was always with a certain sadness that he reflected on
the loss of blood from any new body which also happened to be his own. The
texture of the ground changed as he advanced, however, and soon it was smooth
rock on which he trod. Later, he noted with satisfaction that the sounds of
feet had died away.
Mounting ever higher, he was pleased by the diminution of
the odors. He reflected that this could simply be the result of a numbing of
his olfactory abilities after the steady bombardment they had endured. This
fact, whatever its cause, seemed to give his body time to consider other matters;
and of course his mind followed. In addition to being filthy, sore and tired,
he now realized that he was hungry and thirsty as well.
Struggling with his memory as he would with a warehouse
door, he entered and sought. He retraced his previous journeys from Glyve,
recalling every detail that he could. But, seeking as he walked, no
correspondences came, no familiar landmarks.
When he skirted a small stand of metallic trees, he realized
that he had never come this way before.
There will be no clean water for miles, he thought, unless
Fortune nods and I come upon a rainpool. But it rains so seldom in this
place... It is a land of filth, not cleanliness. If I tried a small magic for
rain, something would note it and seek me. I would be easy prey as I now stand
without shadows. Then I would either live in a vile way or be slain and be
returned to the Dung Pits. I'll walk till death is near, then try for rain.
Later, his eyes caught sight of an unnatural object in the
distance. He approached it warily and saw that it was twice his height and a
double armspan in width. It was of stone and its facing surface was smooth. He
read there the carved, large-lettered message which in the common darkside
tongue said: WELCOME SLAVE.
Beneath it was the Great Seal of Drekkheim.
Jack felt a great sense of relief, for it was known to a
few-those few who had escaped the Baron's service and with whom Jack had
discussed the subject-that such markers were placed in the most lightly
patrolled areas of the realm. The hope was that a returnee would then undertake
a lengthy detour, entering some area where the chances of capture would be
better.
Jack moved past it and would have spat, but his mouth was
too dry.
As he moved forward his strength continued to leave him, and
it took him longer to regain his balance each time he slipped. He knew that he
had missed what ordinarily would have been several sleep-periods. Yet he saw no
place that appeared safe enough for sleeping.
It grew more and more difficult for him to keep his eyes
open. At one point, as he stumbled and fell, he was certain that he had just
awakened from sleep-walking a great distance, unaware of the area through which
he had passed. The present terrain was more rugged than that which he had last
remembered noting. This gave him a glimmer of hope which, in turn, provided
sufficient resolve for him to rise once more.
Shortly thereafter, he saw the place that would have to be
his haven, for he could go no farther.
It was a place of tumbled, leaning stones, near to the foot
of a sharp slope of rock which led on to even higher ground. He scouted the
area, crawling as best he could, seeking signs of life.
Detecting nothing, he entered. He moved as far within the
stony maze as he could go, found a reasonably level spot, collapsed there and
slept.
He had no way of telling how much later it was when it
occurred; but something within the deep pool that is sleep came to him and told
him. Drowner-like, he struggled toward the distant surface.
He felt the kiss upon his throat and the alb of her long
hair that lay on his shoulders.
For a moment he rested there, trying to muster his remaining
strength. He seized her hair with his left hand, as his right arm moved about
her body. Forcing her away from him, he rolled to his left, knowing from his
waking instant what must be done. With just a fraction of his old speed, his
head dropped forward.
When he had finished, he wiped his mouth, stood and stared
down at the limp form.
Poor vampire, he said. There was not much blood in you
which is why you wanted mine so desperately, yet were so weak in its taking. But
I, too, was desperate in my hunger. We do what we must.
Wearing the black skirts, cloak and tight-fitting boots he
had appropriated, Jack moved onto higher ground now, occasionally crossing
fields of black grasses that wrapped about his ankles and attempted to stop
him. Familiar with these, he kicked his way through before they could fasten
too tightly. He had no desire to become fertilizer.
Finally, he located a rainpool. He observed it for hours,
from many vantages, for it would be an ideal spot to snare a returnee. Having
come to the conclusion that it was unguarded, he approached it, studied it,
then fell to the ground and drank for a long while. He rested, drank again,
rested again, and drank once more, regretting that he lacked the means to carry
some of it away with him.
Still regretting, he stripped and washed the filth from his
body.
Later, he passed flowers that had the appearance of rooted
snakes-or perhaps they were indeed rooted snakes. They hissed and threw
themselves flat in their attempts to reach him.
He slept twice more before he located another rainpool. This
one was guarded, however, and it took all the stealth and cunning of a thief to
obtain a drink. Since he also obtained the dozing guard's sword, and since the
man then had no further use for it. Jack supplied himself with the bread,
cheese, wine and change of clothing which were available there.
The rations were sufficient for one meal. This, in addition
to the fact that there was no mount in the vicinity, led him to the conclusion
that there was a guard post in the neighborhood and that relief might be
arriving at any time. He drank the wine and refilled the flask with water,
damning the smallness of the container.
Then, as there were no nearby crevasses or caves wherein he
might secrete the remains, he departed quickly, leaving what remained there.
He ate slowly as he moved, his stomach at first protesting
this strange invasion of privacy. He finished half the food in this fashion and
saved the rest. Occasionally, he would see a small animal. He took to carrying
several stones in his hands, with the hope of bringing one down. But they all
proved too fast, or he too slow. He did however, gain a good piece of Hint when
renewing his supply of stones for the seventh time.
Later, he hid himself when he heard the sound of hoofbeats,
but no one passed near. He knew that he was deep into Drekkheim now and he
wondered toward which of its boundaries he was headed. He shuddered when he
considered that at one point it abutted the westernmost boundary of that
nameless realm which held High Dudgeon, place of power and keep of the Lord of
Bats.
Toward the bright stars, from the dark ground, he hurled
another petition, for whatever it was worth.
Climbing, circling, sometimes running, his hatred grew more
rapidly than the hunger within him.
Smage, Quazer, Benoni, Blite the executioner and the Lord of
Bats...
One by one he would seek them and have his revenge upon
them, beginning with the lesser and building his power as he went, until the
encounter with the one who even now might be too near for safe dreaming.
Nor did he dream well.
He dreamed that he was back in the Dung Pits. This time,
however, he was chained, so that like Morningstar-who sits forever at the Gates
of Dawn-he must remain in that place forever.
He awakened drenched with perspiration, despite the slight
chill in the air. It seemed as if the noxious odors of that place had come to
him briefly and in their fullest intensity once again.
It was not until considerably later that he was able to
finish his rations.
But the hatred sustained him; it nourished him. It quenched
his thirst or caused him to forget it. It gave him the strength to walk another
league whenever his body bade him to lie down.
He plotted their ends, again and again. He saw the racks and
the pincers, the flames and the braces. He heard their screams and their pleas.
In the lower chambers of his mind, he saw the gobbets of flesh and gouts of
blood and rivers of tears he would extract from them before he allowed them to
die.
...And he knew that despite the pains of this journey, it
was the wound in his pride that stung most. To be taken so easily, handled so
casually, dismissed so abruptly-it was like the swatting of an annoying insect.
They did not treat him as if he were the power that walked the shadowland, but
rather as if he were a common thief!
This is why he thought in terms of torture rather than a
simple sword thrust. They had hurt his feelings by killing him in this manner. Had
they done it differently, he might have been less aggrieved. The Lord of Bats,
it was he whose guile stirred by envy and revenge had planned such an insult. He
would pay.
Hating, he drove himself onward. Although the hatred warmed
him, it did not serve to prevent an increasing awareness that the temperature
was growing colder. This was so despite the fact that he had not attained a
significantly greater altitude for a long while.
He lay upon his back and studied the dark globe that
occluded stars at midheaven. It was the focus of the Shield forces-that sphere
held perpetually away from dayside's light-and someone should be seeing to its
maintenance Where were the seven Powers of the listing in the Book of Ells,
whose turn it would be to run Shield duty? Surely, whatever the internecine
warfare of the moment, no Power would fail to observe a Shield truce when the
fate of the entire world depended on it. Jack himself had run it countless
times-even in league with the Lord of Bats on two occasions.
He longed to essay the spell which would give him sight of
the current page of the Book of Ells, to see whose names were recorded there It
occurred to him that one of them might be his own. But he had not heard his
name spoken since his awakening in the Dung Pits. No, it must be another, he
decided.
Opening his being, he could feel the terrible cold of the
outer darkness as it seeped about the edges of the orb at the Shield's apex. It
was only an initial leakage, but the longer they waited the more difficult the
sealing would be. It was too important to take chances with. The spell-wrought
Shield kept the darkside from freezing into All-winter as surely as their force
screens prevented the daysiders from frying in the merciless glare of the sun. Jack
closed his being to the inner chill.
Later, he succeeded in slaying a small, dark-furred creature
as it dozed atop a rock. He skinned it and cleaned it with his blade, and as he
had not come across any kindling he ate the meat raw. He cracked its bones with
his teeth and sucked the marrow from them. He detested such rude living,
although there were those among his acquaintances who preferred it to the more
civilized. He was pleased that there were none to witness his repast.
As he walked on, there came a tingling within his ears.
Jack of Shadows, and...
That was all.
Whoever had spoken had had a shadow fall across his lips at
that moment. It had been all too brief, however.
Jack turned his head slowly and knew the direction. It had
been far ahead and to his right. Over a hundred leagues, he guessed. Possibly
even in another kingdom.
He gnashed his teeth. If only he knew his present location,
he could at least guess as to the source. As it was, he could have heard
anything from a fragment of a tavern tale to a piece of a plot by someone
already aware of his return. The possibility of the latter occupied his mind
for a long while.
He increased his pace and did not rest at the time he had
planned. He decided that this hastened his good fortune, when he discovered a
rainpool. He found it free of surveillance, approached it and drank his fill.
He could not quite make out his reflection in the dark
waters, so he strained his eyes until his features became faintly discernible:
dark face, thin, faint lights for eyes, silhouette of a man with stars at his
back.
Ah, Jack! You've become a shadow your self! he muttered. Wasting
away in a cruel land. All because you promised the Colonel Who Never Died that
cursed bauble! Never thought it would come to this, did you? Was the attempt
worth the price of failure? Then he laughed, for the first time since his
resurrection. Are you laughing, too, shadow of a shadow? he finally asked his
reflection. Probably, he decided. But you are being polite about it because
you are my reflection, and you know I'll go after the bloody jewel again, as
soon as I know where it lies. She's worth it.
For a moment he forgot his hatred and smiled, the flames
that burned at the back of his mind died down and were replaced by the image of
the girl.
She had a pale face, with eyes the green of the edges of old
mirrors. Her short upper lip touched the lower moistly in a faint pout. Her
chin fit within the circle of his thumb and forefinger, and copper, catenary
bangs flowed over matching brows like the wings of a hovering bird. Evene was
her name and she stood up to his shoulder in height. She wore green velvet to a
narrow waist. Her neck was like the bark-stripped base of a lovely tree. Her
fingers moved like dancers on the strings of the palmyrin. This was Evene of
the Fortress Holding.
Born of one of those rare unions between darkness and light,
the Colonel Who Never Died was her father and a mortal woman named Loret her
mother. Could that be a part of the fascination? he wondered once more. Since
she's part of light, does she possess a soul? That must be it, he decided. He
could not picture her as a darkside power, moving as he moved, emerging from
the Dung Pits of Glyve. No! He banished the thought immediately.
The Hellflame was the bride-price her father had set, and he
vowed to go after it again. First, of course, came the vengeance... But Evene
would understand. She knew of his honor, his pride. She would wait. She had
said that she would wait forever, that day he had departed for Igles and the
Hellgames there. Being her father's daughter, time would mean little to her. She
would outlive mortal women in youth, beauty and grace. She would wait.
Yes, shadow of a shadow, he said to his other self within
the pool. She's worth it.
Hurrying through the darkness, wishing his feet were wheels,
Jack heard the sound of hooves once more. Again he hid himself, and again they
passed. Only this time they passed much nearer.
He did not hear his name spoken again, but he wondered
whether there was any connection between the words he had heard and the riders
who had come near.
The temperature did not decrease, not did it rise again. A
constant chill was with him always, and whenever he opened his being he could
feel the slow, steady leakage in the Shield above him. It would be most
noticeable in this land, he reasoned, since the Dung Pits of Glyve lay directly
beneath the Shield's apex, the sphere. Perhaps the effects had not yet been
felt farther east.
He travelled on and he slept, and there were no further
sounds which could be taken as pursuit. Heartened, he rested more frequently
and occasionally deviated from the route he had set by the stars to investigate
formations which might hold rainpools or animal life. On two such occasions he
located water, but he found nothing that would provide nourishment.
On one such excursion he was attracted by a pale red glow
coming through a cleft in the rock to his right. Had he been moving more
quickly, he would have passed it unnoticed, so feeble was the light that
emerged. As it was, he was picking his way up a slope, over gravel and loose
stones.
When he saw it, he paused and wondered. Fire? If something
was burning, there would be shadows. And if there were shadows...
He drew his blade and turned sidewise. Sword arm first, he
entered the cleft. He eased himself along the narrow passage, resting his back
against the stone between steps.
Looking upward, he estimated the top of the rocky mass at
four times his own height. A river of stars flowed through the greater
blackness of the stone.
The passage gradually turned to the left: then terminated
abruptly, opening onto a wide ledge that stood perhaps three feet above the
valley's floor. He stood there and considered the place.
It was closed on all sides by high and seemingly natural
walls of stone. Black shrubbery grew along the bases of these walls, and dark
weeds and grasses grew at a greater distance from them. All vegetation ceased,
however, at the perimeter of a circle.
It lay at the far end of the valley, and its diameter was
perhaps eighty feet. It was perfectly circumscribed and there were no signs of
life within it. A huge mossy boulder stood at its center, glowing faintly.
Jack felt uneasy, though he could not say why. He surveyed
the pinnacles and escarpments that hedged the valley. He glanced at the stars.
Was it his imagination, or did the light flicker once while
his eyes were elsewhere?
He stepped down from the ledge. Then, cautiously, keeping
close to the lefthand wall, he advanced.
The moss covered the boulder entirely. It was pinkish in
color, and it seemed to be the source of the glow. As he neared it, Jack noted
that it was not nearly as cold in the valley as it was outside it. Perhaps the
walls provided some insulation.
Blade in hand, Jack entered the circle and advanced. Whatever
the cause of the strangeness of this place, he reasoned that it might be a
thing he could turn to his advantage.
But he had taken scarcely half a dozen steps within the
circle, when he felt a psychic stirring like something bumping, nuzzling
against his mind.
Fresh marrow! I cannot be contained! came the thought.
Jack halted.
Who are you? Where are you? he asked.
I lie before you, little one. Come to me. I see just a
moldy rock.
Soon you will see more. Come to me!
No thank you, said Jack, feeling a growing sinister intent
behind the aroused consciousness which had addressed him.
It is not an invitation. It is a command that I place upon
you.
He felt a strong force come into him, and with it a
compulsion to move forward. He resisted mightily and asked, What are you?
I am that which you see before you. Come now!
The rock or the fungus? he inquired; struggling to remain
where he stood and feeling that he was losing the contest. Once he took one
step, he knew the second would come more easily. His will would be broken and
the rock thing would have its way with him.
Say that I am both, although we are really one.You are
stubborn, creature. This is good. Now, however, you can no longer resist me.
It was true, His right leg was attempting to move of its own
accord, and he realized that in a moment it would. So he compromised.
Turning his body, he yielded to the pressure, but the step
that he took was more to the right than straight ahead.
Then his left foot began inching its way in the direction of
the rock. Struggling while submitting, he moved to the side as well as ahead.
Very well. Though you will not come to me in a straight
line, yet will you come to me.
The perspiration appeared on Jack's brow as step by step he
fought; and step by step he advanced in a counterclockwise spiral toward that
which summoned him. He was uncertain as to how long it was that he struggled. He
forgot everything: his hatred, his hunger, his thirst, his love. There were
only two things in the universe, himself and the pink boulder. The tension
between them filled the air like a steady note which goes unheard after a time
because of its constancy, which makes it a normal part of things. It was as if
the struggle between Jack and the other had been going on forever.
Then something else entered the tight little universe of
their conflict.
Forty or fifty painful steps-he had lost count-brought Jack
into a position where he could see the far side of the boulder. It was then
that his concentration almost gave way to a quick blazing of emotion and nearly
allowed him to succumb to the tugging of that other will.
He staggered as he beheld the heap of skeletons that were
lying behind the glowing stone.
Yes. I must position them there so that newcomers to this
place will not grow fearful and avoid the circle of my influence. It is there
that you, too, will lie, bloody one.
Recovering his self-control. Jack continued the duel, the
piles of bones adding tangible incentive to the effort. He passed behind the
boulder in his slow, circling motion, passed the bones and continued on. Soon
he stood before it as he had done earlier, only now he was about ten feet
nearer. The spiral continued and he found himself approaching the back side
once again.
I must say that you are taking longer than any of the
others. But then you are the first who thought to circle as you resigned
yourself to me.
Jack did not reply, but as he rounded to the rear he studied
the grisly remains. During his passage, he noted that swords and daggers, metal
buckles and harness straps lay there intact; garments and other items of fabric
appeared, for the most part, half-rotted. The spillage from several knapsacks
lay upon the ground, but he could not positively identify all the small items
by starlight. Still, if indeed he had seen what he thought he saw lying there
among the bones, then a meager measure of hope, he decided, was allowable.
Once more around and you will come to me, little thing. You
will touch me then.
As he moved. Jack drew nearer and nearer to the mottled,
pink surface of the thing. It seemed to grow larger with each step, and the
pale light it shed became more and more diffuse. No single point that he
regarded seemed to possess luminescence of its own; the glow seemed an effect
of the total surface.
Back to the front and within spitting distance...
Moving around to the side now, so close that he could almost
reach out and touch it...
He transferred his blade to his left hand and struck out
with it, gashing the mossy surface. A liquid appeared in the mark he had made.
You cannot hurt me that way. You cannot hurt me at all.
The skeletons came into view again, and he was very close to
that surface which looked like cancerous flesh. He could feel it hungering for
him, and he was kicking bones aside and hearing them crunch beneath his boots
as he moved to the rear. He saw what he wanted and forced himself to go another
three steps to reach it, though it was like walking against a hurricane He was
just inches from that deadly surface now.
He threw himself toward the knapsacks. He raked them toward
him-using both his blade and his hand-and he snatched also at the rotted cloaks
and jackets that lay about him.
Then came an irresistible pull, and he fell himself moving
backward until his shoulder touched the lichen-covered stone.
He tried to drag himself away, knowing in advance that he
would fail.
For a moment he felt nothing. Then an icy sensation began at
the point of contact. This quickly faded and was gone. There was no pain. He
realized then that the shoulder had grown completely numb.
It is not as terrible as you feared, is it?
Then, like a man who has been sitting for hours and rises
too quickly, a wave of dark dizziness rushed through his head. This passed, but
when it did he became aware of a new sensation. It was as though a plug had
been pulled in his shoulder. He felt his strength draining away. With each
heartbeat it became more difficult to think clearly. The numbness began to spread
across his back and down his arm. It was difficult to raise his right hand and
grope for the bag at his belt. He fumbled with it for what seemed to be ages.
Resisting a strong impulse to close his eyes and lower his
head to his chest, he heaped the rags he had gathered into a mound before him. With
his left hand aching upon its hilt, he moved his blade beside the pile and
struck it with the flint. The sparks danced upon the dry cloth, and he
continued to strike them even after the smoldering had begun.
When the first flame arose, he used it to light the candle
stub some dead man had carried.
He held it before him and there were shadows.
He set it upon the ground, and he knew that his shadow lay
upon the boulder now.
What are you doing, dinner?
Jack rested in his gray realm, his head clear once more, the
old, familiar tingle beginning in his fingertips and toes.
I am the stone who gets blood from men! Answer me! What are
you doing?
The candle flickered, the shadows caressed him. He placed
his right hand upon his left shoulder and the tingling entered there and the
numbness departed. Then, wrapping himself in shadows, he rose to his feet.
Doing? he said. No. Done. You have been my guest. Now I
feel it only fair that you reciprocate.
He moved away from the boulder and turned to face it. It
reached out for him as it had before, but this time he moved his arms and the
shadows played upon its surface. He extended his being into the twisting
kaleidoscopic pattern he had created.
Where are you?
Everywhere, he said. Nowhere.
Then he sheathed his blade and returned to the boulder. As
the candle was but a stub, he knew that he must act quickly. He placed the
palms of his hands upon the spongy surface.
Here I am, he said.
Unlike the other darkside Lords, whose places of power were
fixed geographical localities where they reigned supreme, Jack's was more a
tenuous one, and liable to speedy cancellation, but it existed wherever light
and objects met to make a lesser darkness.
With the lesser darkness about him, Jack placed his will
upon the boulder.
There was, of course, resistance as he reversed their
previous roles. The power that had compelled him fought back, became the victim
itself. Within himself, Jack stimulated the hunger, the open space, the vacuum.
The current, the drain, the pull was reversed.
...And he fed.
You may not do this to me. You are a thing.
But Jack laughed and grew stronger as its resistance ebbed. Soon
it was unable even to protest.
Before the candle bloomed brightly and died, the mosses had
turned brown and the glow had departed. Whatever had once lived there lived no
longer.
Jack wiped his hands on his cloak, many times, before he
departed the valley. 3 THE STRENGTH HE had gathered sustained him
for a long while, and Jack hoped that soon he might quit the stinking realm. The
temperature did not diminish further, and there came one light rainfall as he
was preparing to sleep. He huddled beside a rock and drew his cloak over his
head. It did not protect him completely, but he laughed even as the waters
reached his skin. It was the first rainfall he had felt since Glyve.
Later, there were sufficient pools and puddles for him to
clean himself as well as to drink and to refill his flask. He continued on
rather than sleep, so his garments might dry more quickly.
It brushed past his face so rapidly that he barely had time
to react. It happened as he neared a shattered tower that a piece of the
darkness broke away and dropped toward him, moving in a rapid, winding way.
He did not have sufficient time to draw his blade. It passed
his face and darted away. He managed to hurl all three stones which he carried
before it was out of sight, coming close to hitting it with the second one. Then
he bowed his head and cursed for a full half-minute. It had been a bat.
Wishing for shadows, he began to run.
There were many broken towers upon the plain, and one at the
mouth of a pass led between high hills and into the range of mountains they
faced. Because Jack did not like passing near structures-ruined or
otherwise-which might house enemies, he attempted to skirt it at as great a
distance as possible.
He had passed it and was drawing near the cleft when he
heard his name called out.
Jack! My Shadowjack! came the cry. It's you! It really
is!
He spun to face the direction from which the words had come,
his hand on the hilt of his blade.
Nay! Nay, my Jackie! You need no swords with old Rosie!
He almost missed her, so motionless did she stand: a crone,
dressed in black, leaning upon a staff, a broken wall at her back.
How is it that you know my name? he finally asked.
Have you forgotten me, darlin' Jack? Forgotten me? Say you
haven't...
He studied the bent form with its nest of white and gray
hair.
A broken mop, he thought. She reminds me of a broken mop.
Yet...
There was something familiar about her He could not say
what.
He let his hand drop from the weapon. He moved toward her.
Rosie?
No. I could not be...
He drew very near. Finally, he was staring down, looking
into her eyes.
Say you remember, Jack.
I remember, he said.
And he did.
...Rosalie, at the Sign of the Burning Pestle, on the coach
road near the ocean. But that was so long ago, and in Twilight...
Yes, she said. It was so long ago and so far away. But I
never forgot you, Jack. Of all the men that tavern girl met, she remembered you
the best.What has become of you, Jack?
Ah, my Rosalie! I was beheaded-wrong fully, I hasten to
add-and I am just now re turning from Glyve.But what of you? You're not a
darksider. You're mortal. What are you doing in the horrid realm of Drekkheim?
I am the Wise Woman of the Eastern Marches, Jack. I'll
admit I was not very wise in my youth-to be taken in by your ready smile and
your promises-but I learned better as I grew older. I nursed an old bawd in her
failing years and she taught me something of the Art. When I learned the Baron
had need of a Wise Woman to guard this passage to his kingdom, I came and swore
allegiance to him. Tis said he is a wicked man, but he has always been good to
old Rosie. Better than most she's known.It is good that you remembered me.
Then she produced a cloth parcel from beneath her cloak,
unfastened it and spread it open upon the ground.
Sit and break bread with me, Jack, she said. It will be
like old times.
He removed his sword belt and seated himself across the
cloth from her.
It's been a long while since you ate the living stone, she
said; and she passed him bread and a piece of dried meat. So I know that you
are hungry.
How is it that you know of my encounter with the stone?
I am, as I said, a Wise Woman-in the technical sense of the
term. I did not know it was your doing, but I knew that the stone had been
destroyed. This is the reason I patrol this place for the Baron. I keep aware
of all that occurs and of all who pass this way. I report these things to him.
Oh, said Jack.
There must have been something to all your boasting-that
you were not a mere darksider, but a Lord, a Power, albeit a poor one, she
said. For all my figuring has told me that only one such could have eaten the
red rock. You were not just jesting then when you boasted to that poor girl
about that thing. Other things, perhaps, but not that thing...
What other things? he asked.
Things such as saying you would come back for her one day
and take her to dwell with you in Shadow Guard, that castle no man has ever set
eyes upon. You told her that, and she waited many years. Then one night an old
bawd took ill at the inn. The young girl-who was no longer a young girl-had her
future to think about. She made a bargain to team a better trade.
Jack was silent for a time, staring at the ground. He
swallowed the bread he had been chewing, then, I went back, he said. I went
back, and no one even remembered my Rosalie. Everything was changed. All the
people were different. I went away again.
She cackled.
Jack! Jack! Jack! she said. There's no need for your
pretty lies now. It makes no difference to an old woman the things a young girl
believed.
You say you are a Wise Woman, he said. Have you no better
way than guessing to tell the truth from a lie?
I'd not use the Art against a Power... she began.
Use it, he said; and he looked into her eyes once more.
She squinted and leaned forward, her gaze boring into his own.
Her eyes were suddenly vast caverns opened to engulf him. He bore the falling
sensation that came with this. It vanished seconds later when she looked away
from him, turning her head to rest upon her right shoulder.
You did go back, she said.
It was as I told you.
He picked up his bread and began to chew noisily, so as not
to appear to notice the moisture which had appeared upon her cheek.
I forgot, she finally said. I forgot how little time
means to a darksider. The years mean so little to you that you do not keep
proper track of them. You simply decided one day that you would go back for
Rosie, never thinking that she might have become an old woman and died or gone
away. I understand now, Jackie. You are used to things that never change. The
Powers remain the Powers. You may kill a man today and have dinner with him ten
years hence, laughing over the duel you fought and trying to recall its cause. Oh,
it's a good life you lead!
I do not have a soul. You do.
A soul? she laughed. What's a soul? I've never seen one. How
do I know it's there? Even so, what good has it done me? I'd trade it in a
twinkling to be like one of you. It's beyond my Art, though.
I'm sorry, Jack said.
They ate in silence for a time. There is a thing I would
like to ask you, she said.
What is that?
Is there really a Shadow Guard? she asked Him. A castle
of high, shadow-decked halls, invisible to your enemies and friends alike,
where you would have taken that girl to spend her day with you?
Of course, he told her; and he watched her eat. She was
missing many teeth and had a tendency to smack her lips now. But suddenly,
behind her net of wrinkles, he saw the face of the young girl she had been. White
teeth had flashed when she had smiled, and her hair had been long and glossy,
as the darkside sky between stars. And there had been a certain luster in eyes
the blue of dayside skies he had looked upon. He had liked to think it was only
there for him.
She must not have much longer to live, he thought. As the
girl's face vanished, he regarded the sagging flesh beneath her chin.
Of course, he repeated, and now that I've found you, will
you accompany me back? Out of this wretched land and into a place of comforting
shadows? Come spend the rest of your days with me, and I will be kind to you.
She studied his face.
You would keep your promise after all these years-now that
I'm an ugly old lady?
Let us go through the pass and journey back toward Twilight
together.
Why would you do this for me?
You know why.
Quickly, give me your hands! she said.
He extended his hands and she seized them, turning both
palms upward. She leaned far forward and scrutinized them.
Ah! It is no use! she said. I cannot read you, Jack. The
hands of a thief make too many twists and turns and manipulations. The lines
are all wrong-though they are magnificently ruined hands!
What is it that you see but do not wish to tell me, Rosalie?
Do not finish eating. Take your bread and run. I am too old
to go with you. It was sweet of you to ask. That young girl might have liked
Shadow Guard, but I am content to spend my days where I am.Go now. Hurry! And
try to forgive me.
Forgive you for what?
She raised and kissed each of his hands.
When I saw the approach of him whom I had hated all these
years, I sent a message by means of my Art and resolved to detain you here. Now
I know that I did wrong. But the Baron's guard must already be hurrying in this
direction. Enter the pass and stop for nothing. You may be able to elude them
on the other side. I will try to raise a storm to obscure your trail.
He sprang to his feet, drew her to hers.
Thank you, he said. But what did you see in my palm?
Nothing.
Tell me, Rosalie.
It does not matter so much if they capture you, she said,
for there is a Power greater than the Baron that you would face, and face him
you will. What happens then is crucial. Do not let your hatred lead you to the
machine that thinks like a man, only faster. There is too much power involved,
and such power and hatred would not go well together.
Such machines only exist dayside.
I know. Go now, Jackie boy. Go!
He kissed her forehead.
I will see you again one day, he said, and turning, he
dashed toward the pass.
As she watched him go she was suddenly aware of the chill
that had descended upon the land.
Beginning low and rising steadily, the foothills soon
lowered above him. He ran on, seeing them give way to high, slanting walls of
stone. The pass widened, narrowed, and widened again. Finally, he pushed his
panic away, held it at arms length and slowed to a walk. It would serve no
purpose to tire himself quickly; a steady, slower pace would allow him to cover
more ground before fatigue overtook him.
He breathed deeply and listened for the sounds of pursuit. He
heard nothing.
A long, black snake flowed along the wall at his right,
vanished into a cleft in the rock, and did not reappear. Above him, a shooting
star burnt its sudden way through the sky. Veins of minerals glittered like
glass in the starlight.
He thought of Rosalie and wondered what it would have been
like to have had parents, to have been a child, to have depended on others to
assure his welfare. He wondered what it was like to be old and know that you
were going to die and not return again. He grew tired of these thoughts after a
time just as he had grown tired of everything. He felt a strong desire to lie
down, wrap his cloak about him and sleep.
He did things to keep awake. He counted his paces-a
thousand, then a thousand more; he rubbed his eyes; he hummed several songs all
the way through; he reviewed spells and incantations; he thought of food; he
thought of women; he thought of his greatest thefts; he counted a thousand more
paces; he rehearsed tortures and ignominies; and finally he thought of Evene.
The high walls soon began to descend.
He moved among foothills, similar to those where he had
entered. There were still no sounds of pursuit-indicating, he hoped, that he
would not be caught in the pass. Once he struck open country again there would
be more places where he could hide himself.
There came a rumble from overhead, and he looked up to see
that the stars were partly obscured by clouds. They had gathered quickly, he
realized; and he remembered Rosalie's promise to try to raise a storm to
obscure his trail. He smiled as the lightning flashed, the thunder boomed and
the first small drops began to strike about him.
When he emerged from the pass, he was drenched once more. The
storm showed no sign of abating. The visibility was poor, but it appeared that
he had entered upon a rock-strewn plain similar to the one he had left on the
other side of the mountains.
He deviated over a mile from what he felt to be his course;
that is, the most expedient route of departure from the Baron's realm. Then he
sought and found a group of boulders. He encamped on the driest side of the
largest and slept.
He was awakened by the sound of hoofbeats. He lay there
listening and determined that it came from the direction of the pass. He drew
his blade and held it at his side. The rain still fell, but lightly now; the
occasional peal of thunder that he heard came from a great distance.
The hoofbeats grew fainter. He pressed his ear to the
ground, sighed, and then smiled. He was still safe.
Despite the protest of his aching muscles, he rose to his
feet and continued on his way. He resolved to travel for as long as the rain
continued to obscure as much of his trail as possible.
His boots sucked holes in the dark mud, and his clothing
stuck to his body. He sneezed several times and began to tremble from the cold.
Noticing a strange ache in his right hand, he looked down to see that he was
still gripping his blade. He dried the weapon on the underside of his cloak and
replaced it in the sheath. Through breaks in the cloud-cover, he made out
familiar constellations. By these he adjusted his course eastward.
Eventually, the rain ceased. There was nothing but mud all
about him. However, he continued to walk. His clothing began to dry, and the
exercise expelled something of the chill he had taken.
The hoofbeats came and went again, somewhere behind him. Why
spend so much effort to hunt down one person? he wondered. It had not been this
way the last time that he had returned. Of course, he had never come this way
before.
Either I have achieved some special significance during my
deathbound time, he decided, or the Baron's men hunt those who return for the sheer
sport of it. In either instance, it is best to stay clear of them. What could
Rosalie have meant when she said that it does not matter so much if they
capture me? It is very strange, if she saw the truth.
Later he reached higher, rockier terrain, leaving the mud
below and behind. He began looking for a place to rest. The area was level,
however, and he continued rather than be caught in the open.
As he struggled along, he saw what appeared to be a distant
hedge of stones. Drawing nearer, he noted that they were of a lighter color
than the others in the vicinity and that they appeared to be regularly spaced. They
did not appear to have been shaped by the forces of nature but hand-hewn by
some monomaniac whose problem involved pentagons.
He found himself a resting place on the dry side of the
nearest of these, and there he slept.
He dreamed of rain and thunder once again. The thunder
throbbed continuously, and the entire universe shook with its rumble. Then, for
a long while, he dwelled half-aware in the borderland between sleep and
wakefulness. On one side or the other, he felt that something was amiss,
although he was not certain what or why this was.
I'm not wet! he decided, feeling surprise and annoyance.
Then he followed the thunder back to his body; his head was
pillowed by an outflung arm. For a moment he lay there, fully awake; then he
leaped to his feet, realizing they had found his trail.
The riders came into view. He counted seven.
His blade came into his hand, and he threw his cloak back
over his shoulders. He ran fingers through his hair, rubbed his eyes and
waited.
Over his left shoulder, high in the middle of the air, a
star appeared to brighten.
He decided that it was senseless to flee on foot from
mounted men, especially when he knew of no haven which he might seek. They
would only run him to the ground if he fled, and by then he would be too tired
to give a good battle and send at least a few of them to the Pits.
So he waited, only slightly distracted by the growing blaze
in the heavens.
The cloven hooves of the seven black riders struck sparks
from the stones. Their eyes, high above the ground, were like a handful of
glowing embers buried in his direction. Wisps of smoke emerged from their
nostrils, and occasionally they emitted high-pitched whistling sounds. A
silent, wolf-like creature ran with them, head near the ground, tail streaming.
It changed direction at every point where Jack had turned while approaching the
stone.
You will be the first, he said, raising the blade.
As if it had heard his words, it raised its muzzle, howled
and raced on ahead of the riders.
Jack retreated four paces and braced his back against the
stone as it came toward him. He raised the blade high, as if to slash, and
seized the hilt with both hands.
Its mouth was open, tongue lolled to the side, exhibiting
enormous teeth in the midst of a near-human grin.
When it sprang, he brought the blade down in a semicircle
and held it before him, bracing his elbows against the stone.
It did not growl, bark or howl; it screamed as it impaled
itself upon the weapon.
The impact forced the air from Jack's lungs and bloodied his
elbows where they rested. For a moment, his head swam, but the screaming and
the rank odor of the creature kept him conscious.
After a moment, it stopped. It snapped twice at the blade,
quivered and died.
He placed his foot upon the carcass and with a great,
heaving twist withdrew the blade. Then he raised it once more and faced the
oncoming riders.
They slowed, drew rein, and halted, perhaps a dozen paces
from where he stood.
The leader-a short, hairless man of tremendous
girth-dismounted and moved for ward. He shook his head as he stared down at the
bleeding creature.
You should not have slain Shunder, he said. His voice was
gruff and raspy. He sought to disarm you, not to harm you.
Jack laughed.
The man looked up, his eyes flashing yellow with power
behind them.
You mock me, thief! he said.
Jack nodded.
If you take me alive, I will doubtless suffer at your
hands, he said. I see no reason to conceal my feelings, Baron. I mock you
because I hate you. Have you nothing better to do than harass returnees?
Stepping backward, the Baron raised his hand. At this
signal, the other riders dismounted. Grinning, he drew his blade and leaned
upon it.
He said, You were trespassing in my realm, you know.
It is the only route back from Glyve, said Jack. All who
return must cross some of your territory.
That is true, said the Baron, and those whom I apprehend
must pay the toll: a few years in my service.
The riders flanked Jack, forming a semicircle like a
half-crown of steel as they enclosed him.
Put up your blade, shadow man, said the Baron. If we must
disarm you, you will doubtless be injured in the scuffle. I should prefer an
unmaimed servant.
As the Baron spoke. Jack spat. Two of the men glanced upward
and continued to stare at the sky. Suspecting an attempt to distract him, Jack
did not follow their eyes.
But then another man turned his head; and seeing this, the
Baron himself looked upward.
High, and at the periphery of his vision, Jack became aware
of the great glow that had appeared. He turned his head then, and he saw the
great sphere that raced in their direction, growing and brightening as it
approached.
Quickly, he dropped his eyes. Whatever the nature of the
thing, it was senseless not to take advantage of the opportunity it had
provided.
He leaped forward and beheaded the gaping man who stood at
the end of the arc to his right.
He was able to split the next man's skull, despite a hasty
parry which came too slow as the man turned. By then, the Baron and his four
retainers had turned and were upon him.
Jack parried and retreated as rapidly as he could, not
venturing a riposte. He attempted to circle the stone to his left, while
keeping them at bay. They moved too quickly, however, and he found himself
parenthesized. Each close-range blow that he parried now caused his palm to
sting and sent a tingling sensation up his arm. The blade felt heavier with
each stroke.
They began to pierce his guard, little nicks and slashes
appearing on his shoulder, his biceps and his thighs. Memories of the Dung Pits
flashed through his mind. From the ferocity of the assault, he judged that they
no longer wished to take him prisoner but to obtain vengeance for their fallen
fellows.
Realizing that he would soon be hacked to pieces, Jack
resolved to take the Baron with him to Glyve if at all possible. He made ready
to hurl himself upon him, heedless of the others blades, as soon as an opening
appeared in the Baron's defense. It would have to come soon, he realized, for
he felt himself weakening from moment to bloody moment.
As if sensing this, the Baron fought care fully, protecting
himself at all times, allowing his men to lead the assault. Gasping, Jack
decided he could wait no longer.
Then everything ended. Their weapons be came too hot to hold
as blue flames danced along the blades. As they released them and cried out,
they were blinded by a flash of white light which occurred just a brief
distance above their heads. Showers of sparks fell about them and the odors of
combustion reached their nostrils.
Baron, came a sugar-filled voice, you are trespassing as
well as attempting to slay my prisoner. What have you to say for yourself?
Fear took root in his bowels and blossomed within his
stomach as Tack recognized the voice. 4
SPOTS DANCING BEFORE his eyes, Jack sought shadows.
The light faded as quickly as it had come, however, and the
darkness that followed seemed almost absolute. He attempted to take advantage
of this Baron and his men until he touched the rock. He began to edge his way
about it.
Your prisoner? he heard the Baron shout. He is mine!
We have been good neighbors for a long while, Baron-since
the last geography lesson I gave you, said the now discernible figure which
stood atop the rock. Perhaps a refresher course is now in order. These markers
serve to indicate the boundary between our realms. The prisoner stands on my
side of the marker-as do you and your men, I might add. You are, of course, a
respected visitor; and the prisoner, of course, is mine.
Lord, said the Baron, this has always been a disputed
border-and you must bear in mind, too, that I have been pursuing this man
across my own realm. It seems hardly fair for you to interfere at this point.
Fair? came the laughing response. Speak not to me of
fairness, neighbor-nor call the prisoner a man. We both know that the
boundaries are limits of power, not of law or of treaty. For as far as my power
reaches from its seat, High Dudgeon, the land is mine. The same applies to you
in your place. If you wish to renegotiate the boundary by a contest of forces,
let us be about it now. As for the prisoner, you are aware that he is himself a
Power-one of the few mobile ones. He draws his strength from no single locale,
but from a condition of light and darkness. His captor cannot but benefit from
his services; therefore, he is mine. Do you agree, Lord of Offal? Or shall we
reestablish the boundary this moment?
I see that your power is with you...
Then we are obviously within my realm. Go home now, Baron.
Having circled to the far side of the marker, Jack made his
way quietly into the darkness beyond. He had had the opportunity to spring back
across the boundary and perhaps precipitate a struggle; but whatever its
outcome, he would have been someone's captive. Better to fly, in the only
direction open. He moved more quickly.
Glancing back, he saw what appeared to be a continuation of
the argument, for the Baron was stamping about and gesturing wildly. He could
hear his angry shouts, though he had come too far to distinguish the words
being shouted. He broke into a run, knowing that his absence would not remain
unnoticed much longer. He topped a small rise, raced down its eastern slope,
cursing the loss of his blade.
He tired quickly but forced himself to move at a dog-trot,
stopping only to arm himself with two easily held stones.
Then for a moment his shadow lay long before him, and he
stopped and turned in his tracks. A great blaze of light had occurred beyond
the hill and within it, like ashes or blown leaves, hordes of bats were
eddying, rising, darting. Before he could take advantage of shadows, the light
dimmed and darkness came again. The only sound now was his own heavy breathing.
He glanced at the stars for guidance and hurried on, looking as he went for a
hiding place from the pursuit that he knew would follow.
He kept glancing back but there was no recurrence of the
phenomenon. He wondered as to the outcome of the conflict. The Baron, despite
his brutish mien, was commonly known to be an uncommonly able sorcerer; also,
the situation of the border indicated that both stood at the same relative distances
from their places of power.
It would be pleasant, he decided, if they would annihilate
one another. Although that was unlikely. Pity.
Knowing that by now his absence must have been noted and
realizing that the only thing which could stay pursuit would be a drawn-out
struggle, he prayed that it would be a lengthy affair, adding the observation
that the ideal outcome would entail death or severe injury for all parties
involved.
As if to mock his petition, it was only a brief while later
that a dark form flitted past him. He hurled both his stones, but they went
wide of the mark.
Resolving not to travel in a straight line, he turned to his
left and headed in that direction. He was walking slowly to conserve his
strength; and as perspiration evaporated, he felt the chill once again. Or was
it just that?
It seemed as if a dark form paced him, far to his left. Whenever
he turned his head in that direction, it vanished. Staring straight ahead,
however, he detected something of a movement from the corner of his eye. It
seemed to be drawing nearer.
Soon it was at his side. He felt the presence, though he
could barely discern it. While it made no hostile movements, he prepared to
defend himself at its first touch.
May I inquire as to the state of your health? came the
soft, sweet voice.
Suppressing a shudder, Jack said, I am hungry, thirsty and
tired.
How unfortunate. I will see that those conditions are soon
remedied.
Why?
It is my custom to treat my guests with every courtesy.
I was not aware of my being anyone's guest.
All visitors to my realm are my guests, Jack, even those who
abused my hospitality on previous occasions.
That is good to know-especially if it means that you will
offer me assistance in reaching your eastern frontier as quickly and safely as
possible.
We will discuss the matter after dinner.
Very good.
This way, please.
Jack followed him as he bore to the right, knowing that it
would be futile to do otherwise. As they moved, he occasionally caught a
glimpse of that dark, handsome face, half-touched by starlight, half-hidden by
the high, curved collar of the cloak he wore; the eyes within it were like the
pools that form about the wicks of black candles: hot, dark and liquid. Bats
kept dropping from out of the sky and vanishing within his cloak. After a long,
silent while, he gestured toward a prominence that lay ahead.
There, he said.
Jack nodded and studied the decapitated hill. A minor place
of power, he decided, and within this one's reach.
They approached it as they climbed slowly. When Jack slipped
at one point, he felt a hand upon his elbow, steadying him. He noted that the
other's boots made no sound, though they passed over some gravel.
Finally, What became of the Baron? he inquired.
He has gone home a wiser man, said the other; and there
was a flash of white within a momentary smile.
They reached the hill's level top and moved to its center.
The dark one drew his blade and used it to scratch an
elaborate pattern upon the ground. Jack recognized some of the markings. Then
he motioned Jack away, moved his left thumb along the edge of the blade and let
his blood fall into the center of the pattern. As he did this, he spoke seven
words. He turned then and gestured for Jack to come and stand beside him once
again. He then drew a circle about them and turned to address the pattern once
again.
As the words were spoken, the pattern took fire at their
feet. Jack sought to look away from the blazing lines and curves, but his gaze
was trapped within the diagram and his eyes began to trace it.
A feeling of lethargy overcame him as the pattern took hold
of his mind to the exclusion of all else. He seemed to be moving within it, a
part of it...
Someone pushed him and he fell.
He was on his knees in a place of brilliance, and the
multitudes mocked him. No.
Those who mimicked his every movement were other versions of
himself.
He shook his head to clear it, realized then that he was
surrounded by mirrors and brightness.
He stood, regarding the confused prospect. He was near to
the center of a large, many-sided chamber. All of the walls were mirrors as
were the countless facets of the concave ceiling and the gleaming floor beneath
him. He was not certain as to the source of the light. Perhaps it had its
origin, somehow, in the mirrors themselves. Part way up the wall to his right,
a table was laid. As he approached it, he realized that he was walking up an
incline, though he felt no extra strain upon his muscles nor any disturbance of
his sense of equilibrium. Hurrying then, he passed the table and continued on
in what he deemed to be a straight line. The table was behind him, then above
him. After several hundred paces, it was before him once again. He turned in a
right angle from his course and repeated the walk. The results were the same.
There were no windows, no doors. There was the table, there
was a bed and there were chairs with side-tables scattered about the various
surfaces of the chamber. It was as if he were confined within an immense,
luster-hoarding jewel. Reflected and re-reflected versions of himself paced
infinity, and there was light everywhere that he looked. There was not a shadow
to be had, anywhere.
He seated himself in the nearest chair, and his reflection
stared up at him from between his feet.
A prisoner of he who has already slain you once, he thought.
No doubt near to his place of power, in a cage built just for me. Bad. Bad.
There was movement everywhere. The mirrors showed an
instant's infinity of motion, then all was still once again. He looked about,
seeking the result of this activity.
Beef, bread, wine and water now stood upon the table that
hung above him.
Rising to his feet, he felt a light touch upon his shoulder.
He turned quickly, and the Lord of Bats smiled at him and bowed.
Dinner is served, he said, gesturing toward the table.
Jack nodded, moved with him, seated himself and began to
fill his plate.
How do you like your quarters?
I find them quite amusing, Jack replied. I note an absence
of doors and windows, among other things.
Yes.
Jack began to eat. His appetite was like a flame that would
not be quenched.
Your journey has left you quite wretched-looking, you
know.
I know.
I will have a bath sent around later, and some fresh
garments.
Thank you.
No trouble. I want you to be comfortable during what will
no doubt be a lengthy period of recuperation.
How lengthy? Jack inquired.
Who knows? It could take years.
I see.
If I were to attack him with the carving knife. Jack
wondered, would I be able to kill him? Or would he be too strong for me now? Or
able to summon his power in an instant? And if I were to succeed, could I find
a way out of here?
Where are we? Jack asked.
The Lord of Bats smiled.
Why, we are right here, he said, touching his breast.
Jack frowned, puzzled.
I do not...
The Lord of Bats unfastened a heavy silver chain he wore
about his neck. A gleaming jewel hung suspended from it. He leaned forward and
extended his hand.
Study it for a moment, Jack, he said.
Jack touched it with his fingertips, weighed it, turned it.
Well, would it be worth stealing?
Most likely. What sort of stone is it?
It is not actually a stone. It is this room. Consider the
shape.
Jack did, shifting his eyes from the stone to the walls and
back several times.
Its shape is quite similar to that of this chamber...
It is identical. It must be, because they are the same
thing.
I fail to follow...
Take it. Hold it near to your eye. Consider its interior.
Jack raised it, closed one eye, squinted, stared.
Inside... he said. There is a tiny replica of this
chamber inside...
Look for this table.
I see it! And I see us seated at it! I am-1 am
studying-This stone!
Excellent! The Lord of Bats applauded.
Jack released it and the other raised it by its chain.
Please observe, he said.
He moved his free hand toward it, enclosed the suspended gem
in his fist.
There was darkness. It remained but a moment, departed as he
loosened his grip.
Then he took a candle from beneath his cloak, wedged it into
a hold in the table and struck a light to it. He swung the pendant near to the
flame.
The chamber became warm, uncomfortably so. After a moment,
the heat grew oppressive and Jack felt beads of perspiration begin upon his
forehead.
Enough! he said. There is no need to roast us!
The other extinguished the flame and dipped the pendant into
the water decanter. There came an immediate cooling.
Where are we? Jack repeated.
Why, I wear us about my neck, said the Lord of Bats,
replacing the chain.
A good trick. Where are you now?
Here.
Within the gem?
Yes.
And you are wearing the gem.
Obviously. Yes, it is a very good trick. It did not take me
very long to work it out and to set it up. After all, I am undoubtedly the most
capable of all the sorcerers-despite the fact that some of my most precious
manuscripts dealing with the Art were stolen many years ago.
What an unfortunate loss. I should think you would have
guarded such documents most carefully.
They were well-guarded. There was a fire, however. During
the confusion, the thief was able to remove them and escape into the shadows.
I see, said Jack, finishing a final piece of bread and
sipping his wine. Was the thief apprehended?
Oh yes. He was executed. But I am not finished with him
yet.
Oh? said Jack. What are your plans now?
I am going to drive him mad, said the Lord of Bats,
swirling his wine within his goblet.
Perhaps he is mad already. Is not kleptomania a mental
disorder?
The other shook his head.
Not in this instance, he said. With this thief it is a
matter of pride. He likes to outwit the mighty, to appropriate their
possessions. It seems to feed his self-esteem. If this desire is a mental
disorder, then most of us suffer from it. In his case, though, the desire is
often satisfied. He succeeds because he possesses some power and is shrewd and
ruthless in its employment. I shall take great delight in observing his
degeneration into a state of total madness.
So as to feed your pride and self-esteem?
Partly. It will also constitute a bit of homage to the god
Justice and a benefit to society at large.
Jack laughed. The other only smiled.
How do you intend to achieve the desired result? he
finally asked.
I shall confine him to an inescapable prison where he will
have absolutely nothing to do but exist. Occasionally, I will introduce certain
items and remove them again-items which will come to occupy his thoughts more
and more as time passes, inducing periods of depression and times of fury. I
will break that smug self-assurance of his by rooting out the pride from which
it grows.
I see indeed, said Jack. It sounds as if you have been
planning this for a long while.
Never doubt it.
Jack pushed away the empty platter, leaned back in the chair
and considered the multitude of images that surrounded them.
I daresay that the next thing you will tell me is that your
pendant could accidentally be lost during an ocean voyage, buried, burnt or fed
to hogs.
I shan't, as it has already occurred to you.
The Lord of Bats rose to his feet, gestured casually toward
a point high above their heads.
I see that your bath has been drawn, he said, and that
fresh garments were laid out for you while we dined. I shall depart now and
allow you to avail yourself of them.
Jack nodded, stood.
A thud occurred beneath the table then, followed by a
gibbering sound and a brief, shrill wail. Jack felt his ankle seized. Then he
was thrown to the floor.
Down! cried the Lord of Bats, circling the table quickly. Back,
I say!
Scores of bats escaped his cloak and darted toward the thing
beneath the table. It shrieked with fright and so tightened its grip upon
Jack's ankle that he thought the bones would be pulverized.
He raised himself and began to lean for ward. Then even the
pain was insufficient to prevent a moment's paralysis from his revulsion at the
sight he beheld.
The hairless member was white, shiny and blotched with blue
marks. The Lord of Bats kicked it and the grip was broken; but before it drew
away and moved to cross the other arm, shielding the face. Jack caught a
glimpse of that lopsided countenance.
It looked like something that had started out to be a man
but had never quite made it. It had been stepped on, twisted, had holes poked
into the sickly dough of its head-bulge. Bones showed through the transparent
flesh of its torso and its short legs were thick as trees, terminating in
disk-shaped pads from which dozens of long toes hung like roots or worms. Its
arms were longer than its entire body. It was a crushed slug, a thing that had
been frozen and thawed before it was fully baked. It was-
It is the Borshin, said the Lord of Bats, now extending
his arms toward the squealing creature, which could not seem to decide whether
it feared the bats or their Lord more, and which kept banging its head against
the table's legs as it sought to avoid both.
The Lord of Bats tore the pendant from his neck and buried
it against the creature, uttering an oath as he did so. With this it vanished,
leaving a small pool of urine were it had crouched. The bats vanished within
the dark one's cloak, and he smiled down at Jack.
What, said Jack, is a Borshin?
The Lord of Bats studied his fingernails for a moment. Then,
For some time now the dayside scientists have, he said, attempted to create
artificial life. Thus far, they have not succeeded.
I determined to succeed with magic where they had failed
with their science, he went on. I experimented for a long while, then made
the attempt. I failed-or, rather, was only half-successful. You have just seen
the results. I disposed of my dead homunculus in the Dung Pits of Glyve and one
day that thing returned to me. I cannot take credit for its animation. The
forces that restore us at that place stimulated it somehow. I do not believe
the Borshin to be truly alive, in the ordinary sense of the word.
Is it one of the items you mentioned, which will serve to
torment your enemy?
Yes, for I have taught it two things: to fear me and to
hate my enemy. I did not bring it here just now, however. It has its own ways
of coming and going, though I did not think they extended to this place. I will
have to investigate the matter further.
In the meantime, it will be free to enter here whenever it
chooses?
I am afraid so.
Then might I borrow a weapon to keep with me?
I am sorry, but I have none to lend you.
I see.
I had best be going now. Enjoy your bath.
One thing, said Jack.
What is that? asked the other, whose fingers were
caressing the pendant.
I, too, have an enemy for whom I con template an involved
piece of vengeance. I will not bore you with details now, save that I believe
mine will be superior to yours.
Really? I would be interested to learn what you have in
mind.
I will see that you do.
Both smiled.
Until later, then.
Until later. The Lord of Bats vanished.
Jack bathed, soaking himself for a long while in the
lukewarm water. All the fatigue he had accumulated during his journey seemed to
seize him then, and it took a mighty effort of will to rise, dry his body and
walk to the bed, where he collapsed. He felt too tired to hate properly, or to
begin planning his escape.
He slept, and while sleeping he dreamed.
He dreamed he held the Grand Key of Kolwynia, which was
Chaos and Formation, and with it unlocked the sky and the earth, the sea and
the wind, bidding them to fall upon High Dudgeon and its master from all
corners of the world. He dreamt that there the flame was born and the dark Lord
was held in its heart forever like an ant in amber, but alive, sleepless and
feeling. Exulting in this, he heard the sudden chatter of the World Machine. He
moaned and cried out at this omen; and within the walls, infinities of Jacks
twisted on sweatdrenched beds. 5
JACK SAT IN the chair nearest the bed, his legs stretched
out before him and crossed at the ankles, fingers interlaced beneath his chin. He wore the red,
white and black diamond-patched clothing of a jester; his wine-colored slippers
curled at the toes and ended in loose threads, where he had torn off the bells.
He had discarded the quinopolus, and the belled cap had gone into the chamber
pot.
Any moment now,
he decided. I hope the Borshin does not follow him.
The remains of
his thirty-first meal in that place, a breakfast, occupied the table. The air
about him was cooler than he found comfortable. The Borshin had visited him on
three occasions since his arrival, plumping into sudden existence, drooling and
snatching at him. Each time, he had fended it off with a chair, while screaming
as loudly as he could manage; and the Lord of Bats always followed after a few
moments and drove the creature away, apologizing profusely for the
inconvenience. Jack had been unable to sleep well since the first such visit,
knowing that it could happen again at any time.
The meals
appeared regularly, quite undistinguished repasts, and he ate them
automatically while thinking of other matters. Afterward, he was never able to
recall what they had featured, nor did he wish to.
Soon now he
reflected.
He had exercised
to keep from growing soft. He had gained back some of the weight he had lost.
He had fought boredom by planning and rejecting many plots for escape and
vengeance. Then Rosalie's words had returned to him, and he determined his
course of action.
The air seemed to
shimmer. There came a lone, not unlike the snapping of a fingernail against a
goblet, somewhere near at hand.
Then the Lord of
Bats was beside him, and this time he was not smiling.
Jack, he began
immediately, you disappoint me. What were you attempting to establish?
I beg your
pardon?
You just
completed some sort of weak spell a few moments ago. Did you really think I
would be unaware of a working of the Art here in High Dudgeon?
Only if it
succeeded, said Jack.
Which it
obviously did not. You are still here.
Obviously.
You cannot
shatter these walls, nor pass through them.
So I've
learned.
Do you find
time's weight increasing upon you?
Somewhat.
Then perhaps it
is time to introduce some additional element into your environment.
You did not tell
me there was another Borshin.
The other
chuckled, and a bat emerged from somewhere, circled his head several times,
suspended itself from the chain he wore.
No, that is not
what I had in mind, he said. I wonder how much longer your sense of humor
will hold up?
Jack shrugged,
rubbed idly at a smudge of soot on his right forefinger.
Let me know when
you find out, he said.
I promise you
will be among the first.
Jack nodded.
I would
appreciate it if you would refrain from further endeavors along magical lines,
said the Lord of Bats. In this highly charged atmosphere they could produce
severe repercussions.
I'll bear that
in mind, said Jack.
Capital. Sorry
to have interrupted. I'll let you get back to your normal activities now
Adieu.
Jack did not
reply, for he was alone.
It was some time
later that the additional element appeared within his environment.
Realizing that he
was not alone, Jack looked up suddenly. At the sight of her coppery hair and
her half-smile he was, for a moment, almost startled into believing.
Then he rose,
moved toward her, moved to the side, studied her from several angles.
Finally, It is a
very good job, he said. Give my compliments to your creator. You are an
exceedingly fine simulacrum of my Lady Evene, of the Fortress Holding.
I am neither a
simulacrum nor am I your Lady, she said with a smile, curtseying.
Whatever, you have
brought me brightness, he said. May I offer you a seat?
Thank you.
Seating her, he
drew up another chair and set it to her left. Leaning back in it, he regarded
her obliquely.
Now will you
riddle me your words? he said. If you are not my Evene nor a simulacrum
composed by my enemy to trouble me, then what are you? Or-to be more
delicate-who are you?
I am Evene of
the Fortress Holding, daughter of Loret and the Colonel Who Never Died, she
said, still smiling; and it was only then he noticed that from the silver chain
she wore depended the strange gemstone that was shaped in semblance of his
chamber. But I am not your Lady, she finished.
He did a very
good job, said Jack. Even the voice is perfect.
I can almost
feel sorry for the vagabond Lord of nonexistent Shadow Guard, she said, Jack
of Liars. Being familiar with all forms of baseness, it has become difficult
for you to recognize the truth.
There is a
Shadow Guard! he said.
Then there is no
need for you to grow agitated at its mention, is there?
He taught you
well, creature. To mock my home is to mock me.
That was my
intention. But I am not a creature of he whom you call the Lord of Bats. I am
his woman. I know him by his secret name. He has shown me the world in a
sphere. I have seen all places and things from the halls of High Dudgeon. I
know that nowhere is there such a place as Shadow Guard.
No eyes but mine
have ever looked upon it, he said, for it is always hidden by shadows. It is
a great, sprawling place, of high, torch-lit halls, underground labyrinths and
many towers. On the one hand it faces some light, and on the other the
darkness. It is furnished with many mementos of the greatest thefts ever
committed. There are things of great beauty there, and things of incalculable
worth. The shadows dance in its corridors, and the facets of countless gems
gleam brighter than the sun of the one-half world. That is the place you mock:
Shadow Guard, next to which your master's keep is but a pigsty. It is
sometimes, true, a lonely place; but the real Evene will brighten it with her
laughter, touch it with her grace, so that it will endure in splendor long
after your master has entered the final darkness as a result of my vengeance.
She applauded
softly.
You make it easy
to recall how your words and your passion once persuaded me, Jack. I see now,
though, that when you speak of Shadow Guard you speak too well to be describing
a real place. I waited for you for a long while, and then I learned of your
beheading at Igles. Still, I was determined to await your return. But my father
decided otherwise. At first, I believed his lust for the Hellflame ruled him. I
was wrong, however. He realized from the first that you were a vagrant, a
braggart, a liar. I wept when he bartered me for the Hellflame, but I came to
love the one to whom I was given. My Lord is kind where you are thoughtless,
intelligent where you are merely shrewd. His fortress really exists and is one
of the mightiest in the land. He is all things that you are not. I love him.
Jack studied her
now unsmiling face for a moment, then asked, How did he come to possess the
Hellflame?
His man won it
for him in Igles.
What was that
man's name?
Quazer, she
said. Quazer was champion of the Hellgames.
A moderately
useless piece of information for a simulacrum to possess, Jack observed, if
true. Yet, my enemy is of the fussy, thorough sort. I am sorry, but I do not
believe you are real.
It is an example
of the egotism that blinds one to the obvious.
No. I know that
you are not the real Evene, but rather a thing sent to torment me, because the
real Evene, my Evene, would have refrained from judging me in my absence. She
would have waited for my answer to whatever was said against me.
She looked away
then.
More of your clever
words, she finally said. They mean nothing.
You may go now,
he said, and tell your master you did not succeed.
He is not my
master! He is my Lord and lover!
...Or you may
stay, if you do not wish to go. It matters not at all.
He rose then,
crossed to the bed, stretched out upon it, closed his eyes.
When he looked
again, she was gone.
He had seen,
however, that which she had not wished him to see.
...But I'll not
give them anything, he decided. No matter what evidence they offer, I will
explain it as a trick. I will keep my knowledge where I keep my feelings, for
now.
After a time, he
retreated into sleep, dreaming in bright colors of the future as he would have
it.
He was left alone
for a long while after that, which suited him perfectly.
He felt that he
had held the Lord of Bats at bay, that he had defeated his first design upon
his sanity. He occasionally chuckled as he paced the walls, ceilings, floors,
surfaces of his chamber. He meditated upon his plan and its dangers, on the
years that might be involved in achieving it. He ate his meals. He slept.
It occurred to
him then that while at any given moment the Lord of Bats might be observing
him, he could possibly be under observation at all times. He immediately had
visions of the strange gemstone being passed from hand to hand by shifts of his
enemy's servitors. The thought persisted. No matter what the action in which he
was engaged, there came the nagging feeling that someone might be watching. He
took to sitting for long spells glaring at possible watchers behind the
mirrors. He would turn suddenly and gesture obscenely at invisible companions.
Gods! It's
working! he decided one time, on awakening and looking quickly about the
chamber. He is reaching! I suspect his presence everywhere, and it is beginning
to unbalance me. But I've laid the groundwork. If he will just give me the
opening I need and all other things remain as they are, I may have a chance.
The best way to insure the opening, though, is to remain as untroubled-seeming
as possible. I will have to stop pacing and watching, stop mumbling.
He lay there and
opened his being and felt the sobering chill of the heights.
After that, he
took to silence and slow movement. It was more difficult than he had thought to
suppress his smaller reactions. But he suppressed them, sometimes seating
himself, clasping his hands and counting through the thousands. The mirrors
showed him that he wore a good-sized beard. His jester's garb grew worn and
soiled. Often he would awaken in a cold sweat, unable to recall what nightmare
had been tormenting him. Though his mind sometimes darkened, he now maintained
the semblance of normalcy within his ever-lit prison of mirrors.
Is there a spell
involved? he wondered. Or is it just the effects of prolonged monotony?
Probably the latter. I think I'd sense his spell, though he's a better magician
than 1. Soon now, soon. Soon he will be coming to me. He will feel that it is
taking too long to distress me. There will come a counter-effect. He will be troubled.
Soon, now. Soon he will come.
When he did, Jack
had had advance notice.
He awakened to
find a drawn bath-his second since his arrival, how many ages ago?and a fresh
costume. He scrubbed himself and donned the green-and-white garb. This time, he
let the bells remain above his toes and he adjusted the cap to a rakish angle.
He seated himself
then, clasped his hands behind his head and smiled faintly. He would not allow
his appearance to betray the nervousness he felt.
When the air
began to shimmer and he heard the note, he glanced in that direction and nodded
slightly.
Hello, he said.
Hello, said the
other. How are you?
Quite recovered.
I'd say. I should like to be taking my leave soon.
In matters of
health one cannot be too careful. I would say that you still require rest. But
we shall discuss that matter at a later time.
I regret that I
have not been able to spend more time with you, he went on. I have been
occupied by matters which required my full attention.
That is all
right, said Jack. All efforts will shortly come to nothing.
The Lord of Bats
studied his face, as though seeking some sign of madness upon it. Then he
seated himself and, What do you mean? he inquired.
Jack turned his
left palm upward, and, If all things end, he said, then all efforts will
come to nothing.
Why should all
things end?
Have you paid
heed to the temperature recently, good my Lord?
No, said the
other, perplexed, I have not stirred physically from my keep for a long
while.
It might prove
instructive for you to do so. Or, better yet, open your being to the emanations
from the Shield.
I shall-in
private.But there is always some leakage. The seven whose presences are
required to dam it will learn of it and act. There is no cause for concern or
foreboding.
There is if one
of the seven is confined and unable to respond.
The other's eyes
widened.
I don't believe
you, he said.
Jack shrugged.
I was seeking a
safe place from which I might disembark when you offered me youruh,
hospitality. It is certainly easy enough to verify.
Then why did you
not speak of it sooner?
Why? asked
Jack. If my sanity is to be destroyed, what is it to me whether the rest of
the world goes on existing or is destroyed?
''That is a very
selfish attitude, said the Lord of Bats.
It is my
attitude, said Jack, and he jingled his bells.
I suppose I must
go check your story. The other sighed, rising.
I'll wait here.
said Jack.
The Lord of Bats
led him into the high hall that lay beyond the iron door, and there he cut his
bonds.
Jack looked about
him. There were familiar designs worked in mosaics on the floor, heaps of
rushes in the corners, dark hangings upon the walls, a small central altar with
a table of instruments beside it, an odor of incense in the air.
Jack took a step
forward.
Your name was
strangely entered in the book of Ells, said the Lord of Bats, for that of
another was blotted out above it.
Perhaps the
tutelary deity had second thoughts on the matter.
To my knowledge,
this has never occurred before. But if you are one of the seven chosen, so be
it. Hear me, though, before you move to essay your part of the Shield duty.
He clapped his
hands and a hanging stirred. Evene entered the room. She went and stood at her
Lord's side.
While your
powers may be necessary for this thing, he said to Jack, do not think that
they approach my own here in High Dudgeon. Soon we must strike lights, and
there will be shadows. Even if I have underestimated you, know that my Lady has
had years in which to study the Art and that she is uniquely gifted in its
employment. She will add her skills to my own, should you attempt anything save
that for which I brought you here. No matter what you believe, she is not a
simulacrum.
I know that,
said Jack, for simulacra do not weep.
When did you see
Evene weep?
You must ask her
about it sometime.
She dropped her
eyes as he turned his toward the altar and moved forward.
I'd best begin.
Please stand in the lesser circle, he said.
One by one, he ignited
the charcoal within ten braziers, which stood in three rows of three, four and
three each. He added aromatic powders, causing each to flame and cast smokes of
different colors. Then he moved to the far side of the altar and traced a
pattern upon the floor with the blade of an iron knife. He spoke softly and his
shadow multiplied, recombined into one, swayed, grew still, darkened, and then
stretched across the hall like an endless roadway to the east. It did not move
thereafter, despite the flickering light, and grew so dark that it seemed to
possess the quality of depth.
Jack heard the
Lord of Bats whispered, I like this not! to Evene, and he glanced in their
direction.
Through the
rolling smoke, by the flickering lights, within the circle, he seemed to take
on a darker, more sinister appearance and to move with greater and greater
assurance and efficiency. When he raised the small bell from the altar and rang
it, the Lord of Bats cried, Stop! but he did not break the lesser circle as
the sense of another presence, tense, watching, filled the hall.
You are correct
with respect to one thing, Jack said. You are my master when it comes to the
Art. I am not so addled as to cross swords with you, yet. Especially not in
your place of power. Rather, I seek merely to occupy you for a time, to assure
my safety. It will take even the two of you some minutes to banish the force I
have summoned here-and then you will have other things to think about. Here's
one!
He seized a leg
of the nearest brazier and buried it across the hall. Its charcoal was
scattered among rushes. They began to burn, and flames touched the fringes of a
tapestry as Jack continued:
I have not been
summoned for Shield duty. With splinters from the table, charred in the flame
of our dinner candle, I altered the entry in the Book of Ells. Its opening unto
me was the spell you detected.
You dared break
the Great Compact and tamper with the fate of the world?
Just so, said
Jack. The world is of little use to a madman, which is what you would have had
me; and I spit on the Compact.
You are
henceforth and forever an outcast, Jack. Count no darksider as friend.
I never have.
The Compact and
its agent, the Book of Ells, is the one thing we all respect-always have
respected-despite all other differences. Jack. You will be bounded now to your
ultimate destruction.
I almost was,
here, by you. This way, I am able to bid you good-bye.
I will banish
the presence you have summoned and extinguish the fire you have caused. Then I
will raise half a world against you. Never again will you know a moment's rest.
Your ending will not be a happy one.
You slew me
once, you took my woman and warped her will, you made me your prisoner, wore me
around your neck, set your Borshin upon me. Know that when we meet again, I
will not be the one who is tortured and bounded into madness. I have a long
list, and you head it.
We will meet
again, Shadowjack-perhaps even in a matter of moments. Then you can forget
about your list.
Oh, your mention
of lists reminded me of something. Are you not curious as to whose name I
effaced when I entered my own into the Book of Ells?
What name was
it?
Strangely
enough, it was your name. You should really get out more often, you know. If
you had, you would have noticed the chill, inspected the Shield and read in the
Book. Then you would have been on Shield duty and I would not have become your
prisoner. All of this unpleasantness could have been avoided. There is a moral
there somewhere. Get more exercise and fresh air-that may be it.
In that case,
you would have been the Baron's, or back in Glyve.
A moot point,
said Jack, glancing over his shoulder. That tapestry is going pretty well now,
so I can be moving along. In, say-perhaps a season, perhaps less-who
knows?whenever you finish your Shield duty-you will doubtless seek me. Do not
be discouraged if you do not succeed at once. Persist. When I am ready, we will
meet. I will take Evene back from you. I will take High Dudgeon away from you.
I will destroy your bats. I will see you wander from offal to the grave and
back again, many times. Goodbye, for now.
He turned away
and stared along the length of his shadow.
I will not be
yours, Jack, he heard her say. 'Everything I said before was true. I would
kill myself before I would be yours.
He breathed
deeply of the incensed air, then said, We'll see, and stepped forward into
shadow. 6
THE SKY LIGHTENED
AS, sack over shoulder, he trudged steadily eastward. The air was chill and
snakes of mist coiled among gray grasses; valleys and gulches were filled with
fog; the stars pierced a ghostly film of cloud; breezes from a nearby tarn
lapped moistly at the rocky land.
Pausing for a
moment, Jack shifted his burden to his right shoulder. He turned and considered
the dark land he was leaving. He had come far and he had come quickly. Yet,
farther must he go. With every step he took toward the light, his enemies
powers to afflict him were lessened. Soon, he would be lost to them. They would
continue to seek him, however; they would not forget. Therefore, he did what
must be done-he fled. He would miss the dark land, with its witcheries,
cruelties, wonders and delights. It held his life, containing as it did the
objects of his hatred and his love. He knew that he would have to return,
bringing with him that which would serve to satisfy both.
Turning, he
trudged on.
The shadows had
borne him to his cache near Twilight, where he stored the magical documents he
had accumulated over the years. He wrapped these carefully and bore them with
him into the east. Once he achieved Twilight he would be relatively safe; when
he passed beyond it, he would be out of danger.
Climbing, he
worked his way into the Rennsial Mountains, at the point where the range lay
nearest Twilight; there, he sought Panicus, the highest ridge.
Mounting above
the mist, he saw the dim and distant form of Morningstar outlined against the
Everdawn. There on his crag, couchant, unmoving, he faced the east. To one who
did not know, he would have seemed a wind-sculpted pinnacle atop Panicus.
Indeed, he was more than half of stone, his cat-like torso a solid thing joined
with the ridge. His wings lay folded flat upon his back, and Jack knew-though
he approached him from the rear-that his arms would still be crossed upon his
breast, left over right, that the breezes had not disturbed his wire-like hair
and beard, that his lidless eyes would still be fixed upon the eastern horizon.
There was no trail
and the last several hundred feet of the ascent required the negotiation of a
near-vertical face of stone. As always, for the shadows were heavy here, Jack
strode up it as he would cross a horizontal plane. Before he reached the
summit, the winds were screaming about him; but they did not drown out the
voice of Morningstar, which rose as from the bowels of the mountain beneath
him.
Good morning,
Jack.
He stood beside
his left flank and stared high into the air, where Morningstar's head, black as
the night he had left, was haloed by a fading cloud.
Morning? said
Jack.
Almost. It is
always almost morning.
Where?
Everywhere.
I have brought
you drink.
I draw water
from the clouds and the rain.
I brought you
wine, drawn from the grape.
The great,
lightning-scarred visage turned slowly toward him, horns dipping forward. Jack
looked away from the unblinking eyes whose color he could never remember. There
is something awful about eyes which never see that which they were meant to
look upon.
His left hand
descended and the scarred palm lay open before Jack. He placed his wineskin
upon ii. Morningstar raised it, drained it, and dropped it at Jack's feet. He
wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, belched lightly, returned his gaze
to the east.
What do you
want, Shadowjack? he asked.
Of you?
Nothing.
Then why do you
bring me wine whenever you pass this way?
You seem to like
it.
I do.
You are perhaps
my only friend, said Jack. You have nothing that I wish to steal. I have
nothing that you really need.
It may be that
you pity me, bound as I am to this spot.
What is pity?
asked Jack.
Pity is that
which bound me here, to await the dawn.
Then I'll have
none of it, said Jack, for I've a need to move around.
I know. The
one-half world has been informed that you have broken the Compact.
Do they know
why?
No.
Do you?
Of course.
How?
From the shape
of a cloud I know that a man in a distant city will quarrel with his wife three
seasons hence and a murderer will be hanged before I finish speaking. From the
falling of a stone I know the number of maidens being seduced and the movements
of icebergs on the other side of the world. From the texture of the wind I know
where next the lightning will fall. So long have I watched and so much am I
part of all things, that nothing is hidden from me.
You know where I
go?
Yes.
And what I would
do there?
I know that,
too.
Then tell me if
you know, will I succeed in that which I desire?
You will succeed
in that which you are about, but by then it may not be what you desire.
I do not
understand you, Morningstar.
I know that,
too. But that is the way it is with all oracles, Jack. When that which is
foreseen comes to pass, the inquirer is no longer the same person he was when
he posed the question. It is impossible to make a man understand what he will
become with the passage of time; and it is only a future self to whom a
prophecy is truly relevant.
Fair enough,
said Jack. Only I am not a man. I am a darksider.
You are all men,
whatever side of the world you call home.
I have no soul,
and I do not change.
You change,
said Morningstar. Everything that lives changes or dies. Your people are cold
but their world is warm, endowed as it is with enchantment, glamourie, wonder.
The lightlanders know feelings you will not understand, though their science is
as cold as your people's hearts. Yet they would appreciate your realm if they
did not fear it so and you might enjoy their feelings but for the same reason.
Still, the capacity is there, in each of you. The fear need but give way to
understanding, for you are mirror images of one another. So do not speak to me
of souls when you have never seen one, man.
It is as you
said-I do not understand.
Jack seated
himself upon a rock and, as did Morningstar, stared into the east.
After a time,
You told me that you wait here for the dawn, he said, to see the sun rise
above the horizon.
Yes.
I believe that
you will wait here forever.
It is possible.
Don't you know?
I thought you knew all things.
I know many
things, not all things. There is a difference.
Then tell me
some things. I have heard daysiders say that the core of the world is a molten
demon, that the temperature increases as one descends toward it, that if the
crust of the world be pierced then fires leap forth and melted minerals build
volcanoes. Yet I know that volcanoes are the doings of fire elementals who, if
disturbed, melt the ground about them and hurl it upward. They exist in small
pockets. One may descend far past them without the temperature increasing.
Traveling far enough, one comes to the center of the world, which is not
moltenwhich contains the Machine, with great springs, as in a clock, and gears
and pulleys and counterbalances. I know this to be true, for I have journeyed
that way and been near to the Machine itself. Still, the daysiders have ways of
demonstrating that their view is the correct one. I was almost convinced by the
way one man explained it, though I knew better. How can this be?
You were both
correct, said Morningstar. It is the same thing that you both describe,
although neither of you sees it as it really is. Each of you colors reality in
keeping with your means of controlling it. For if it is uncontrollable, you
fear it. Sometimes then, you color it incomprehensible. In your case, a
machine; in theirs, a demon.
The stars I know
to be the houses of spirits and deities-some friendly, some unfriendly and many
not caring. All are near at hand and can be reached. They will respond when
properly invoked. Yet the daysiders say that they are vast distances away and
that there is no intelligence there. Again...?
It is again but
two ways of regarding reality, both of them correct.
If there can be
two ways, may there not be a third? Or a fourth? Or as many as there are
people, for that matter?
Yes, said
Morningstar.
Then which one
is correct?
They all are.
But to see it as
it is, beneath it all! Is this possible?
Morningstar did
not reply.
You, said Jack.
Have you looked upon reality?
I see clouds and
falling stones. I feel the wind.
But by them,
somehow, you know other things.
I do not know
everything.
But have you
looked upon reality?
I-Once... I
await the sunrise. That is all.
Jack stared into
the east, watching the pink-touched clouds. He listened to falling stones and
felt the wind, but there was no wisdom there for him.
You know where I
go and what I would do, he said, after a time. You know what will happen, and
you know what I will be like a long while from now. From up here on your
mountain you can see all these things. You probably even know when I will die
my final death and the manner of its occurrence. You make my life seem futile,
my consciousness a thing that is merely along for the ride, unable to influence
events.
No, said
Morningstar.
I feel that you
say this only so that I will not be unhappy.
No, I say it
because there are shadows across your life which I cannot pierce.
Why can't you?
It may be that
our lives are in some way intertwined. Those things which affect my own
existence are always hidden from me.
That's
something, anyway, said Jack.
...Or it may be
that, obtaining what you seek, you will place yourself beyond predictability.
Jack laughed.
That would be
pleasant, he said.
Perhaps not so
pleasant as you would think.
Jack shrugged.
Whatever, I have
no choice but to wait and see.
Far to his left
and below-too far to hear its steady roar-a cataract plunged hundreds of feet
and vanished from sight behind a rocky spur. Much farther below, a large stream
meandered across a plain and wound its way through a dark forest. Farther
still, he could see the smoke that rose above a village on its bank. For a
moment, and without knowing why, he longed to walk through it, looking into
windows and yards.
Why is it, he
asked, that the Fallen Star who brought us knowledge of the Art, did not
extend it to the daysiders as well?
Perhaps, said
Morningstar, the more theologically inclined among the lightlanders ask why he
did not grant the boon of science to the darksiders. What difference does it
make? I have heard the story that neither was the gift of the Fallen One, but
both the inventions of man; that his gift, rather, was that of consciousness,
which creates its own systems.
Then, panting and
wheezing, with a great beating of dark green vanes, a dragon collapsed upon
their shelf of stone. The wind had covered the sounds of its coming. It lay
there, exhaling brief flames at a rapid rate. After a time, it rolled its
apple-like red eyes upward.
Hello,
Morningstar, it said in silken tones. I hope you do not mind my resting here
a moment. Whoosh! It exhaled a longer flame, illuminating the entire crag.
You may rest
here, said Morningstar.
The dragon
noticed Jack, fixed him with his gaze, did not look away.
I'm getting too
old to fly over these mountains, it said. But the nearest sheep are by that
village on the other side.
Jack placed his
foot within Morningstar's shadow as he asked, Then why don't you move to the
other side of the mountain?
The light
bothers me, it replied. I need a dark lair. Then, to Morningstar, Is it
yours? it said.
Is what mine?
The man.
''No. He is his
own.
Then I can save
myself a journey and clean your ledge for you as well. He is larger than a
sheep, though doubtless less tasty.
Jack moved
entirely within the shadow as the dragon exhaled a fountain of flames in his
direction. These vanished as he inhaled, and Jack breathed them back at the
dragon.
It snorted in
surprise and beat with a pinion at its eyes, which suddenly watered. A shadow
crept toward it then and fell across its face. This dampened a fresh attempt at
incineration.
You! it said,
glimpsing the shadow-garbed figure. I thought you a twilighter come to trouble
dear Morningstar. But now I recognize you. You are the infamous creature who
pillaged my hoard! What did you do with my pale gold diadem of turquoise stones,
my fourteen finely wrought silver bracelets, and my sack of moon-bars which
numbered twenty-seven?
Now they are a
part of my hoard, said Jack, and now you had best be going. Though you are
larger than a piece of mutton, and doubtless less tasty, I may break my fast
upon you.
He breathed
another flame, and the dragon drew back.
Desist! said
the dragon. Give me leave to rest here but another moment, and I will depart.
Now! said Jack.
You are cruel,
shadow man. The dragon sighed. Very well.
It stood,
balancing its bulk with its long tail, then waddled and wheezed its way to the
edge of the ridge. Glancing back, it said, You are hateful, and then pushed
itself over and was gone from sight.
Jack moved to the
edge and watched it fall. When it seemed that it would be dashed to death upon
the mountain's slope, its wings spread and caught the air; it rose then and
glided in the direction of the village in the forest near the stream.
I wonder as to
the value of consciousness, said Jack, if it does not change the nature of a
beast.
But the dragon
was once a man, said Morningstar, 'and his greed transformed him into what he
is now.
I am familiar
with the phenomenon, said Jack, for I was once, briefly, a pack-rat.
Yet you overcame
your passion and returned to manhood, as may the dragon one day. By virtue of
your consciousness you recognized and overcame certain of those elements which
made you subject to predictability. Consciousness tends to transform one. Why
did you not destroy the dragon?
There was no
need to, Jack began. Then he laughed. It's carcass would have smelled up your
cliff.
Was it not that
you decided that there was no need to kill that which you did not need to eat,
or that which was no real threat to you?
No, said Jack,
for now I am just as responsible for the death of a sheep and depriving some
village man of future meals.
It took Jack
several seconds to recognize the sound which followed, a grinding, clicking
noise. Morningstar was gnashing his teeth. A cold wind struck him then, and the
light dimmed in the east.
...Perhaps you
were right, he heard Morningstar saying softly, as though not addressing him,
about consciousness... and his great, dark head was lowered slightly.
Uncomfortable,
Jack looked away from him. His eyes followed the white, unblinking star which
had always troubled him, as it moved on its rapid way from right to left in the
east.
The ruler of
that star, he said, has resisted all spells of communication. It moves
differently from the others and faster. It does not twinkle. Why is this?
It is not a true
star, but an artificial object placed into orbit above Twilight by the dayside
scientists.
To what end?
It was placed
there to observe the border.
Why?
Do they fear
you?
We have no
designs upon the lands of light.
I know. But do
you not also watch the border, in your own way? asked Jack.
Of course.
Why?
To be aware of
what transpires along it.
That is all?
Jack snorted. If that object is truly above Twilight, then it will be subject
to magic as well as to its own laws. A strong enough spell will affect it. One
day, I will knock it down.
Why? asked
Morningstar.
To show that my
magic is superior to their science-for one day it will be.
It would seem
unhealthy for either to gain supremacy.
Not if you are
on the side that obtains it.
Yet you would
use their methods to enhance your own effectiveness.
I will employ
anything that serves my ends.
I am curious as
to what the result will be, ultimately.
Jack moved to the
eastern edge of the pinnacle, swung himself over it, found a foothold, and
looked upward.
Well, I cannot
wait here with you for the sun to rise. I must go chase it down. Good-bye,
Morningstar.
Good morning,
Jack.
Like a peddler,
sack upon his shoulder, he trudged toward the light. He moved through the
smashed city of Deadfoot, not even glancing at the vine-webbed shrines of the
useless gods, its most noted tourist attraction. Their altars never bore
offerings worth stealing. Wrapping a scarf tightly about his head, he hurried
up the famous Avenue of the Singing Statues. Each of these, noted
individualists in life, commenced his own song at the sound of a footstep.
Finally, after running (for it was a long thoroughfare), he emerged with temporary
deafness, shortness of breath and a headache.
Lowering his
fist, he halted in the middle of a curse, at a loss for words. He could think
of no calamity to call down upon the deserted ruin which had not already been
visited upon it.
When I rule, things
will be different, he decided. Cities will not be planned so chaotically that
they come to this.
Rule?
The thought had
come unbidden into his head.
Well, why not? he
asked himself. If I can obtain the power I seek, why not use it for everything
that is desirable? After I have obtained my vengeance, I will have to come to
terms with all those who are against me now. It might as well be as a
conqueror. I am the only one who needs no fixed place of power. I shall be able
to defeat the others on their own grounds once I hold the Key That Was Lost,
Kolwynia. This thought must have been with me all along. I will reward Rosalie
for having suggested the means.And I must add to my list. After I have had my
revenge upon the Lord of Bats, Benoni, Smage, Quazer and Blite, I will deal
with the Baron and see that the Colonel Who Never Died has cause to change his
name.
It amused him
that, among others, he bore within his sack those very manuscripts which had
aroused the Bat Lord's anger. For a time, he had actually considered the notion
of offering to barter them for his freedom. The only reason he had not was the
realization that the other would either accept and fail to release him, orwhat
would be worse-would keep the bargain. The necessity of returning stolen goods
would be the greatest loss of face he had ever suffered. And this could only be
expunged by doing what he was now doing: pursuing the power that would grant
him satisfaction. Without the manuscripts, of course, this would be more
difficult, and...
His head swam. He
had been right, he decided, when he had spoken with Morningstar. Consciousness,
like the noise of the double-hundred statues of Deadfoot, was a thing of
discord and contradiction, giving rise to headaches.
Far to his right,
the daysiders satellite came into view once more. The world brightened as he
moved forward. Smudges in distant fields, he saw the first beginnings of green
ahead. The clouds burned more brightly in the east. The first bird song he had
heard in ages reached his ears, and when he sought out the singer on its bough,
he saw bright plumage.
A good omen, he
decided later, to be met with song.
He stamped out
his fire and covered it over, along with the bones and the feathers, before he
continued toward day. 7
HE HAD FELT the
beginnings of its slow approach at some point near to the middle of the
semester. How, he was not certain. In this place, he seemed limited to the same
sensory channels as his fellows. Still, groping, turning, hiding, correcting
its passage, coming on again, it sought him. He knew that. As to its nature, he
had no inkling. Recently, though, at times such as this, he felt that it was
drawing near.
He had walked the
eight blocks from the campus to The Dugout, passing high buildings with windows
like slots in punch cards, moving along thoroughfares where, despite the
passage of years, the exhaust from the traffic still came noxious to his
nostrils. Turning, he had made his way up streets where beer cans rolled on the
sidewalks and garbage spilled from the spaces between buildings. Passive-faced
people, by windows, on stairs, in doorways, watched him as he walked. A
passenger liner shattered the air high above him; from farther yet, the
ever-unmoving sun sought to nail him, shadowless, to the hot pavement. Children
at play about an opened fire hydrant had paused at their games to watch him as
he went by. Then there had come the false promise of a breeze, the gurgling of
the water, the hoarse complaint of a bird beneath some eaves. He had tossed his
cigarette into the gutter and seen it swept on past him. All this light and I
have no shadow, he thought. Strange how nobody's ever noticed. Where,
precisely, did I leave it?
In places where
lights were dim there was a change. It seemed to him that a certain quality
either came into or departed the world. It was in .the nature of an underlying
sense of interconnectedness, which was not present in day's full glare. With it
came small feelings and some impressions. It was as if, despite his deafness to
them, the shadows still attempted to address him. It was in this way that he
knew, upon entering the dark bar, that that which had been seeking him was now
drawing near.
The heat of
perpetual day dropped away as he moved to the rear of The Dugout. Touched here and
there with auburn highlights, he saw her dark hair in the rosy glow of
candle-light through glass. Threading his way among tables, he felt relaxed for
the first time since he had left his class.
He slid into the
booth across from her and smiled.
Hi, Clare.
She stared, her
dark eyes widening.
John! You always
do that, she said. Suddenly you're just-there.
He continued to
smile, studying her slightly heavy features, pinch marks where her glasses had
been, a small puffiness beneath her eyes, some stray strands of hair reaching
for her brow.
Like a
salesman, he said. Here comes the waiter.
Beer.
Beer.
They both sighed,
leaned back, and stared at one another.
Finally, she
laughed.
What a year!
she announced. Am I glad this semester's over!
He nodded.
Largest
graduating class yet.
And the overdue
books we'll never see...
Talk to someone
in the front office, he said. Give them a list of names...
The graduates
will ignore billings.
Someday they'll
want transcripts. When they ask, hit them with notices that they won't be sent
until they pay their fines.
She leaned
forward.
That's a good
idea!
Of course.
They'll cough up if it means a job to them.
You missed your
calling when you went into anthropology. You should have been an administrator.
I was where I
wanted to be.
Why do you speak
in the past tense? she asked.
I don't know.
What's
happened?
Nothing,
really.
But the feeling
was there. It was near.
Your contract,
she said. Was there some sort of trouble?
No, he said.
No trouble.
The drinks
arrived. He raised his and sipped it. Beneath the table, his leg brushed
against hers as he crossed them. She did not move away; but then, she never
did. From me or anyone else, thought Jack. A good lay, but too eager to get
married. She's been impatient with me all semester. Any day now...
He dismissed the
thoughts. He might have married her had he met her sooner, for he had no qualms
about leaving a wife behind when he returned to where he must. But he had just
met her this semester, and things were close to completion.
What of the
sabbatical you've been mentioning? she asked. Any decision on that yet?
I don't know. It
depends on some research I'm doing right now.
How far along is
it?
I'll know after
I've used some computer time I have coming.
Soon?
He glanced at his
wristwatch and nodded.
That soon? she
said. If the indications are favorable...?
He lit a
cigarette.
Then it could be
this coming semester, he said.
But you said
that your contract was...
-in good order,
he said. But I didn't sign it. Not yet.
You once told me
you thought Quilian doesn't like you.
He doesn't. He's
old-fashioned. He thinks I spend too much time with computers and not enough in
libraries.
She smiled.
So do I.
At any rate, I'm
too popular a lecturer not to be offered a renewal.
Then why didn't
you sign it? Are you asking for more money?
No, he said.
But if I do ask for a sabbatical and he refuses, it will be fun to tell him to
shove his contract. Not that I wouldn't sign one and walk out, if it would
benefit my-research. But I would enjoy telling Doc Quilian where to put his
offer.
She sipped her
beer.
Then you must be
near to something important.
He shrugged.
How did your
seminar wind up? he asked.
She laughed.
You certainly
stick in Professor Weather-ton's craw. He devoted most of the lecture to
dismembering your Darkside Customs and Philosophies course.
We disagree on
many points, but he's never been darkside.
He intimated
that you haven't either. He agrees that it is a feudal society, and that some
of its Lords may actually believe they possess direct control over everything
in their realms. He dismisses the whole notion of their being loosely united in
a Compact, based on a premise that the sky will fall if they do not maintain
some sort of Shield by means of cooperating in magical endeavors.
Then what keeps
everything on that side of the world alive?
Somebody asked
that question, and he said it was a problem for physical scientists, not social
theorists. His personal opinion, though, was that it involved some sort of high
altitude bleed-off from our force screens.
He snorted.
I'd like to take
him on a field trip sometime. His buddy Quilian, too.
I know you've
been darkside, she said. In fact, I think your connection with it is even
stronger than you say.
What do you
mean?
If you could see
yourself now, you would know. It took me a long while to realize what it was,
but when I noticed what gave you a strange appearance in places like this, it
seemed obvious-it's your eyes. They are more light sensitive than any eyes I
have ever seen before. As soon as you get out of the light and into a place
like this, your pupils become enormous. There is only a faint line of color
around them. And I noticed that the sunglasses you wear most of the time are
far darker than ordinary ones.
I do have an eye
condition. They are quite weak, and bright lights irritate them.
Yes, that's what
I said.
He returned her
smile.
He crushed out
his cigarette, and as though this were a signal, a soft, sickening music
slithered from out of a speaker set high on the wall above the bar. He took
another drink of beer.
I suppose
Weatherton got in a few shots at the resurrection of bodies, too?
Yes.
And if I die
here? he wondered. What will become of me? Will I be denied Glyve and return?
What's wrong?
she asked.
What do you
mean?
Your nostrils
flared. Your brows contracted.
You study
features too much. It's that awful music.
I like looking
at you, she said. But let's finish and go to my place. I'll play you
something different. There is a thing I want to show you and ask you about,
too.
What is it?
I'd rather
wait.
All right.
They finished
their drinks, and he paid. They departed, his feelings of apprehension
subsiding as they moved into the light he filtered.
They climbed the
stairs and entered her third-floor apartment. Just over the threshold. she
halted and made a small noise in the back of her throat.
He pushed past
her, moving quickly to the left. Then he halted.
What is it? he
asked, searching the room with his eyes.
I'm sure I
didn't leave the place like this. Those papers on the floor... I don't think
that chair was over there. Or that drawer opened. Or the closet door...
He moved back to
her side, studied the lock for scratches, found none. He crossed the room then,
and she heard a sound that could only be the clicking of a knife blade as he
entered the bedroom.
After a moment he
emerged, vanished into the other room, passed from there into the bathroom.
When he reappeared, he asked her, Was that window by the table opened the way
it is now?
I think so, she
said. Yes, I guess it was.
He sighed. He
examined the windowsill, then said, A gust of wind probably blew your papers.
As for the drawer and the closet, I'd bet you left them open yourself this
morning. And you've probably forgotten about moving the chair.
I'm a very
orderly person, she said, closing the door to the landing; and when she turned
she said, But I guess you're right.
Why are you
nervous?
She moved about
the apartment, picking up papers.
Where did you
get that knife? she asked him.
What knife?
She slammed the
closet door, turned and glared at him.
The one you had
in your hand a minute ago!
He extended his
hands, palms forward.
I have no knife.
You may search me if you wish. You will not find a weapon.
She moved to the
chest of drawers, closed the one which had been opened. Stooping, she opened a
lower one and removed a newsprint-wrapped parcel.
This is a part
of it, she said. Why am I nervous? This is why!
She placed the
parcel on the table and undid the strings which held it.
He moved to her
side and watched as she unwrapped the papers. Inside were three very old books.
I thought you'd
taken those back already!
I intended
to...
That was the
agreement.
I want to know
where you obtained them and how.
He shook his
head.
We also agreed
that if I were to recover them, you would not ask me those questions.
She placed the
books side by side, then pointed at the spine of one and the cover of another.
I am certain
those were not there before, she said. They are bloodstains, aren't they?
I don't know.
I tried to wipe
some of the smaller ones off with a damp tissue. What came off certainly looked
like dried blood.
He shrugged.
When I told you
these books had been stolen from their cases in the Rare Books Room and you
offered to recover them, I said, Okay'. She continued, I agreed that if you
could get them back. I'd see that it was an anonymous return. No questions. But
I never thought this meant bloodshed. The stains alone would not have made me
think that that is what happened. But then I began considering you and realized
how little I actually know. That's when I began noticing things like your eyes
and the quiet way that you move. I had heard that you were friendly with
criminals-but then you had written some articles on criminology and were teaching
a course on the subject. So it seemed in order at the time I heard it. Now I
see you move through my rooms with a knife in your hand, presumably ready to
kill an intruder. No book is worth a human life. Our agreement is off. Tell me
what you did to get them.
No, he said.
I must know.
You staged that
scene when we walked in here just to see what I'd do, didn't you?
She blushed.
Now I suppose
she'll try to blackmail me into marrying her, he thought, if she thinks she can
make this thing big enough.
All right, he
said, jamming his hands into his pockets and turning to stare out the window.
I found out who did it and had a talk with him. During the misunderstanding
that followed, his nose got broken. He had the poor grace to bleed on the
books. I couldn't get it all off.
Oh, he heard
her say; and then he turned and studied her face.
That's all, he
said.
He stepped
forward then and kissed her. After a moment, she relaxed against him. For a
time he massaged her back and shoulders, moved his hands to her buttocks.
Distraction
complete, he decided, moving up along her rib cage and inward, slowly, toward
the buttons of her blouse.
I'm sorry. She
sighed.
That's all
right, he said, unfastening them. That's all right.
Later, while
staring at a pillow through the curtain of her hair and analyzing his reactions
to earlier events, he felt once again the nearing presence, this time so close
that it almost seemed as if he were being watched. He glanced quickly about the
room but saw nothing.
Listening to the
sounds of traffic on the street below, he determined to be about his business
soon, say in the space of a cigarette.
There came a
sonic boom from overhead that rattled the window like a sudden hand.
Clouds, slowly
gathering, obscured the sun somewhat. Knowing he was early, he parked his
vehicle in the faculty lot and removed his heavy briefcase from the rear. The
trunk of the car contained three heavy traveling bags.
He turned and
began walking toward the far end of the campus. He felt a need to keep moving,
to be ready to run if necessary. He thought of Morningstar at that moment,
watching rocks and clouds and birds, feeling winds, rains, lightnings, and he
wondered whether that one was instantly aware of every move he was making. He
felt this to be so, and he wished that his friend were at hand to counsel him
now. Did he know-or had he known for a long whilethe outcome of what he was
about to attempt?
The leaves and
grasses had taken on that faint incandescence which sometimes precedes a storm.
It was still quite warm, but now the heat was tempered by a light breeze from
the north. The campus was almost deserted. He passed a group of students seated
about the base of a fountain, comparing notes on an examination they had just
taken. He thought he recognized two of them from his Introduction to Cultural
Anthropology of several semesters back, but they did not look up as he went by.
As he passed
Drake Hall, he heard his name called out.
John! Doctor
Shade!
Halting, he saw
the short, heavy figure of the young instructor Poindexter emerge from the
doorway. The man's first name was also John, but since he had been a newcomer
to their card group they had come to refer to him by his last name rather than
confuse conversation.
Jack made himself
smile as the man approached and nodded a greeting.
Hi, Poindexter.
I thought you'd be off recuperating by now.
I still have
some damn lab exams to grade, he said, breathing heavily. I decided I wanted
a cup of something hot, and the minute I closed the door to my office I knew
what I'd done. The keys are on my desk and the door locks when it closes.
There's nobody else in the building and the front office is shut down, too. I
was standing there waiting for a guard to come by. I thought they might have
access to a master key. Have you seen any guards?
He shook his
head.
No, I just
arrived a few moments ago. But I know the guards don't have access to
masters.Your office is on the far side of the building, isn't it?
Yes.
I forget how
high off the ground that would put it, but what about getting in through a
window?
Too high,
without a ladder-and they're both locked, anyhow.
Let's go
inside.
Poindexter ran
the back of his hand across his ruddy forehead and nodded.
Entering and
moving to the rear of the building, he removed a ring of keys from his pocket
and fitted one into the lock of the door Poindexter indicated. It turned, there
was a click, and he pushed the door open.
Lucky, he said.
Where'd you get
a master?
It's not a
master, it's the key to my office. That's why you're lucky.
Poindexter's face
opened into a yellowish smile.
Thanks, he
said. Thanks a lot. Are you in a hurry?
No, I'm early
for what I was about.
Then let me get
us something from the machine. I still want to take a break.
All right.
He moved into the
office, placed his briefcase behind the door, while the other's footsteps
receded and were gone.
He stared out the
window at the gathering storm. Somewhere a bell began to ring.
After a time,
Poindexter returned and he accepted the steaming cup he proffered.
How's your
mother?
She's doing
well. Should be out quite soon.
Tell her I said
hello.
I will. Thanks.
Nice of you to visit her.
They sipped at
their cups, then, It is lucky you came along, Poindexter said. Maybe ours
are the only two offices on campus with the same lock. Hell, I would have
settled for the ghost if he'd gotten me in.
Ghost?
You know. The
latest stunt.
I'm afraid I
haven't heard of it.
...A white
thing, allegedly seen flitting around in trees and on the tops of buildings.
When did this
start?
Just recently,
of course. Last semester it was mutagenic rocks in the Geology Building. The
one before that, I think, it was aphrodisiacs in the water coolers. Same as
always. A semester closes like the end of the world, I guess, full of portents
and rumors. What's the matter?
Nothing. Have a
cigarette.
Thanks.
He heard a tiny
bleat of thunder, and the ever-present odor from the laboratories aroused
unpleasant memories. That's why I never liked this building, he realized. It's
the smells.
Will you be with
us this coming semester? Poindexter asked.
I think not.
Oh, you got your
leave approved. Congratulations!
Not exactly.
A look of concern
flashed at him through thick glasses.
You're not
quitting, are you?
It depends-on
several things.
If I may be
selfish about it, I hope you decide to stay.
Thanks.
You'll keep in
touch, though, if you do go?
Of course.
A weapon, he
decided. I need something better than what I've got. But I can't ask him. It's
good that I stopped in here, though.
He drew on his
cigarette, glanced out the window. The sky had continued to darken; there
appeared to be some moisture on the pane.
He gulped and
dropped his cup into the wastebasket. Mashing out his cigarette, he stood.
I'd better run
if I'm going to make it to Walker before it starts to come down.
Poindexter stood
and shook his hand.
Well, if I don't
see you again for a while, good luck, he said.
Thanks-The
keys.
What?
The keys. Why
don't you take them off the desk and put them in your pocket now, just in
case?
Poindexter
blushed and did it. Then he chuckled.
Yes. I wouldn't
want to do that again, would I?
I hope not.
He retrieved his
briefcase while Poindexter lit the candles above his desk. There came a flash
in the sky, followed by a low rumble.
So long.
Good-bye.
He departed and
hurried to the Walker Buiding, pausing only to break into a laboratory and
steal a bottle of sulfuric acid, taping the stopper in place. 8
HE TORE OUT the
first pages of the print-out and spread them on the table he had appropriated.
The unit continued its clicking, drowning out the sounds of the rain.
He returned to
the machine, tore out the next page. He placed it beside the others and
regarded them.
There came a
sound like scratching from the direction of the window, and he jerked his head
upright, nostrils dilated.
Nothing. There
was nothing there.
He lit a
cigarette and dropped the match on the floor. He paced. He checked his
wrist-watch. A candle flickered above its sconce and the wax slid down its
side. He moved to the window and listened to the wind.
There came a
click from the door, and he turned and faced it. A large man entered the room
and regarded him. He removed a dark rain hat, placed it on the chair beside the
door, ran a hand through his thin, white hair.
Doctor Shade,
he said, nodding and unbuttoning his coat.
Doctor Quilian.
The man hung his
coat beside the door, produced a handkerchief and began wiping his glasses.
How are you?
Fine, thank you.
Yourself?
Fine.
Dr. Quilian
closed the door, and the other returned to the machine and tore out more pages.
What are you
doing?
Some figuring
for that paper I told you about-a couple of weeks ago, I guess.
I see. I just
recently learned about your arrangement here. He gestured toward the machine.
Whenever anyone cancels out, you're right there to take over his computer
time.
Yes. I keep in
touch with everyone on the roster.
There have been
an awful lot of cancellations recently.
I think it's the
flu.
I see.
He drew on his
cigarette. He dropped it and stepped on it when the machine stopped printing.
Turning, he removed the final printouts. He took them to the table where the
others lay.
Dr. Quilian
followed him.
May I see what
you've got there? he inquired.
Surely, he
said, and offered him the papers.
After a moment,
I don't understand them, said Quilian.
If you had, I
would have been very surprised. They're about three times removed from reality,
and I'll have to translate them for my article.
John, said the
other, I'm beginning to have some funny feelings about you.
The other nodded
and lit another cigarette before he recovered the print-outs.
If you want the
computer yourself, I'm finished now. he said.
I've been
thinking a lot about you. How long have you been with us?
Around five
years.
There came a
sound from the window once more, and they both turned their heads.
What was that?
I don't know.
After a time,
You get to do pretty much what you want to around here, John... said Quilian,
adjusting his glasses.
That's true. I
appreciate it.
You came to us
with good-seeming credentials, and you've proven to be quite an expert on
darkside culture.
Thank you.
I didn't exactly
mean it as a compliment.
Oh, really? He
began to smile as he studied the final page of the print-out. What do you
mean?
I've got a
strange feeling you've misrepresented yourself, John.
In what way?
On your
application for a position here, you stated that you were born in New Leyden.
There is no record of your birth in that city.
Oh? How did this
come to light?
Doctor
Weatherton was up that way recently.
I see. Is that
all?
Outside of the
fact that you are known to keep company with hoodlums, there is some doubt as
to the validity of your degree.
Weatherton
again?
The source is
unimportant. The conclusion is not. I do not feel that you are what you purport
to be.
Why choose
tonight, here, to air your doubts?
The semester's
over, I know that you want to go away, and tonight was your last session with
the machine-according to the time you applied for. I want to know what you are
taking away with you and where you are taking it.
Carl, he said,
what if I admitted that I did misrepresent myself a bit? You've already stated
that I'm an expert in my area. We both know I'm a popular lecturer. Whatever
Weatherton dug up-What of it?
Are you in some
kind of trouble, Jack? Something I might be able to help you with?
No. Not really.
No trouble.
Quilian crossed
the room and seated himself on a low couch.
I've never seen
one of you this close before, he said.
What are you
implying?
That you are
something other than a human being.
Like what?
A darkborn. Are
you?
Why?
They are
supposed to be taken into custody, under certain conditions.
I take it that
if I am, those conditions will be deemed to have been met?
Perhaps, said
Quilian.
And perhaps not?
What do you want?
For now, all
that I want is to know your identity.
You know me, he
said, folding the pages and reaching for his briefcase.
Quilian shook his
head.
Of the things
about you which trouble me, he said, I've just recently found a new one which
gives me considerable cause for concern. Allowing for a moment that you are a
darksider who has emigrated into day, there are certain correspondences which
force me to pursue the question of your identity. There is a person whom I had
considered possessed only of a mythological existence, on the darkside of the
world. I wonder, would the legendary thief dare to walk in sunlight? And if so,
for what reason? Could Jonathan Shade be the mortal equivalent for Jack of
Shadows?
And what if it
is? he asked, striving to keep his eyes from moving to the window, where
something seemed now to be occluding much of the dim light. Are you prepared
to place me under arrest? he asked, moving slowly to his left so that Quilian
would turn his head to follow.
Yes, I am.
He glanced toward
the window himself then, and an old loathing returned to him as he saw what was
pressed against it.
Then I take it
that you have come armed?
Yes, he said,
removing a small pistol from his pocket and pointing it.
I could throw the
briefcase and risk taking one round, he decided. After all, it's a small enough
weapon. Still, if I buy time and get closer to the light, it may not be
necessary.
It is strange
that you came alone, if you had such a thing in mind. Even if you do have the
authority to make a security arrest on campus...
I did not say
that I am alone.
Not really
strange, though, now that I think of it. He took a step nearer the flickering
light. I say that you are alone. You would like to handle this yourself. It
may simply be that you wish to kill me without witnesses. Or it may be that you
desire full credit for my apprehension. I'd guess the former, though, because
you seem to dislike me very much. Why, I'm not certain.
I fear that you
overestimate your ability to create a disliking, as well as my own for
violence.No, the authorities have been notified and an arresting party is on
its way here. My intention is only to require your presence until they arrive.
It would seem
that you waited until about the last possible moment.
With his free
hand, Quilian gestured toward the briefcase.
I've a suspicion
that once your latest project has been deciphered, it will be found to have
little to do with the social sciences.
You are a very
suspicious person. There are laws against arresting people without evidence,
you know.
Yes, that's why
I waited. I'm betting that's evidence that you are holding-and I am certain
that more will turn up. I have noted, too, that when it comes to matters of
security the laws are considerably relaxed.
You do have a
point there, he replied, turning so that the light caught him full in the
face.
I am Jack of
Shadows! he cried out. Lord of Shadow Guard! I am Shadowjack, the thief who
walks in silence and in shadows! I was beheaded in Igles and rose again from
the Dung Pits of Glyve. I drank the blood of a vampire and ate a stone. I am
the breaker of the Compact. I am he who forged a name in the Red Book of Ells.
I am the prisoner in the jewel. I duped the Lord of High Dudgeon once, and I
will return for vengeance upon him. I am the enemy of my enemies. Come take me,
filth, if you love the Lord of Bats or despise me, for I have named myself Jack
of Shadows!
Quilian's face
showed puzzlement at this outburst, and though he opened his mouth and tried to
speak, his words were drowned out by the other's cries.
Then the window
shattered, the candle died, and the Borshin sprang into the room.
Turning, Quilian
saw the gashed, rain-drenched thing across the room. He let out an incoherent
cry and stood as if paralyzed. Jack dropped his briefcase, found the vial of acid
and unstoppered it. He buried its contents at the creature's head, and without
pausing to observe the results, he snatched up his briefcase and dodged past
Quilian.
He was to the
door before the creature let out its first shriek of pain. He passed into the
hallway, locking the door behind him, having paused only sufficiently to steal
Quilian's raincoat from where it was hanging.
He was halfway
down the building's front steps when he heard the first shot. There were
others, but he was crossing the campus when .they came, clutching the raincoat
about his shoulders and cursing the puddles, and so he did not hear them.
Besides, there was thunder. Soon, he feared, there would be sirens too.
Thinking stormy
thoughts, he ran on.
The weather
assisted him in some ways, hindered him in others.
What traffic
there was had been slowed down considerably, and when he reached a stretch of
open road, its long dry surface had become sufficiently slippery to preclude
his moving at the speeds he desired. The darkness of the storm was causing
motorists to depart from the streets at the first opportunity, as well as
keeping those already home where they were, safe in the glow of many candles.
There were no pedestrians in sight. All of which made it easy for him to
abandon his vehicle and appropriate another before he had gone very far.
Getting out of
town was not difficult, but outrunning the storm was another matter. They both
seemed headed in the same direction: one of the routes he had mapped out and
memorized long ago as both expeditious and devious in returning him to
darkness. On any other occasion he would have welcomed a diminution in that
constant glare which had first burned, then tanned his unwilling hide. Now, it
slowed him, and he could not risk an accident at this point. It bathed the
vehicle, and its winds caused it to sway, while its bolts of lightning showed
him the skyline he as leaving.
Police lanterns
set on the road caused him to slow apprehensively, seeking exit from the
highway. He sighed and grinned faintly as he was waved on by the scene of a
three-car accident, where a man and woman were being borne on stretchers toward
a gaping ambulance.
He played with
the radio but obtained only static. He lit a cigarette and opened the window
partway. An occasional droplet struck against his cheek, but the air was cool
and sucked the smoke away. He breathed deeply and attempted to relax, having
just realized how tense he had been.
It was not until
considerably later that the storm slowed to a steady drizzle and the sky began
to lighten somewhat. He was driving through open country at that point and
feeling a mixed sense of relief and apprehension which had grown between curses
since his departure. What have I accomplished? he asked himself, thinking back
over the years he had spent dayside.
It had taken
considerable time for him to familiarize himself with the areas involved,
obtain the necessary credentials, and learn the teaching routine. Then came the
matter of finding employment at a university possessing the necessary
data-processing facilities. In his spare time, he had had to learn to use the
equipment, then conceive projects which would allow him to do so without
question. Then he had had to review everything he possessed in the way of
primary data with respect to his real questions, organize the information, and
cast it into the proper form. The entire process had taken years, and there had
been failures, many of them.
This time,
though, this time he had been so near that he could taste it, smell it. This
time he had known that he was close to the answers he had been seeking.
Now, he was
running away with a briefcase full of papers he had not had an opportunity to
review. It was possible that he had failed again and was returning without the
weapon he had sought, returning to the place of his enemies. If this were the
case, he had only postponed his doom. Still, he could not remain-for here, too,
he had acquired enemies. He wondered briefly whether there was some cryptic
lesson involved, some available but overlooked insight that would show him more
about himself than about his enemies. If so, it eluded him.
Just a little
longer... If he had only had a bit more time, he could have checked, then
reformulate and reprogrammed if necessary. Now there was no more time. There
could be no going back to hone it if it was a blunted sword he bore. And there
were other matters, personal ones, he had wished to draw to better conclusions.
Clare, for instance...
Later, the rain
let up, though the cloud-cover remained total and threatening. He risked
speeding then and tried the radio once more. Bursts of static still occurred,
but there was more music than there was interference, so he let it play.
When the news
came on, he was winding his way down a steep hill, and while he thought that he
heard his name spoken, the volume had diminished too much for him to be
certain. Alone on the road at that point, he began looking back over his
shoulder regularly and up every side way he passed. It infuriated him that the
mortals still had a fair chance of apprehending him before he achieved a
situation of power. Ascending a higher hill, he saw a curtain of rain far off
to his left and a few feeble flickers of lightning, so distant that he heard no
following thunder. Continuing his search of the heavens, he saw that they were
barren of traffic and he thanked the Storm King for that. Lighting a fresh
cigarette, he brought in a stronger station, waited for the news. When it came,
there was no report concerning himself.
He thought of the
distant day when he had stood beside a rainpool and discussed his plight with
his reflection there. He tried to see that dead self now-tired, thin, cold,
hungry, sorefooted and smelling badly. All of the irritants were erased, except
a small hunger just beginning in his middle and hardly worth comparison with
those earlier feelings, which were near starvation. Still, how dead was that
old self? How had his situation been altered? Then, he had been fleeing from
the West Pole of the World, striving to keep alive, trying to evade pursuers
and reach Twilight. Now, it was the bright East Pole from which he fled, toward
Twilight. Driven by hatred and something of love, revenge had been hot in his
heart, warming him and feeding him. Nor was it absent now. He had acquired
knowledge of dayside arts and sciences, but this in no way changed the man who
had stood beside the pool; he stood there still, within him, and their thoughts
were the same.
Morningstar, he
said, opening the window and addressing the sky, since you hear everything,
hear this: I am no different than when last we spoke.
He laughed. Is
that good or bad? he asked, the thought just occurring to him. He closed the
window and considered the question. Not fond of introspection, he was
nevertheless inquisitive.
He had noted
changes in people during his stay at the university. It was most apparent in
the students, and it occurred in such a brief timethat short span between
matriculation and graduation. However, his colleagues had also altered in small
ways which involved attitudes and sentiments. He alone had not changed. Is this
something fundamental? he wondered. Is this part of the basic difference
between a daysider and a darksider? They change and we do not. Is this
important? Probably, though I do not see how. We have no need to change, and it
seems that they do. Why? Length of life? Different approach to life? Possibly
both. What value is there in change, anyway?
He turned off
onto a seemingly deserted side road after the next news broadcast. This one had
named him as wanted for questioning in connection with a homicide.
Into the small
fire he kindled, he tossed every piece of identification that he carried. While
they burned, he opened his bag and refilled his wallet with fresh papers he had
prepared several semesters earlier. He stirred the ashes and scattered them.
Carrying it
across a field, he tore Quilian's raincoat in several places and tossed it into
a gully where muddy waters rushed. Returning to the vehicle, he decided to
trade it for another before very long.
Hurrying up the
highway then, he reflected on the situation as he now understood it. The
Borshin had killed Quilian and departed, doubt less as it had come, through the
window. The reason for Quilian's presence there was known to the authorities,
and Poindexter would verify his own presence on campus and his stated
destination. Clare, and many others, could testify as to their disliking one
another. The conclusion was obvious. Though he would have killed Quilian had
the necessity arisen, he grew indignant at the thought of being executed for
something he had not done. The situation reminded him of what had occurred at
Igles, and he rubbed his neck half-consciously. The unfairness of it all
smarted.
He wondered
whether the Borshin in its frenzy of pain had thought it was slaying him or was
merely acting to defend itself, knowing that he had escaped. How badly injured
was it: He knew nothing of the creature recuperative abilities. Was it even
now seeking his trail, which it had followed for so long? Had the Lord of Bats
sent it to find him, or was it following its own feelings, conditioned as it
was to hate him? Shuddering, he increased his speed.
Once I'm back, it
won't matter, he told himself.
But he wondered.
He obtained
another vehicle on the far side of the next town he passed through. In it, he
hurried toward Twilight, near the place where the bright bird had sung.
For a long while
he sat on the hilltop cross-legged, reading. His clothing was dusty and there
were rings of perspiration about the armpits; there was dirt beneath his
fingernails, and his eyelids had a tendency to droop, close, spring open again.
He sighed repeatedly and made notes on the papers he held. Faint stars shone
above the mountains to the west.
He had abandoned
his final vehicle many leagues to the east of his hilltop, continuing then on
foot. It had been stalling and knocking for some time before it stopped and
would not start again. Knowing then that he had passed the place where the rival
Powers held truce, he stumbled on toward the darkness, taking only his
briefcase. High places always suited him best. He had slept but once on his
journey; and while it had been a deep, sound, dreamless sleep, he had begrudged
his body every moment of it and vowed not to do it again until he had passed
beyond the jurisdiction of men. Now that he had done so, there was but one
thing more before he would allow himself to rest.
Scowling, he
turned the pages, located what he sought, made a marginal notation, returned to
the place of the original markings.
It seemed to be
right. It seemed almost to fit...
A cool breeze
crossed the hilltop, bringing with it wild scents that he had all but forgotten
in the cities of men. Now it was the stark light of the Everyday, not the
smells and noises of the city, not the files and ranks of faces in his
classrooms, not the boring meetings, not the monotonous sounds of machinery,
not the obscene brightness of colors that seemed a receding dream. These pages
were its only token. He breathed the evening, and the back translation he had
made from the print-out leaped toward his eyes and quickened within his mind
like a poem suddenly understood.
Yes!
His eyes sought
the havens and found the white, unblinking star that coursed them.
He rose to his
feet with his fatigue forgotten. With his right foot he traced a brief pattern
in the dirt. Then he pointed a finger at the satellite and read the words that
he had written upon the papers he held.
For a moment
nothing happened.
Then it stood
still.
Silent now, he
continued to point. It grew bright and began to increase in size.
Then it flared
like a shooting star and was gone.
A new omen, he
said and then smiled. 9
WHEN THE DAMNED
thing entered High Dudgeon, it swept from chamber to chamber in search of its
Lord. When it located him at last, casting sulfur into a pool of mercury in the
center of an octagonal room, it obtained his attention and suspended itself
from the outstretched finger he offered. It conveyed to him then, in its own
fashion, the news that it had borne.
With this he
turned, performed a curious act involving a piece of cheese, a candle and a
feather and departed the chamber.
He removed
himself to a high tower and for a long while there regarded the east. Quickly
then, he turned and studied the only other avenue in his keep-the westnorth.
Yes, there too!
But it was impossible.
Unless, of
course, it was an illusion...
He mounted a
stair that wound widder-shins about the wall, opened a trapdoor, and climbed
outside. Raising his head, he studied the great black orb bright stars all
about it; he sniffed the wind. Looking downward, he regarded the massive,
sprawled keep that was High Dudgeon, raised by his own power shortly after his
creation upon this mountaintop. When he had learned the difference between the
created and the born and had discovered that his power was centered at this
point in space, he had sucked power up into him through the roots of the
mountain and drawn it down in a whirlwind from the heavens, so that he had
glowed, dazzling, like a struck lightning rod, and engaged in creation himself.
If his power resided here, then this place was to be his home, his fortress.
And so it was. Those who would do him ill had died and so had learned their
lessons, or they darted the Ever-dark on leathery wings till they earned his
favor. The latter he saw sufficiently well-tended so that upon their release
into the manform, many had elected to remain in his service. The other Powers,
perhaps as strong as he in their own ways, in their own spheres, had troubled
him little once suitable boundaries had been established.
For anyone to
move against High Dudgeon now... It was unthinkable! Only a fool or a madman
would attempt such a thing.
Yet now there
were mountains where no mountains had been-mountains, or the appearance of
mountains. He raised his eyes from his home and studied the distant shapes. It
troubled him that he had been unable to detect within his person the existence
of such a welling of forces as would be necessary to create even the appearance
of mountains within his realm.
Hearing a
footstep on the stair, he turned. Evene emerged from the opening, mounted above
it, and moved to his side. She wore a loose, black garment, short-skirted,
belted at the waist, and clasped at her left shoulder with a silver brooch.
When he put his arm about her and drew her to him, she trembled, feeling the
currents of power rising in his body; she knew that he would not favor
speaking.
He pointed at the
mountain he faced, then at the other, to the east.
Yes, I know,
she said. The messenger told me. That is why I hurried here. I've brought you
your wand.
She raised the
black, silken sheathe she bore at her girdle.
He smiled and
moved his head slightly from left to right.
With his left
hand, he raised and drew off the pendant and chain he wore about his neck.
Holding it high, he dangled the bright gem before them.
She felt a
swirling of forces and seemed for an instant to be falling forward into the
stone. It grew, filling her entire field of vision.
Then it was no
longer the jewel, but the sudden westnorth mountain that she beheld. For a long
while, she stared at the high gray-and-black dome of stone.
It looks real,
she said. It seems so substantial.
Silence.
Then, as star by
star, the lights in the sky vanished behind its peaks, its shoulders, its
slopes, she exclaimed, It-it's growing! and then, No... It's moving, moving
toward us, she said.
It vanished, and
she stared at the pendant as it had been. Then he turned, turning her with him,
and they faced the east.
Again the
swirling, the falling, the growing.
Now the eastern
mountain, its face like the prow of a great, strange ship, lay before them.
Cold lights lined its features and it, too, plowed the sky, advancing. As they
watched, high wings of flame rose behind it and flashed before it.
There is someone
upon... she began.
But the jewel
shattered and the chain, glowing sudden red with heat, fell from her Lord's
hand. It lay smoking at their feet. She received a sudden shock from his body
as this occurred, and she pulled away from him.
What happened?
He did not reply,
but extended his hand.
What is it?
He pointed at the
wand.
She handed it to
him and he raised it. Silently, he summoned his servants. For a long while he
stood so, and then the first appeared. Soon they swarmed about him, his
servants, the bats.
With the tip of
his wand he touched one, and a man fell at his feet.
Lord! cried the
man, bowing his head. What is thy will?
He pointed toward
Evene, until the man raised his eyes and turned his head toward her.
Report to
Lieutenant Quazer, she said, who will arm you and assign you duties.
She looked at her
Lord and he nodded.
With his wand
then, he began touching the others, and they became what they once had been.
An umbrella of
bats had spread above the tower, and a seemingly endless column of larger
creatures filed past Evene, down the stairway and into the keep below.
When all had
passed, Evene turned toward the east.
So much time has
gone by, she said. Look how much closer the thing has come.
She felt a hand
upon her shoulder and turning, she raised her face. He kissed her eyes and
mouth, then pushed her from him.
What are you
going to do?
He pointed toward
the trapdoor.
No, she said.
I won't go. I will stay and assist you.
He continued to
point.
Do you know what
it is that's out there?
Go, he had
said, or perhaps she only thought that he had said it. She recalled it,
standing within her chamber at the eastsouth edge of the keep, uncertain as to
what had occurred since the word had filled her mind and body. She moved to the
window and there was nothing to see but stars.
But suddenly,
somehow, then, she knew.
She wept for the
world they were losing.
They were real,
he knew that now. For they crushed as they came, and he felt the vibrations of
their movements within his body. While the stars told him that a bad time was
at hand-a long, bad time-he did not require their counsels to this end. He
continued to draw upon the forces which had raised High Dudgeon and were now to
defend it. He began to feel as he had in that distant time.
On the peak of
the new mountain to the east, a serpent began to form. It was of fire, and he
could not guess at its size. In the times before his time, such Powers were
said to have existed. But the wielders had passed to their final deaths and the
Key had been lost. He had sought it himself; most of the Lords had. Now it
appeared that another had succeeded where he had failedthat, or an ancient
Power was stirring once more.
He watched the
serpent achieve full existence. It was a very good piece of work, he decided.
He watched it rise into the air and swim toward him.
Now it begins, he
said to himself.
He raised his
wand and began the battle.
It was a long
while before the serpent fell, gutted and smoking. He licked at the
perspiration which had appeared upon his upper lip. The thing had been strong.
The mountain was closer now; its movement had not slowed while he had battled
the thing sent against him.
Now, he decided,
I must be as I was in the beginning.
Smage paced his
post, the forward entrance hall to High Dudgeon. He paced as slowly as he
could, so as not to betray his uneasiness to the fifty-some warriors who
awaited his orders. Dust fell about him, rose again. There would be startled
movements among those of his command whenever a weapon or piece of armor, dislodged
from its place on a wall, would crash to the floor somewhere within the keep.
He glanced through a window and looked quickly away; everything without had
been blotted from sight by the bulk which stood now at hand. There came a
constant rumbling, and unnatural cries would pierce the darkness.
Lightninglike, apparitions of headless knights, many-winged birds and
man-headed beasts passed before his eyes and faded, as well as things which
left no forms within his memory; yet none of these paused to menace him. Soon
now, soon it would be over, he knew, for the prow of the mountain must be
nearing his Lord's tower.
When the crash
came, he was thrown from his feet, and he feared that the hall would collapse
upon him. Cracks appeared in the walls, and the entire keep seemed to move
backward a pace. There came the sounds of falling masonry and splintering
beams. Then, after several heart beats, he heard a scream high overhead,
followed by a final crashing note somewhere in the court yard to his left. This
was followed by dust and silence.
He rose to his
feet and called for his troop to assemble.
Wiping the dust
from his eyes, he looked about him.
They were all of
them on the floor and none of them moving.
Arise! he
cried; and he rubbed his shoulder.
After another
moment of stillness, he moved to the nearest and studied the man. He did not
seem to be injured. He slapped him lightly, and there was no reaction. He tried
another; he tried two more. It was the same. They seemed barely to breathe.
Unsheathing his
blade, he moved toward the courtyard to his left. Coughing, he entered it.
Half the
firmament was shadowed by the now motionless mountain, and the courtyard held
the ruins of the tower. Its prow had broken. The present stillness seemed more
terrible than the earlier rumbling and the recent din. The apparitions all had
vanished. Nothing stirred.
He moved forward.
As he advanced, he saw blastmarks, as though lightning had played about the
place.
He halted when he
saw the outstretched figure at the edge of the rubble. Then he rushed forward.
With the point of his blade, he turned the body.
He dropped the
blade and fell to his knees, gripping the mangled hand to his breast, a single
sob escaping his throat. He heard the crackling of fires begin suddenly at his back,
and he felt a rush of heat. He did not move.
He heard a
chuckle.
He looked up
then, looked all about him. But he saw no one.
It came again,
from somewhere to his right.
There!
Among the shadows
that moved on the slanting wall...
Hello, Smage.
Remember me?
He squinted. He
rubbed his eyes.
I-I can't quite
make you out.
But I see you
perfectly there, clutching the meat.
He lowered the
hand gently and raised his blade from the flagging. He stood.
Who are you?
Come find out.
You did all
this? He made a small gesture with his free hand.
All.
Then I will
come.
He advanced upon
the figure and swung his blade. It cut but air, throwing him off balance.
Recovering, he aimed another blow. Again, there was nothing.
He wept after his
seventh attempt.
I know you now!
Come out of those shadows and see how you fare!
All right.
There was
movement, and the other stood before him. He seemed for a moment tall beyond
measurement, frightening, noble.
Smage's hand
hesitated upon the blade, and the hilt took fire. He released it, and the other
smiled as it fell between them.
He raised his
hands and a paralysis overcame them. Through fingers like twisted boughs he
regarded the other's face.
As you
suggested, he heard him say. And I seem to be faring well. Better than
yourself certainly.
I'm pleased to
meet you once again, he added.
Smage wished to
spit, but he could summon no saliva; besides, his hands were in the way.
Murderer!
Beast! he croaked.
Thief, the
other said gently. Also, sorcerer and conqueror.
If I could but
move...
You will. Pick
up your blade and cut me your carrion's toenails-behind the neck, of course.
I do not...
Lop off the
head! Let it be done with one, quick, clean blow-as by a headsman's axe.
Never! He was a
good Lord. He was kind to me and my comrades. I will not defile his body.
He was not a
good Lord. He was cruel, sadistic.
Only to his
enemies-and they had always earned it.
Well, now you
see a new Lord in his place. The means whereby you may swear allegiance to him
is to bring him the head of your old Lord.
I will not do
this thing.
I say that to do
it willingly is the only means whereby you may keep your life within your
body.
I will not.
You have said
it. Now it is too late to save yourself. Still, you will do as I have ordered.
With this, a
spirit not his own came into his body, and he found himself stooping,
retrieving the blade. It burned his hands, but he raised it, held it and
turned.
Cursing, weeping,
he moved to the body, stood above it and brought the blade singing down. The
head rolled several feet and blood darkened the stones.
Now bring it to
me.
He picked it up
by the hair, held it at arm's length and returned to where he had stood. The
other accepted it from him and swung it casually at his side.
Thank you, he
said. Not a bad likeness at all. He hoisted it, studied it, swung it again.
No indeed. I wonder whatever became of my old one? No matter. I shall put this
to good use.
Kill me now,
said Smage.
I regret that I
must save that chore for a bit later. For now, you may keep the remainder of
your ex-Lord company here, by joining all but two others in sleep.
He gestured and
Smage fell snoring to the ground; the flames died as he fell.
When the door
opened, Evene did not turn to face it.
After a prolonged
silence, she heard his voice and shuddered.
You must have
known, he said, that eventually I would come for you.
She did not
reply.
You must recall
the promise I made, he said.
She turned then,
and he saw that she was weeping.
So you've come
to steal me? she said.
No, he said. I
came to make you the Lady of Shadow Guard-my Lady.
To steal me,
she repeated. There is no other way you may have me now, and it is your
favorite way of obtaining what you desire. You cannot steal love, though,
Jack.
That I can do
without, he said.
What now? To
Shadow Guard?
Why, Shadow
Guard is here. This place is Shadow Guard, nor am I ever out of it.
I knew it, she
said, very softly. ...And you mean to reign here, in his place, who is my
Lord. What have you done with him? she whispered.
What did he do
with me? What did I promise him? he said.
...And the
others?
All are
sleeping, save for one who may provide you some amusement. Let us step to the
window.
Stiffly, she
moved.
He swept the
hanging aside and pointed. Inclining her head, she followed his gesture.
Below, on a level
place which she knew had never before existed, Quazer moved. The gray, bisexual
giant moved through the elaborate paces of the Helldance. He fell several
times, rose to his feet, continued.
What is he
doing? she asked.
He is repeating
the feat which won him the Hellflame. He will continue to reenact his triumph
until his heart or some great vessel bursts within him and he dies.
How awful! Stop
him!
No. It is no
more awful than what he had done to me. You accused me of not keeping my
promises. Well, I promised him my vengeance, and you can see that I did not
fail to deliver it.
What power is it
that you have? she asked. You could never do things like that when I...when I
knew you.
I hold The Key
That Was Lost, he said, Kolwynia.
How did you come
by it?
It does not
matter. What does matter is that I can make the mountains walk and the ground
burst open; I can call down bolts of lightning and summon spirits to aid me. I
can destroy a Lord in his place of power. I have become the mightiest thing in
the dark hemisphere.
Yes, she said.
You have named yourself; you have become a thing.
He turned to
watch Quazer fall again, then let the hanging drop.
She turned away.
If you will
grant mercy to all who remain here, she finally said, I will do whatever you
say.
With his free hand,
he reached out as if to touch her. He paused when he heard the scream from
beyond the window. Smiling, he let his hand fall. The taste is too sweet, he
decided.
Mercy, I have
learned, is a thing that is withheld from one whenever he most needs it, he
said. Yet when he is in a position to grant it himself, those who withheld it
previously cry out for it.
I am certain,
she said, that no one in this place has asked mercy for himself.
She turned back
to him and searched his face.
No, she said.
No mercy there. Once there was something slightly gallant about you. It is
gone now.
What do you
think I am going to do with the Key, after I have repaid my enemies? he asked.
I do not know.
I am going to
unite the darkside, making it into a single kingdom...
Ruled by
yourself, of course.
Of course, for
there is no one else who could do it. Then I am going to establish an era of
law and peace.
Your laws. Your
peace.
You still do not
understand. I have thought of this for a long while, and while it is true that
at first I sought the Key only for purposes of revenge, I have come to alter my
thinking. I will use it to end the bickering of the Lords and promote the
welfare of the state that will ensue.
Then start here.
Promote some welfare in High Dudgeon-or Shadow Guard, if you care to call it
that.
It is true that
I have already repaid much that was done to me, he mused. Still...
Begin with mercy
and your name may one day be venerated, she said. Withhold it and you will
surely be cursed.
Perhaps... he
began, taking a step backward.
Her eyes covered
his entire form as he did so.
What is it that
you clutch beneath your cloak? You must have brought it to show me.
It is nothing,
he said. I have changed my mind and there are things I must do. I will return
to you later.
But she moved
forward quickly and tore at his cloak as he turned.
Then the screams
began, and he dropped the head to seize her wrists. In her right Hand there was
a dagger.
Beast! she
cried, biting his cheek.
He raised his
will, uttered a single word, and the dagger became a dark flower which he
forced toward her face. She spat and cursed and kicked him, but after a few
moments her movements weakened and her eyelids began to droop. When she grew
sufficiently drowsy, he carried her to her bed and placed her upon it. She
continued to resist him, but the strength had gone out of her efforts.
It is said that
power can destroy all that is good in a man, she gasped. But you need have no
fear. Even without power, you would be what you are: Jack of Evil.
So be it, he
said. Yet all that I have described to you will come to pass, and you will be
with me to witness it.
No. I will have
taken my life long before.
I will bend your
will, and you will love me.
You will never
touch me, body or will.
You will sleep
now, he said, and when you awaken we will be coupled. You will struggle
briefly and you will yield to me-first your body, then your will. You will lie
passive for a time, then I will come to you again and yet again. After that, it
will be you who will come to me. Now you will sleep while I sacrifice Smage
upon his Lord's altar and cleanse this place of all things which displease me.
Dream well. A new life awaits you.
And he departed,
and these things were done as he had said.
10
AFTER SOLVING ALL
boundary problems involving Drekkheim by conquering that kingdom, adding it to
his own, and sending the Baron to the Dung Pits, Jack turned his attention to
the Fortress Holding, home of the Colonel Who Never Died. It was not long
before the place betrayed its name, and Jack entered there.
He sat in the
library with the Colonel and they sipped a light wine and reminisced for a long
while.
Finally, Jack
touched on the delicate subject of Evene's union with the suitor who obtained
the Hellflame.
The Colonel,
whose sallow cheeks bore matching crescent scars and whose hair funneled up
from the bridge of his nose like a red tornado, nodded above his goblet. He
dropped his pale eyes.
Well, that
was-the understanding, he said softly.
It was not my
understanding, said Jack. I took it as a task you had set me to, not an offer
open to all comers.
You must admit
that you did fail. So when another suitor appeared with the bride-price, I'd
set...
You could have
waited for my return. I would have stolen it and brought it to you.
Return takes a
goodly while. I did not want my daughter to become an old maid.
Jack shook his
head.
I confess that I
am quite pleased with the way things have turned out, the Colonel continued.
You are a powerful Lord now, and you have my daughter. I would imagine she is
happy. I have the Hellflame, and this pleases me. We all have what we
wanted...
No, said Jack.
I might suggest that you never desired me for a son-in-law and that you
obtained an understanding with the late Lord of High Dudgeon as to how the
situation might best be settled.
I...
Jack raised his
hand.
I say only that
I might suggest this. Of course, I do not. I do not really know what did or did
not pass between you-other than Evene and the Hellflame-nor do I care. I know
only what occurred. Considering this, and considering also the fact that you
are now a relative, I shall allow you to take your own life, rather than lose
it at the hands of another.
The Colonel
sighed and smiled, raising his eyes once more.
Thank you, he
said. That is very good of you. I was concerned that you might not give me
this.
They sipped their
wine.
I shall have to
change my appellation, said the Colonel.
Not yet, said
Jack.
True, but have
you any suggestions?
No. I shall
meditate upon the question during your absence, however.
Thank you, said
the Colonel. You know, I've never done anything like this before... Would you
care to recommend any specific method?
Jack was silent
for a moment. Poison is very good, he said. But the effects vary so from
individual to individual that it can sometimes prove painful. I'd say that your
purposes would best be served by sitting in a warm bath and cutting your wrists
under water. This hardly hurts at all. It is pretty much like going to sleep.
I believe I'll
do it that way then.
In that case,
said Jack, let me give you a few pointers.
He reached
forward, took the other's wrist and turned it, exposing the underside. He drew
his dagger.
Now then, he
began, slipping back into a tutorial mode of speech he had all but forgotten,
do not make the same mistakes as most amateurs at this business. Using the
blade as a pointer, he said, Do not cut crosswise, so. Subsequent clotting
might be sufficient to cause a reawakening, and the necessity to repeat the
process. This could even occur several times. This would doubtless produce some
trauma, as well as an aesthetic dissatisfaction. You must cut lengthwise along
the blue line, here, he said, tracing. Should the artery prove too slippery,
you must lift it out with the point of your instrument and twist the blade
quickly. Do not just pull upward. This is unpleasant. Remember that. The twist
is the important part if you fail to get it with the lengthwise slash. Any
questions?
I think not.
Then repeat it
back to me.
Lend me your
dagger.
Here.
Jack listened,
nodding, and made only minor corrections.
Very good. I
believe you've got it, he said, accepting the return of his blade and
resheathing it.
Would you care
for another glass of wine?
Yes. You keep a
fine cellar.
Thank you.
High above the
dark world, beneath the dark orb, mounted upon the lazy dragon to whom he had
fed Benoni and Elite, Jack laughed into the winds and the fickle sylphs laughed
with him, for he was their master now.
As time wore on,
Jack continued to resolve boundary disputes to his satisfaction; and these grew
fewer in number. He began, idly at first and then with growing enthusiasm, to
employ the skills he had acquired dayside in the compilation of a massive
volume called An Assessment of Darkside Culture. As his will now extended over
much of the night, he began summoning to his court those citizens whose
memories or special skills provided historical, technical or artistic
information for his work. He was more than half-resolved to see it published
dayside when completed. Now that he had established smuggling routes and acquired
agents in major day-side cities, he knew that this could be accomplished.
He sat in High
Dudgeon, now Shadow Guard, a great, sprawling place of high, torch-lit halls,
underground labyrinths and many towers. There were things of great beauty
there, and things of incalculable worth. Shadows danced in its corridors, and
the facets of countless gems gleamed brighter than the sun of the one-half
world. He sat in his library in Shadow Guard with its former Lord's skull an
ashtray on his desk, and he labored with his project.
He lit a
cigarette (one of the reasons he had established a clandestine commerce),
having found the dayside custom a pleasant thing, as well as a difficult habit
to break. He was watching its smoke mingle with that of a candle and climb
toward the ceiling, when Stab-a man-bat-man reconversion, who had become his personal
servant-entered and halted at the prescribed distance.
Lord? he said.
Yes?
There is an old
crone at the gates who has asked to speak with you.
I haven't sent
for any old crones. Tell her to go away.
She said that
you had invited her.
He glanced at the
small, black man, whose lengthy limbs and antenna-like plumes of white hair
above an abnormally long face gave him a multi-tactic, insect-like appearance;
he respected him, for he had once been an accomplished thief who had attempted
to rob the former Lord of this place.
Invitation? I
recall no such thing. What was your impression of her?
She had the
stink of the west upon her, sir.
Strange...
...And she
requested that I tell you it's Rosie.
Rosalie! said
Jack, lowering his feet from his desk and sitting upright. Bring her to me,
Stab!
Yes, sir, said
Stab, backing away, as always, from any sudden display of emotions on his
Lord's part.
Jack flicked an
ash into the skull and regarded it.
I wonder if
you're coming around yet? he mused. I've a feeling you may be.
He scribbled a
note, reminding himself to inflict several companies of men with severe head
colds and set them to patrolling the Dung Pits.
He had emptied
the skull and was straightening the papers on his desk when Stab escorted her
into the room. Rising, he glanced at Stab. who departed quickly.
Rosalie! he
said, moving toward her. It is so good...
She did not
return his smile, but accepted the seat he offered, nodding.
Gods! She does
look like a broken mop, he decided again, remembering. Still... It's Rosalie.
So you have
finally come to Shadow Guard, he said. For that bread you gave me long ago,
you shall always be well fed. For the advice you gave me, you will always be
honored. You shall have servants to bathe you and dress you and wait upon you.
If you wish to pursue the Art, I will instruct you in higher magics. Whatever
you wish, you need but ask for it. We shall have a feast for you-as soon as it
can be prepared! Welcome to Shadow Guard!
I did not really
come to stay, Jack, just to look at you again-in your new gray garments and
fine black cloak. And what shiny boots! You never used to keep them that way.
He smiled.
I don't do as
much walking as I once did.
...Or skulking
about either. No need for that now, she said. So you've got yourself a
kingdom, Jack-the largest I know of. Are you happy with it?
Quite happy.
So you went to
the machine that thinks like a man, only faster. The one I warned you about.
Isn't that so?
Yes.
...And it gave
you The Key That Was Lost, Kolwynia.
He turned away,
groped for a cigarette, lit it and inhaled. He looked at her then and nodded.
But it is a
thing I do not discuss, he said.
Of course, of
course, she said, nodding. With it, though, you obtained power to match
ambitions you once did not even know you possessed.
I would say that
you are correct.
Tell me of the
woman.
What woman?
I passed a woman
in the hall, a lovely thing, dressed all in green to match her eyes. I said
hello and her mouth smiled at me, but her spirit walked behind her weeping.
What have you done to her, Jack?
I did what was
necessary.
You stole
something from her-1 know not what-as you have stolen from everyone you have
known. Is there anyone you count as friend, Jack? Anyone from whom you have
taken nothing but given something?
Yes, he
replied. He sits atop Mount Panicus, half of stone and half I know not what.
Many times have I visited him and tried with all my powers to free him. Yet
even the Key has proven insufficient.
Morningstar...
she said. Yes, it is fitting that your one friend should be the accursed of
the gods.
Rosie, why do
you chastise me? I am offering to make up in any way that I can for what you
have suffered on my account or any other.
That woman I
saw... Would you restore her to whatever she was before you stole from her-if
that was what I most desired of you?
Perhaps, said
Jack, but I doubt you would ask it. Were I to do so, I feel that she would be
hopelessly mad.
Why?
Because of
things she has seen and felt.
Were you
responsible for these things?
Yes, but she had
them coming.
No human soul
deserves the suffering I saw walking behind her.
Souls! Talk to
me not of souls! Or of suffering either! Are you boasting that you have a soul
and I do not? Or do you think I know nothing of suffering myself?You are
correct, though, in your observation concerning her. She is part human.
But you have a
soul, Jack. I brought it with me.
I am afraid I do
not understand...
You left yours
behind in the Dung Pits of Glyve, as all darksiders do. I fetched yours out,
though, in case you wanted it one day.
You are joking,
of course.
No.
Then how did you
know it was mine?
I am a Wise
Woman.
Let me see it.
He mashed out his
cigarette while she undid her parcel of belongings. She withdrew a small object
wrapped in a piece of clean cloth. She opened the cloth and held it in the palm
of her hand.
That thing? he
said; and he began to laugh.
It was a gray
sphere which began to brighten with exposure to the light, first becoming shiny
and mirror-like, then translucent; colors began to shift across its surface.
It's just a
stone, he said.
It was with you
on your awakening in the Pits, was it not?
Yes. I had it in
my hand.
Why did you
leave it behind?
Why not?
Was it not with
you each time that you awakened in Glyve?
What of it?
It contains your
soul. You may wish to be united with it one day.
That's a soul?
What am I supposed to do with it? Carry it around in my pocket?
You could do
better than leave it on a pile of offal.
Give it to me!
He snatched it
from her hand and stared at it.
That's no soul,
he said. It is a singularly unattractive piece of rock, or perhaps the egg of
a giant dung beetle. It even smells like the Pits!
He drew his arm
back to hurl it from him.
Don't! she
cried. It's your-soul... she finished softly, as it struck against the stone
wall and shattered.
Quickly, he
turned his head away.
I might have
known, she said. None of you really want them. You least of all. You must
admit that there was something more to it than a simple stone or an egg or else
you would not have acted with such instant rage. You sensed something personal
and threatening about it. Didn't you?
But he did not
answer her. He had slowly turned his head in the direction of the broken thing
and he was staring. She followed his gaze.
A misty cloud had
emerged from the thing, spreading upward and outward. Now it hovered above it.
It had ceased its movement and had begun to take color. As they watched, the
outline of a man-like form began to appear.
Fascinated, Jack
continued to stare as he saw that the deepening features were his own. It took
on more and more of the appearance of solidity until it seemed that he regarded
a twin.
What spirit are
you? he inquired, his throat dry.
Jack, it
replied weakly.
I am Jack, he
said. Who are you?
Jack, it
repeated.
Turning to
Rosalie, he snarled, You brought it here! You banish it!
I cannot, she
said, running a hand through her hair, then dropping it to her lap, where it
joined the other and began a wringing motion. It is yours.
Why didn't you
leave the damned thing where you found it? Where it belonged?
It didn't belong
there, she said. It is yours.
Turning back, he
said, You there! Are you a soul?
Wait a moment,
will you? it said. I'm just putting things together.Yes. Now that I think of
it, I believe I am a soul.
Whose?
Yours, Jack.
Great, said
Jack. You've really paid me back, haven't you, Rosie? What the hell am I going
to do with a soul? How do you get rid of one? If I die while this thing is
loose, there is no return for me.
I don't know
what to tell you, she said. I thought it was the right thing to do-when I
went looking for it and found it-to bring it to you and give it to you.
Why?
I told you long
ago that the Baron was always kind to old Rosie. You hung him upside down and
opened his belly when you took his realm. I cried, Jack. He was the only one
who'd been kind to me for a long while.I'd heard much of your doings, and none
of what I heard was good. With the power you have, it is so easy to hurt so
many; and you have been doing it. I thought that if I went and found you a soul
it might soften your disposition.
Rosalie,
Rosalie. He sighed. You're a fool. You meant well, but you're a fool.
Perhaps, she
answered, squeezing her hands together tightly and looking back at the soul,
which stood staring.
Soul, said Jack,
turning toward it again, you've been listening. Do you have any suggestions?
I have only one
desire.
What is that?
To be united
with you. To go through life with you, comforting and cautioning, and...
Wait a moment,
said Jack, raising his hand. What does it require for you to be united wit
me?
Your consent.
Jack smiled. He
lit a cigarette, his hands ? trembling slightly.
What if I were
to withhold my consent? he asked.
Then I would
become a wanderer. I would follow you at a distance, unable to comfort you and
caution you, unable...
Great, said
Jack. I withhold my consent. Get out of here.
Are you joking?
That's a hell of a way to treat a soul. Here I am, waiting to comfort and
caution you, and you kick me out. What will people say? There goes Jack's
soul, they'll say, poor thing. Consorting with elementals and lower astrals
and...
Clear out, Jack
said. I can do without you. I know all about you sneaky bastards. You make
people change. Well, I don't want to change. I'm happy the way I am. You're a
mistake. Go back to the Dung Pits. Go wherever you want. Do whatever you want.
Just go away. Leave me alone.
You really mean
it.
That's right.
I'll even get you a pretty new crystal, if you would prefer curling up inside
one of those.
It is too late
for that.
Well, that is
the best I can offer.
If you do not
wish to be united with me, please do not throw me out like a vagabond. Let me
stay here with you. Perhaps I can comfort and caution and counsel this way, and
then you might see my value and change your mind.
Get out!
What if I refuse
to go? What if I simply force my attentions upon you?
Then, said
Jack, I would expose you to the most destructive powers of the Key, sections
I've never essayed before.
You would
destroy your own soul?
You're damned
right! Go away!
It turned then
toward the wall and vanished.
So much for
souls, said Jack. Now we'll find you a chamber and some servants, and we'll
see a feast prepared.
No, she said.
I wanted to see you. Very well, I've seen you. I wanted to bring you a thing,
and I've delivered it. That is all.
She began to
rise.
Wait, said
Jack. Where will you go?
My time as the
Wise Woman of the Eastern Marches having passed, I am returning to the Sign of
the Burning Pestle on the coach road by the sea. Mayhap I will find some young
tavern wench to nurse me when I grow feeble. I'll teach her of the Art in
return for this.
Stay awhile, at
least, he said. Rest, eat...
No. I do not
like this place.
If you are
determined to go, allow me to send you by an easier means than walking.
No. Thank you.
May I give you
money?
I would be
robbed of it.
I will send an
escort.
I wish to travel
alone.
Very well,
Rosalie.
He watched her
depart and then moved to the hearth, where he kindled a small fire.
Jack worked on
his Assessment, becoming an increasingly prominent figure in it, and he
consolidated his rule of the night. During this time, he saw countless statues
of himself raised in the land. He heard his name on the lips of ballad singers
and poets-not in the old rhymes and songs of his roguery, but in tellings of
his wisdom and his might. On four occasions did he allow the Lord of Bats,
Smage, Quazer, the Baron and Blite to return partway from Glyve, before he sent
them back again, each time in a different fashion. He had decided to exhaust
their allotted lives and so be rid of them forever.
Evene danced and
laughted at the feast Jack gave in honor of her father's return. Wrists still
a-tingle, he raised in toast a wine from the cellar that had once been his.
To the Lord and
Lady of Shadow Guard, he said. May their happiness and their reign endure as
long as there is night to cover us!
Then the Colonel
Who Had Never Been Slain By Another quaffed it, and there was merriment.
High on Panicus,
a part of Panicus, Morningstar regarded the east.
A soul wandered
the night, cursing.
A fat dragon
wheezed as he bore a sheep toward his distant den.
A beast in a
twilit swamp dreamed of blood. 11
THEN CAME THE
time of the true breaking of the Compact.
It grew cold, and
he consulted the Book. He found the names of those whose turn had come. He
waited and watched, but nothing occurred.
Finally, he
summoned those dark Lords before him.
Friends, he
said, it is yor turn for Shield duty. Why have you not done it?
Sir, said the
Lord Eldridge, we agreed refuse it.
Why?
You broke it
yourself, he said. If cannot have the world the way that it was, would like
it to remain the way that it is. That is to say, on the pathway to destruction.
Slay us if you wish, but we will not lift a hand. If you are such a mighty
magician, repair the Shield yourself. Slay us, and watch the dying.
You heard his
request, Jack said to a servant. See that they are slain.
But sir...
Do as I say.
Yes.
I will attend to
the Shield myself.
So they were
taken and slain.
And Jack went
forth.
On the top of a
nearby mountain, he considered the problem. He felt the cold; he opened his
being; he found the flaws in the Shield.
Then he began
sketching the diagrams. With the point of his blade, he scratched them on a
rock. They smoldered as he did so and then began to glow. He recited words from
the Key.
Uh-hello.
He whirled,
raising the blade.
It's just me.
He lowered it,
and gusts of icy wind went by.
What do you
want, soul?
I was curious as
to what you were doing. I sometimes follow you around, you know.
I know. I don't
like it.
He returned his
attention to the diagram.
Will you tell
me?
All right, he
said, if it will keep you from whining around...
I'm a lost soul.
We do whine.
Then do it all
you want. I don't care.
But the thing
you are doing...
I am about to
repair the Shield. I think I have the spells worked out.
I do not believe
that you can.
What do you
mean?
I do not think
it can be done by a single individual.
Well, let's find
out.
May I help?
No!
He returned to
the pattern, elaborated upon it with his sword blade and continued his
incantations. The winds went by and the fires flowed.
Now I have to go,
he said. Stay out of my way, soul.
All right. I
just want to be united with you.
Maybe sometime
when life gets boring-but not now.
You mean that
there is hope?
Perhaps. Not at
the present time, however.
Then Jack stood
upright and regarded what he had done.
Didn't work, did
it?
Shut up.
You failed.
Shut up.
Do you want to
be united with me?
No!
Maybe I could
have helped you.
Try it in hell.
Just asking.
Leave me alone.
What will you do
now?
Go away!
He raised his
hands and buried the power. It failed.
I can't do it,
he said.
I knew that. Do
you know what to do now?
I'm thinking.
I know what to
do.
What?
Go check with
your friend Morningstar. He knows lots of things. I believe he could advise
you.
Jack lowered his
head and stared at the smoldering pattern. The wind was chill.
Perhaps you are
right, he said.
I feel certain
that I am.
Jack swirled his
cloak about him.
I go now to walk
in shadows, he said.
And Jack walked
among shadows until he came to the place. Then he climbed.
When he reached
the summit, he moved toward Morningstar and said, I am here.
I know.
You also know
what I desire?
Yes.
Can it be
accomplished?
It is not
impossible.
What must I do?
It will not be
easy.
I did not feel
it would be. Tell me.
Morningstar
shifted his great bulk slightly.
And then he told
him.
I don't know
that I can do it, Jack said.
Someone must.
Do you know of
anyone else? Someone I might appoint?
No.
Are you able to
foretell my success or failure?
No. One other
time I spoke of your shadows.
Yes, I recall.
There was silence
on the mountain. Goodbye, Morningstar, Jack said. Thank you.
Farewell, Jack.
Turning, Jack
moved into the shadows.
He entered the
great hole that led to the heart of the world. In places, there were patches of
light on the walls of the tunnel. Then he would enter into shadow and advance
great distances in a brief time. In other places, the darkness was absolute and
he went as others go.
Occasionally,
there were strangely furnished side galleries and dark doorways. He did not
pause to explore these. Infrequently, he heard the scurrying of clawed feet and
the clatter of hooves. Once he passed an open hearth in which bones were
burning. Twice he heard screams like those of a woman in pain. He did not
pause, but loosened his blade in his scabbard.
He passed a
gallery wherein a gigantic spider clung to the center of a rope-like web. It
began to stir. He ran.
It did not pursue,
but after a time he heard laughter far to his rear.
When he paused to
refresh himself, he saw that the walls of that place were damp and
mold-encrusted. He heard a sound like the flow of a distant river. Tiny
crab-like creatures fled from him and clung to the walls.
Advancing
farther, he encountered pits and crevasses from which noxious fumes arose;
occasionally, flames leaped from one of these.
It was long
before he came to the bridge of metal just a handspan in width. He looked into
the abyss it crossed and saw only blackness. He poised himself, balanced
carefully and passed slowly onward. He sighed when he set foot on the far side,
and he did not turn and look back.
The walls of the
tunnel widened and vanished now, and the ceiling rose into invisibility. Dark
masses of varying density moved about him, and while he could at any time have
created a small light to guide him, he feared to do so, because it could
attract whatever was passing. A large light could be managed as well, but its
existence would be brief; the moment he entered the world of the shadows it
created it would cease to be, and he would stand in darkness once more.
For a time he
feared he had entered a gigantic cavern and had gone astray there; but a ribbon
of white appeared before him, and he held it with his eyes and continued to
advance. When, after a long while, he came upon it, he saw that it was a large
black pond with lights like fish scales glimmering upon it, cast from the
faintly glowing fungus that covered the walls and roof of the cavern.
As he circled the
pool, heading for a patch of great darkness beyond its opposite shore, there
came a thrashing within the water. His blade was in his hand as he turned.
Having now been
discovered, he spoke the words which caused an illumination to appear above the
pool. A large ripple arrowed in his direction, as though a great bulk moved
beneath it. From either of its sides now, a clawed tentacle rose, black and
dripping, and extended itself ii his direction.
He squinted
against the light he had created and raised up his blade for a double-handed
blow.
He spoke the
quickest charm he knew to grant him strength and accuracy. Then, as soon as the
nearest tentacle came within striking range, he swung and cut through it. It
fell near his left boot, still writhing, struck against him and caused him to
fall.
At this, he
counted himself fortunate. For as he fell, the second tentacle slashed through
the space his head and shoulders had occupied a moment before.
Then a round
face, perhaps three feet in diameter, blank-eyed and crowned with a mass of
writhing strands as thick as his thumb, exploded above the water, opened a
large hole in its lower portion and moved toward Jack.
Not rising from
where he lay, Jack swung the blade and pointed it directly at the thing,
holding it with both hands, and he repeated words from the Key as rapidly as
his mouth could form them.
His blade began
to glow, there came a sputtering sound, then a stream of fire began to flow
from the point of the weapon.
Jack moved the
blade in a slow circle and the stench of burning flesh soon reached his
nostrils.
Still, the
creature continued to advance, until Jack saw the whiteness of its many teeth.
Its good tentacle and the stub of its severed one flailed wildly, striking
dangerously near. The beast gave a hissing, spitting sound. At that moment,
Jack raised the blade, so that the fire fell upon the things that writhed on
top of it.
With a sound that
was almost like a sob, it threw itself backward into the pool.
Its bulk raised a
wave that washed over Jack. But before it struck him and the beast vanished
into the depths, he saw the creature's backside; and it was not the coldness of
the water that caused him to shudder.
Rising then, he
dipped his blade into the pool and repeated a spell to intensify a thousandfold
the power he had called into the weapon. With this, the blade began to vibrate
in his hands so that he could scarcely hold it. Yet he braced himself and stood
there, the light blazing above and the stilled tentacle beside him.
The more he
feared the power he had summoned, the longer it seemed that he stood there, and
perspiration covered him like a sudden extra warm garment.
Then, with a
hissing that was near to a shriek, half the creature's bulk rose with a rush of
waters above the pool's center. As it vanished below once more. Jack did not
move, but maintained his stance until the pool began to boil.
The creature did
not rise again.
Jack did not eat
until he had circled the pool and entered the far tunnel; and he knew that he
dare not sleep. He strengthened himself with drugs and continued on.
Coming to a
region of fires, he was attacked by a hairy man-beast and its mate. But he
stepped into shadow, mocking them as they strove to reach him. Not wishing to
waste time with torment and death, however, he renounced this pleasure and
caused the shadows to transport him to their farthest limit.
The region of
fires was vast, and a moment later when Jack stood at its far edge, he knew he
was nearing his goal. There, he prepared himself for the next place of danger
he must pass.
After a long
walk, he began to detect the odors, reminding him of the Dung Pits of Glyve and
something even more foul. He knew that soon he would be able to see again,
though there would be no light and, consequently, no shadows into which he
might escape. He rehearsed the necessary things.
The odors
increased in intensity, until he fought with his stomach to retain what it
held.
Then a gradual
vision came into his eyes, unlike normal sight.
He saw a dank
land of rocks and caverns, and all over it a certain mournful brooding lay. It
was a still place, where mists twined slowly through the air and among the
rocks, where faint vapors hung over large puddles of still water, where the
odors and mists and vapors clotted together a brief distance overhead, to rain
an occasional silent moment, redistributing the filth across the land. Beyond
these things, there was nothing to be seen; and a bone-touching chill was
everywhere.
He moved as
quickly as he dared.
Before he had
gone a great distance, he detected the slightest of movements to his left. He
saw that in one of the normally still puddles a tiny, dark creature covered
with warty protuberances had hopped forth and now sat staring at him,
unblinking.
Drawing his
blade, he touched it lightly with its tip and took a rapid step backward,
expecting what might occur. The air exploded as the creature was transformed.
It lowered above him on crooked, black legs; it had no face, no apparent depth
of body, but existed as if it were drawn in outline with the darkest of inks.
Those were not feet it stood upon. Its tail twitched as it spoke.
Give me your
name, that comes this way, said the voice that chimed like the silver bells of
Krelle.
None may have my
name ere I have his, said Jack.
A soft laughter
emerged from the outline of a horned head.
Then, Come, come
now! I wish to hear a name, it said. I have no patience.
Very well, then,
said Jack; and he spoke one.
It fell to its
knees before him.
Master, it
said.
Yes, Jack
replied. That is my name. Now must you obey me in all things.
Yes.
Now I charge you
by that which I spoke, to bear me upon your back to the ultimate bounds of your
realm, leading downward, until you are able to pass no farther, nor any others
of your kind. Nor will you betray me to any of your kin or comrades.
I will do as you
have said.
Yes.
Repeat it back
to me as an oath.
This was done.
Bend now lower
that I may mount you and you be my steed.
He leaped onto
the creature's back, reached forth, caught hold of either horn.
Now! he said;
and it rose and began to move.
There was a
clatter of hooves and a bellows-like exhalation. He noted that the texture of
the thing beneath him was not unlike that of a very soft cloth.
The pace
quickened and the landscape began to blur whenever he attempted to fix his
eyes.
... And then
there was silence.
He became
conscious of a black movement about him, and his face was fanned by breezes
that came and went with the regularity of pulse-beats. He realized then that
they were aloft, and that those were great black pinions that swept them above
the noxious land.
They travelled
for a long while, and Jack wrinkled his nose, for the reek of the beast
exceeded that of the countryside. They moved at a great speed, but he saw that
similar dark shapes occasionally passed in the region of the upper air.
Despite their
speed, the journey seemed interminable. Jack began to feel that his strength
would fail, for his hands began to ache now even more than they had when he had
boiled the black pool. He feared sleep, for his grip might fail him. So he thought
upon many things to keep him awake. Strange, he thought, how my greatest enemy
did me my greatest favor. Had the Lord of Bats not driven me to it, I would
never have sought the power I now contain, the power that made me ruler, that
gave me full revenge and Evene... Evene... I still am not fully pleased with
the terms by which I hold you. Yet... What other way is there? You deserved
what I did. Is not love itself a form of a spell, where one is loved and the
other loves, and the one who loves is compelled to do the other's bidding? Of
course. It is the same thing.
... And he
thought then of the Colonel her father, and of Smage, Quazer, Blite, Benoni,
the Baron. All of them paid now, all of them paid. He thought of Rosalie, old
Rosie, and wondered whether she still lived. He resolved to inquire after her
one day at the Sign of the Burning Pestle on the coach road by the ocean. The
Borshin. He wondered whether the deformed creature had somehow survived, and
still sought his trail somewhere, with but one burning imperative within his
twisted body. He was truly the Lord of Bats last weapon, his last hope for
revenge. Like the explosion of a geblinka pod, this made his mind return to
things he had not thought upon for a long while: the computers and The Dugout,
the classes and that girl-what was her name?Clare! He smiled that he
remembered her name, although her face was but a blur now. And there was
Quilian. He knew he would never forget Quilian's face. How he had hated the
man! He chuckled at having left him in the hands of the pain-crazed Borshin,
who had doubtless mistaken Quilian for himself. He remembered that mad drive
across the country, fleeing the light, heading darkside, not knowing whether
the print-outs he carried did indeed contain The Key That Was Lost, Kolwynia.
The thought of his exultation when he tested it. Although he had never
revisited the light, he now felt a strange nostalgia for those days at the
university. Perhaps it is because I am outside .now, he thought, and regarding
this as an object; whereas then I was a part of the object itself.
... And always
his thoughts returned to the towering figure of Morningstar atop Mount
Panicus...
He reviewed his
entire movement, from the Hellgames to his present situation, from the place
where it had all started to this point in his current journey...
. .. And always
his thoughts returned to Morningstar on Panicus, his only friend...
Why were they
friends? What had they in common? Nothing that he could think of. Yet he felt
an affection for the enigmatic being which he had never felt for another
creature; and he felt that Morningstar, for some unknown reason, also cared for
him.
... And it was
Morningstar who had recommended this journey as the only means to accomplish
what must be done...
Then he thought
of the conditions which prevailed on the darkside of the world; and he realized
that he. Jack, was not merely the only one capable of making the journey, but
also was largely responsible for the state of affairs which required the
journey. It was not, however, a sense of duty or responsibility that motivated
him. Rather, it was one of self-preservation. If the darkside died in the
freezing All-winter, he died with it; and there would be no resurrection.
... And always
his thoughts returned to the towering figure of Morningstar on top of Mount
Panicus...
The shudder that
shook him then almost made him release the horns of the horrid creature he
rode. The resemblance! The resemblance...
But no, he
thought. This creature is but a dwarf compared to Morningstar, who towers in
the heavens. This thing hides its face, where Morningstar is nobly featured.
This beast stinks, while Morningstar smells of the clean winds and rains of the
heights. Morningstar is wise and kind, and this thing is stupid and wills but malice.
It is but an accident that both are winged and horned. This creature may be
bound by a magician's spell, and who could bind Morningstar... ?
Who indeed? he
wondered. For is he not bound, though in a different fashion, as surely as I
have bound this beast?But it would take the gods themselves to do such a
thing...
... And he
pondered this and dismissed it.
It does not
matter, he finally decided. He is my friend. I could ask this demon if he knows
of him, but his reply would make no difference. Morningstar is my friend.
Then the world
began to darken about him, and he tightened his grip for fear that he was
growing faint. But as they swooped lower and the darkness deepened, he knew
that they were nearing the edge of the realm.
Finally, the
creature he rode alit. His sweet voice sang out:
This far may I
bear you, master, and no farther. That black stone before you marks the end of
the realm of darkness visible. I may not pass it.
Jack passed
beyond the black stone, and the blackness there was absolute.
Turning, he said,
Very well, then. I release you from my service, charging only that should we
ever meet again, you will not attempt to harm me and shall serve my will as you
have on this occasion. I bid you depart now. Go! You are sent forth!
Then he moved
away from that realm, knowing he was near to his goal.
He knew this
because of the faint trembling of the ground beneath his feet. There was a
barely perceptible vibration in the air, as of the hum of distant machinery.
He moved forward,
meditating on his task. In a short while, magic would be ineffectual, the Key
itself useless. But the black area through which he now proceeded should be
empty of menace. It was simply the blackness that lay before the place. He
caused a small light to occur intermittently, that his feet might be guided. He
needed no guidance for direction; he had only to follow the sound and feel it
strengthening.
... And as it
strengthened, his ability to produce the guide light weakened and finally
failed.
So he moved more
carefully, not missing the tiny light too much because a pinpoint of light was
now visible in the distance. 12
AS THE LIGHT grew
in size, the humming and the vibrations increased in intensity. Finally, there
was sufficient illumination for him to discern his course. After a time, the
brightness was so intense that he cursed at having forgotten to bring his
ancient sunglasses with him.
The brightness
resolved itself into a square of light. He lay on his belly and looked at the
light for a long period of time, allowing his eyes to make an adjustment. He
repeated this many painful times as he advanced.
The floor of the
place had become smooth beneath him; the air was cool but pleasant, and free of
the odors which had prevailed in the region he had recently departed.
He moved until it
was immediately before him. There was nothing but the light. It was a gigantic
opening onto something, but all that he could see was the yellow-white blaze;
he heard a grinding, clanking and humming, as of many machines.
... Or the Great
Machine.
Again, he lay
prone. He crawled forward through the opening. He lay upon a ledge, and for a
moment his mind could not assimilate all that was below.
It had so many
gears that it would have been an interminable task to number them, some turning
slowly, some rapidly, big unto small; and there were cams, drive shafts, and
pulleys and pendulums-some of the pendulums twenty times his own height and
slow, ponderous-and pistons and things that corkscrewed in and out of black
metal sockets; and there were condensers, transformers and rectifiers; there
were great blue-metal banks containing dials, switches, buttons and little
lights of many colors, which constantly blinked on and off; there was the
steady noise, a hum, of still further buried generatorsor perhaps they were
something else, possibly drawing power from the planet itself, its heat, its
gravitational field, certain hidden stresses-which buzzed in his ears like a
swarm of insects; there was the blue smell of ozone, reaching everywhere. There
was the brilliant light coming from all the walls of the enormous cavern which
housed the equipment; there was a battery of buckets which moved on guidelines
above the entire complex, occasionally pausing in their courses to dump
lubricants at various points; there were power cables, like snakes, that wound
from one point to another, indicating nothing he could understand; there were
tiny, glass-enclosed boxes, connected with the whole by means of thin wires,
which contained components so minute that he could not discern their forms from
where he lay. There were no fewer than a hundred elevator-type mechanisms, which
constantly plunged into the depths or vanished overhead, and which paused at
various levels of the machine to extrude mechanical appurtenances into portions
of its mechanism; there were wide red bands of light on the farthest wall, and
they flicked on and off; and his mind could not encompass all that he saw,
felt, smelled and heard-though he knew that he must deal with it somehow-so
that he searched for a clue for the best point of impact, seeking within that
massive structure for that which would destroy it. He found titanic tools hung
upon the walls, tools which could only have been wielded by giants, to service
the thing-wrenches; pliers, pry bars, things-that-turned-other-things-and he
knew that among them lay the thing that he required, a thing which, if properly
employed, could break the Great Machine.
He crept farther
forward and continued to stare. It was magnificent; there had never been
anything like it before, and there never would be again.
He looked for a
way down and saw a metal ladder, far off to his right. He went toward it.
The ledge
narrowed, but he managed to reach the topmost rung, and from there he swung
himself into position.
He began the long
climb down.
Before he had
reached the bottom, he heard footsteps. They were barely discernible over the
sounds of the machinery, but he distinguished them and backed into a shadow.
Although the
shadow did not possess its normal effects, it hid him. He waited there, near to
the ladder, next to a generator of sorts, and thought of his next move.
A small,
white-haired man limped by. Jack studied him. The man paused, found an oilcan
dripped lubricant upon various of the gears.
Jack watched as
the man moved about the Machine, finding various slots and openings, squirting
oil into them.
Hello, he said,
as the man passed.
What-Who are
you?
I am one who has
come to see you.
Why?
I came to ask
you some questions.
Well, that is
pleasant enough and I am willing to answer you. What do you wish to know?
I was curious
about the makeup of this Machine.
It's quite
complex, he replied.
I daresay. Could
you give me details?
Yes, he
answered, dazzling him with the explanation.
Jack nodded his
head and felt his hands grow stiff.
You understand?
Yes.
What is the
matter?
I believe that
you are going to die, he said.
What... And
Jack hit him in the left temple with the first knuckle of his right hand.
Crossing to a
rack of tools near the Machine, he studied the great array of equipment. He
selected a heavy bar of metal, whose function he did not understand. Lifting
it, he sought a small glass case the old man had indicated. He studied the
hundreds of tiny, delicate gears which turned within it, moving at varying
rates of speed.
Raising the bar,
he smashed the glass, and began to destroy the intricate mechanism. With each
blow he struck, a sound of mechanical protest arose from some new portion of
the vast Machine. There came an irregular humming, then a series of clanking
sounds, as if something large had snapped or been torn loose. This was followed
by a shrill whine, a grating sound and the screech of metal against metal. Then
came a banging noise, and smoke began to rise from several segments. One of the
more massive gears slowed, hesitated, halted, and began again, moving more
slowly than before.
While Jack was
smashing the other cases, the lubricant buckets went wild overhead, racing back
and forth, emptying their contents, returning to the wall spigots for more.
There came the smell of burning insulation and a popping, sizzling sound. The
floor began to shake and several pistons tore loose. Now there were flames amid
the smoke, and Jack coughed at the acrid fumes.
The Machine
quivered, ground to a halt, and began again, wildly. It shook as gears raced
and axles snapped. It began tearing itself to pieces. The din grew painful to
his ears. Wheeling, he hurled the bar into the Machine and fled in the
direction of the ladder. /
When he looked
back, there were huge figures, partly hidden by the smoke, racing toward the
Machine. Too late, he knew.
He fled up the
ladder, reached the ledge, raced into the darkness from which he had come.
Thus began the
destruction of the world he had known.
The return
journey proved in some ways more dangerous than the downward one had been, for
the ground trembled now, stirring the dust and debris of the ages, cracking
walls, causing portions of the roof to collapse. Twice, coughing, he had to
clear litter from his way before he could pass. Then, too, the inhabitants of
that great tunnel ran in panic, attacking one another with a new ferocity. Jack
slew many to pass there.
After emerging,
he looked at the black orb, high in the heavens. The coldness still came by it,
more perhaps now than when he had begun his mission of sabotage. He studied that
sphere and saw that it appeared to have moved slightly from the position it had
previously occupied.
Then, hurriedly,
to keep a recent promise he had made to himself, he employed the Key to
transport him to the Sign of the Burning Pestle, on the coach road by the
ocean.
He entered that
inn, built of nightwood, repaired a thousand times, and ancient almost beyond
his memory. As he descended into the central dining area, the ground shuddered
and the walls creaked about him. This caused a silence, followed by a babble of
voices, from a group of diners near the fire.
Jack approached
them.
I'm looking for
an old woman named Rosalie, he said. Does she reside here?
A
broad-shouldered man with a blond beard and a livid scar on his forehead,
looked up from his meal.
Who are you? he
asked.
Jack of Shadow
Guard.
The man studied
his clothing, his face; his eyes widened, then dropped.
I know of no
Rosalie, sir, he said in a soft tone. Do any of you others?
The other five
diners said, No, keeping their eyes averted from Jack, and hastily added,
sir, to this reply.
Who is the
proprietor here?
Haric is his
name, sir.
Where may I find
him?
Through that far
doorway to your right, sir.
Jack turned and
walked toward it. As he went, he heard his name whispered in shadows.
He mounted two
stairs and entered a smaller room, where a fat, red-faced man, wearing a dirty
apron, sat drinking wine. A yellow candle, sputtering on the table before him,
made his face seem even ruddier. His head turned slowly, and it took his eyes
several moments to focus as he peered in Jack's direction.
Then, What do
you want? he asked.
My name is Jack,
and I've traveled far to reach this place, Haric, he replied. I seek an old
woman who was coming here to spend her final days. Her name is Rosalie. Tell me
what you know of her.
Haric creased his
brow, lowered his head and squinted.
Bide a moment,
he said. There was an old hag... Yes. She died some time ago.
Oh, said Jack.
Tell me then where she is buried, that I might visit her grave.
Haric snorted and
quaffed his wine. I hen he began to laugh. He wiped his mouth on the back of
his hand, then raised it to wipe his eyes with his sleeve.
Buried? he
said. She was worthless. We only kept her here for charity's sake, and because
she knew somewhat of healing.
Tiny bulges of
muscle appeared at the hinges of Jack's jaws.
Then what did
you do with her? he inquired.
Why we threw her
carcass into the ocean.Small pickings there for fishes, though.
Jack left the
Sign of the Burning Pestle burning at his back, there on the coach road by the
ocean.
Beside the flat,
black ocean, he now walked. The stars within it danced whenever the ground and
the waters trembled. The air was quite chill, and he felt a great fatigue. His
sword belt was almost too heavy to bear. He longed to wrap his cloak about him
and lie down for a moment. He wanted a cigarette.
As he advanced
like a sleepwalker, his boots sinking into the sand, he was shocked back to
wakefulness at the sight of the one who appeared before him.
It appeared to be
himself.
He shook his
head, then, Oh, it's you, soul, he said.
His soul nodded.
There was no
need for you to destroy that inn, it said, for soon the seas will be
unchained and mighty waves will wash the land. It would have been one of the
first things destroyed.
You are
incorrect, said Jack, yawning. There was reason: it did my heart good.How is
it that you know of the seas coming behavior?
I am never far
from you. I was with you atop Mount Panicus, when you spoke with mighty
Morningstar. I descended with you into the bowels of the world. When you
smashed the Great Machine, I stood at your side. I returned with you. I
accompanied you to this place.
Why?
You know what it
is that I want.
...And you have
had my answer on numerous occasions.
You know that
this time it is different. Jack. By your actions, you are stripping yourself of
most of your powers-perhaps all of them. You have possibly destroyed all your
lives, save for the present one. You need me now. You know that you do.
Jack stared at
the ocean and the stars darting like luminous insects.
Possibly, he
said. But not yet.
Look to the
east. Jack. Look to the east.
Jack raised his
eyes, turned his head.
That is the inn,
burning, he said.
Then you will
not see us united?
Not now. But
neither will I drive you away. Let us return now to Shadow Guard.
Very well.
Then the ground
shook with its most terrific tremor thus far, and Jack swayed where he stood.
When the land
grew still once again, he drew his blade and began to trace a pattern in the
sand.
He began to
pronounce the spell. As he was nearing its completion, he was dashed from his
feet by a great wave which covered him over completely. He felt himself flung
upon higher ground, and his lungs burned for air. He tried to follow it even
farther, knowing what would happen next.
Lights darted
before his eyes as he dug at the sand and pushed forward. He made some progress
in this fashion before the waters began to recede.
He fought their
pull, clawing at the sand, making sculling motions with his hands, kicking out
with his feet, trying to crawl...
... And then he
was free.
He lay with half
his face in the cold, wet grit, his fingernails broken, his boots filled with
water.
Jack! This way!
Hurry!
It was his soul
calling.
He lay there,
gasping, unable to move.
You must come,
Jack! Or accept me now! There will be another wave shortly!
Jack groaned. He
tried to rise, failed.
Then from the
inn, whose flames cast a pale, ruddy glow along the beach, there came a crash
as the roof and one wall collapsed.
There was some
blockage of the light now, and shadows danced about him.
Almost weeping,
he drew strength from them each time they fell upon him.
You must hurry,
Jack! It's turned! It's coming!
He rose to his
knees, then pushed himself to his feet. He staggered forward.
He reached higher
ground and continued inland. He saw his soul waiting up ahead and moved toward
it.
Behind him, there
came the rising sound of the waters now.
He did not look
back.
Finally, he heard
the wave break and he felt the spray. Only the spray.
He grinned weakly
at his soul.
You see? I did
not require your services, after all, he said.
You will soon,
though, said his soul, smiling back.
Jack felt at his
belt for his dagger, but the ocean had taken it from him, along with his cloak.
His sword, which had been in his hand when the wave struck, had gone the same
way.
So the sea has
robbed the thief. He chuckled. It makes things more difficult.
He dropped to his
knees and, wincing because of the broken nail, retraced the pattern he had
drawn on the beach, using his forefinger.
Then, without
rising, he spoke the spell.
He knelt in his
great hall in Shadow Guard, and torches and enormous tapers flickered all
about. For a long while, he did not move, and let the shadows bathe him. Then
he stood and leaned against the wall.
What now? his
soul asked him. Will you cleanse yourself and sleep a long while?
Jack moved his
head.
No, he replied.
I would not risk missing the time of my greatest triumph-or failure, as the
case may be. I will bide here a moment, then fetch strong drugs to keep me
alert, to give me strength.
He then moved to
the cabinet where he kept his drugs, unlocked it by uttering the spell of the
door, and prepared himself a draft. As he did so, he noticed that his hands
shook. Before drinking the orange liquid, he had to spit several times to clear
his mouth of sand.
Then he closed
the cabinet and proceeded to the nearest bench.
You have not
slept in a long while-and you took similar drugs on your way to the Great
Machine.
I believe I am
even more aware of this than you, said Jack.
The strain on
you will be considerable.
Jack did not
reply. After a time, there came a tremor. Still, he said nothing.
It's taking
longer to affect you this time, isn't it?
Shut up! said
Jack.
Then he rose to
his feet and raised his voice.
Stab! Damn it!
Where are you? I've come home!
After a brief
while, the dark one entered almost scurrying.
Lord! You've
returned! We did not know...
Now you do.
Bring me a bath, fresh clothing, a new blade and food-lots of it! I'm starving!
Shake your ass!
Yes, sir!
And Stab was gone.
Do you feel
insecure, that you need a blade about you in your own redoubt, Jack?
He turned and
smiled.
These are
special times, soul. If you've stayed as near to me as you say you have, you
know that I did not ordinarily go in such fashion within these walls. Why do
you seek to irritate me?
It is a soul's
privilege-you might even say, duty-to occasionally do so.
Then find a
better time to exercise your privilege.
But now is the
perfect time. Jack-the most appropriate which has occurred so far. Do you fear
that if you lose your powers your subjects may rise up against you?
Shut up!
You know, of
course, that they call you Jack of Evil.
Jack smiled once
again.
No, he said.
It will not work. I will not allow you to anger me, to trick me into something
foolish.Yes, I am aware of the title they have given me, although few have
ever said it to my face, and none of these a second time. Do you not realize,
however, that were any one of my subjects to occupy my position, he would soon
come to bear a similar title?
Yes, I do
realize this. It is because they lack souls.
I will not argue
with you, said Jack. Though I would like to know why it is no one ever comments
on your presence?
I am only
visible to you, and then only when I wish to be.
Excellent! said
Jack. Why don't you become invisible to me now, too, and leave me to my bath
and my meal?
Sorry. I am not
quite ready.
Jack shrugged and
turned his back.
After a time, his
tub was brought in and filled with water. Some of it was spilled by a world
shudder so violent that it sent a jagged crack like black lightning across one
wall. Two candles toppled and were broken. A ceiling stone fell in a nearby chamber,
harming no one.
Before he had
fully undressed, a fresh blade was brought to him. He paused to test it, then
nodded.
Before he had
entered the tub, fresh garments were laid beside him on a bench.
Before he had
finished bathing, a table was set nearby.
By the time he
had dried himself, dressed and picked up his blade, the food was upon the table
and his place was set.
He ate slowly,
savoring each mouthful. He ate an enormous quantity.
Then he rose and
retired to his study, where he located cigarettes. From there he moved to the
foot of his favorite tower and mounted its stair.
Atop this tower,
smoking, he studied the black sphere. Yes, it had moved considerably since last
he had looked at it. Jack blew smoke in its direction. Perhaps it was an effect
of the drugs, but he felt a sense of elation over what he had done. Come what
comes, he was the mover, father of the new circumstances.
Are you sorry
now, Jack? asked his soul.
No, said Jack.
It had to be done.
But are you
sorry it had to be done?
No, said Jack.
Why did you burn
the inn at the Sign of the Burning Pestle, on the coach road by the ocean?
To avenge
Rosalie, for the treatment she received at that place.
What were your
feelings as you walked along the beach afterward?
I don't know.
Were you just
angry and tired? Or was it more than that?
I was sad. I was
sorry.
Do you get that
way very often?
No.
Do you wish to
know why you have felt more such things recently?
If you know,
tell me.
It is because I
am about. You have a soul, a soul which has been freed. I am always near you.
You have begun to feel my influence. Is it such a bad thing?
Ask me another
time, said Jack. I came to watch things, not to talk.
... And his words
reached the ears of one who sought him, as a distant mountain shrugged off its
peak, spewed fire into the air, belched and was still once again. 13
JACK LISTENED
the sound of snapping rocks and watched the black spot fall; he heard the
groans within the world; he saw the lines of fire cross the land.
There now came to
his nostrils the acrid odors of the inner world. Ashes, like the bats of his
predecessor, swarmed, rose, fell in the chilly air. The stars executed
movements never before recorded in the heavens. Seven torch-topped mountains
stood in the distance, and he recalled the day he had made one move. Flocks of
meteors constantly strung the sky, reminding him of the appearance of the
heavens on the day of his last resurrection. Clouds of vapor and trails of
smoke occasionally obscured the constellations. The ground did not cease its
trembling, and far below him Shadow Guard was shaken upon its foundation. He
did not fear the falling of the tower, for such was his fondness of the place
that he had laid mighty spells upon it and knew that it would stand so long as
his power held.
His soul stood
silent at his side. He lit another cigarette and watched a landslide on a
nearby mountain.
Slowly the clouds
gathered. They collected in the distance, where a storm began. Like
many-legged, fiery-legged insects, they strode from mountain to mountain. They
lit up the northern sky, were assailed by the meteorites, were spat at by the
attacked land. After a time, Jack could hear the growling attendant upon the
conflict. After a greater time, he noted that the battle was moving in his
direction.
When it was
almost upon him, Jack smiled and drew his blade.
Now, soul, he
said, we'll see how my powers hold.
With this, he
scratched a pattern on the stone and spoke.
The river of
light and thunder parted, flowing about Shadow Guard, passing it on either
side, leaving it untouched.
Very good.
Thank you.
They now stood
enveloped: the ground burned and shook beneath them, the storm raged about
them, the sky was barred by shooting stars above.
Now how will you
be able to tell?
I'll be able to
tell. In fact, a lot can be told already, can it not? Jack said.
His soul did not
reply.
Hearing a
footfall, he turned toward the stair.
It will be
Evene, he said. Storms frighten her, and she always comes to me when they
occur.
Evene emerged
from the stairwell, saw Jack, rushed to his side. She did not speak. He wrapped
his cloak and his arm about her. She stood there shivering.
Do you not feel
any remorse over what you have done to her?
Some, said
Jack.
Then why do you
not undo it?
No.
Is it that
remembering, she would hate you?
Jack did not
reply.
She cannot hear
me. If I phrase questions, you could reply briefly and she would think you are
but muttering.Is it more than hate?
Yes.
Both were silent
for a time. Is it that you fear she will go mad if restored?
Yes.
This means you
possess more emotions and sentiments than once you did, more than I had even
suspected.
Jack did not
reply.
The noise and the
flashing lights were still all about them, and Evene finally turned her head,
faced him and said, It is terrible up here. Shall we go below, my dear?
No. You may, if
you wish. But I must remain.
Then I will stay
with you.
Slowly, very
slowly, the storm began to pass, died down, was gone. Jack saw that the
mountains still burned, saw too, that the ruptured land heaved forth fires of
its own. Turning, he noted a whiteness in the air that he finally realized was
not smoke, but snow. This was far to the west, however.
He had a sudden
feeling that it was not going to work, that the devastation would be too
complete. But there was nothing to do now but watch.
Evene... ?
Yes, Lord?
I have a thing
to say...
What is it, my
love?
I-Nothing!
And his soul drew
nearer, standing directly behind him now, and the strange feeling rose until he
could bear it no longer.
Turning back to
her, he said, I am sorry!
For what, my
dear?
I cannot explain
it now, but there may come a time when you recall that I said it.
Puzzled, she
said, I hope that such a time never comes, Jack. I have always been happy with
you.
He turned away
and his eyes went to the east. He stopped breathing for a moment and he felt
his heartbeat everywhere in his body.
Through the dust,
the noise, the chill, it followed the trail. The flaring lights, the trembling
land, the stalking storm meant nothing to it, for it had never known fear. It
glided down hills like a ghost and slithered among rocks like a reptile. It
leaped chasms, dodged falling stones, was singed once by lightning. It was a
blob of protoplasm on a stick; it was a scarred hulk, and there was no real
reason why it should be living and moving about. But perhaps it did not truly
live-at least, not as other creatures, even dark-side creatures, lived. It had
no name, only an appellation. Its mentality, presumably, was not great. It was
a bundle of instincts and reflexes, some of them innate. It was lacking in
emotions, save for one. It was incredibly strong, and capable of enduring
extreme privation, great amounts of pain and excessive bodily damage. It spoke
no language, and all creatures it encountered fled from it.
While the ground
shook and the rocks rattled about it, it began its descent of the
mountain-which-once-had-moved, currents of blazing cloud dropping fires along
its way.
The landslide did
not stop it any more than the tempest could.
It picked its way
among the strewn boulders at the mountain's base and for a moment regarded the
final ascent.
There led the
trail; there must it follow.
High, high-set,
walled and well guarded...
But in addition
to its strength it possessed a certain cunning.
...And its one
emotion.
Win or lose,
it's working, Jack said; and although Evene did not reply, his soul did.
You lose.
Whether it is the world's gain or loss is another matter. But you lose, Jack.
... And as he
gazed into the lightening east, Jack felt that this was true.
For the sky had
grown pale of something other than volcanic fires and storms. Within him, he
felt his power begin to break. Turning to the west, he saw again how far the
black orb had fallen, and the dawn exploded in his mind.
As his power
slipped away, the walls of Shadow Guard began to crumble.
We'd best flee
now.
What do you
care, spirit? You can't be harmed. I'll not flee. I say this tower will stand
against the dawn.
Below him, stones
and masonry raining into a courtyard, a wall gave way, revealing the interiors
of several chambers. Jack heard the cries of his servitors and several rushed
across the courtyard. There came another shaking of the ground and the tower
itself swayed slightly.
Jack faced the
pink-skied east once more. The Key That Was Lost, Kolwynia, is lost again, he
said. This time forever.
For he had tried
a simple spell and it had failed.
He heard a
roaring, as of waters unlocked, and a far portion of the citadel burst and was
scattered.
If you will not
flee, then what of the girl who stands by your side?
Jack turned
toward Evene, having almost forgotten her presence. He saw that a curious look
had come onto her face.
At first, he was
unable to fathom her expression; and when she spoke, he noted that the timbre
of her voice had changed.
What is
happening, Jack?
As she spoke, he
felt her body stiffen and sway slightly away from him. He immediately relaxed
his arm to accommodate her movement.
In an instant, it
filled his mind. With the slipping away of his magical powers, the spell he had
laid upon her so long ago was coming undone. As the dawn spread over the
troubled world, her mind cleared proportionately.
He began to
speak, hoping to occupy her full attention, to keep her from suddenly
considering her changing condition.
It is my doing,
he stated. The seven listed in the Red Book of Ells would not cooperate in maintaining
the Shield against the outer cold, so I slew them. I was mistaken, however, in
considering them expendable. Though I had thought I could manage it, I proved
incapable of performing the feat on my own. There was but one alternative. I
destroyed the Great Machine which maintained the world as it was. Now, we
darksiders, drawing our legends from that near-incomprehensible thing called
science, say it is a Machine that drives the world. The daysiders, equally
superstitious, see the world's core as filled with fire elementals and molten
minerals. Who is to say who is correct and who, incorrect? Philosophers on both
sides have often speculated that the world of the senses is an illusion. It
does not really matter to me. Whatever the reality from which we appear to be
permanently isolated, I journeyed to the world's center and effected a
catastrophe there. You see its results all about you now. Because of my
actions, the world is beginning to rotate. There will no longer be a darkside
and a lightside. Rather, there will be both darkness and light in succession in
all portions of the world. The darkness, I feel, will always hold in some form
the things we have held, and science will doubtless prevail in the light
That is, he added
mentally, if the world is not destroyed.
He wondered, at
that moment, what it was like in the lands of light-back at the universityto
have evening come on, then darkness, to see the stars. Would Poindexter think
it an elaborate semester's end prank?
This way, he
went on, there will be no need to shield against the cold or the heat. The
warmth of the star about which we move will be distributed rather than
concentrated. I...
Jack of Evil!
she cried, backing quickly away from him.
From the corner
of his eye, he saw that a blazing orange arc had appeared above the horizon.
As its rays fell
upon them, the tower trembled, quaked, began to rock violently. He heard the
sound of falling stones within the tower itself, felt through his boots the
vibrations of their dislodgment.
... And Evene
crouched, and her eyes were wide and wild behind the masses of her now freed
hair, which the wind whipped past them...
... And he saw
that in her right hand she held a dagger.
He licked his
lips and backed away.
Evene, he said.
Please listen to me. I can take that toy away from you, but I don't want to
hurt you. I've hurt you enough. Put it away, please. I'll try to make...
She sprang at him
then, and he reached for her wrist, missed, stepped to the side.
The blade went
by; her arms and shoulder followed. He seized her shoulders.
Jack of Evil!
she said again; and she slashed at his hand, cutting it.
As his grip
weakened, she broke free and was upon him, thrusting for his throat.
He blocked her
wrist with his left forearm and pushed her away with his right hand. He
glimpsed her face as he did so, and there were flecks of foam at the corners of
her mouth; lines of blood crossed her chin from where she had bitten her lip.
She stumbled back
against the balustrade and it gave way, almost soundlessly.
He lunged toward
her, but arrived only in time to see her billowing skirts as she fell toward
the courtyard below. Her scream was brief.
He drew back when
the tower's shifting threatened to topple him, also.
The sun was now
half-risen.
Jack! You've got
to leave! The place is falling apart!
It doesn't
matter, he said.
But he turned and
headed toward the stair-well.
It searched the
corridors, after having entered the citadel through a gaping hole in its
northern wall. It left the bodies where they fell, whenever it had to slay. At
one point, a section of roofing fell upon it. It dug its way out and continued
on.
It crouched
behind rubble as brigades of water-bearers rushed by to quench flames; it
concealed itself in niches, and behind hangings, furniture, doors; it glided
like a ghost and slithered like a reptile.
It picked its way
through the debris until it located the trail once more.
High, high it
led, and winding...
There would it
go.
The sky split by
the light, the broken balustrade so clear in his mind, the flower of her skirts
blooming behind his eyes, her spittle and blood the ink of his indictment, the
thunder of the tortured land a form of silence by virtue of its monotony, the
shattered stones sharpened by dawn's shadowy clarity, the winds a dirge, the
movements of the decaying tower an almost soothing thing now. Jack came to the
head of the stairwell and saw it ascending.
He drew his blade
and waited, as there was no other way down.
Strange, he
thought, how the instinct to survive prevails, no matter what.
He held the point
of his blade steady as the Borshin sprang up the final steps and attacked.
It pierced the
creature's left shoulder, but did not halt it. The blade was torn from his
grasp, as the Borshin struck him, knocked him over backward, leaped for him.
He rolled to the
side and managed to achieve a crouched position before the creature attacked
him again. His blade was still in its shoulder, gleaming in the light; no blood
lay upon it, but a thick, brownish fluid was oozing slightly about the edges of
the wound.
He managed to
dodge the second onslaught and strike it with both hands, but the blows had no
apparent effect. It felt as if he were striking a pudding that would not
splatter.
Twice more, he
succeeded in evading its attack, kicking its leg once in the process and
jabbing the back of its head with his elbow as it passed.
Next, it caught
him loosely, but he jostled the blade within its shoulder and escaped with a
torn tunic.
Crouching,
circling, attempting to keep as much distance as possible between them, he
scooped up two pieces of masonry and leaped backward. It would have had him
then, save for his leap. It turned with great speed, and he hurled one of his
new found weapons, missing.
Then, before he
could recover from his throwing stance, it was upon him, bearing him over
backward.
He struck it
about the head with his remaining weapon, until it was dashed from his hand.
His chest was being crushed, and the creature's face was so near his own that
he wanted to scream, would have screamed, had he the breath.
It is
unfortunate that you did not choose properly, he heard his soul saying.
Then the
creature's one hand came to the back of his neck and the other to his head.
They began a twisting motion.
As the blackness
rose from his middle and the tears of pain mingled with the perspiration on his
face, his head was turned in such a fashion that he saw a thing which gave him
an instant's wonder.
The magic was
fled, but this dawn was still like twilight. He had been able to function in
Twilight, not as a magician, but as a thief.
Because of his
power within shadow...
... No blade
could touch him there, no power harm him.
The rising sun,
striking a section of balustrade, cast a long dark shadow that fell but a foot
away.
He struggled to
reach it, but could not. So he flung his right arm as far in that direction as
it would go.
His hand and half
his forearm fell within the shadow.
The pain was
still there, and the creaking of vertebrae; he still felt the crushing weight
upon his chest.
Only now, the
old, dark feeling entered him and flowed through his body.
He resisted
unconsciousness; he stiffened his neck muscles. With the strength he had drawn,
he twisted and pushed until he had dragged his entire arm and shoulder into the
shadow. Then, using his elbows and heels, he managed to force his head within
the potent shade.
He pulled his
other arm free and his hands found the Borshin's throat. He dragged him into
the shadow with him.
Jack, what is
happening? he heard his soul say. I cannot see you when you are in shadow.
After a long
while. Jack emerged from the shadow.
He leaned heavily
upon the nearest balustrade and stood there panting. He was smeared with blood
and a gummy, brownish substance.
Jack?
His hand shook as
he reached within what remained of his tunic.
Damn... he
half-whispered, hoarsely. My last cigarettes are crushed.
He seemed as if
he were about to cry over the fact.
Jack, I did not
think you would survive...
Neither did 1.All
right, soul. You've bothered me long enough. I've been through much. There is
nothing left for me. I may as well make you happy, anyhow. I give you my
consent. Do what you would.
Then he closed
his eyes for a moment, and when he opened them, his soul had vanished.
Soul? he
inquired.
There was no
reply.
He felt no
different. Were they truly united?
Soul? I gave you
what you wanted. The least you can do is talk to me.
No answer.
All right! Who
needs you?
Then he turned
and looked out over the devastated land. He saw how the slanting rays of the
sun brought color to the wilderness he had wrought. The winds had subsided
somewhat, and it was as if there were a singing in the air. For all the
wreckage and smoldering, there was a blasted beauty to the place. It would not
have been necessary that it be racked so, had it not been for that within him
which had brought pain, death and dishonor where it had not been before. Yet,
out of the carnage, or rather, overlaying it now, was something he had never
seen previously. It was as if everything he looked at contained the possibility
of perfection. There were smashed villages in the distance, truncated
mountains, charred forests. All the evil was upon his head, for he had indeed
earned the title he had borne. Yet, out of it, he felt, some other thing would
grow. For this, he could take no credit. He could only bear blame. But he felt
that he was no longer precluded from seeing what might come now that the order
of the world had been altered, from feeling it, delighting in it, perhaps
even-No, not that. Not yet, anyhow. But the succession of light and darkness
would be a new order of things, and he felt that this would be good. He turned
then and faced the sunrise, wiped his eyes and stared some more, for he felt it
the most lovely thing he had ever seen. Yes, he must have a soul, he decided,
for he had never felt this way before.
The tower ceased
its swaying and began to come apart about him.
I meant it,
Evene, he thought. I even said it back before I had a soul. I said I was sorry
and I meant it. Not just for you. For the whole world. I apologize. I love you.
... And stone by
stone, it collapsed; and he was pitched forward toward the balustrade.
It is only
fitting, he thought, as he felt himself strike the rail. It is only fitting.
There is no escape. When the world is purged by winds and fires and waters, and
the evil things are destroyed or washed away, it is only fitting that the last
and greatest of them all be not omitted.
He heard a mighty
rushing, as of the wind, as the balustrade snapped and its rail slipped
forward. For a moment, it was an intermittent thing, similar to the flapping
sound of a garment hung out to dry.
As he was cast
over the edge, he was able to turn and look upward.
Falling, he saw a
dark figure in the sky that grew even as his eyes passed over it.
Of course, he
thought, he has finally looked upon the sunrise and been freed...
Wings folded, his
great, horned countenance impassive, Morningstar dropped like a black meteor.
As he drew near, he extended his arms full length and opened his massive hands.
Jack wondered whether he would arrive in time.