Roger
Zelazny
Prince
of chaos
I
See one coronation and you've seen them all. Sounds cynical
and probably is, especially when the principal is your best friend and his
queen's your inadvertent lover. But there's generally a procession, with a lot
of slow music, and uncomfortable, colorful garb, incense, speeches, prayers,
the ringing of bells. They are tedious, generally hot, and requiring of one an
insincere attention, as at weddings, commencements, and secret initiations.
And so Luke and Coral became the sovereigns of Kashfa, in
the same church where we'd fought almostbut, unfortunately, not quite-to the
death with my mad brother Jurt but a few hours before. As Amber's only
representative at the event-albeit of, technically, unofficial status-I was
accorded a ringside standingplace, and eyes were often drifting my way. So I
had to keep alert and mouth appropriate responses. While Random would not
permit formal status to my presence at the ceremony, I knew he'd be irritated
if he heard that my behavior was less than diplomatically sound.
So I wound up with hurting feet, a stiff neck, and colorful
garments soaked with sweat. That's show biz. Still, I wouldn't have had it any
other way. Luke and I go back through some of the damnedest times, and I
couldn't help but think of them-from sword's point to track meets, from art
galleries and into Shadow-as I stood there sweltering and wondering what would
become of him now he wore a crown. Such an occurrence had changed my uncle
Random from a happy-go-lucky musician, footloose and degenerate, into a sage
and responsible monarch-though I've only my relatives' reports when it comes to
knowing about the first. I found myself hoping it wouldn't mellow Luke out all
that much. Still-again-Luke was a very different person than Random, not to
mention ages younger. Amazing what years can do, though-or is it just the
nature of events? I realized myself to be a lot different than I had been not
so very long ago, from all that had happened to me recently. A lot different
than I'd been yesterday, come to think of it.
During the recessional Coral managed to pass me a note,
saying that she had to see me, giving a time and a place, even including a
small map. It proved an apartment to the rear of the palace. We met there that
evening and wound up spending the night. She and Luke had been married as kids,
by proxy, I learned then, part of the diplomatic arrangement between Jasra and
the Begmans. It didn't work out, though-the diplomatic part, that is-and the
rest kind of fell by the wayside. The principals had sort of forgotten about
the marriage, too, till rezhent events served as a reminder. Neither had seen
the other in years. Still, the record showed that the prince had been married. While
it was an annullable thing, she could also be crowned with him. If there were anything
in it for Kashfa.
And there was: Eregnor. A Begman queen on the Kashfan throne
might help smooth over that particular real estate gab. At least, that had been
Jasra's thinking, Coral told me. And Luke had been swayed by this, particularly
in the absence of the guarantees from Amber and the now-defunct Golden Circle
Treaty.
I held her. She was not well, despite what seemed an amazing
postoperative recovery. She wore a black patch over her right eye and was more
than a little reactive should my hand stray near it-or even if I looked at it
for too long. What might have led Dworkin to replace the damaged eye with the
Jewel of Judgment, I could not even guess. Unless he somehow considered her
proof against the forces of the Pattern and the Logrus in their attempts to
recover it. My expertise in this area, though, was nonexistent. Having finally
met the diminutive mage, I had become convinced of his sanitythough this
feeling in no way served to penetrate those enigmatic qualities that ancient
wise men tend to possess.
How does it feel? I asked her.
Very strange, she replied. Nat pain-exactly. More like
the way a Trump contact feels. Only it's with me all the time, and I'm not
going anywhere or talking to anyone. It's as if I'm standing in some sort of gateway.
Farces are moving about me, through me.
In an instant I was at the center that was the gay ring with
its wheel of many-spoked reddish metal. From the inside, here, it was like a
great web. A bright strand pulsed for my attention. Yes, it was a line to a
very potent force in distant Shadow, one that might be used for probing. Carefully,
I extended it toward the covered jewel she wore in her eye socket.
There was no immediate resistance. In fact, I felt nothing
as I extended the line of power. An image came to me of a curtain of flame,
however. Pushing through the fiery veil, I felt my extension of inquiry
slowing, slowing, halted. And there I hovered, as It were, at the edge of a
void. This was not the way of attunement, as I understood it, and I was loath
to invoke the Pattern, which I understood to be a part of it, when employing
other forces. I pushed forward and felt a terrible coldness, draining the
energies I had called upon.
Still, it was not draining the energy directly from me, only
from one of the forces I commanded. I pushed it farther, and I beheld a faint
patch of light like some distant nebula. It hung against a background the deep
red of port wine. Closer still, and it resolved itself into a form-a complex,
three dimensional construct, half familiar-which must be the pathway one takes
in attuning oneself to the Jewel, from my father's description. All right, I
was inside the Jewel. Should I essay the initiation?
Go no further, came an unfamiliar voice, though I realized
it to be Coral who was making the sounds. She seemed to have slipped into a
trance state. You are denied the higher initiation.
I drew back on my probe, not eager for any demonstrations
that might come my way along it. My Logrus sight, which had remained with me
constantly since recent events in Amber, gave me a vision of Coral now fully
enfolded and penetrated by the higher version of the Pattern.
Why? I asked it.
But I was riot vouchsafed a reply. Coral gave a little jerk,
shook herself, and stared at me.
What happened? she asked.
You dozed off, I replied. No wonder. Whatever Dworkin
did, plus the day's stress...
She yawned and collapsed back on the bed.
Yes, she breathed, and then she was really asleep. I
pulled off my boots and discarded my heavier garments. I stretched out beside
her and drew a quilt over us. I was tired, too, and I just wanted someone to
hold.
How long I slept I do not know. I was troubled by dark,
swirling dreams. Faces-human, animal, demonic, moved about me, none of them
bearing particularly cheerful expressions. Forests fell and burst into flame,
the ground shook and split, the waters of the sea rose in gigantic waves and
assailed the land, the moon dripped blood and there came up a great wailing. Something
called my name...
A great wind rattled the shutters till they burst inward,
dapping and banging. In my dream, a creature entered then and came to crouch at
the foot of the bed, calling softly to me, over and over. The room seemed to be
shaking, and my mind went back to California. It seemed that an earthquake was
in progress. The wind rose from a shriek to a roar, and I heard crashing sounds
from without, as of trees falling, towers toppling...
Merlin, Prince of the House of Sawall, Prince of Chaos,
rise up, it seemed to say. Then it gnashed its fangs and began again.
At the fourth or fifth repetition it struck me that I might
not be dreaming. There were screams from somewhere outside, and steady pulses
of lightning came and went against almost musical rolls of thunder.
I raised a protective shell before I moved, before I opened
my eyes. The sounds were real, as was the broken shutter. So was the creature
at the foot of the bed.
Merlin, Merlin. Rise up, Merlin, it said to me-it being a
long-snouted, pointed-eared individual, wellfanged and clawed, of a
greenish-silver cast of complexion, eyes large and shining, damp leathery wings
folded against its lean sides. From its expression, I couldn't tell whether it
was smiling or in pain. Awaken, Lord of Chaos.
Gryll, I said, naming an old family servant from the
Courts.
Aye, Lord, it replied. The same as taught you the
bonedance game.
I'll be damned.
Business before pleasure, Lord. I've followed the black
thread a long and horrid way to come calling.
The threads didn't reach this far, I said, without
an awful lot of push. Maybe even not then. Do they now?
It's easier now, he replied.
How so?
His Majesty Swayvill, King of Chaos, sleeps this night with
the ancestors of darkness. I was sent to fetch you back for the ceremonies.
Now? Now. Yeah. Well, okay. Sure. Just let me get my
stuff together. How'd it happen, anyhow?
I pulled on my boots, donned the rest of my garments,
buckled on my blade.
I am not privy to any details. Of course, it is common
knowledge that his health was poor.
I want to leave a note, I said.
He nodded.
A brief one, I trust.
Yes.
I scrawled on a piece of parchment from the writing table,
Coral, Called away on family business. I'll be in touch, and I laid it beside
her hand.
All right, I said. How do we do this?
I will bear you upon my back, Prince Merlin, as I did long
ago.
I nodded as a flood of childhood memories returned to me. Gryll
was immensely strong, as are most demons. But I recalled our games, at
Pit's-edge and out over the darkness, in burial chambers, caves, still-smoking
battlefields, ruined temples, chambers of dead sorcerers, private hells. I
always seemed to have more fun playing with demons than with my mother's
relatives by blood or marriage. I even based my main Chaos form upon one of
their kind.
He absorbed a chair from the room's corner for extra mass,
changing shape to accommodate my adult size. As I climbed upon his elongated
torso, catching a firm hold, he exclaimed, Ah, Merlin! What magics do you bear
these days?
I've their control, but not full knowledge of their
essence, I answered. They're a very recent acquisition. What is it that you
feel?
Heat, cold, strange music, he replied. From all
directions. You have changed.
Everyone changes, I said as he moved toward the window. That's
life.
A dark thread lay upon the wide sill. He reached out and
touched it as he launched himself.
There came a great rushing of wind as we fell downward,
moved forward, rose. Towers flashed past, wavering. The stars were bright, a
quarter moon just risen, illuminating the bellies of a low line of clouds. We
soared, the castle and the town dwindling in an eyeblink. The stars danced,
became streaks of light. A band of sheer, rippling blackness spread about us,
widening. The Black Road, I suddenly thought. It is like a temporary version of
the Black Road, in the sky. I glanced back. It was not there. It was as if it
were somehow reeling in as we rode. Or was it reeling us in?
The countryside passed beneath us like a film played at
triple speed. Forest, hill, and mountain peak fled by. Our black way was a
great ribbon heaving before us, patches of light and dark like daytime cloud
shadows sliding past. And then the tempo increased, staccato. I noted of a
sudden that there was no longer any wind. Abruptly, the moon was high overhead,
and a crooked mountain range snaked beneath us. The stillness had a dreamlike
quality to it, and in an instant the moon had fallen lower. A line of light
cracked the world to my right and stars began to go out. There was no feeling
of exertion in Gryll's body as we plunged along that black way; and the moon
vanished and light grew buttery yellow along a line of clouds, acquiring a pink
cast even as I watched.
The power of Chaos rises, I remarked.
The energy of disorder, he replied.
There is more to this than you've told me, I said.
I am but a servant, Gryll responded, and not privy to the
councils of the mighty.
The world continued to brighten, and for as far ahead as I
could see our black ribbon rippled. We were passing high over mountainous
terrain. And clouds blew apart and new ones formed at a rapid rate. We had
obviously begun our passage through Shadow. After a time, the mountains wore
down and rolling plains slid by. Suddenly the sun was in the middle of the sky.
We seemed to be passing just above our black way, Gryll's toes barely grazing
it as we moved. At times his wings hardly fluttered before me, at other times
they thrummed like those of a hummingbird, into invisibility.
The sun grew cherry-red far to my left. A pink desert spread
beneath us...
Then it was dark again and the stars turned like a great
wheel.
Then we were low, barely passing above the tops of the
trees...
We burst into the air over a busy downtown street, lights on
poles and the fronts of vehicles, neon in windows. The warm, stuffy, dusty,
gassy smell of city rose up about us. A few pedestrians glanced upward, barely
seeming to note our passage.
Even as we flashed across a river, cresting the house tops
of suburbia, the prospect wavered and we passed over a primordial landscape of
rock, lava, avalanche, and shuddering ground, two active volcanoes-one near,
one far-spewing smoke against a blue-green sky.
This, I take it, is a shortcut? I said.
It is the shortest cut, Gryll replied.
We entered a long night, and at some point it seemed that
our way took us beneath deep waters, bright sea creatures hovering and darting
both near at hand and in the middle distance. Dry and uncrushed, the black way
protected us.
It is as major an upheaval as the death of Oberon, Gryll
volunteered. Its effects are rippling across Shadow.
But Oberon's death coincided with the re-creation of the
Pattern, I said. There was more to it than the death of a monarch of one of
the extremes.
True, Gryll replied, but now is a time of imbalance among
the forces. This adds to it. It will be even more severe.
We plunged into an opening in a dark mass of stone. Lines of
light streaked past us. Irrregularities were limned in a pale blue. Later-how
long, I do not know-we were in a purple sky, with no transition that I can
recall from the dark sea bottom. A single star gleamed far ahead. We sped
toward it.
Whys I asked.
Because the Pattern has grown stronger than the Logrus, he
replied.
How did that happen?
Prince Corwin drew a second Pattern at the time of the
confrontation between the Courts and Amber. Yes, he told me about it. I've
even seen it. He feared Oberon might not be able to repair the original.
But he did, and so now there are two.
Yes?
Your father's Pattern is also an artifact of order. It
served to tip the ancient balance in the favor of Amber.
How is it you are aware of this, Gryll, when no one back in
Amber seems to know it or saw fit to tell me? Your brother Prince Mandor and
the Princess Fiona suspected this and sought evidence. They presented their findings
to your uncle, Lord Suhuy. He made several journeys into Shadow and became
persuaded that this is the case. He was preparing his findings for presentation
to the king when Swayvill suffered his final illness. I know these things
because it was Suhuy who sent me for you, and he charged me to tell them to
you.
I just assumed it was my mother who'd sent for me.
Suhuy was certain she would-which is why he wanted to reach
you first. What I have told you concerning your father's Pattern is not yet common
knowledge.
What am I supposed to do about it?
He did not entrust me with that information.
The star grew brighter. The sky was filled with splashes of
orange and pink. Shortly, lines of green light joined them, and they swirled
like streamers about us.
We raced on, and the configurations came to dominate the sky
fully, like a psychedelic parasol rotating slowly. The landscape became a total
blur. I felt as if a part of me dozed, though I am certain I did not lose
consciousness. Time seemed to be playing games with my metabolism. I grew
enormously hungry and my eyes ached.
The star brightened. Gryll's wings took on a prismatic
shimmer. We seemed to be moving at an incredible pace now.
Our strand curved upward at its outer edges. The process
continued as we advanced until it seemed we were moving in a trough. Then they
met overhead, and it was as if we sped down a gun barrel, aimed at the
blue-white star.
Anything else you're supposed to tell me?
Not so far as I know.
I rubbed my left wrist, feeling as if something should have
been pulsing there. Oh, yes. Frakir. Where was Frakir, anyway? Then I recalled
leaving her behind in Brand's apartment. Why had I done that? I-my mind felt
cloudy, the memory dreamlike.
This was the first time since the event that I had examined
that memory. Had I looked earlier I would have known sooner what it meant. It
was the clouding effect of glamor. I had walked into a spell back in Brand's
apartment. I'd no way of knowing whether it had been specific to me or merely
something I'd activated in poking about. It could, I supposed, even have been
something more general, enlivened by the disaster-possibly even an
unintentional side effect of something that had been disturbed. Somehow I
doubted the latter, however.
For that matter, I doubted any generality about the
business. It was just too right to have been a booby-trap Brand had left lying
about. It had confounded a trained sorcerer, me. Perhaps it was only my present
distancing from the vicinity of its occurrence that had helped to clear my
mind. As I reviewed my actions from the time of exposure I could see that I had
been moving in something of a haze since then. And the more I reviewed the more
I felt the spell to have been specifically tailored to enfold me. Not
understanding it, I could not consider myself free of it with this knowledge
either.
Whatever it was, it had caused me to abandon Frakir without
thinking twice about it, and it had caused me to feel-well-strange. I could not
tell exactly how it might have influenced, might still be influencing, my
thoughts and my feelings, the usual problem when one is caught up inside a
spell. But I didn't see how it could possibly have been the late Brand himself
who had set the thing up against such an unpredictable occurrence as my having
rooms next to his old ones years after his death, from which I would be
prompted to enter his quarters in the disastrous aftermath of an improbable
confrontation between the Logrus and the Pattern in an upper hall of Amber
Castle. No, it seemed that someone else had to be behind it. Jurt? Julia? It
didn't seem too likely that they'd be able to operate undetected in the heart
of Amber Castle. Who then? And could it have had anything to do with that
episode in the Hall of Mirrors? I drew blanks. Were I back there now I might be
able to come up with a spell of my own to ferret out the one responsible. But I
wasn't, and any investigation at that end of things would have to wait.
The light ahead flashed more brightly now, winking from
heavenly blue to baleful red.
Gryll, I said. Do you detect a spell upon me?
Aye, m'Iord, he replied.
Why didn't you mention it?
I thought it one of your own-for defense, perhaps.
Can you lift it? I'm at a disadvantage, here on the
inside.
'Tis too tangled in your person. I wouldn't know where to
begin.
Can you tell me anything about it?
Only that it's there, m'lord. Does seem rather heavy about
the head, though.
Could be coloring my thoughts a certain way, then?
Aye, a pale blue.
I wasn't referring to your manner of perceiving it.
Only to the possibility that it could be influencing my
thinking.
His wings flashed blue, then red. Our tunnel expanded
suddenly and the sky grew bright with the crazy colors of Chaos. The star we
followed now took on the proportions of a small light-magically enhanced, of
course-within a high tower of a sepulchral castle, all gray and olive, atop a
mountain the bottom and middle of which had been removed The island of stone
floated above a petrified forest. The trees burned with opal fires-orange,
purple, green.
I'd imagine it could be disentangled, Gryll observed. But
its unraveling be a bafflement to this poor demon.
I grunted. I watched the streaking scenery for a few
moments. lfien, Speaking of demons... I said.
Yes?
What can you tell me about the sort known as a ty' iga? I
asked.
They dwell far out beyond the Rim, he replied, and may be
the closest of all creatures to the primal Chaos. I do not believe they even
possess true bodies of the material sort. They have little to do with other
demons, let alone anyone else.
Ever know any of them-uh-personally?
I have encountered a few-now and then, he replied.
We rose higher. The castle had been doing the same. A fall
of meteors burned its way, brightly, silently, behind it.
They can inhabit a human body, take it over.
That doesn't surprise me.
I know of one who has done this thing, several times. But
an unusual problem has come up. It apparently took control of one on the
human's deathbed. The passing of the human seemed to lock the ty' iga in place.
It cannot vacate the body now. Do you know of any way it might escape?
Gryll chuckled.
Jump off a cliff, I suppose. Or fall on a sword.
But what if it's tied to its host so closely now that this
doesn't free it?
He chuckled again.
That's the breaks of the game, in the body-stealing
business.
I owe this one something, I said. I'd like to help
her-it.
He was silent for a time, then replied, An older, wiser
ty'iga might know something about these matters. And you know where they are.
Yeah.
Sorry I can't be more help. They're an old breed, ty iga.
And now we bore down upon that tower. Our roadway under the
shifting kaleidoscope that was the sky dwindled before us to but the tiniest of
streaks. Gryll beat his way toward the light in the window and I peered past
him.
I glanced downward. The prospect was dizzying. From some
distant place a growling sound came up, as if portions of the earth itself were
moving slowly against each other-a common enough occurrence in this vicinity. The
winds beat at my garments. A strand of tangerine clouds beaded the sky to my
left. I could make out detail work in the castle walls. I caught sight of a
figure within the room of the light.
Then we were very near, and then through the window and
inside. A large, stooped, gray and red demonic form, horned and half-scaled,
regarded me with elliptically pupiled yellow eyes. Its fangs were bared in a
smile.
Uncle! I cried as I dismounted. Greetings!
Gryll stretched and shook himself as Suhuy rushed forward
and embraced me-carefully.
Merlin, he said at last, welcome home. I regret the
occasion but rejoice in your presence. Gryll has told you..?
Of the passing of His Highness? Yes. I'm sorry.
He released me and stepped back a pace.
It is not as if it were unanticipated, he said. Just the
opposite. Too much so, in fact. Yet there is no proper time for such an event.
True, I replied, massaging a certain stiffness out of my
left shoulder and groping in my hip pocket after a comb.
And he had been ailing for so long that I had grown used to
it, I said. It was almost as if he'd come to terms with the weakness.
Suhuy nodded. Then, Are you going to transform? he asked.
It's been a rough day, I told him. I'd as soon save my
energy, unless there's some demand of protocol.
None at all, just now, he replied. Have you eaten?
Not recently.
Come then, he said. Let's find you some nourishment.
He turned and walked toward the far wall. I followed him.
There were no doors in the room, and he had to know all the local Shadow stress
points, the Courts being opposite to Amber in this regard. While it's awfully
hard to pass through Shadow in Amber, the shadows are like frayed curtains in
the Courts-often, you can look right through into another reality without even
trying. And, sometimes, something in the other reality may be looking at you. Care
must be taken, too, not to step through into a place where you will find
yourself in the middle of the air, underwater, or in the path of a raging
torrent. The Courts were never big on tourism.
Fortunately, the stuff of Shadow is so docile at this end of
reality that it can be easily manipulated by a shadowmaster-who can stitch
together their fabrics to create a way. Shadowmasters are technicians of
locally potent skill, whose ability derives from the Logrus, though they need
not be initiates. Very few are, although all initiates are automatically
members of the Shadowmaster Guild. They're like plumbers or electricians about
the Courts, and their skills vary as much as their counterparts on the Shadow
Earth-a combination of aptitude and experience. While I'm a guild member I'd
much rather follow someone who knows the ways than feel them out for myself. I
suppose I should say more about this matter. Maybe I will sometime.
When we reached the wall, of course, it wasn't there. It
just sort of grew misty and faded away; and we passed through the space where
it had been-or, rather, a dif ferent analogous space-and we were passing down a
green stairway. Well, it wasn't exactly a stairway. It was a series of
unconnected green discs, descending in spiral fashion, proper riser and tread
distance apart, sort of floating there in the night air. They passed about the
exterior of the castle, finally stopping before a blank wall. Before we reached
that wall we passed through several moments of bright daylight, a brief flurry
of blue snow, and the apse of something like a cathedral without an altar,
skeletons occupying pews at either hand. When we finally came to the wall we
passed through it, emerging in a large kitchen. Suhuy led me to the larder and
indicated I should help myself. I found some cold meat and bread and made
myself a sandwich, washing it down with tepid beer. He nibbled at a piece of
bread himself and sipped at a flagon of the same brew. A bird appeared overhead
in full flight, cawing raucously, vanishing again before it had passed the
entire length of the room.
When are the services? I asked.
Redsky next, almost a whole turning off, he replied. So
you've a chance to sleep and collect yourself before then-perhaps.
What do you mean, `perhaps'?
As one of the three, you're under black watch. That's why I
summoned you here, to one of my places of solitude. He turned and walked
through the wall. I followed him, still bearing my flagon, and we seated
ourselves beside a still, green pool beneath a rocky overhang, umber sky above.
His castle contained places from all over Chaos and Shadow, stitched together
into a crazy-quilt pattern of ways within ways. And since you wear the spikard
you've added resources for safety, he observed.
He reached out and touched the many-spoked wheel of my ring.
A faint tingling followed in my finger, hand, and arm.
Uncle, you were often given to cryptic utterances when you
were my teacher, I said. But I've graduated now, and I guess that gives me
the right to say I don't know what the hell you're talking about.
He chuckled and sipped his beer.
On reflection, it always became clear, he said.
Reflection... I said, and I looked into the pool. Images
swam amid the black ribbons beneath its surface-Swayvill lying in state, yellow
and black robes muffling his shrunken form, my mother, my father, demonic
forms, all passing and fading, Jurt, myself, Jasra and Julia, Random and Fiona,
Mandor and Dworkin, Bill Roth and many faces I did not know...
I shook my head.
Reflection does riot clarify, I said.
It is not the function of an instant, he replied.
So I returned my attention to the chaos of faces and forms. Jurt
returned and remained for a long time. He was dressing himself, in very good
taste, and he appeared to be relatively intact. When he finally faded there
returned one of the half familiar faces I had seen earlier. I knew he was a
noble of the Courts, and I searched my memory. Of course. It had been a long
while, but now I recognized him. It was Tmer, of the House of Jesby, eldest son
of the late Prince Rolovians, and now lord himself of the Ways of Jesby-spade
beard, heavy brow, sturdily built, not unhandsome, in a rugged sort of way; by
all report a brave and possibly even sensitive fellow.
Then there was Prince TubbIe of the Ways of Chanicut,
phasing back and forth between human and swirling demonic forms. Placid, heavy,
subtle; centuries old and very shrewd; he wore a fringed beard, had wide,
innocent, pale eyes, was master of many games.
I waited, and Tmer followed Jurt followed Tubble into
vanishment amid the coiling ribbons. I waited longer, and nothing new occurred.
End of reflection, I announced at last. But I still don't
know what it means.
What did you see?
My brother Jurt, I replied, and Prince Tmer of Jesby. And
Tubble of Chanicut, among other attractions.
Most appropriate, he responded. Entirely appropriate.
And so?
Like you, Tmer and Tubble are both under black watch. I
understand Tmer is at Jesby, though I believe Jurt has gone to earth somewhere
other than Dalgarry.
Jurt's come back?
He nodded.
He could be at my mother's Fortress Gantu, I mused. Or,
Sawall did have a second stead-the Ways of Anch, at the very Rim.
Suhuy shrugged.
I do not know, he said.
But why the black watch-for any of us?
You went off into Shadow to a fine university, he said,
and you have dwelled in the Court of Amber, which I would deem highly
educational. Therefore, I bid you take thought. Surely, a mind so well honed
I realize the black watch means we face some sort of
danger...
Of course.
...But its nature eludes me. Unless...
Yes.
It has to do with Swayvill's death. So it must involve some
sort of political settlement. But I've been away. I don't know what matters are
hot just now.
He showed me row upon row of worn but still nasty fangs.
Try the matter of the succession, he said.
Okay. Say the Ways of Sawall are supporting one possible
successor, Jesby the other, Chanicut the other. Say we're at each other's
throats over the matter. Say I've come back into the middle of a vendetta. So
whoever's giving the orders right now has declared us under watch as a matter
of keeping things from getting messy. I appreciate it.
Close, he said, but it's already gone further than that.
I shook my head.
I give up, I said.
From somewhere there came up a wailing sound. Think about
it, he replied, while I welcome a guest.
He rose and stepped into the pool, vanishing immediately.
I finished my beer.
II
It seemed but moments later that a rock to my left shimmered
and emitted a bell-like tone. Without conscious intent my attention gathered
itself at my ring, which Suhuy had referred to as a spikard. I realized in that
instant that I was preparing to use it to defend myself. Interesting, how
familiar I felt with it now, how adapted I seemed to have become to it in so
short a time. I was on my feet, facing the stone, left hand extended in its
direction when Suhuy stepped through the shining place, a taller, darker figure
at his rear. A moment later and that figure followed him, emerging into
substantiality and shifting from an octopal ape form to that of my brother
Mandor, humanized, wearing black as when last I had seen him, though the
garments were fresh and of a slightly different cut, his white hair less
tousled. He quickly scanned the area about us and gave me a smile.
I see that all is well, he stated.
I chuckled as I nodded toward his arm in its sling.
As well as might be expected, I replied. What happened in
Amber after I left?
No fresh disasters, he answered. I stayed only long
enough to see whether there was anything I could do to be of assistance. This
amounted to a little magical clearing of the vicinity and the summoning of a
few planks to lay over holes. Then I begged leave of Random to depart, he
granted it, and I came home.
A disaster? At Amber? Suhuy asked.
I nodded.
There was a confrontation between the Unicorn and the
Serpent in the halls of Amber Palace, resulting in considerable damage.
What could have occasioned the Serpent's venturing that far
into the realm of Order?
It involved what Amber refers to as the Jewel of Judgment,
which the Serpent considers its missing eye.
I must hear the entire tale.
I proceeded to tell him of the complicated encounter,
leaving out my own later experiences in the Corridor of Mirrors and Brand's
apartments. While I spoke, Mandor's gaze drifted to the spikard, to Suhuy, and
back. When he saw that I noted this he smiled.
So Dworkin is himself once more..? Suhuy said.
I didn't know him before, I replied. But he seemed to
know what he was about.
...And the Queen of Kashfa sees with the Eye of the
Serpent.
I don't know that she sees with it, I said. She's still
recovering from the operation. But that's an interesting thought. If she could
see with it, what might she behold?
The clear, cold lines of eternity, I daresay. Beneath all
Shadow. No mortal could bear it for too long. She is of the blood of Amber,
I said.
Really? Oberon's?
I nodded.
Your late liege was a very active man, he observed. Still,
it would be quite a burden of seeing, though I speak only from guesswork-and a
certain knowledge of principles. I've no idea what may come of this. Only
Dworkin could say. Be he sane, there is a reason for it. I acknowledge his
mastery, though I've never been able to anticipate him.
You know him, personally? I asked.
I knew him, he said, long ago, before his troubles. And I
do not know whether to rejoice or despair in this. Recovered; he may be working
for the greater good. Then again, his interests may be totally partisan.
Sorry I can't enlighten you, I said. I find his actions
cryptic, too.
I'm baffled also, Mandor said, by the disposition of the
Eye. But it still sounds pretty much a local matter, involving Amber's
relations with Kashfa and Begma. I don't see that there is anything to be
gained at this point by speculation. It's better keeping most of our attention
for more pressing local matters.
I felt myself sigh.
Such as the succession? I suggested. Mandor quirked an
eyebrow.
Oh, Lord Suhuy has briefed you already?
No, I replied. No, but I heard so much from my father of
the succession in Amber, with all its cabals, intrigues, and double crosses,
that I almost feel an authority on the subject. I imagine it could be that way
here, too, among the Houses of Swayvill's descendants, there being many more
generations involved.
You have the right idea, he said, though I think the
picture might be a bit more orderly here than it was there.
That's something, anyway, I said. For me, I intend to pay
my respects and get the hell out. Send me a postcard telling me how it gets
settled.
He laughed. He seldom laughs. I felt my wrist prickle where
Frakir usually rides.
He really doesn't know, he said, glancing at Suhuy.
He's just arrived, Suhuy answered. I hadn't the time to
tell him anything.
I groped in my pocket, located a coin, withdrew it, and
flipped it.
Heads, I announced, on inspection. You tell me, Mandor.
What's going on?
You're not next in line for the throne, he said. It being
my turn to laugh, I did.
I already knew that, I said. You told me not that long
ago, over dinner, how long the line was before me-if someone of my mixed blood
could be considered at all.
Two, he said. Two stand before you.
I don't understand, I said. What happened to all the
others?
Dead, he replied.
Bad year for the flu?
He gave me a nasty smile.
There has been an unprecedented number of fatal duels and
political assassinations recently.
Which sort dominated the field?
The assassinations.
Fascinating.
...And so you three are under black watch protection of the
Crown, and were given into the care of your respective Houses' security.
You're serious.
Indeed.
Was this sudden thinning of the ranks a matter of
many people simultaneously seeking advancement? Or was it a
smaller number, removing roadblocks?
The Crown is uncertain.
When you say `the Crown,' who, exactly, are you referring
to, right now? Who's making decisions in the interim?
Lord Bances of Amblerash, he replied, a distant relative
and longtime friend of our late monarch.
I sort of recall him. Could he have an eye on the throne
himself, and be behind any of the-removals? The man's a priest of the
Serpent. Their vows bar
them from reigning anywhere.
There are usually ways around vows.
True, but the man seems genuinely uninterested in such a
thing.
That needn't preclude his having a favorite, and maybe
helping him along a bit. Is anybody near the throne particularly fond of his
Order?
To my knowledge, no.
Which doesn't mean someone mightn't have cut a deal.
No, though Bances isn't the sort of man one would approach
easily with a proposition.
In other words, you believe he's above whatever's going
on?
In the absence of evidence to the contrary. Who is next
in line?
Tubble of Chanicut.
Who's second?
Tmer of Jesby.
Top of the line, your pool, I said to Suhuy.
He showed me his teeth again. They seemed to rotate. Are we
at vendetta with either Chanicut or Jesby? I asked.
Not really.
We're all just taking care then, huh?
Yes.
How did it all come to this? I mean, there were a lot of
people involved, as I recall. Was it a night of the long knives, or what?
No, the deaths have been occurring steadily for some time. There
wasn't a sudden bloodbath when Swayvill took his turn for the worse-though a
few did occur just recently.
Well, there must have been some investigation. Do we have
any of the perps in custody?
No, they either escaped or were killed.
What of those who were killed? Their identities might
indicate their political affiliations.
Not really. Several were professionals. A couple of others
were general malcontents, arguably among the mentally ill.
You're saying there are no clues as to who might be behind
it all?
That's right.
What about suspicions then?
Tubble himself is of course suspect, though it is not a
good idea to say it aloud. He stood to benefit the most, and now he's in a
position to do so. Also, there is much in his career of political connivance,
double-dealing, assassination. But that was long ago. Everyone has a few
skeletons in the cellar. He has been a quiet and conservative man fox many
years.
Tmer, then-He's close enough to generate suspicion. Is
there anything to connect him with the bloody business?
Not really. His affairs are hardly open. He's a very
private man. But he was never associated with such extremes in the past. I do
not know him all that well, but he has always struck me as a simpler, more
direct person than Tubble. He seems the sort who'd simply attempt a coup if he
wanted the throne badly enough, rather than spend a lot of time intriguing.
There could, of course, be a number of people involved,
each acting in his own interest
And now that the matter is imminent they'll have to surface
soon?
It would seem so, wouldn't it?
A smile. A shrug.
No reason for a coronation to end it all, he said.
A crown does not automatically make a person daggerproof.
But the successor would come to power with a lot of bad
baggage.
It wouldn't be the first time in history. And if you stop
to think about it, some very good monarchs have come to power under such a
cloud. By the way, has it occurred to you that the others might be speculating
along these lines about you?
Yes, and it makes me uncomfortable. My father wanted the
throne of Amber for a long time, and it really messed up his life. He was only
happy when he said the hell with it. If I learned anything from his story,
that's it. I have no such ambition.
But for a moment, I wondered. What would it feel like to
control a massive state? Every time I complained about politics, here, in
Amber, back in the States on the Shadow Earth, there was the automatic
corollary of considering the way I'd manage situations if I were in charge.
I wonder? Mandor repeated.
I glanced downward.
Perhaps the others are looking into their own saying pools
just now, I said, hoping for clues. Doubtless, he responded. What if
Tubble and
Tmer did meet untimely ends? What would you do? Don't even
think about it, I said. It won't happen.
Suppose.
I don't know.
You really should make some sort of decision, just to have
it out of the way. You're never at a loss for words when you know your own
mind.
Thanks. I'll remember that.
Tell me more of your story, since last we met.
And so I did, Pattern ghosts and all.
Somewhere near the end the wailing sound began again. Suhuy
moved toward the rock.
Excuse me, he said, and the rock parted and he passed
within.
Immediately, I felt Mandor's gaze heavy upon me. We
probably only have a moment, he said. Not enough time, really, to go into
everything I wanted to cover with you.
Very private, huh?
Yes. So you must arrange to dine with me before the
funeral. Say, a quarter-turning hence, bluesky. All right. Your place, or the
Ways of Sawall? Come to me at Mandorways.
The rock phased again as I nodded, and a lithe demonic
figure entered, shimmering bluely within a veil of cloud. I was on my feet in
an instant, then bowing to kiss the hand she extended.
Mother, I said. I hadn't anticipated the pleasure-this
soon.
She smiled, and then it went away in a swirl. The scales
faded, the contours of her face and form flowed. The blue went away into a
normal though pale flesh color. Her hips and shoulders widened as she lost
something of height, though still remained tall. Her brown eyes grew more
attractive as the heavy brow ridges receded. A few freckles became visible
across her nowhuman, slightly upturned nose. Her brown hair was longer than
when last I had seen her in this form. And she was still smiling. Her red tunic
became her, simply belted; a rapier hung at her left hip.
My dear Merlin, she said, taking my head between her hands
and kissing me upon the lips. I am pleased to see you looking so well. It has
been quite a while since last you visited.
I've had a very active existence of late.
To be sure, she said. I've heard some report of your
various misadventures.
I'd imagine you would have. It's not everyone has a ty'iga
following him about, periodically seducing him in various forms, and making
life, in general, very complicated with unwanted efforts at protection.
It shows that I care, dear.
It also shows that you have no respect for my privacy nor
trust in my judgment.
Mandor cleared his throat.
Hello, Dara, he said then.
I suppose it must seem that way to you, she stated. Then,
Hello, Mandor, she went on. What happened to your arm?
A misunderstanding involving some architecture, he
replied. You've been out of sight, though hardly out of mind, for some time.
Thank you, if that's a compliment, she said. Yes, I go a
bit reclusive every now and then, when the weight of society becomes
troublesome. Though you're hardly the one to talk, sir, vanishing far long stretches
as you do in the labyrinths of Mandorways-if that be indeed where you take
yourself.
He bowed.
As you say, lady, we appear to be creatures of a kind.
Her eyes narrowed, though her voice was unchanged, as she
said, I wander. Yes, I can sometimes see us as kindred spirits, perhaps even
more than in our simplest cycles of activity. We've both been out and about a
lot of late, though, haven't we?
But I've bin careless, said Mandor, indicating his injured
arm. You, obviously, have not.
I never argue with architecture, she said. Or other
imponderables? he asked.
I try to work with what is in place, she told him. Generally,
I do, too.
And if you cannot? she asked. He shrugged.
Sometimes there are collisions.
You've survived many in your time, haven't you? I can't
deny it, but then it has been a long while. You seem made of very survivable
stuff yourself.
So far, she responded. We really must compare notes on
imponderables and collisions one day. Wouldn't it be strange if we were similar
in all respects?
I should be very much surprised, he answered.
I was fascinated and slightly frightened by the exchange,
though I could go only by feeling and had no notion of specifics. They were
somehow similar, and I'd never heard generalities delivered with quite that
precision and emphasis outside of Amber, where they often make a game of
talking that way.
Forgive me, Mandor said then, to the company in general,
but I must absent myself to recuperation. Thank you for your hospitality, sir.
He bowed to Suhuy. And for the pleasure of crossing-paths with you"-this
to Dara.
You've barely arrived, Suhuy said, and you've taken no
refreshment. You make me a poor host.
Rest assured, old friend, there is none could perform
such a transformation, he stated. He looked at me as he
backed toward the opening way. Till later, he said, and I nodded.
He passed into the way, and the rock solidified with his
vanishment.
One wonders at his deliveries, my mother said, without
apparent rehearsal.
Grace, Suhuy commented. He was born with an abundance.
I wonder who will die today? she said.
I am not certain the implication is warranted, Suhuy
replied.
She laughed.
And if it is, she said, they will certainly expire in
good taste.
Do you speak in condemnation or envy? he asked.
Neither, she said. For I, too, am an admirer of grace-and
a good jest.
Mother, I said, just what's going on?
Whatever do you mean, Merlin? she replied.
I left this place a long time ago. You sent a demon to find
me and take care of me. Presumably, it could detect someone of the blood of
Amber. So there was some confusion between myself and Luke. So it settled by
taking care of both of us-until Luke began his periodic attempts to kill me. Then
it protected me from Luke and tried to determine which of us was the proper
party. It even Lived with Luke for a time, and later pursued me. I should have
guessed at something of this because it was so eager to learn my mother's name.
Apparently, Luke was just as closemouthed about his parentage.
She laughed.
It makes a beautiful picture, she began. Little Jasra and
the Prince of Darkness
Don't try to change the subject. Think how embarrassing
that is for a grown man-his mother sending demons to look after him.
1'he singular. It was just one demon, dear.
Who cares? The principle's the same. Where do you get off
with this protective business? I resent
The ty'iga probably saved your life on more than one
occasion, Merlin.
Well, yes. But
You'd rather be dead than protected? Just because it was
coming from me?
That's not the point!
Then what is the point?
It seems you just assumed I couldn't take care of myself,
and
Well, you couldn't.
But you had no way of knowing that. I resented your starting
with the assumption that I needed chaperoning in Shadow, that I was naive,
gullible, careless
I suppose it would hurt your flings if I said that you
were, going to a place as different from the Courts as that Shadow is.
Yes, I can take care of myself!
You weren't doing that great a job of it. But you are
making a number of unwarranted assumptions yourself. What makes you think that
the reasons you gave are the only possible ones for my taking such an action?
Okay. Tell me that you knew that Luke was going to try to
kill me every April thirtieth. And if the answer is yes, why didn't you just
tell me?
I did not know that Luke was going to try to kill you every
April thirtieth.
I turned away. I clenched my fists and relaxed them. So you
just did it for the hell of it?
Merlin, why do you find it so difficult to admit that other
people might sometimes know things you don't? Start with their .
unwillingness to tell me these things.
She was silent a long moment. Then, I'm afraid there is something
to what you say, she replied. But there were strong reasons for not talking
of such matters.
Then start with the inability to tell me. Tell me now why
you didn't trust me then.
It wasn't a matter of trust.
Is it okay to tell me now what it was? Another, longer
silence followed.
No, she finally said Not yet.
I turned toward her, keeping my features composed and my
voice level.
Then nothing has changed, I said, nor ever shall. You
still do not trust me.
That is not true, she answered, glancing at Suhuy. It is
just that this is not the proper time or the proper place to go into these
matters.
Might I fetch you a drink or something to eat, Dara? Suhuy
said immediately.
Thank you no, she replied. I cannot stay much longer.
Mother, tell me, then, something about the ty'iga. What
do you wish to know?
You conjured it from someplace beyond the Rim. That is
cornect.
Such beings are bodiless themselves, but capable of taking
over a living host for their own purposes.
Yes.
Supposing such a being took over the body of a person at or
near the moment of death, making it the sole animating spirit and controlling
intelligence?
Interesting. Is this a hypothetical question?
No. It's really happened with the one you sent after me. It
doesn't seem able to quit that body now. Why not?
I am not really certain, she said.
It is trapped now, Suhuy offered. It can only come and go
by reacting with a resident intelligence.
The body, with the ty' iga in control, recovered from the
illness that killed its consciousness, I said. You mean it's stuck there now
for life?
Yes. So far as I know.
Then tell me this: Will it be released when that body dies,
or will it die with it?
It could go either way, he replied. But the longer it
remains in the body, the more likely it is that it will perish along with it.
I looked back at my mother.
There you have the end of its story, I stated. She
shrugged.
I've done with this one and released it, she said, and
one can always conjure another should the need arise.
Don't do it, I told her.
I shan't, she said. There is no need to, now. But if
you thought there were, you would?
A mother tends to value her son's safety, whether the son
likes it or not.
I raised my left hand, extending the forefinger in an angry
gesture, when I noticed that I was wearing a bright bracelet-it seemed an
almost-hologramatic representation of a woven cord. I lowered my hand, bit back
my first response, and said, You know my feelings now.
I knew them a long time ago, she said. Let us dine at the
Ways of Sawall, half a turning hence, purplesky. Agreed?
Agreed, I said.
Till then. Good turning, Suhuy. Good turning, Dara.
She took three paces and was gone, as etiquette prescribed,
out the same way by which she had entered.
I turned and strode to the pool's edge, stared into its
depths, felt the muscles in my shoulders slowly unknot. Jasra and Julia were
down there now, back in the citadel of the Keep, doing something arcane in the
lab. And then the strands were flowing over them, some cruel truth beyond all
order and beauty, beginning to form themselves into a mask of fascinating,
frightening proportion.
I felt a hand on my shoulder.
Family, Suhuy said, intrigues and maddens. You are
feeling the tyranny of affection at the moment, are you not?
I nodded.
Something Mark Twain said about being able to choose your
friends but not your relatives, I answered. I do not know what they are up
to, though I have
my suspicions, he said. There is nothing to do now but
rest and wait. I would like to hear more of your story.
Thanks, Uncle. Yeah, I said. Why not?
So I gave him all the rest of my tale. Partway through it,
we adjourned to the kitchen for further sustenance, then took another way to a
floating balcony above a lime-colored ocean breaking upon pink rocks and
beaches under a twilit or otherwise indigo sky without stars. There, I finished
my telling.
This is more than a little interesting, he said, at last.
Oh? Do you see something in it all that I don't? I asked.
You've given me too much to consider for me to give you a
hasty judgment, he said. Let us leave it at that for now.
Very well.
I leaned on the rail, looked down at the waters.
You need rest, he said after a time.
I guess I do.
Come, I'll show you to your room.
He extended a hand and I took hold of it. Together, we sank
through the floor.
And so I slept, surrounded by tapestries and heavy drapes, in
a doorless chamber in the Ways of Suhuy. It might have been in a tower, as I
could hear the winds passing beyond the walls. Sleeping, I dreamt...
I was back in the castle Amber, walking the sparkling length
of the Corridor of Mirrors. Tapers flickered in tall holders. My footsteps made
no sound. The mirrors came in all manner of shapes. They covered the walls at
either hand, big ones, little ones. I passed myself within their depths,
reflected, distorted, sometimes re-reflected...
I was halted before a tall, cracked mirror to my left,
framed in tin. Even as I turned toward it I knew that it would not be me whom I
regarded this time.
Nor was I mistaken. Coral was looking at me from out of the
mirror. She had on a peach-colored blouse and was not wearing her eyepatch. The
crack in the mirror divided her face down the middle. Her left eye was the
green I remembered, her right was the Jewel of Judgment. Both seemed to be
focused upon me.
Merlin, she said. Help me. This is too strange. Give me
back my eye.
I don't know how, I said. I don't understand what was
done.
My eye, she went on, as if she had not heard. The world
is all swarming forces in the Eye of Judgment, cold-so cold! -and not a
friendly place. Help me!
I'll find a way, I said.
My eye... she continued.
I hurried by.
From a rectangular mirror in a wooden frame carved at its
base in the form of a phoenix, Luke regarded me. Hey, old buddy, he said,
looking slightly forlorn,
I'd sure like to have my dad's sword back. You haven't come
across it again, have you? 'Fraid not, I muttered.
It's a shame to get to hold your present for such a short
period of time. Watch for it, will you? I've a feeling it might come in handy.
I'll do that, I said.
After all, you're kind of responsible for what happened,
he continued.
Right, I agreed.
...And I'd sure like to have it back.
Yeah, I said, moving away.
A nasty chuckle emerged from a maroon-framed ellipse to my
right. Turning, I beheld the face of Victor Melman, the shadow Earth sorcerer I
had confronted back when my troubles were beginning.
Son of perdition! he hissed. 'Tis good to see you wander
lost in Limbo. May my blood lie burning on your hands.
Your blood is on your own hands, I said. I count you as a
suicide.
Not so! he snapped back. You slew me most unfairly.
Bullshit, I answered. I may be guilty of a lot of things,
but your death is not one of them.
I began to walk away, and his hand emerged from the mirror
and clutched at my shoulder.
Murderer! he cried.
I brushed his hand away.
Bugger off! I said, and I kept going.
Then, from a wide, green-framed mirror with a greenish haze
to the glass, Random hailed me from my left, shaking his head.
Merlin! Merlin! What are you up to, anyway? he asked. I've
known for some time that you haven't been keeping me abreast of everything
that's afoot.
Well, I replied, regarding him in an orange T-shirt and
Levi's; that's true, sir. Some things I just haven't had time to go into.
Things that involve the safety of the realm-and you haven't
had time?
Well, I guess there's something of a judgmental factor
involved.
If it involves our safety, I am the one to do the judging.
Yes, sir. I realize that
We have to have a talk, Merlin. Is it that your personal
life is mixed with this in some way?
I guess that's true
It doesn't matter. The kingdom is more important. We must
talk.
Yes, sir. We will as soon as
`As soon as,' hell! Now! Stop screwing around at whatever
you're up to and get your ass back here! We have to talk!
I will, as soon as
Don't give me that! It verges on the traitorous if you're
withholding important information! I need to see you now! Come home!
I will, I said, and I hurried away, his voice joining a
continuing chorus of the others, repeating their demands, their pleas, their
accusations.
Out of the next one-circular, with a blue braided
frame-Julia regarded me.
And there you go, she said, almost wistfully. You knew I
loved you.
I loved you, too, I admitted. It took me a long time to
realize it. I guess I messed up, though.
You didn't love me enough, she said. Not enough to trust
me. And so you lost my trust.
I looked away.
I'm sorry, I said.
Not good enough, she responded. Thus, we are become
enemies.
It doesn't have to be that way. Too late, she said. Too
late.
I'm sorry, I repeated, and I hurried away.
Thus, I came to Jasra, in a red, diamond frame. Her
bright-nailed hand reached out and caressed my cheek. Going somewhere, dear
boy? she asked.
I hope so, I said.
She smiled crookedly and pursed her lips.
I've decided you were a bad influence on my son, she said.
He lost his edge when he became friends with you.
Sony about that, I said.
...Which may make him unfit to rule.
Unfit or unwilling? I asked.
Whichever, it will be your fault.
He's a big boy now, Jasra. He makes his own decisions.
I fear you've taught him to make the wrong ones.
He's his own man, lady. Don't blame me if he does things
you don't like.
And if Kashfa crumbles because you've softened him?
I decline the nomination, I said, taking a step forward. It
was good that I was moving, for her hand shot out, nails raking at my face,
barely missing. She threw expletives after me as I walked away. Fortunately,
they were drowned amid the cries of the others.
Merlin?
Turning to my right again I beheld the face of Nayda within
a silver mirror, its surface and curled frame of a single piece.
Nayda! What are you down on me for?
Nothing, the ty'iga lady replied. I'm just passing
through, and I need directions.
You don't hate me? How refreshing!
Hate you? Don't be silly. I could never do that.
Everyone else in this gallery seems irritated with me.
It's only a dream, Merlin. You're real, I'm real, and I
don't know about the others.
I'm sorry my mother put you under that spell to protect
me-all those years ago. Are you really free of it now? If you're not, perhaps I
can
I'm free of it.
I'm sorry you had so much trouble fulfilling its terms-not
knowing whether it was Luke or me you were supposed to be guarding. Who'd have
known there'd be two Amberites in the same neighborhood in Berkeley?
I'm not sorry.
What do you mean?
I came for directions. I want to know how I can find Luke.
Why, in Kashfa. He was just crowned king the other day. What
do you need him for?
Hadn't you guessed?
No.
I'm in love with him. Always was. Now that I'm free of the
geas and have a body of my own, I want him to know that I was Gail-and how I
feel. Thanks, Merlin. Good-bye.
Wait!
Yes?
I never said thanks for your protecting me all those
years-even if it was only a compulsion for you, even if it
got to be a big bother for me. Thanks, and good luck.
She smiled and faded away. I reached out and touched the
mirror.
Luck, I thought I heard her say.
Strange. It was a dream. Still-I couldn't awaken, and: it
felt real. I
You made it back to the Courts in time for all the
scheming, I see"-this from a mirror three paces ahead, black-bound and
narrow.
I moved to it. My brother Jurt glared out at me.
What do you want? I asked.
His face was an angry parody of my own.
I want you never to have been, he said. Failing that, I'd
like to see you dead.
What's your third choice? I asked.
Your confinement to a private hell, I guess.
Why?
You stand between me and everything I want.
I'll be glad to step aside. Tell me how.
There's no way you can or will, on your own.
So you hate me?
Yes.
I thought your bath in the Fountain destroyed your
emotions.
I didn't get the full treatment, and it only made them
stronger.
Any way we can forget the whole thing and start over again,
be friends?
Never.
Didn't think so.
She always cared more about you than me, and now you're
going to have the throne.
Don't be ridiculous. I don't want it.
Your desires have nothing to do with the matter.
I won't have it:
Yes, you will-unless I kill you first.
Don't be stupid. It's not worth this.
One day soon, when you least expect it, you will turn and
see me. It will be too late.
The mirror grew entirely black.
Jurt!
Nothing. Aggravating, having to put up with him in dream as
well as waking.
I turned my head toward a fire-framed minor several paces
ahead and to my left, knowing-somehow-it was next on my route. I moved toward
it.
She was smiling.
And there you have it, she said.
Aunty, what's going on?
It seems to be the sort of conflict generally referred to
as `irreducible,' Fiona replied.
That's not the sort of answer I need.
Too much is afoot to give you a better one.
And you're a part of it?
A very small one. Not one who can do you much good just
now.
What am I to do?
Learn your options and choose the best one.
Best for whom? Best for what?
Only you can say.
Can you give me a hint?
Could you have walked Corwin's Pattern that day I took you
to it?
Yes.
I thought so. It was drawn under unusual circumstances. It
can never be duplicated. Our Pattern would never have permitted its
construction had it not been damaged itself and too weak to prevent its coming
into being.
So?
Our Pattern is trying to absorb it, incorporate it. If it
succeeds, it will be as disastrous as it would have been were the Pattern of
Amber destroyed at the time of the war. The balance with Chaos will be totally
upset.
Isn't Chaos strong enough to prevent this? I'd thought they
were equally potent.
They were until you repaired the Shadow Pattern and Amber's
was able to absorb it. This increased its strength beyond that of Chaos. Now it
is able to reach for your father's against the power of the Logrus.
I don't understand what is to be done.
Neither do I, yet. But I charge you to remember what I have
said. When the time comes you must make a decision. I've no idea what it will
involve, but it will be very important.
She's right, came a voice from behind my back. Turning, I
saw my father within a shining black frame, a silver rose set at its top.
Corwin! I heard Fiona say. Where are you?
In a place where there is no light, he said.
I thought you somehow in Amber, Father, with Deirdre, I
said.
The ghosts play at being ghosts, he answered. I have not
much time, for my strength is low. I can tell you only this: Trust not the
Pattern, nor the Logrus either, nor any of their spawn, till this matter be
settled:
He began to fade.
How can I help you? I asked.
The words ...in the Courts came to me before he vanished.
I turned again.
Fi, what did he mean by that? I asked her.
She was frowning.
I get the impression that the answer lies somewhere in the
Courts, she replied slowly.
Where? Where should I look?
She shook her head and began to turn away.
Who would know best? she said.
Then she, too, was gone.
Voices were still calling to me, from behind, from ahead. There
was weeping and laughter, and my name being repeated. I rushed ahead.
Whatever happens, Bill Roth said, if you need a good
lawyer, I'll handle it-even in Chaos.
And then there was Dworkin, squinting at me from out of a
tiny mirror with a twisted frame.
Nothing to be alarmed about, he remarked, but all sorts
of imponderables are hovering about you.
What am I to do? I cried.
You must become something greater than yourself.
I don't understand.
Escape the cage that is your life.
What cage?
He was gone.
I ran, and their words rang around me.
Near the end of the hall was a mirror like a piece of yellow
silk stretched upon a frame. The Cheshire Cat grinned at me from within.
It's not worth it. The hell with them all, he said. Come
to the cabaret,
old chum. We'll tip a few brews and watch the man paint.
Nor I cried. No!
And then there was only a grin. This time I faded, too. Merciful,
black oblivion and the sound of the wind, somewhere, passing.
III
How long I slept, I do not know. I was awakened by Suhuy's
repeating my name.
Merlin, Merlin, he said. The sky is white. And I've a
busy day, I answered. I know. I'd a busy night, too.
It reached you, then.
What?
A small spell I sent, to open your mind to some
enlightenment. I hoped to lead you to answers from within, rather than burden
you with my guesswork and suspicions.
I was back in the Corridor of Mirrors.
I knew not what form it might take.
Was it real?
As such things go, it should have been.
Well, thanks-I guess. It reminds me that Gryll said
something about your wanting to see me before my mother did.
I wanted to see how much you knew before you faced her. I
wanted to protect your freedom of choice.
What are you saying?
I'm sure she wants to see you on the throne. I sat up and
rubbed my eyes.
I suppose that's possible, I said
I don't know how far she's willing to go to effect this. I
wanted to give you a chance to know your own mind before you're exposed to her
plans: Would you care for a cup of tea?
Yes, thanks.
I accepted a mug he proffered and raised it to my lips. What
are you saying about her beyond a guess at her wishes? I asked.
He shook his head.
I don't know how active her program might be, he said, if
that is what you mean. And whether she was connected with it or another, the
spell you came wearing has faded now.
Your doing?
He nodded.
I took another swallow.
I never realized how close I'd gotten to the head of the
line, I added. Jurt is number four or five in the succession, isn't he?
He nodded.
I've a feeling it's going to be a very busy day, I said.
Finish your tea, he told me, and follow me when you
would.
He walked away through a dragon tapestry on the far wall.
As I raised the mug again, the bright bracelet on my left
wrist came free and drifted before me, losing its braided outline, becoming a
circle of pure light. It hovered above the steaming brew, as if enjoying its
cinnamony aroma.
Hi, Ghost, I said. Why'd you weave yourself about my
wrist that way?
To look like that piece of rope you usually wear, came the
reply. I thought you must be fond of the effect.
I mean, what were you up to the whole time? Just
listening, Dad. Seeing how I might be of help. These people are all your
relatives, too?
The ones we've
met so far, yes.
Is it necessary
to go back to Amber to speak ill of them?
No, it works
here in the Courts, too. I took another sip of tea. Any special ill you have
in mind? Or was that a general question?
I don't trust
your mother or your brother Mandor, even if they are my grandmother and uncle.
I think they're setting you up for something.
Mandor's always
been good to me.
.. And your
uncle Suhuy-he seems eminently stable, but he reminds me a lot of Dworkin.
Might he be sitting on all sorts of internal turmoils and ready to flip out
anytime?
I hope not, I
said. He never has.
Oh-oh, it's been
building, and this is a time of stress.
Where are you
getting all this pop psychology, anyway?'
I've been
studying the great psychologists of the Shadow Earth. It's part of my ongoing
attempt to understand the human condition. I realized it was time I learned
more about the irrational parts.
What brought all
this on?
The higher order
edition of the Pattern I encountered in the Jewel, actually. There were aspects
of it I simply could not understand. This led to considerations of chaos
theory, then to Menninger and all the others for its manifestations in
consciousness.
Any
conclusions?
I am wiser
therefor.
I mean,
concerning the Pattern.
Yes. Either it
possesses an element of irrationality itself, like living things, or it is an
intelligence of such an order that some of its processes only seem irrational
to lesser beings. Either explanation amounts to the same thing from a practical
standpoint.
I never had the
opportunity to apply some of the tests I'd designed, but can you say from
self-knowledge whether you fall into such a category yourself?
Me? Irrational?
The notion never occurred to me. I can't see how it could be.
I finished my tea
and swung my legs over the side of the bed.
Too bad, I
said. I think some measure of it is what makes us truly human-that, and
recognizing it in ourselves, of course.
Really?
I rose and began
dressing myself.
Yes, and
controlling it within oneself may have something to do with intelligence and
creativity.
I'm going to have
to study this very closely. Do that, I said, pulling on my boots, and let
me know your findings.
As I continued
dressing, he asked, When the sky turns blue you will breakfast with your
brother Mandor?
Yes, I said.
And later you
will take lunch with your mother?
That's right.
Later still, you
will attend the late monarch's funeral?
I will.
Will you need me
to protect you?
I'll be safe
with my relatives, Ghost. Even if you don't trust them.
The last funeral
you attended got bombed.
That's true. But
it was Luke, and he's sworn off. I'll be okay. You want to sightsee, go ahead.
All right, he
said. I do.
I rose and
crossed the chamber, to stand before the dragon.
Can you tell me
the way to the Logrus? Ghost asked.
Are you joking?
No, he stated.
I've seen the Pattern, but I've never seen the place of the Logrus. Where do
they keep it?
I thought I gave
you better memory functions than that. In your last encounter with the thing,
you pissed it off in the max.
I suppose I did.
Do you think it would hold a grudge?
Offhand, yes.
Upon consideration, yes. Stay away from it.
You just advised
me to study the chaos factor, the irrational.
I didn't advise
you to commit suicide. I put a lot of work into you.
I value myself,
too. And you know I have a survival imperative, the same as organic beings.
It's your
judgment I wonder about. You know a lot about my abilities.
It's true you're
good at getting the hell out of places.
And you owe me a
decent education.
Let me think
about it.
That's just
stalling. I suppose I can find it myself.
Fine. Go ahead.
It's that hard
to locate?
You gave up on
omniscience, remember?
Dad, I think I
need to see it.
I haven't the
time to take you there.
Just show me the
way. I'm good at concealing myself.
I'll give you
that. All right. Suhuy is Keeper of the Logrus. It lies in a cavern-somewhere.
The only way I know to it begins in this place.
Where?
There are
something like nine turnings involved. I'll lay a seeing upon you, to lead
you.
I don't know
whether your spells would work on something like me
I reached out
through the ring-pardon me, spikardsuperimposed a series of black asterisks
upon a map of the ways he must follow, hung it in the space of my Logrus vision
before him, and I said, I designed you, and I designed this spell.
Uh, yes, Ghost
replied. I feel as if I suddenly possess data that I can't access.
It will be
presented to you at the appropriate times. Form yourself into the likeness of a
ring upon my left index finger. We will quit this room in a moment and pass
through others. When we are near the proper way I will indicate it by pointing.
Proceed in that direction and you will pass through something along your route
which will conduct you into another place. Somewhere in that vicinity you will
find a black star indicating the next direction you must take-to another place
and another star and so on. Eventually, you will emerge in a cavern that houses
the Logrus. Conceal yourself as completely as you can and make your
observations. When you wish to retreat, reverse the process.
He shrank himself
and flew to my finger.
Look me up later
and let me know your experiences.
I was planning
to, came his tiny voice. I would not wish to add to your probable present
paranoia.
Keep it up, I
said.
I crossed the
room and entered the dragon.
I emerged in a
small sitting room, one window looking out over mountains; the other, a desert.
There was no one about, and I stepped out into a long hallway. Yes, just as I
recalled.
I moved along it,
passing a number of other rooms, till I came to a door on my left, which I
opened to discover a collection of mops, brooms, buckets, brushes, a heap of
cleaning cloths, a basin. Yes, as I remembered. I pointed to the shelves on my
right.
Find the black
star, I said.
You're serious?
came the small voice.
Go and see.
A streak of light
proceeded from my index finger, grew distorted as it neared the shelves, folded
itself into a line so thin it was no longer present.
Good luck, I
breathed, and then I turned away.
I closed the
door, wondering whether I had done the right thing, consoling myself with the
thought that he would have gone looking and doubtless located the Lo
grus eventually,
anyway. Whatever was to be on this front, would be. And I was curious as to
what he might learn.
I turned and took
myself back up the hallway to the little sitting room. It might be my last
opportunity at being alone for a time, and I was determined to take advantage
of it. I seated myself on a pile of cushions and withdrew my Trumps. A quick
run through the deck turned up the one I had hastily sketched of Coral on that
recent hectic day back in Amber. I studied her features till the card grew
cold.
The image became
three-dimensional, and then she slipped away and I saw myself, walking the
streets of Amber on a bright afternoon, holding her hand as I led her around a
knot of merchants. Then we were descending the face of Kolvir, sea bright
before us, gulls passing. Then back in the cafe, table flying against the
wall...
I covered the
card with my hand. She was asleep, dreaming. Odd, to enter another's dreams
that way. Odder, to find myself there-unless, of course, the touch of my mind
had prompted unconscious reminiscence... One of life's smaller puzzles. No need
to awaken the poor lady, just to ask her how she was feeling. I supposed I
could call Luke and ask him how she was doing. I began searching for his card,
then hesitated. He must be pretty busy, his first few days on the job as
monarch. And I already knew she was resting. As I toyed with Luke's card,
though, finally pushing it aside, the one beneath it was revealed.
Gray and silver
and black... His face was an older, somewhat harder version of my own. Corwin,
my father, looked back at me. How many times had I sweated over that card,
trying to reach him, till my mind tied itself into aching knots, with no
result? The others had told me that it could mean he was dead, or that he was
blocking the contact. And then a funny feeling came over me. I recalled his own
story, in particular when he'd spoken of the times they had tried to reach
Brand through his Trump, being at first unable to because he had been
imprisoned in such a distant shadow. Then I remembered his own attempts to
reach through to the Courts, and the difficulty imposed by the great distance.
Supposing that, rather than being dead or blocking me, he was greatly removed
from the places I had been when I had made the efforts?
But then, who was
it had come to my aid that night in Shadow, bearing me to that peculiar place
between shadows and the bizarre adventures that befell me there?' And though I
was totally uncertain as to the nature of his appearance to me in the Corridor
of Mirrors, I had later encountered indications of his presence in Amber Castle
itself. If he'd been in any of those places, it would seem he hadn't really
been too far off. And that would mean he'd simply been blocking me, and another
attempt to reach him would probably prove equally fruitless. Still, what if
there were some other explanation for all these occurrences and...
The card seemed
to grow cold beneath my touch. Was it just my imagination, or was the strength
of my regard beginning to activate it? I moved forward in my mind, focusing. It
seemed to grow even colder as I did so.
Dad? I said.
Corwin?
Colder still, and
a tingling feeling in my fingertips that touched it. It seemed the beginning of
a Trump contact. It could be that he was much nearer to the Courts than to
Amber, within a more reachable range now...
Corwin, I
repeated. It's me, Merlin. Hello.
His image
shifted, seemed to move. And then the card went totally black.
Yet, it remained
cold, and a sensation like a silent version of contact was present, like a
telephone connection during a long pause.
Dad? Are you
there?
The blackness of
the card took on the aspect of depth. And deep within it, something seemed to
be stirring.
Merlin? The
word was faint, yet I was certain it
was his voice,
speaking my name. Merlin?
The movement
within the depth was real. Something was rushing toward me.
It erupted from
the card into my face, with a beating of black wings, cawing, crow or raven,
black, black. Forbidden! it cried. Forbidden! Go back! Withdraw!
It flapped about
my head as the cards spilled from my hand.
Stay away! it
screeched, circling the room. Forbidden place!
It passed out the
doorway and I pursued it. It seemed to have vanished, though, in the moments it
was lost to my sight.
Bird! I cried.
Come back!
But there was no
reply, no further sounds of beating wings. I peered into the other rooms and
there was no sign of the creature in any of them.
Bird..?
Merlin! What's
the matter?"-this from high overhead.
I looked up to
behold Suhuy, descending a crystal stair behind a quivering veil of light, a
sky full of stars at his back.
Just looking for
a bird, I replied.
Oh, he said,
reaching the landing and stepping through the veil which then shook itself out
of existence, taking the stair along with it. Any particular bird?
A big black
one, I said. Of the talking sort. He shook his head.
I can send for
one, he said.
This was a
special bird, I said.
Sorry you lost
it.
We walked out
into the hallway and I turned left and headed back to the sitting room.
Trumps all over
the place, my uncle remarked.
I was attempting
to use one and it went black and the bird flew out of it, shouting,
`Forbidden'! I dropped them at that point.
Sounds as if
your correspondent is a practical joker, he said, or under a spell.
We knelt and he
helped me to gather them.
The latter seems
more likely, I said. It was my father's card, I've been trying to locate him
for a long' while now, and this was the closest I've come. I actually heard his
voice, within the blackout, before the bird interrupted and cut us off.
Sounds as if he
is confined to a dark place, perhaps magically guarded as well.
Of course! I
said, squaring up the edges of my deck and recasing it.
One cannot shift
the stuff of Shadow in a place of absolute darkness. It is as effective as
blindness in stopping one of our blood from escaping confinement. It added an
element of rationality to my recent experience. Someone wanting Corwin out of
commission would have to keep him in a very dark place.
Did you ever
meet my father? I asked.
No, Suhuy
replied. I understand that he did visit the Courts briefly, at the end of the
war. But I never had the pleasure.
Did you hear
anything of his doings here?
I believe he
attended a meeting with Swayvill and his counselors, along with Random and the
other Amberites, preliminary to the peace treaty. After that, I understand he
went his own ways, and I never heard where they might have led him.
I'd heard as
much in Amber, I said. I wonder... He'd killed a noble-a Lord Borel-near the
end of the final battle. Any chance Borel's relatives might have gone after
him?
He clicked his
fangs twice, then pursed his lips.
The House of
Hendrake ., . he mused. I think not. Your grandmother was Hendrake...
I know, I said.
But I didn't have much to do with them. Some disagreement with Helgram...,
Hendrake Ways is very much of the military sort,
he went on.
Glory of battle. Martial honor, you know.
I can't see them
as holding a peacetime grudge for a wartime happening.
Recalling my
father's story, I said, Even if they considered the killing less than
honorable?
I don't know,
he said to that. It's hard to guess attitudes on specific questions.
Who is head of
the House of Hendrake now? The Duchess Belissa Minobee.
The duke, her
husband-Larsus... What happened to him?
He died at
Patternfall. I believe Prince Julian of Amber slew him.
And Borel was
their son? Yes.
Ouch. Two of
them. I didn't realize.
Borel had two
brothers, a half brother and a half sister, many uncles, aunts, cousins. Yes,
it's a big House. And the women of Hendrake are as doughty as the men.
Yes, of course.
There are songs, such as `Never Wed a Hendrake Lass. ' Any way of finding out
whether Corwin had any doings with Hendrake while he was here?
One could ask
about a bit, though it's been a long while. Memories fade, trails grow cold.
Not easy.
He shook his
head.
How long till
bluesky? I asked him.
Fairly soon, he
said.
I'd better be
heading for Mandorways then. I promised my brother I'd breakfast with him.
I'll see you
later, he said. At the funeral, if not before.
Yes, I said. I
guess I'd better clean up and change clothes.
I headed back
through the way to my room, where I summoned a basin of water, soap,
toothbrush, razor; also, gray trousers, black boots and belt, purple shirt and
gloves, charcoal cloak, fresh blade and scabbard. When I had made myself
presentable, I took a way through a forested glade to the receiving room. From
there, I exited onto a thruway. A quarter mile of mountain trail later, ending
abruptly at a chasm, I summoned a filmy and crossed upon it. Then I bore right
to Mandorways, traveling a blue beach beneath a double sun for perhaps a
hundred yards. I turned right, passing through a remembered archway of stone,
moving briefly past a bubbling lava field and through a black obsidian wall,
which took me to a pleasant cavern, over a small bridge, through a corner of a
graveyard, a few steps along the Rim and into the receiving area of his Ways.
The entire wall
to my left was composed of slow flame; that to my right, a non-returnable way,
save for light, giving sight of some sea-bottom trench where bright things
moved about and ate one another. Mandor was seated humanformed before a
bookcase directly ahead, wearing black and white, feet propped on a black
ottoman, a copy of Robert Hass's Praise, which I had given him, in his hand.
He smiled as he
looked up.
`Death's hounds
feared me,' he said. Nice line, that. How are you this cycle?
Rested,
finally, I said. Yourself?
He placed the
book upon a small, legless table that floated near just then, and rose to his
feet. The fact that he had obviously been reading it because I was coming in no
way detracted from the compliment. He had always been that way.
Quite well,
thank you, he replied. Come, let me feed you.
He took my arm
and steered me toward the wall of fire. It fell away as we drew near and our footsteps
sounded in a place of momentary darkness, succeeded almost immediately by a
small lane, sunlight filtered through arching branches overhead, violets
blooming at either hand. The lane took us to a flagged patio, a green and white
gazebo at its farther end. We mounted a few stairs to a well-set table within,
frosted pitchers of juice and baskets of warm rolls near at hand. He gestured
and I seated myself. At his gesture a carafe of coffee appeared beside my
setting.
I see you recall
my morning predeliction, I said, from the Shadow Earth. Thank you.
He smiled faintly
as he nodded, seating himself across from me. Birdsongs I could not identify
sounded from the trees. A gentle breeze caused leaves to rustle.
What are you up
to these days? I asked him as I poured a cup of coffee and broke a roll.
Observing the
scene, mainly, he replied.
Political
scene?
As always.
Though my recent experience in Amber has led me to regard it as part of an even
larger picture.
I nodded.
And your
investigations with Fiona?
Those, too, he
answered. These are shaping up into very unusual times.
I've noticed.
It seems almost
as if the Pattern-Logrus conflict were making itself manifest in mundane
affairs, as well as on the cosmic scale.
I feel that way,
too. But then I'm prejudiced. I got caught up in the cosmic part early, and
without a scorecard. I've been run all over the place and manipulated every
which way recently-to the point where all of my affairs seemed part of their
bigger picture. I don't like it a bit, and if I had some way to make them back
off I'd use it.
Hm, he said.
And what if your whole life were a study in manipulation?
I wouldn't feel
good about it, I said. I guess I'd feel just the way I do now, only perhaps
more intensely.
He gestured and
an amazing omelet appeared before me, followed, moments later, by a side dish
of fried potatoes, mixed with what appeared to be green chilies and onions.
All of this is
hypothetical, I said as I began eating, isn't it?
There followed a
long pause as he took his first mouthful, then, I think not, he said.
I think the
Powers have been moving madly for a long while now, he went on, and we're
finally nearing endgame.
What makes you
privy to these matters?
It began with a
careful consideration of events, he said. Then followed the formulation and
testing of hypotheses.
Spare me a
lecture on the use of the scientific method in theology and human politics, I
said.
You asked.
True. Go ahead.
Do you not feel
it somewhat odd that Swayvill expired just when he did, when so many things are
coming to fruition simultaneously, after having hung on for so long?
He had to go
sometime, I said, and all the recent stresses probably proved too much.
Timing, Mandor
said. Strategic placement. Timing.
For what?
To place you on
the throne of Chaos, of course, he replied.
IV
Sometimes you
hear an unlikely thing and that's all it is. Other times, you hear something
improbable and it strikes an echo. There is an immediate feeling of having
known it, or known something very like it, all along, and just not having
bothered to pick it up and examine it. By rights, I should have choked at
Mandor's pronouncement, then snorted something such as Preposterous! Yet, I'd
a peculiar feeling about this businesswhether his conclusion was right or
wrong-as if there were something more than ionjecture involved, as if there
just might be some overall plan moving me toward the circle of power in the
Courts.
I took a long,
slow drink of coffee. Then, Really? I said.
I felt myself
smiling as he sought my eyes, studied my face.
Are you
consciously party to the effort?
I raised my
coffee cup again. I had been about to say,
No, of course
not. This is the first I've heard of the notion. Then I recalled my father's
telling me how he had duped Aunt Flora into giving him vital information his
amnesia had washed away. It was not the cleverness with which he had done it
that had impressed me so much as the fact that his mistrust of relatives
transcended consciousness, existed as a pure existential reflex. Not having
been through all the family rivalries Corwin had, I lacked responses of such
intensity. And Mandor and I had always gotten along particularly well, even though
he was a few centuries older and had very different tastes in some areas. But,
suddenly, discussing such a high-stakes matter as we were, that small voice
Corwin referred to as his worse-if-wiser self suggested, Why not? You could
use the practice, kid, and as I lowered the cup again I decided to try it out,
just to see how it felt, for a few minutes.
I don't know
whether we both have the same thing in mind, I said. Why don't you tell me
about the middle game-or perhaps even the opening-for what you see rushing to
conclusion now.
Both the Pattern
and the Logrus are sentient, he said. We've both seen evidence of that.
Whether they are manifestations of the Unicorn and the Serpent or the other way
around makes no real difference. Either way, we are talking about a pair of
greater-than-human intelligences with vast powers at their disposal. Whichever
came first is also one of those useless theological points. We need only
concern ourselves with the present situation, as it affects us.
I nodded.
A fair
assessment, I agreed.
The forces they
represent have been opposed but fairly evenly matched for ages, he went on,
and thus a kind of balance has been maintained. They have constantly sought
small victories over each other, each attempting to add to its own domain at
the expense of the other. It appears to be a zero-sum game. Both Oberon and
Swayvill were their agents for a long while, with Dworkin and Suhuy as their
intermediaries with the powers themselves.
So? I said as
he took a sip of juice.
I believe that
Dworkin had touched the Pattern too closely, he continued, and so became
subject to ma-, nipulation. He was sufficiently sophisticated, however, that he
realized this and resisted. This resulted in his madness, with a reciprocal
damaging effect on the Pattem itself because of their close connection. This,
in turn, caused the Pattern to leave him alone, rather than risk further
trauma. The damage was done, though, and the Logrus gained a small edge. This
allowed it to act in the realm of order when Prince Brand began his experiments
to increase his personal abilities. I believe he laid himself open to control
and became an unwitting agent of the Logrus.
That's a lot of
supposition, I said.
Consider, he
responded, that his aims seemingly became those of a madman. They make much
more sense when seen as the goal of something wanting to destroy all order, to
restore the universe to chaos.
Continue, I
said.
At some point,
the Pattern discovered-or perhaps possessed all along-the ability to create
`ghosts,' shortlived simulacra of those who had negotiated it. Fascinating
concept, that. I was very interested to learn of it. It provided a major
mechanism, supporting my thesis of the Pattern's and possibly the Logrus's,
direct action in the promotion of physical events. Might they have figuted in
the setting up of your father as the Pattern's champion against Brand? I
wonder.
I don't follow,
I said. Setting him up, you say?
I've a feeling
he was really the Pattern's choice as the next King of Amber, easy to promote,
too, as it seemed to coincide with his own wishes. I've wondered about his
sudden recovery in that Shadow Earth clinic, and particularly about the
circumstances surrounding the accident that put him there, when even with
differing time streams it seemed possible that Brand might have had to be in
two places at the same time-imprisoned and looking down the sights of a rifle.
Of course, Brand is no longer available to clarify the matter.
More
supposition, I said, finishing my omelet. But not
uninteresting.
Please continue.
Your father had
second thoughts about the throne, however. Still, he was Amber's champion.
Amber did win the war. The Pattern was repaired. The balance was restored.
Random was the second choice as monarcha good maintainer of the status quo-and
that choice was made by the Unicorn, not by the Amberites following any of
their versions of the Rules of Succession.
I never looked
at it all that way, I said.
And your
father-inadvertently, I believe-provided a bonus. Afraid that the Pattern had
not been repaired, he drew another. Only, it had been repaired. Thus, there
were two artifacts of order, rather than one. Though, as a separate entity; it probably
did not add to the Pattern's strength, it added to order, as such, diminishing
the effects of the Logrus. So your father set the balance right, then proceeded
to tip it again-in the other direction.
This is your
conclusion from the investigations you and Fiona made of the new Pattern?
He nodded slowly,
took a sip of juice.
Hence, more
Shadow storms than usual, as a mundane effect, he said, bringing us up to
present times. Yes, present times, I said, pouring more coffee.
We've noted
they've grown interesting.
Indeed. Your
story of the girl Coral, asking the Pattern to send her to an appropriate
place, is a case in point. What did it immediately do? It sent her to a Shadow
Pattern and turned out the lights. Then it sent you to rescue her, repairing
that edition of itself in the process. Once it was repaired it was no longer a
Shadow Pattern, but another version of itself that it was then able to absorb.
It probably absorbed that entire shadow as well, adding considerably to its own
energies. Its edge over the Logrus increased even more. The Logrus would need a
big gain to restore the balance after that. So it risked an incursion into the
Pattern's domain, in a desperate effort to obtain the Eye of Chaos. That ended
in a stalemate, though, because of the intervention of that bizarre entity you
call Ghostwheel. So the balance remains tipped in the Pattern's favor, an
unhealthy state of affairs.
For the Logrus.
For everybody,
I'd say. The Powers will be at odds, the shadows in turmoil and disorder in
both realms till things have been righted.
So something
should be done to benefit the Logrus .
You already know
that.
I suppose I do.
It communicated
with you directly, didn't it?
I recalled my
night in the chapel in the place between shadows, where I had been faced with a
choice between the Serpent and the Unicorn, the Logrus and the Pattern.
Resenting the bullying in such a forced format, I had refused to choose either.
Yes, it did, I
answered.
It wanted you
for its champion, didn't it?
I suppose it
did, I said.
And..?
...And here we
are, I replied.
Did it indicate
anything that might support my thesis?
I thought about
that trek through the Undershadow, mixing menace with ghosts-Pattern, Logrus,
or both. I suppose it did, I repeated.
But, ultimately,
it had bin the Pattern I had served at the end of that journey, albeit
unwittingly.
You are prepared
to execute its design for the good of the Courts?
I'm prepared to
seek resolution of this matter, For everybody's peace of mind.
He smiled.
Is that a
qualification or an agreement?
It's a statement
of intent, I said.
If the Logrus
has chosen you, it has its reasons.
I daresay.
It almost goes
without saying that having you on the throne would strengthen the House of
Sawall immensely.
The thought had
occurred to me, now you mention it.
For one with
your background, of course, it would become necessary to determine where your ultimate
loyalty lies-with Amber or with the Courts.
Do you foresee
another war?
No, of course
not. But anything you do to strengthen the Logrus will arouse the Pattern and
provoke some response from Amber. Hardly to the point of war, but possibly to
that of retaliation.
Could you be
more specific as to what you have in mind?
I'm only dealing
in generalities at the moment, to give you opportunity to assess your
reactions.
I nodded.
Since we're
talking generalities I'll just repeat my statement: I'm prepared to seek a
resolution
All right, he
said. We understand each other to this extent. In the event you make it to the
throne, you want the same thing we do
`We'? I
interrupted.
The House of
Sawall, of course. -But you don't want anyone dictating specifics to you.
That says it
nicely, I replied.
But of course
we're speaking hypothetically, there being a couple of others about with
stronger claims.
So why argue
contingencies?
If the House
were able to see you crowned, however, do you acknowledge you would owe
consideration for this?
Brother, I
said, you are the House, for all major purposes. If you're asking for a
commitment before taking out Tmer and Tubble, forget it, I'm not all that eager
to sit on a throne.
Your wishes are
not paramount in this, he said. There is no reason for squeamishness when you
consider that we've long been at odds with Jesby, and Chanicut's always been a
troublemaker.
Squeamishness
has nothing to do with it, I said. I never said I wanted the throne. And,
frankly, I think either Tmer or Tubble would probably do a better job.
They are not
designates of the Logrus.
And if I am, I
should make it without any help.
Brother, there
is a big gap between its world of principles and ours of flesh, stone, and
steel.
And supposing I
have my own agenda and it does not include your plan?
What is it,
then?
We're speaking
hypothetically, remember?
Merlin, you're
being obstinate. You've a duty in this, to the House as well as to the Courts
and the Logrus.
I can assess my
own duties, Mandor, and I haveso far.
If you've a plan
to set things right, and it's a good one, we'll help you to effectuate it. What
have you in mind?
I do not require
help at this point, I said, but I'll remember that.
What do you
require right now?
Information, I
said.
Ask me. I have a
lot.
All right. What
can you tell me about my mother's maternal side, the House of Hendrake?
He pursed his
lips.
They're into
soldiering, professionally, he said.
You know they're
always off fighting in Shadow wars. They love it. Belissa Minobee's been in
charge since General Larsus's death. Hm. He paused. Then, Do you ask because
of their rather odd fixation involving Amber?
Amber? I said.
What do you mean?
I recall a
social visit to the Ways of Hendrake one time, he said, when I wandered into
a small, chapellike room. In a niche in one wall there hung a portrait of General
Benedict, in full battle regalia. There was an altarlike shelf below it bearing
several weapons, and upon which a number of candles were burning. Your mother's
picture was there, too.
Really? I said.
I wonder whether Benedict knows? Dara once told my father she was descended
from Benedict. Later, he figured this an out-and-out lie... Do you think people
like that would hold a grudge against my father?
For what?
Corwin slew
Borel of Hendrake at the time of the Patternfall War.
They tend to take
such things philosophically.
Still, I gather
it was a somewhat less than kosher engagement from the way he described
it-though I don't believe there were any witnesses.
So let sleeping
wyverns lie.
I've no
intention of rousing them. But what I was wondering was that if they had
somehow heard details they might have been out to clear some debt of honor on
his behalf. Do you think they could have been behind his disappearance?
I just don't
know, he replied, how that would fit in with their code. I suppose you could
ask them.
Just come out
and say, `Hey, are you responsible for whatever happened to my dad?'
There are more
subtle ways of learning a person's attitudes, he responded. As I recall, you
had a few lessons in them in your youth.
But I don't even
know these people. I mean, I might have met one of the sisters at a party, now
I think of it-and I recall having seen Larsus and his wife in the distance a
few times-but that's it.
Hendrake will
have a representative at the funeral, he said. If I were to introduce you,
perhaps you could apply a little glamour to obtain an informal audience.
You know, that
may be the way to go, I told him.
Probably the
only way. Yes, do that, please.
Very well.
He cleared the
table with a gesture, filled it with another. This time, paper-thin crepes with
a variety of fillings and toppings appeared before us; and fresh rolls,
variously spiced. We ate for a time in silence, appreciating the balminess and
the birds, the breezes.
I wish I could
have seen something of Amber, he said at length, under less restricted
circumstances.
I'm sure that
can be arranged, I replied. I'd like
to show you
around. I know a great restaurant in Death Alley.
That wouldn't be
Bloody Eddies, would it?
It would, though
the name gets changed periodically.
I've heard of
it, and long been curious.
We'll do that
one day.
Excellent.
He clapped his
hands and bowls of fruit appeared. I'` freshened my coffee and swirled a Kadota
fig in a bowl of whipped cream.
I'll be dining
with my mother later, I remarked.
Yes. I
overheard.
Have you seen
much of her recently? How's she . r been?
As she said,
rather reclusive, he replied.
Do you think
she's up to something?
Probably, he
said. I can't recall a time when she hasn't been.
Any idea what?
Why should I
guess when she'll probably tell you outright?
You really think
she will?
You have an
advantage over everyone else, in being her son.
Also a drawback,
for the same reason.
Still, she's
more likely to tell you things than she would anyone else.
Except, perhaps,
Jurt. Why do you say that?
She always liked
him better.
Funny, I've
heard him say the same thing about you.
You see him
often?
Often? No.
When was the
last time?
About two cycles
ago.
Where is he?
Here, in the
Courts.
At Sawall? I
had visions of him joining us for lunch. I wouldn't put something like that
past Dara either.
One of its
byways, I think. He's rather reticent concerning his comings and goings-and
stayings.
There being
something like eight byway residences to Sawall that I knew of, it would be
difficult to run him down through byways that could lead well into Shadow. Not
that I'd any desire to, at the moment.
What brings him
home? I asked.
The same thing
as yourself, the funeral, he said, and all that goes with it.
All that goes
with it, indeed! If there were a genuine plot to put me on the throne, I could never
forget thatwilling or unwilling, successful or unsuccessful-Jurt would be a
step or two behind me all the way.
I may have to
kill him, I said. I don't want to. But he's not giving me a whole lot of
choice. Sooner or later, he's going to force us into a position where it has to
be one or the other.
Why do you tell
me this?
So you'll know
how I feel about it, and so that you might use whatever influence you may still
have to persuade him to find a different hobby.
He shook his
head.
Jun moved beyond
my influence a long time ago, he said. Dara's about the only one he'll listen
tothough I suspect he's still afraid of Suhuy. You might speak to her
concerning this matter, soon.
It's the one
thing neither of us can discuss with her-the other.
Why not?
It's just the
way it is. She always misunderstands.
I'm certain
she's not going to want her sons killing each other.
Of course not,
but I don't know how to put the matter to her.
I suggest you
make an effort to find a way. In the meantime, I would contrive not to be alone
with Jurt should your paths cross. And if it were me, in the pres- ence of
witnesses, I would make certain that the first blow was not mine.
Well taken,
Mandor, I said.
We sat for a time
in silence. Then, You will think about my proposal, he said.
As I understand
it, I replied.
He frowned.
If you have any
questions...
No. I'll be
thinking.
He rose. I got to
my feet, also. With a gesture, he cleared the table. Then he turned away and I
followed him out of the gazebo and across its yard to the trail.
We emerged after
a stroll in his external study cum receiving room. He squeezed my shoulder as
we headed for the exit.
I'll see you at
the funeral then, he remarked.
Yes, I said.
Thanks for the breakfast.
By the way, how
well do you like that lady, Coral? he asked.
Oh, pretty
well, I said. She's quite-nice.
Why?
He shrugged.
Just curious. I
was concerned about her, having been present at the time of her misadventure,
and I wondered how much she meant to you.
Enough that it
bothers me a lot, I said.
I see. Well,
give her my good wishes if you should talk to her.
Thanks, I will.
We'll talk again
later.
Yes.
I strode into the
way, making no haste. I still had considerable time before I was due by the
Ways of Sawall.
I paused when I
came to a gibbet-shaped tree. A moment's reflection and I turned left,
following an ascending trail among dark rocks. Near its top, I walked directly
into a mossy boulder, emerging from a sandbank into a light rain. I ran across
the field before me, till I came to the fairy circle beneath the ancient tree.
I stepped to its middle, made up a couplet with my name for the rhyme, and sank
into the ground. When I was halted and the moment's darkness went away, I found
myself beside a damp stone wall, looking downhill across a prospect of
headstones and monuments. The sky was fully overcast and a cool breeze wandered
by. It felt to be one of the ends of a day, but whether morning or twilight lay
near, I could not tell. The place looked exactly as I remembered it-cracked
mausoleums hung with ivy, falling stone fences, wandering paths beneath high,
dark trees. I moved down familiar trails.
As a child, this
had been a favored playground of mine, for a time. I met here almost daily, for
dozens of cycles, with a little shadow girl named Rhanda. Kicking through
boneheaps, brushing by damp shrubbery, I came at length to the damaged
mausoleum where we had played house. Pushing aside the sagging gate, I entered.
Nothing had
changed, and I found myself chuckling. The cracked cups and saucers, tarnished
utensils, were still stacked in the corner, heavy with dust, stained with
seepage. I brushed off the catafalque we'd used as a table, seated myself upon
it. One day Rhanda had simply stopped corning, and after a time I had, too. I'd
often wondered what sari of woman she had become. I'd left her a note in our
hiding place, beneath a loose floor stone, I recalled. I wondered whether she'd
ever found it.
I raised the
stone. My filthy envelope still lay there, unsealed. I took it out, shook it
off, slid out my folded sheet.
I unfolded it,
read my faded childish scrawl: What happened Rhanda? 1 waited and you didn't
come. Beneath it, in a far neater hand, was written: I can't come anymore
because my folks say you are a demon or a vampire. I'm sorry because you are
the nicest demon or vampire I know. I'd never thought of that possibility.
Amazing, the ways one can be misunderstood.
I sat there for a
time, remembering growing up. I'd taught Rhanda the bonedance game in here. I
snapped my fingers then, and our old ensorcelled heap of them across the way
made a sound like stirring leaves. My juvenile spell was still in place; the
bones rolled forward, arranged themselves into a pair of manikins, began their
small, awkward dance. They circled each other, barely holding their shapes,
pieces flaking away, cobwebs trailing; loose ones-spares-began to bounce about
them. They made tiny clicking sounds as they touched. I moved them faster.
A shadow crossed
the doorway, and I heard a chuckle. I'll be damned! All you need's a tin roof.
So this is how they spend their time in Chaos.
Luke! I
exclaimed as he stepped inside, my manikins collapsing as my attention left
them, into little gray, sticklike heaps. What are you doing here?
Could say I was
selling cemetery lots, he observed. You interested in one?
He had on a red
shirt and brown khakis tucked into his brown suede boots. A tan cloak hung
about his shoulders. He was grinning.
Why aren't you
off ruling?
His smile went
away, to be replaced by a moment of puzzlement, returned almost instantly.
Oh, felt I
needed a break. What about you? There's a funeral soon, isn't there?
I nodded.
Later on, I
said. I'm just taking a break myself. How'd you get here, anyway?
Followed my
nose, he said. Needed some intelligent conversation.
Be serious.
Nobody knew I was coming here. I didn't even know it till the last minute. I
I groped about in
my pockets.
You didn't plant
another of those blue stones on me, did you?
No; nothing that
simple, he replied. I seem to have some sort of message for you.
I got to my feet,
approached him, studying his face.
Are you okay,
Luke?
Sure. As okay as
I ever am, that is.
It's no mean
stunt, finding your way this near to the Courts. Especially if you've never
been here before. How'd you manage it?
Well, the Courts
and I go back a long ways, old buddy. You might say it's in my-blood.
He moved aside
from the doorway and I stepped outside. Almost automatically, we began walking.
I don't
understand what you're saying, I told him.
Well, my dad
spent some time here, back in his plotting days, he said. It's where he met
my mother.
I didn't know
that.
It never came
up. We never talked family, remember?
Yeah, I said,
and no one I asked seemed to know where Jasra came from. Still, the Courts...
She's a long way from home.
Actually, she
was recruited from a nearby shadow, he explained, like this one.
Recruited?
Yes, she worked
as a servant for a number of years-I think she was fairly young when she
startedat the Ways of Helgram.
Helgram? That's
my mother's House!
Right. She was a
maid-companion to the lady Dara. That's where she learned the Arts.
Jasra got her
instruction in sorcery from my mother? And she met Brand at Helgram? That would
make it seem Helgram had something to do with Brand's plot, the Black Road, the
war
-and the Lady
Dara going looking for your father? I guess so.
Because she wanted
to be a Pattern initiate as well as one of the Logrus?
Maybe, he said.
I wasn't present.
We moved down a
gravelly trail, fumed at a huge cluster of dark shrubbery, passing through a
forest of stone and over a bridge that crossed a slow black stream that
reflected high branches and sky, monochrome. A few leaves rustled in a stray
breeze.
How come you
never mentioned any of this later? I asked.
I intended to,
but it never seemed urgent, he said, whereas a lot of other things did.
True, I said.
The pace did seem to keep picking up each time our trails crossed. But now-
Are you saying it's urgent now, that I suddenly need to know this?
Oh, not
exactly. He halted. He reached out and leaned upon a headstone. His hand began
to grip it, growing white about the knuckles, across the back. The stone at his
fingertips was ground to powder, fell snowlike to the earth. Not exactly, he
repeated. That part was my idea, just because I wanted you to know. Maybe
it'll do you some good, maybe it won't. Information is like that. You never
know. With a crunching, cracking sound, the top of the headstone suddenly gave
way. Luke hardly seemed to notice this, and his hand kept on squeezing. Small
pieces fell from the larger one he now held.
So you came all
this way to tell me that?
No, he
answered, as we turned and began walking back the way we had come. I was sent
to tell you something else, and it's been pretty hard holding off. But I
figured if I talked about this first, it couldn't let me go, would keep feeding
me till I got around to the message.
There came a huge
crunch, and the stone he held turned to gravel, falling to mix with that on the
trail. Let me see your hand.
He brushed it off
and held it out. A tiny flame flickered near the base of his index finger. He
ran his thumb over it and it went out. I increased my pace, and he matched it.
Luke, you know
what you are?
Something in me
seems to, but I don't, man. I just feel-I'm not right. I'd probably better tell
you what I feel I should pretty quick now.
No. Hold off, I
said, hurrying even more.
Something dark
passed overhead, too quick for me to make out its shape, vanishing among the
trees. We were buffeted by a sudden gust of wind.
You know what's
going on, Merle? he asked.
I think so, I
said, and I want you to do exactly what I tell you, no matter how weird it
might seem. Okay?
Sure thing. If I
can't trust a Lord of Chaos, who can I trust, eh?
We hurried past
the clump of shrubs. My mausoleum was just up ahead.
You know, there
really is something I feel obliged to tell you right now, though, he said.
Hold it.
Please.
It is important,
though.
I ran on ahead of
him. He began running, too, to keep up.
It's about your
being here at the Courts, just now.
I extended my
hands, used them to brake myself when I came up against the wall of the stone
building. I swung myself through the doorway and inside. Three big steps, and I
was kneeling in the corner, snatching up an old cup, using the corner of my
cloak to wipe it out.
Merle, what the
hell are you doing? Luke asked, entering behind me.
Just a minute
and I'll show you, I told him, drawing my dagger.
Placing the cup
upon the stone where I had been seated earlier, I held my hand above it and
used the dagger to cut my wrist.
Instead of blood,
flame came forth from the incision.
No! Damn it! I
cried.
And I reached
into the spikard, located the proper line, and found the flowing channel of a
cooling spell that I laid upon the wound. Immediately, the flames died and it
was blood that flowed from me. However, as it fell into the cup it began to
smoke. Cursing, I extended the spell to control its liquidity there, also.
Yeah, it's
weird, Merle. I'll give you that, Luke observed.
I laid the dagger
aside and used my right hand to squeeze my arm above the wound. The blood
flowed faster. The spikard throbbed. I glanced at Luke. There was a look of
strain upon his face. I pumped my fist. The cup was more than half-full.
You said you
trust me, I stated.
Afraid so, he answered.
Three-quarters...
You've got to
drink this, Luke, I said. I mean it.
Somehow, I
suspected you were leading up to this, he said, and, really, it doesn't sound
like such a bad idea. I've a feeling I need a lot of help just now.
He reached out
and took the cup, raised it to his lips. I pressed the palm of my hand against
the wound. Outside, the winds were gusting regularly.
When you've
finished, put it back, I said. You're going to need more.
I could hear the
sounds of his swallowing.
Better than a
slug of Jameson, he said then.
Don't know why.
He replaced the cup on the stone.
A little salty,
though, he added.
I removed my hand
from the incision, held the wrist above it again, pumped my fist.
Hey, man. You're
losing a lot of blood there. I feel okay now. Was just a little dizzy, that's
all. I don't need any more.
Yes, you do, I
said. Believe me. I gave a lot more than this in a blood drive once and ran in
a meet the next day. It's okay.
The wind rose to
a gale, moaning past us now.
Mind telling me
what's going on? he asked. Luke, you're a Pattern ghost, I told him.
What do you
mean?
The Pattern can
duplicate anybody who ever walked it. You've got all the signs. I know them.
Hey, I feel
real. I didn't even do the Pattern in Amber. I did it in Tir-na Nog'th.
Apparently, it
controls the two images as well, since they're true copies. Do you remember
your coronation in Kashfa?
Coronation? Hell
no! You mean I made it to the throne?
Yep. Rinaldo the
First.
God damn! Bet
Mom's happy.
I'm sure.
This is kind of
awkward then, there being two of me. You seem familiar with the phenomenon. How
does the Pattern handle it?
You guys tend
not to last very long. It seems the closer you are to the Pattern itself the
stronger you are, too. It must have taken a lot of juice to project you this
far. Here, drink
this. Sure.
He tossed off a
half cupful and handed the cup back.
So what's with
the precious bodily fluids? he asked.
The blood of
Amber seems to have a sustaining ef-fect on Pattern ghosts.
You mean I'm
some kind of vampire?
I suppose you
could put it that way, in a sort of technical sense.
I'm not sure I
like that-especially such a specialized one.
It does seem to
have certain drawbacks. But one thing at a time. Let's get you stabilized
before we start looking for angles.
All right.
You've got a captive audience.
There came a
rattle, as of a rolled stone, from outside, followed by a small clanking noise.
Luke turned his
head.
I don't think
that's just the wind, he stated.
Take the last
sip, I said, moving away from the cup and groping after my handkerchief.
It'll have to hold you.
He tossed it off
as I wrapped my wrist. He knotted it in place for me.
Let's get out of
here, I said. The vibes are getting bad.
Fine with me,
he replied as a figure appeared at the doorway. It was backlighted, its
features lost in shadow.
You're not going
anywhere, Pattern ghost, came an almost-familiar voice.
I willed the
spikard to about 150 watts illumination. It was Borel, showing his teeth in an
unfriendly fashion.
You are about to
become a very large candle, Patterner, he said to Luke.
You're wrong,
Borel, I said, raising the spikard.
Suddenly, the
Sign of the Logrus swam between us.
Borel? T'he
master swordsman? Luke inquired. The same, I answered.
Oh, shit! Luke
said.
V
As I probed
forward with two of the more lethal energies of the spikard the Logrus image
intercepted them and turned them off.
I didn't save
him for you to take him out this easily, I said, and just then something like
the image of the Pattern but not really the same flashed into existence nearby.
The Sign of the
Logrus slid to my left. The new thing-whatever it was-kept pace with it, both
of them passing silently through the wall. Almost immediately, there followed a
thunderclap that shook the building. Even Borel, who was reaching for his
blade, paused in mid-gesture, then moved his hand to catch hold of the doorway.
As he did this, another figure appeared at his back and a familiar voice
addressed him: Please excuse me. You're blocking my way.
Corwin! I
cried. Dad!
Borel turned his
head.
Corwin, Prince
of Amber? he said.
Indeed, came
the reply, though I'm afraid I haven't had the pleasure.
I am Borel, Duke
of Hendrake, Master of Arms of the Ways of Hendrake.
You speak with a
lot of capitals, sir, and I'm pleased to make your acquaintance, Corwin said.
Now, if you don't mind, I'd like to get through here to see my son.
Borel's hand
moved to the hilt of his blade as he turned. I was already moving forward by
then, and so was Luke. But there was a movement beyond Borel-a kick, it seemed,
low-causing him to expel a lot of air and double forward. Then a fist descended
upon the back of his neck and he fell.
Come on, Corwin
called, gesturing. I think we'd better get out of here.
Luke and I
emerged, stepping over the fallen Master of Arms of the Ways of Hendrake. The
ground off to the left was blackened, as if from a recent brushfire, and a
light rain had begun to fall. There were other human figures in the distance
now, moving toward us.
I don't know
whether the force that brought me here can get me out again, Corwin said,
looking about. It may be otherwise occupied. Several moments passed, then, I
guess it is, he said. Okay, it's up to you. How do we flee?
This way, I
told him, turning and breaking into a run.
They followed me
up the trails that had brought me to this place. I looked back and saw that six
dark figures pursued us.
I headed uphill,
past the markers and monuments, coming at last to the place beside the old
stone wall. By then, there were shouts from behind us. Ignoring them, I drew my
companions to me and came up with an impromptu couplet that described the
situation and my desire in somewhat less than perfect meter. Still, the charm
held, and a hurled cobble only missed me because we were already sinking into
the earth.
We emerged from
the fairy ring, coming up like mushrooms, and I led my companions across the
field, jogging; to the sandbank. As we entered there I heard another shout. We exited
the boulder and descended the rocky trail to the gibbet tree. Turning left on
the trail, I . began to run.
Hold up! Corwin
called. I feel it around here somewhere. There!
He left the trail
to the right and began running toward the base of a small hill. Luke and I
followed. From be- . hind us came the sounds of our pursuers' emergence from
the way at the boulder.
Ahead, I saw
something flickering between two trees. We seemed to be heading toward it. As
we drew nearer, its outline became clearer, and I realized that it possessed
the contours of that Pattern-like image I had beheld back in the mausoleum.
Dad did not break
stride as he approached, but charged right into the thing. And vanished.
Another cry rose up behind us. Luke was next through the shimmering screen, and
I was close on his heels.
We were running
through a straight, glowing, pearly tunnel now, and when I glanced back I saw
that it seemed to be closing in behind me.
They can't
follow, Corwin shouted. That end's already closed.
Then why are we
running? I asked.
We're still not
safe, he replied. We're cutting through the Logrus's domain. If we're spotted
there could still be trouble.
We raced on
through that strange tunnel, and, We're running through Shadow? I asked.
Yes.
Then it would
seem that the farther we go, the better
The whole thing
shook, and I had to put out a hand to keep from being thrown down.
Oh-oh, Luke
said.
Yes, I agreed
as the tunnel began to come apart. Big chunks seemed to be torn out of the
walls, the floor. There was only murk behind these rents. We kept going,
leaping the openings. Then something struck again, soundlessly, completely
shattering the entire passagearound us, behind us, before us.
We fell.
Well, we didn't
exactly fall. We sort of drifted in a twilit fog. There didn't seem to be
anything underfoot, or in any other direction either. It was a free-fall
sensation, with nothing to measure possible movement against.
Damn! I heard
Corwin say.
We hovered, fell,
drifted-whatever-for a time, and, So close, I heard him mutter.
Something that
way, Luke suddenly announced, gesturing to his right.
A big shape
loomed grayly. I moved my mind into the spikard and probed in that direction.
Whatever it was, it was inanimate, and I commanded the spike that had touched
it to guide us to it.
I did not feel
myself moving, but the thing loomed larger, took on familiar outlines, began to
show a reddish complexion. When the fins became apparent, I knew for certain.
Looks like that
Polly Jackson you have, Luke remarked. Even has the snow on it.
Yes, it was my
red and white '57 Chevy that we were approaching, there in Limbo.
It's a
construct. It's been pulled from my mind before, I told him. Probably because
it's vivid, I've studied it so often. Also, it seems very appropriate just
now.
I reached toward
the door handle. We were coming up on the driver's side. I caught hold and
pushed the button. It was, of course, unlocked. The others touched the vehicle
in various places and drew themselves along to the other side. I opened the
door, slid in behind the' wheel, closed the door. Luke and Corwin were entering
by then. The keys were in the ignition, as I'd expected
When everyone was
aboard I tried starting it. The engine caught immediately. I stared out across
the bright hood into nothingness. I switched on the headlights and that didn't
help.
What now? Luke
asked.
I shifted into
first, released the emergency brake, and let out the clutch. As I gave it the
gas, it seemed the wheels were turning. After a few moments I shifted into
second. A bit later I put it into third.
Was there the
tiniest feeling of traction, or was it only the power of suggestion?
I fed it more
gas. The foggy prospect seemed to brighten slightly, far ahead, though I
supposed this could simply be some effect of my staring in that direction.
There was no
particular feedback from the steering wheel. I pushed harder on the
accelerator.
Luke reached out
suddenly and turned on the radio. -hazardous driving conditions, came an
announcer's voice. So keep your speed to a minimum. There immediately
followed Wynton Marsalis playing Caravan.
Taking it as a
personal message, I eased up on the gas. This produced a definite feeling of
light traction, as if, perhaps, we were gliding on ice.
A sensation of
forward movement followed, and there did seem a brightening in the distance.
Also, it seemed as if I had acquired some weight, was settling more deeply into
the seat. Moments later the sensation of a real surface beneath the car became
more pronounced. I wondered what would happen if I turned the wheel. I decided
not to try it.
The sound from
beneath the tires became more gritty. Dim outlines occurred at either hand,
increasing the feeling of movement and direction as we passed them. Far ahead,
the world was indeed brighter now.
I slowed even
more because it began feeling as if I were negotiating a real road, with very
poor visibility. Shortly thereafter, the headlights did seem to be operating
with some effect, as they struck a few of the passing shapes, giving them the
momentary appearance of trees and embankments, shrub clusters, rocks. The
rearview mirror continued to reflect nothingness, however.
Just like old
times, Luke said. Goin' out for pizza on a bad evening.
Yeah, I agreed.
I hope the other
me has someone open a pizza parlor in Kashfa. Could use one there, you know?
I'll come by and
try it, if he does.
Where do you
think this whole business is going to leave me, anyway?
I don't know,
Luke.
I mean, I can't
keep drinking your blood. And what about the other me?
I think I can
offer you a job that will take care of the problem, Corwin said to him. For a
while, anyway.
The trees were
definitely trees now, the fog real fogmoving about a bit. Beads of moisture
began to form on the windshield.
What do you
mean? Luke asked.
In a minute.
There were breaks
in the fog now, real landscape visible through them. Abruptly, I became aware
that it was not a real road surface on which I was driving, but rather a fairly
level piece of ground. I slowed even more to accommodate this.
A big section of haze
dissolved or blew away then revealing the presence of an enormous tree. Also, a
sec- lion of the ground seemed to be glowing. There was a familiar feeling to
this partial tableau...
This is the
place of your Pattern, isn't it? I asked, as our way grew even clearer. Fiona
brought me here once.
Yes; came the
reply.
And its
image-That's the thing I saw confronting the Sign of the Logrus back in the
graveyard-the same thing that led us into the tunnel.
Yes.
Then- It's
sentient, too. Like Amber's, like the Logrus
True. Park it
over there, in that clear area by the tree.
I turned the
wheel and headed toward the level spot he had indicated. Fog still hung about
the place, but nowhere near as heavy and all-encompassing as on the trail we
had taken. It might have been twilight, from the shading of the mist, but the
glow from that eccentric Pattern brightened our cup-shaped world beyond a day's
end dimness.
As we climbed out
Corwin said to Luke, ` `Pattern ghosts tend not to last long.
So I understand,
Luke replied. You know any tricks for someone in this position?
I know them all,
sir. It takes one to know, as they say.
Oh?
Dad..? I said.
You mean...
Yes, he
replied. I do not know where the first version of myself might be.
You are the one
I encountered a while back? The one who might have been present in Amber
recently, also?
Yes.
I-see. Yet, you
don't seem exactly like others I've encountered.
He reached out
and clasped my shoulder.
I'm not, he
said, and he glanced toward the Pattern. I drew that thing, he went on, a
little later, and I'm the only person ever to have walked it. Consequently,
I'm the only ghost it can summon. Also, it seems to regard me with something
other than utilitarian attention. We can communicate, in a way, and it seems to
have been willing to devote the energy needed to keep me stable-for a long
while now. We have our own plans, and our relationship seems almost symbiotic.
I gather that those of Amber's Pattern and those of the Logrus are more in the
nature of ephemera.
That's been my
experience, I said.
-except for one,
to whom you ministered, for which I am grateful. She is under my protection
now, for so long as it shall last.
He released my
shoulder.
I haven't been
properly introduced to your friend yet, he said then.
Excuse me. A bit
of extenuation there, I said. Luke, I'd like you to meet my father, Corwin of
Amber. Sir, Luke is properly known as Rinaldo, son of your brother Brand.
Corwin's eyes
widened for an instant, then narrowed as he extended his hand, studying Luke's
face.
Good to meet a
friend of my son's, as well as a relative, he said.
Glad to know
you, too, sir.
I'd wondered
what it was that seemed so familiar about you.
It kind of slows
down with appearances, if that's what you're getting at. Maybe even stops
there.
Dad laughed.
Where'd you two
meet?
In school, Luke
replied. Berkeley.
Where else might
a pair of us come together? Not in Amber, of course, he said, turning away
then to face his Pattern fully. I'll get your story yet. But come with me now.
I want to do an introduction myself.
He headed off
toward the shining design and we fol- lowed him, a few wisps of fog drifting
past us. Save for our short footfalls, the place was silent.
When we came up
to the edge of his Pattern we halted and stared out across it. It was a
graceful design, too big to take in at a glance; and a feeling of power seemed
to pulse outward from it.
Hi, he said. I
want you to meet my son and my nephew, Merfin and Rinaldo-though I believe you
met Merlin once before. Rinaldo has a problem. There followed a long silence.
Then he said, Yes, that's right, and after a time, You really think so?
and, Okay. Sure, I'll tell them.
He stretched and
sighed and took a few paces away from the Pattern's edge. Then he extended his
arms and put them around both our shoulders.
Men, he said
then, I've got an answer of sorts. But it means we're all going to have to
walk this Pattern, for different reasons.
I'm game, Luke
said. But what's the reason?
It's going to
adopt you, Corwin said, and sustain you as it does me. There's a price,
though. The time's getting nearer when it will want to be guarded full-time. We
can spell each other.
Sounds fine,
Luke said. This place is kind of peaceful. And I didn't really want to go back
to Kashfa and try to depose myself.
Okay. I'll lead,
and you hold on to my shoulder in case there are any funny vibes to deal with.
Merlin, you come last and maintain contact with Luke, for the same reason. All
right?
Sure, I said.
Let's go.
He released us
and moved to the place where the line of the design began. We followed, and
Luke's hand was on his shoulder as he took the first step. Soon we were all of
us on the Pattern, struggling the familiar struggle. Even when the sparks began
to rise, though, this one seemed a little easier than I recalled from Pattern
walks in the past, possibly because someone else was leading the way.
Images of avenues
lined with ancient chestnut trees filled my mind as we trudged along and fought
our way through the First Veil. By then, the sparks came higher about us and I
felt the forces of the Pattern beating about me, penetrating me, body and mind.
I recalled my days in school, remembered my greatest efforts on the athletic
field. The resistance continued to rise, and we leaned into it. Moving my feet
became a great effort, and I realized that-somehow-the effort was more
important than the movement. I felt my hair beginning to rise as a current
passed entirely through my body. Still, this had not to it the maddening
quality of the Logrus the time I had negotiated it, nor the adversarial feeling
I had felt upon Amber's Pattern. It was almost as if I traversed the interior
of a mind, one not unkindly disposed toward me. There was a feeling-of
encouragement, almostas I struggled along a curve, executed a turn. The
resistance was as strong, the sparks came as high as on the other at about this
point, yet I somehow knew that this Pattern held me in a different fashion. We
pushed our way along the lines. We fumed, we burned... Penetrating the Second
Veil was a slow-motion exercise in stamina and will. Our way eased for a time
after that, and images from all over my life came to frighten and console me.
Walking. One,
two... Three. I felt that if I were able to take ten more steps I would have a
chance to
win through.
Four... I was drenched with perspiration. Five. The resistance was awful. It
took all the effort of running a hundred meters just to inch my foot ahead.. My
lungs were working like a bellows. Six. The sparks reached my face, passed my
eyes, enveloped me com pletely. I felt as if I had been transformed into an
immortal blue flame and that I must, somehow, burn my way through a block of
marble. I burned and I burned and the stone remained unchanged. I could spend
all of eternity this way. Perhaps I already had. Seven. And the images were
gone. All of memory had fled. Even my identity was on vacation. I was stripped
to a thing of pure will. I was an act, an act of striving against resistance.
Eight... I no longer felt my body. Time was an alien concept. The striving was
no longer striving, but a form of elemental movement now, beside which glaciers
rushed. Nine. Now I was only movement-infinitesimal, a constant...
Ten.
There came an
easing. It would become difficult again at the center end, but I knew that the
rest of the walk was anticlimax. Something like a slow, low music buoyed me as
I trudged ahead, turned, trudged. It was with me through the Final Veil, and as
I passed the midpoint of that final stride, it became something like Caravan.
We stood there at
the center, silent for a long while, breathing deeply. Exactly what I had
achieved, I was uncertain. I did feel, though, that, in some way, I knew my
father better as a result. Strands of mist still drifted, across the Pattern,
across the valley.
I
feel-stronger, Luke announced later. Yes, I'll help guard this place. It
seems a good way to spend some time.
By the way, Luke,
what was your message for me? I asked.
Oh, to tell you
to clear out of the Courts, he replied, that things were getting dangerous.
I already knew
the danger part, I said. But there are still things I must do.
He shrugged.
Well, that's the message, he said. No place really seems safe just now.
There won't be
any problems here yet, Corwin said. Neither Power knows exactly how to
approach this place or what to do with it. It's too strong for Amber's Pattern
to absorb, and the Logrus doesn't know how to destroy it.
Sounds pretty
easy, then.
There will
probably come a time later, though, when they will try to move against it.
Until then, we
wait and watch. Okay. If some things do come, what might they be?
Probably
ghosts-like ourselves-seeking to learn more about it, to test. You any good with
that blade?
In all modesty,
yes. If that's not good enough, I've studied the Arts, as well.
They'll fall to
steel, though it's fire they'll bleednot blood. You can have the Pattern
transport you outside now, if you wish. I'll join you in a few moments to show
you where the weapons are cached, and the other supplies. I'd like to take a
little trip and leave you in charge for a while.
Sure thing,
Luke said. What about you, Merle?
I've got to get
back to the Courts. I've a luncheon engagement with my mother, and then
Swayvill's funeral to attend.
It may not be
able to send you all the way to the Courts, Corwin said. That's getting
awfully near the Logrus. But you'll work something out with it, or vice versa.
How is Dara?
It's been a long
time since I've seen her for more than a few moments, I answered. She is
still pe- remptory, arrogant, and over-solicitous when it comes to me. I get
the impression, too, that she may be involved in local political scheming as
well as aspects of the larger relationship between the Courts and Amber.
Luke closed his
eyes for a moment and vanished. Shortly afterward, I saw him beside the Polly
Jackson car. He opened the door, slid onto the passenger seat, leaned and
fiddled with something inside. A little Later I could hear the radio playing
music across the distance.
It's likely,
Corwin said. I never understood her, you know. She came to me out of nowhere
at a strange time in my life, she lied to me, we became lovers, she walked the
Pattern in Amber, and she vanished. It was like a bizarre dream. It was obvious
that she used me. For years I thought that it was only to get knowledge of the
Pattern and access to it. But I've had a lot of time for reflection recently,
and I'm no longer certain that that was the case.
Oh? I said.
What, then?
You, he
replied. More and more I'm coming to think, what she really wanted was to bear
a son or daughter of Amber.
I felt myself
grow cold. Could the reason for my own existence have been such a calculated
thing? Had there been no affection there at all? Had I been intentionally
conceived to serve some special purpose? I did not at all like the notion. It
made me feel the way Ghostwheel must; carefully structured product of my
imagination and intellect, built to test design ideas only an Amberite could
have come up with. Yet he called me Dad. He actually seemed to care about me.
Oddly, I had begun feeling an irrational affection for him myself. Was it
partly because we were even more alike than I had consciously realized?
Why? I asked.
Why would it have been so important to her that I be born?
I can only
remember her final words when she had completed the Pattern, turning into a
demon in the process. `Amber,' she said, `will be destroyed. ' Then she was
gone.
I was shaking
now. The implications were so unsettling that I wanted to cry, sleep, or get
drunk. Anything, for a moment's respite.
You think that
my existence might be part of a longterm plan for the destruction of Amber? I
asked.
`Might,"'
he said. I could be wrong, kid. I could be very wrong, and if that's the case
I apologize for troubling you this much. On the other hand, it would also be
wrong of me not to let you know what the possibility is.
I massaged my
temples, my brow, my eyes.
What should I
do? I said then. I don't want to help destroy Amber.
He clasped me to
his breast for a moment and said, No matter what you are and no matter what's
been done to you, there will have to be some element of choice for you, sooner
or later. You are greater than the sum of your parts, Merlin. No matter what
went into your birth and your life up to now, you've got eyes and a brain and a
set of values. Don't let anybody bullshit you, not even me. And when the time
comes, if it comes, make damn sure the choice is your own. Nothing that's gone
before will matter then.
His words,
general as they had to be, drew me back from the place in my spirit where I had
retreated. Thanks, I said.
He nodded. Then,
While your first impulse may be to force a confrontation on this matter, he
said, I would advise against it. It would achieve nothing other than making
her aware of your suspicions. It would be prudent to play a more careful game
and see what you can learn.
I sighed.
You're right, of
course, I said. You came after me as much to tell me this as to help me
escape, didn't you?
He smiled.
Only worry about
important things, he said. We'll meet again. And then he was gone.
I saw him,
suddenly, over near the car, talking to Luke. I watched as he showed him where
the caches
were located. I
wondered what time it was back in the Courts. After a while, they both waved to
me. Then Cor win shook hands with Luke and turned and walked off into the fog.
I could hear the radio playing Lili Marlene.
I focused my mind
on the Pattern's transporting me to the Ways of Sawall. There was a momentary
swirling of blackness. When it cleared I was still standing at the center of
the Pattern. I tried again, this time for Suhuy's castle. Again, it refused to
punch my ticket.
How close can
you send me? I finally asked.
There was another
swirling, but this one was bright. It delivered me to a high promontory of
white stone beneath a black sky, beside a black sea. Two semicircles of pale
flame parenthesized my position. Okay, I could live with that. I was at Fire
Gate, a way-exchange in Shadow near to the Courts. I faced the sea and counted.
When I'd located the fourteenth flickering tower on my left, I walked toward
it.
I emerged before
a fallen tower beneath a pink sky. Walking toward it, I was transported to a
glassy cavern through which a green river flowed. I paced beside the river till
I found the stepping-stones that took me to a trail through an autumn wood. I
followed this for almost a mile till I felt the presence of a way near the base
of an evergreen. This took me to the side of a mountain, whence three more ways
and two filmies had me on the nail to lunch with my mother. According to the sky,
I had no time to change clothes.
I halted near a
crossroads to dust myself off, straighten my apparel, comb my hair. I wondered,
as I was about the business, who might receive my calling were I to try to
reach Luke via his Trump-Luke himself, his ghost, both? Could the ghosts
receive Trump calls? I found myself wondering what was going on back in Amber,
too. And I thought of Coral, and Nayda... Hell.
I wanted to be
somewhere else. I wanted to be far away. The Pattern's warning, via Luke, was
well taken. Corwin had given me too much to think about, and I hadn't had time
to sort it through properly. I did not want to be involved in whatever was
going on here in the Courts. I did not like all of the implications involving
my mother. I did not feel like attending a funeral. I felt somehow, also,
uninformed. You'd think that if somebody wanted something from me-something
very important-they'd at least take the time to explain the situation and ask
for my cooperation. If it were a relative, there was a strong possibility I'd
go along with it. Getting my cooperation would seem a lot less dicey than any
trickery intended to control my actions. I wanted to be away from those who
would control me, as well as the games they were playing.
I could turn and
head back into Shadow, probably lose myself there. I could head back to Amber,
tell Random everything I knew, everything I suspected, and he would protect me
against the Courts. I could go back to the Shadow Earth, come up with a new
identity, get back into computer design...
Then, of course,
I would never know what was going on and what had gone before. As for my
father's real whereabouts-I'd been able to reach him from the Courts, never
from anywhere else. In this sense, he was nearby. And there was no one else
around here likely to help him.
I walked ahead
and turned right. I made my way toward a purpling sky. I would be on time.
And so I came,
again, into the Ways of Sawall. I had emerged from the red and yellow starburst
design painted high upon the gateside wall of the front courtyard, descended
the Invisible Stair, and peered for long moments down into the great central
pit, with its view of black turbulence beyond the Rim. A falling star burned
its way down the purple sky as I turned away, headed for the copper-chased door
and the low Maze of Art beyond it.
Within, I
recalled the many times I had been lost in that maze as a child. The House of
Sawall had been a serious collector of art for ages, and the collection was so
vast that there were several ways into which one was cast within the maze
itself, leading one through tunnels, a huge spiral, and what seemed an old
train station before being shunted back to miss the next turn. I had been lost
in it for days on one occasion, and was finally found crying before an
assemblage of blue shoes nailed to a board. I walked it now, slowly, looking at
old monstrosities, and some newer ones. There were also strikingly lovely
pieces mixed in, such as the huge vase that looked as if it had been carved
from a single fire opal, and a set of odd enameled tablets from a distant
shadow whose meaning and function no one in the family could be found to
recall. I had to stop and see both again, rather than shortcutting the gallery,
the tablets being a particular favorite of mine.
I was humming an
old tune Gryll had taught me as I came up to the fiery vase and regarded it. I
seemed to hear a small chafing noise, but glances up and down the corridor
revealed no one else in the vicinity. The almost sensual curves of the vase
begged to be touched. I could remember all of the times I had been forbidden to
do so as a child. I put my left hand forward slowly, rested it upon it. It was
warmer than I'd thought it might be. I slid my hand along its side. It was like
a frozen flame.
Hello, I muttered,
remembering an adventure we'd shared. It's been a long time...
Merlin? came a
small voice.
I withdrew my
hand immediately. It was as if the vase a had spoken.
Yes, I said
then. Yes.
Again, the
chafing sound, and a bit of shadow stirred within the creamy opening, above the
fire.
Ss, said the
shadow, rising. Glait? I asked.
Yess.
It can't be.
You've been dead for years.
Not dead.
Ssleeping.
I haven't seen
you since I was a kid. You were injured. You disappeared. I thought you'd died.
I ssleep. I
ssleep to heal. I ssleep to forget. I ssleep to renew mysself.
I extended my
arm. The shaggy snake head rose higher, extended itself, fell upon my forearm,
climbed, wrapped itself.
You certainly
chose elegant sleeping quarters.
I knew the jug
to be a favorite of yourss. If I waited long enough I knew you would come by
again, sstop to admire it. And I would know and rise up in my ssplendor to
greet you. My, you have grown!
You look pretty
much the same. A little thin, perhaps...
I stroked her
head gently.
It is good to
know you are with us still, like some honored family spirit. You and Gryll and
Kergma made my childhood a better thing than it might have been.
She raised her
head high, stroked my cheek with her nose.
It warmss my
cold blood to ssee you again, dear boy. You've traveled far?
I have. Very.
One night we
shall eat mice and lie besside a fire. You will warm me a ssaucer of milk and
tell me of your adventuress ssince you left the Wayss of Ssawall. We will find ssome
marrow boness for Gryll, if he be sstill about
He seems to
serve my uncle Suhuy these days. What of Kergma?
I do not know.
It hass been sso long.
I held her close
to warm her.
Thank you for
waiting here for me in your great drowse, to greet me
Iss more than
friendliess, helloss. More? What then, Glait? What is it?
' A thing to
show. Walk that way.
She gestured with
her head. I moved in the direction she indicated-the way I had been heading
anyhow, to where the corridors widened. I could feel her vibrating against my
arm with the barely audible purring sound she sometimes made.
Suddenly, she
stiffened and her head rose, swaying slightly.
What is it? I
asked.
Mi-ice, she
said. Mi-ice nearby. I musst go hunting-after I show you-the thing.
Breakfasst...
If you would
dine first, I will wait.
No, Merlin. You
musst not be late for whatever brought you here. There is importance in the
air. Laterfeasst-vermin...
We came into a
wide, high, skylighted section of the gallery. Four large pieces of metal
statuary-bronze and copper, mostly-stood in an asymmetrical arrangement about
us.
Onward, Glait
said. Not here.
I turned right at
the next corner and plunged ahead. Shortly, we came to another display-this one
resembling a metal forest.
Sslow now.
Sslow, dear demon child.
I halted and
studied the trees, bright, dark, shiny, dull. Iron, aluminum, brass, it was
most impressive. It was also a display that had not been present the last time
I had passed this way, years before. Nothing odd about that, of course. There
had also been changes in other areas I had passed through.
Now. Here. Turn
in. Go back.
I moved on into
the forest.
Bear right. The
tall one.
I halted when I
came to the curved trunk of the tallest tree to my right.
This one?
Yess. Negotiate
it-upward-pleasse.
You mean climb
it?
Yess.
Right.
One nice thing
about a stylized tree-or, at least, this
stylized tree-was
that it spiraled, swelled, and twisted in such a fashion as to provide better
handholds and footholds than at first seemed apparent. I caught hold, drew
myself up, found a place for my foot, pulled again, pushed.
Higher. Higher,
still. When I was perhaps ten feet above the floor I halted.
Uh, what do I do
now that I'm here? I asked.
Climb higher. `
Why
Ssoon. Ssoon.
You'll know.
I drew myself
about a foot higher, and then I felt it.
It is not so much
a tingling as it is a kind of pressure.. only feel a tingling, too, sometimes,
if they lead someplace risky.
There's a way up
there, I said.
Yess. I wass
coiled about a branch of the blue tree when a shadowmasster opened it. They
sslew him afterwardss.
It must lead to
something very important.
I ssuppose. I am
not a good judge-of people thingss.
You have been
through?
Yess.
Then it is
safe?
Yess.
All right.
I climbed higher,
resisting the force of the way until I'd brought both feet to the same level.
Then I relaxed into the tugging and let it take me through.
I extended both
hands, too, in case the surface was
uneven. But it
wasn't. The floor was beautifully tiled in black, silver, gray, and white. To
the right was a geometric design, to the left a representation of the Pit of
Chaos.
My eyes were
directed downward for only a few moments, though.
Good Lord! I
said.
Wass I right? It
iss important? Glait said.
It is
important, I replied.
VI
There were
candles all about the chapel, many of them as tall as I am, and nearly as big
around. Some were silver, some were gray; a few were white, a few black. They
stood at various heights, in artful disposi
tion, on banks,
ledges, pattern points on the floor. They did not provide the main
illumination, however. This obtained from overhead, and I first assumed it to
proceed from a skylight. When I glanced upward to gauge the height of the
vault, though, I saw that the light emanated from a large blue-white globe
confined behind a dark metal grate.
I took a step
forward. The nearest candle flame flickered.
I faced a stone
altar that filled a niche across the way. Black candles burned at either hand
before it, smaller silver ones upon it. For a moment, I simply regarded it.
Lookss like
you, Glait remarked.
I thought your
eyes didn't register two-dimensional representations.
I've lived a
long time in a musseum. Why hide your picture up a ssecret way?
I moved forward,
my gaze on the painting.
It's not me, I
said. It's my father, Corwin of Amber.
A silver rose
stood within a bud vase before the portrait. Whether it was a real rose or the
product of art or magic, I could not tell.
And Grayswandir
lay there before it, drawn a few ` inches from the scabbard. I'd a feeling this
was the real thing, that the version worn by the Pattern ghost of my father was
itself a reconstruction.
I reached
forward, raised it, drew it.
There was a
feeling of power as I held it, swung it, struck an en garde, lunged, advanced.
The spikard came alive, center of a web of forces. I looked down, suddenly
self-conscious.
. And this is m
father's blade, I said, returning to the altar, where I sheathed it.
Reluctantly, I left it there.
As I backed away,
Glait asked, Thiss iss important?
Very, I said as
the way caught hold of me and sent me back to the treetop.
What now,
Masster Merlin?
I must get on to
lunch with my mother.
In that case,
you'd besst drop me here.
I could return
you to the vase.
No. I haven't
lurked in a tree for a time. Thiss will be fine.
I extended my
arm. She unwound herself and flowed away across gleaming branches.
Good luck,
Merlin. Vissit me.
And I was down
the tree, snagging my trousers only once, and off up the corridor at a quick
pace.
Two turns later I
came to a way to the main hall and decided I'd better take it. I popped through
beside the massive fireplace-high flames braiding themselves within it-anr
turned slowly to survey the huge chamber, trying to seem as if I had been there
a long while, waiting.
I seemed the only
person present. Which, on reflection, struck me as a bit odd, with the fire
roaring that way. I adjusted my shirtfront, brushed myself off, ran my comb
through my hair. I was inspecting my fingernails when I became aware of a flash
of movement at the head of the great staircase to my left.
She was a
blizzard within a ten-foot tower. Lightnings danced at its center, crackling;
particles of ice clicked and rattled upon the stair; the banister grew frosted
where she passed. My mother. She seemed to see me at about the same time I saw
her, for she halted. Then she made the turn onto the stair and began her
descent.
As she descended,
she shifted smoothly, her appearance changing almost from step to step. As soon
as I realized what was occurring I relaxed my own efforts and reversed their
small effects. I had commenced changing the moment I had seen her, and
presumably she had done the same on viewing me. I hadn't thought she'd go to
that extent to humor me, a second time, here on her own turf.
The shift was
completed just as she reached the bottommost stair, becoming a lovely woman in
black trousers and red shirt with flared sleeves. She looked at me again and
smiled, moved toward me, embraced me.
It would have
been gauche to say that I'd intended shifting but had forgotten. Or any other
remark on the matter.
She pushed me out
to arm's distance, lowered her gaze and raised it, shook her head.
Do you sleep in
your clothes before or after violent exercise? she asked me.
That's unkind,
I said. I stopped to sightsee on the way over and ran into a few problems. `
That is why you
are late?
No. I'm late
because I stopped in our gallery and took longer than I'd intended. And I'm not
very late. She took hold of my arm and turned me.
I will forgive
you, she said, steering me toward the rose and green and gold-flecked pillar
of ways, set in the mirrored alcove across the room to the right.
I didn't feel
that called for a response, so I didn't make one. I watched with interest as we
entered the alcove, to see whether she would conduct me in a clock- wise
direction or its opposite about the pillar.
The opposite, it
turned out. Interesting.
We were reflected
and re-reflected from the three sides. So was the room we had quitted. And with
each circuit we made of the pillar it became a different room.
I watched it
change, kaleidoscopically, until she halted me before the crystal grotto beside
the underground sea. It's been a long time since I thought of this place,
I said, stepping
forth upon the pure white sand into the crystal-cast light, variously
reminiscent of bonfires, solar reflections, candelabra, and LED displays,
functions of size and distancing perhaps, laying occasional pieces of rainbow
upon the shore, the walls, the black water.
She took my hand
and led me toward a raised and railed platform some small distance off to the
right. A table stood full set upon it. A collection of covered trays occupied a
larger serving table inland of it. We mounted a small stair, and I seated her
and moved to check out the goodies next door.
Do sit down,
Merlin, she said. I'll serve you.
That's all
right, I answered, raising a lid. I'm already here. I'll do the first round.
She was on her
feet.
Buffet style
then, she said.
Sure.
We filled our
plates and moved to the table. Seconds
after we had
seated ourselves a brilliant flash of light came to us across the water,
illuminating the arching dome of the cavern vault like the ribbed interior of
some massive beast that was digesting us.
You needn't look
so apprehensive. You know they can't come in this far.
Waiting for a
thunderclap puts my appetite on hold, I said.
She laughed just
as a distant roll of thunder reached us.
And that makes
everything all right? she asked.
Yes, I replied,
raising my fork.
Strange, the
relatives life gives us, she said.
I looked at her,
tried to read her expression, couldn't.
So, Yes, I
said.
She studied me
for a moment, but I wasn't giving anything away either. So, When you were a
child you went monosyllabic as a sign of petulance, she said.
Yes, I said.
We began eating.
There were more flashes out over the still, dark sea. By light of the last one
I thought I caught sight of a distant ship, black sails full-rigged and
bellied.
You kept your
engagement with Mandor earlier?
Yes.
How is he?
Fine.
Something
bothering you, Merlin?
Many things.
Tell Mother?
What if she's a
part of it?
I would be
disappointed if I were not. Still, how long will you hold the business of the
ty' iga against me? I did what I thought was right. I still think it was.
I nodded and
continued chewing. After a time, You made that clear lat cycle, I said.
The waters gave a
small sloshing sound. A spectrum drifted across our table, her face.
Is there
something else? she asked.
Why don't you
tell me? I said.
I felt her gaze.
I met it.
I don't know
what you mean, she answered.
Are you aware
that the Logrus is sentient? And the: Pattern? I said.
Did Mandor tell
you that? she asked.
Yes. But I
already knew it before he did.
How?
We've been in
touch.
You and the
Pattern? You and the Logrus? Both.
To what end?
Manipulation,
I'd say. They're engaged in a power struggle. They were asking me to choose
sides. Which did you choose?
Neither. Why?
You should have
told me.
Why?
For counsel.
Possibly for assistance.
Against the
Powers of the universe? How well connected are you, Mother?
She smiled.
It is possible
that one such as myself may possess special knowledge of their workings.
One such as
yourself... ?
A sorceress of
my skills.
Just how good
are you, Mother?
I don't think
they come much better, Merlin.
Family is always
the last to know, I guess. So why didn't you train me yourself, instead of
sending me off to Suhuy?
I'm not a good
teacher. I dislike training people. You trained Jasra.
She tilted her
head to the right and narrowed her eyes.
Did Mandor tell
you that, also? she asked.
No.
Who, then?
What difference
does it make?
Considerable,
she replied. Because I don't believe you knew it the last time we met.
I recalled
suddenly that she had said something about Jasra back at Suhuy's, something
implying her familiarity with her, something to which I would ordinarily have
risen save that I was driving a load of animus in a different direction at the
time and heading downhill in a thunderstorm with the brakes making funny
noises. I was about to ask her why it mattered when I learned it, when I
realized that she was really asking from whom I'd learned it, because she was
concerned with whom I might have been speaking on such matters since last we'd
met. Mentioning Luke's Pattern ghost did not seem politic, so, Okay, Mandor
let it slip, I said, and then asked me to forget it.
In other words,
she said, he expected it to get back to me. Why did he do it just that way? I
wonder. The man is damnably subtle.
Maybe he did
just let it slip.
Mandor lets
nothing slip. Never make him an enemy, son.
Are we talking
about the same person?
She snapped her
fingers.
Of course, she
said. It was only as a child that you knew him. You went away after that. You
have seen him but a few times since. Yes, he is subtle, insidious, dangerous.
We've always
gotten along well.
Of course. He
never antagonizes without a good rea son.
I shrugged and
went on eating.
After a time she
said, I daresay he has made similar;`: comments about me.
I am unable to
recall any, I answered.
Has he been
giving you lessons in circumspection, too?
No, though I've
felt a need to teach myself, of late. Surely, you obtained a few in Amber.
If I did, they
were so subtle I didn't notice.
Well, well. Can
it be I need despair of you no more?
I doubt it.
So, what might
the Pattern or the Logrus want of you?
I already told
you-a choice of sides.
It is that
difficult to decide which you prefer?
It is that
difficult to decide which I dislike less.
Because they
are, as you say, manipulative of people.
in their struggle
for power?
Just so.
She laughed.
Then, While it shows the gods as no better than the rest of us, she said, at
least, it shows them as no worse. See here the sources of human morality. It is
still better than none at all. If these grounds be insufficient for the
choosing of sides, then let other considerations rule. You are, after all, a
son of Chaos.
And Amber, I
said.
You grew up in
the Courts.
And I have
dwelled in Amber. My relatives are as numerous there as they are here.
It is really
that close, then?
If it were not,
it might have simplified matters.
In that case,
she said, you must turn it around.
What do you
mean?
Ask not which
appeals the most to you, but which can do the most for you,
I sipped a fine
green tea as the storm rolled nearer. Something splashed within the waters of
our inlet.
All right, I
said, I'm asking.
She leaned
forward and smiled and her eyes darkened. She has always had perfect control of
her face and form, shifting them to suit her moods. She is obviously the same
person, but at times she may choose to appear as little more than a girl, at
other times becoming a mature and handsome woman. Generally, she seems
somewhere in between. But now, a certain timeless quality came into her
features-not age so much as the essence of Timeand I realized suddenly that I
had never known her true age. I watched as something like a veil of ancient
power came across it.
The Logrus, she
said, will lead you to greatness.
I continued to
stare.
What sort of
greatness? I asked.
What sort do you
desire?
I don't know
that I ever wanted greatness, on its own. It seems rather like wanting to be an
engineer, rather than wanting to design something-or wanting to be a writer,
rather than wanting to write. It should be a by-product, not a thing in itself.
Otherwise, it's just an ego trip.
But if you earn
it-if you deserve it-shouldn't you have it?
I suppose. But
so far I've done nothing"-my eyes fell to a bright circle of light beneath
the dark waters, moving as if running before a storm-"except perhaps for
an odd piece of equipment, which might fall into that category.
You are young,
of course, she said, and the times for which you were meant to be uniquely
qualified have come sooner than I'd anticipated.
If I were to use
magic to summon a cup of coffe, would she resent that? Yes, I believed. She
would. So I decided on a glass of wine. As I poured it and took a sip, I said,
I'm afraid I don't understand what you're talking about.
She nodded.
It is hardly
something you could learn from introspection, she said slowly, and no one
would be so rash as to mention the possibility to you.
What are you
talking about, Mother?
The throne. To
reign in the Courts of Chaos.
Mandor had sort
of suggested I think about it, I said.
All right. No
one, excepting Mandor, would be so rash as to mention it.
I gather mothers
get a certain kick out of seeing their sons do well, but unfortunately you've
named a job for which I lack not only skill, aptitude, and training but also
any desire.
She steepled her
fingers and regarded me from just above them.
You are better
qualified than you think, and your desires have nothing to do with the matter.
As an interested
party, I must beg to differ with you.
Even if it were
the only way to protect friends and relatives both here and in Amber?
I took another
sip of wine.
Protect them?
Against what?
The Pattern is
about to try redefining the middle regions of Shadow in its own image. It is
probably strong enough to do it now.
You were talking
of Amber and the Courts, not of Shadow.
The Logrus will
have to resist this incursion. Since it would probably lose in a direct
confrontation with its opposite, it will be forced to employ agents
strategically, in a strike against Amber. The most effective agents would, of
course, be champions of the Courts
This is mad! I
said. There must be a better way!
Possibly, she
replied. Accept the throne and you'll be giving the orders.
I don't know
enough.
You will be
briefed, of course.
What about the
proper order of succession?
That's not your
problem.
I rather think
I'd have an interest in how it's achieved-say, whether I'd owe you or Mandor
for the majority of deaths.
In that we're
both Sawall, the question becomes academic.
You mean you're
cooperating on this?
We have our differences,
she said, and I draw the line at any discussion of methods.
I sighed and took
another drink. The storm had grown worse over the dark waters. If that strange
light effect beneath their surface were indeed Ghostwheel, I wondered what he
was up to. The lighmings were becoming a steady backdrop, the thunder a
continuing soundtrack.
What did you
mean, I said, when you spoke of the times for which I was meant to be
uniquely qualified?
The present and
the immediate future, she said, with the conflict that will come.
No, I
responded. I was referring to the business about my being `meant to be
uniquely qualified. ' How so?
It must have been
the lightning, for I had never seen her blush before.
You combine two
great bloodlines, she said.
Technically,
your father was King of Amber briefly-between the reign of Oberon and that of
Eric
Since Oberon was
still alive at the time and had not abdicated, neither reign should be
considered valid, I responded. Random is Oberon's proper successor.
A case can be
made for an implied abdication, she said.
You prefer that
reading, don't you?
Of course.
I watched the
storm. I swallowed some wine.
That is why you
wished to bear Corwin's child? I asked.
The Logrus
assured me that such a child would be uniquely qualified to reign here.
But Dad never
really meant that much to you, did he?
She looked a ay,
out to where the circle of light was now racing toward us, lightnings falling
behind it. You have no right to ask that question, she said.
I know that. But
it's true, isn't it?
You are
mistaken. He meant a great deal to me.
But not in any
conventional sense.
I am not a
conventional person.
I was the result
of a breeding experiment. The Logrus selected the mate who would give
you-what?
The circle of
light swam nearer. The storm followed
it, coming closer
in to the shore than I'd ever seen one reach here before.
An ideal Lord of
Chaos, she said, fit to rule.
Somehow I feel
there's more to it than that, I said.
Dodging lightning
bolts, the bright circle came up out
of the water and
flashed across the sand toward us. If she responded to my last remark, I
couldn't hear it. The ensuing thunders were deafening.
The light came
onto the decking, paused near to my foot.
Dad, can you
protect me? Ghost asked in a lull between thunderclaps.
Rise to my left
wrist, I bade.
Dara stared as he
found his place, taking on the appearance of Frakir. In the meantime, the final
flash of lightning did not depart, but stood for a time like a sizzling stalk
at the water's edge. Then it collapsed into a ball that hovered in the middle
air for several moments before drifting in our direction. As it came on, its
structure began to change.
When it drifted
to a position beside our table it had become a bright, pulsing Sign of the
Logrus.
Princess Dara,
Prince Merlin, came that awful voice I had last heard on the day of the
confrontation at Amber Castle, I did not wish to disturb your repast, but that
thing you harbor makes it necessary. A jagged branch of the image was flipped
in the direction of my left wrist.
It's blocking my
ability to shift away, Ghost said. Give it to me!
Why? I asked.
T'hat thing has
traversed the Logrus, came the words, differing at seeming random in pitch,
volume, accent.
It occurred to me
that I might defy it now if I were really as valuable to the Logrus as Dara had
indicated. So, It's theoretically open to all comers, I responded.
I am my own law,
Merlin, and your Ghostwheel has crossed me before. I'll have it now.
No, I said,
moving my awareness into the spikard, seeking and locating a means of instant
transport to an area where the Pattern ruled. I'll not surrender my creation
so readily.
The brightness of
the Sign increased.
At this, Dara was
on her feet, moving to interpose herself between it and myself.
Stay, she said.
We've more important matters tc deal with than vengeance upon a toy. I have
dispatched my cousins Hendrake for the bride of Chaos. If you wish this plan to
succeed, I suggest you assist them.
I recall your
plan for Prince Brand, setting the lady Jasra to snare him. It could not fail,
you told me.
It brought you
closer than you ever came, old Serpent, to the power you desire.
That is true,
it acknowledged.
And the bearer
of the Eye is a simpler being than Jasra.
The Sign slid
past her, a tiny sun turning itself into a succession of ideograms.
Merlin, you will
take the throne and serve me when the time comes?
I will do what
is necessary to redress the balance of power, I replied.
That is not what
I asked! Will you take the throne under the terms I set?
If that is what
is needed to set things right, I answered.
This pleases
me, it said. Keep your toy.
Dara moved aside,
and it passed near to her before fading.
Ask him of Luke
and Corwin and the new Pattern, it said, and then it was gone.
She turned toward
me and stared.
Pour me a glass
of wine, she said.
I did this. She
raised it and took a swallow.
So tell me of
Luke and Corwin and the new Pattern, she said.
Tell me of Jasra
and Brand, I countered.
No. You will go
first in this, she said.
Very well, I
said. It neglected to mention that they were Pattern ghosts. Luke's appeared
to me on the way over here, sent by the Pattern to persuade me to depart this
realm. The Logrus sent Lord Borel's to dispose of Luke.
Luke being
Rinaldo, the son of Jasra and Brand, husband of Coral and King of Kashfa?
Very good. Now
tell me of all that business at the end. You set Jasra to snare Brand, to guide
him down the path he took?
He would have
taken it anyhow. He came to the Courts seeking power to further his ends. She
merely made things a little easier for him.
That's not how
it sounded to me. But does that mean my father's curse was not really a
factor?
No, it helped-in
a metaphysical way-making it easier to extend the Black Road to Amber. Why is
it you are still here, when King Rinaldo bade you depart? Is it loyalty to the
Courts?
I had a date
with you for lunch, and it's been a while. Hated to miss it.
She smiled, very
slightly, and took a small sip of wine.
You change the
subject well, she stated. Let us return to it now. The ghost of Borel
dispatched that of Rinaldo, I take it?
Not exactly.
What do you
mean?
My father's
ghost showed up about then and dealt with Borel, permitting us to depart.
Again? Corwin
bested Borel again? I nodded.
Neither
remembered their first encounter, of course. Their memories only go back to the
time of their recording, and
I understand the
principle. Then what happened? We fled, I answered, and I subsequently came
here.
What did the
Logrus mean in referring to the n Pattern?
My father's
ghost was apparently generated them; rather than by the old one.
She sat upright,
eyes suddenly wide.
How do you know
this? she demanded. He told me, I answered.
She stared past
me then at the now-silent sea. So the third power is actually taking a part in
things, she mused. This is fascinating, as well as disconcerting. Damn the
man for having drawn it!
You really hate
him, don't you? I said.
Her eyes focused
again upon my own.
Let that subject
be! she ordered. Save for this, she amended a moment later. Did he give you
any indication as to the new Pattern's allegiance-or its plans? The fact that .
it sent him to protect Luke might be seen as a seconding of the old Pattern's
action. On the other hand-either because it was created by your father, or
because it has its own uses for you-I can see it simply as an effort at your
protection. What did he say?
That he wanted
to get me away from where I was.
She nodded.
Which he
obviously did, she said. Did he say anything else? Did anything else happen
that might be important?
He asked after
you.
Really? And that
was all?
He had no
special message, if that's what you mean.
I see.
She looked away,
was silent for a time. Then, Those ghosts don't last very long, do they? she
said.
No, I replied.
It's
infuriating, she said at last, to think that, despite everything, he is still
able to play a hand in this.
He's alive,
isn't he, Mother? I said. And you know where he is.
I'm not his
keeper, Merlin.
I think you
are.
It is
impertinent to contradict me this way.
Yet I must,'' I
responded. I saw him off on his way to the Courts. Certainly, he wanted to be
here with the others for the peace settlement. Even more, though, he must have
wanted to see you. There were so many unanswered questions in his mind-where
you came from, why you came to him, why you parted as you did
Enough! she
cried. Let it be!
I ignored her.
And I know he
was here in the Courts. He was seen here. He must have looked you up. What
happened then? What sort of answers did you give him?
She rose to her
feet, glaring at me now.
That will be
all, Merlin, she said. It seems impossible to conduct a civilized
conversation with you.
Is he your
prisoner, Mother? Do you have him
locked away
somewhere, someplace where he can't bother you, can't interfere with your
plans?
She stepped
quickly away from the table, almost stumbling.
Wretched child!
she said. You're just like him! Why did you have to resemble him so?
You're afraid of
him, aren't you? I said, suddenly realizing this could well be the case.
You're afraid to kill a Prince of Amber, even with the Logrus on your side.
You've got him locked away somewhere, and you're afraid he'll come loose and
blow your latest plans. You've been scared for a long time now because of what
you've had to do to keep him out of action.
Preposterous!
she said, backing away as I rounded the table. There was a look of genuine fear
on her face now. You're just guessing! she went on. He's dead, Merlin! Give
up! Leave me alone! Never mention his name in my presence again! Yes, I hate
him! He would have destroyed us all! He still would, if he could!
He is not dead,
I stated.
How can you say
that?
I bit down on the
desire to tell her I'd spoken with him, held it back.
Only the guilty
protest so strongly, I said. He's alive. Where is he?
She raised her
hands, palms inward, and crossed them upon her breast, elbows low. The fear was
gone, the anger was gone. When she spoke again, something like mockery seemed
her main humor: Then seek him, Merlin. By all means, seek him.
Where? I
demanded.
Look for him in
the Pit of Chaos.
A flame appeared
near her left foot and began orbiting her body in a counterclockwise direction,
spiraling upward, leaving a line of fire to blaze redly behind it. By the time
it reached the crown of her head she was entirely concealed. It went out with a
faint whooshing sound then, taking her along with it.
I moved forward
and knelt, feeling the area on which she'd stood. It was a little warm, that's
all. Nice spell. Nobody'd ever taught me that one. Thinking back on it then, I
realized that Mom had always had a flair when it came to entrances and exits.
Ghost?
He danced away
from my wrist to hover in the air before me.
Yes?
Are you still
barred from transporting yourself through Shadow?
No, he replied.
That was lifted when the Sign of the Logrus departed. I can travel-in or out
of Shadow. I can provide transportation for you. Would you like me to?
Yes. Take me
into the gallery upstairs.
Gallery? I
plunged directly from the place of the Logrus into the dark sea, Dad. I'm not
quite sure as to the lay of the land here.
Never mind, I
said. I'll manage it myself.
I activated the
spikard. Energies spiraled from six of its tines, encaging Ghost and myself,
swirling us upward to the place of my desire in the Maze of Art. I tried for a
flash of fire as we went, but had no way of knowing whether I'd achieved it.
Makes you wonder how the really good ones get their practice.
VII
I delivered us
into that eerie hall that had always been old Sawall's chief delight in the
maze. It was a sculpture garden, with no outside light sources and small base
lighting only about the huge pieces, making it several times darker than my
favorite lounge. The floor was uneven-concave, convex, stepped, ridged-with
concavity being the dominant curve. It was difficult to guess at its
dimensions, for it seemed of different size and contour depending upon where
one stood. Gramble, Lord Sawall, had caused it to be constructed without any
plane surfaces-and I believe the job involved some unique shadowmastery.
I stood beside
what appeared to be a complicated rigging in the absence of its ship-that, or
an elaborate musical instrument fit to be strummed by Titans-and the light
turned the lines to silver, running like life from darkness to darkness within
some half seen frame. Other pieces jutted from walls and hung like stalactites.
As I strolled, what had seemed walls became floor to me. The pieces that had
seemed floored now jutted or depended.
The room changed
shape as I went, and a breeze blew through it, causing sighs, hums, buzzes,
chimes. Gramble, my stepfather, had taken a certain delight in this hall,
whereas for me it had long represented an exercise in intrepidity to venture
beyond its threshold. As I grew older, however, I, too, came to enjoy it, partly
for the occasional frisson it provided my adolescence. Now, though-Now I just
wanted to wander it a few moments, for old times' sake, as I sorted through my
thoughts. There were so damned many of them. Things that had tantalized me for
much of my adult life seemed near to explanation now. I was not happy with all
of the possibilities that tumbled through my mind. Still, no matter which ones
came out on top, it would beat ignorance.
Dad?
Yes?
What is this
place, anyway? Ghost asked.
It's a part of
the big art collection here at the Ways of Sawall, I explained. People come
from all over the Courts and nearby Shadow to see it. It was a passion with my
stepfather. I spent a lot of time wandering these halls when I was a kid. There
are many hidden ways in this place.
And this
particular room? There's something wrong with it.
Yes and no, I
said. I guess it depends on what you mean by `wrong. '
My perceptions
are strangely affected just now.
That is because
the space itself is folded in here, like some odd origami figure. The hall is
much larger than it seems. You can wander through many times and witness a
different array of displays on each occasion. There may even be some internal
movement involved. I was never sure. Only Sawall knew for certain.
I was right.
Something's wrong with it.
I rather like it
this way.
I seated myself
on a silver stump beside a sprawled silver tree.
I want to see
how it folds, he said at last.
Go ahead.
As he drifted
off, I thought of my recent interview with my mother. I was reminded of
everything Mandor had said or implied, of the conflict between the Pattern and
the Logrus, of my father as the champion of the Pattern and intended king in
Amber. Had she known this, known it as fact rather than speculation? I imagined
she could have, for she seemed to enjoy a special relationship with the Logrus,
and it would surely have been aware of its adversary's more prominent
decisions. She'd admitted that she did not love the man. It seemed
as if she had
sought him for whatever genetic material had so impressed the Pattern. Had she
really been trying to breed a champion for the Logrus?
I chuckled as I
considered the result. She had seen me trained well in arms, but I was nowhere
near Dad's league. I'd preferred sorcery, but sorcerers were a dime a dozen in
the Courts. Finally, she'd shipped me off to college on that Shadow Earth the
Amberites favor. But a degree in Computer Science from Berkeley didn't much
qualify me to uphold the banner of Chaos against the forces of Order either. I
must have been a disappointment to her.
I thought back to
my childhood, to some of the strange adventures for which this place had served
as a point of departure. Gryll and I would come here, Glait slithering at our
feet, coiled about a limb or riding somewhere amid my garments. I would give
that odd ululant cry I had learned in a dream, and sometimes Kergma would join
us, come skittering down the . folds of darkness, out some frayed area of
twisted space. I was never sure exactly what Kergma was, or even of what
gender, for Kergma was a shapeshifter and flew, crawled, hopped, or ran in a
succession of interesting forms.
On an impulse, I
voiced that ancient call. Nothing, of course, happened, and I saw it moments
later for what it was: a cry after a vanished childhood, when I had at least
felt wanted. Now, now I was nothing-neither Amberite nor Chaosite, and
certainly a disappointment to my relatives on both sides. I was a failed
experiment. I'd never been wanted for myself, but as something that might come
to pass. Suddenly my eyes were moist, and I held back a sob. And I'll never
know what sort of mood I might have worked myself into because I was distracted
then.
There came a
flare of red light from a point high on the wall to my left. It was in the form
of a small circle about the feet of a human figure.
Merlin! called
a voice from that direction, and the flames leapt higher. By their light, I saw
that familiar face, reminding me a bit of my own, and I was pleased with the
meaning it had just given to my life, even if that meaning was death.
I raised my left
hand above my head and willed a flash of blue light from the spikard.
Over here,
Jurt! I called, rising to my feet. I began forming the ball of light that was
to be his distraction while I readied the strike that would electrocute him. On
reflection, it had seemed the surest way of taking him out. I'd lost count of
the number of attempts he'd made on my life, and I'd resolved to take the
initiative the next time he came calling. Frying his nervous system seemed the
surest way to ice him, despite what the Fountain had done for him. Over here,
Jurt!
Merlin! I want
to talk!
I don't. I've
tried it too often, and I've nothing left to say. Come on over and let's get
this done-weapons, hands, magic. I don't care.
He raised both
hands, palms outward.
Truce! he
cried. It wouldn't be right to do it here in Sawall.
Don't give me
that scruples shit, brother! I cried, but even as I said it I realized there
might be something to it. I could remember how much the old man's ap-proval had
meant to him, and I realized that he'd hate to do anything to antagonize Dara
here on the premises. What do you want, anyway?
f To talk. I
mean it, he said. What do I have to do?
Meet me over
there, I said, casting my ball of light to shine above a familiar object that
looked like a giant house of cards made of glass and aluminum, bouncing light
from hundreds of planes.
All right, came
the reply.
I began walking
in that direction. I saw him approaching from his, and I angled my course so
that our paths would not intersect. Also, I increased my pace so as to arrive
ahead of him.
No tricks, he
called out. And if we do decide we can only take it to the end, let's go
outside.
Okay.
I entered the
structure at a point around the corner from his approach. Immediately, I
encountered six images of myself.
Why here? came
his voice from somewhere near at hand.
I don't suppose
you ever saw a movie called Lady from Shanghai?
No.
It occurred to
me that we could wander around in
here and talk,
and the place would do a lot to keep us from hurting each other.
I turned a
corner. There were more of me in different places. A few moments later, I heard
a sharp intake of breath from somewhere near at hand. It was followed almost
immediately by a chuckle.
I begin to
understand, I heard him say.
Three steps and
another turn. I halted. There were two of him and two of me. He was not looking
at me, though. I reached out slowly toward one of the images. He turned, he saw
me. His mouth opened as he stepped back and vanished.
What did you
want to talk about? I asked, halting.
It's hard to
know where to begin.
That's life.
You upset Dara
quite a bit...
That was quick.
I only left her ten, fifteen minutes ago. You're staying here at Sawall?
Yes. And I knew
she was having lunch with you. I just saw her briefly a little while ago.
Well, she didn't
make me feel too good either.
I turned another
corner and passed through a doorway in time to see him smile faintly.
She's that way
sometimes. I know, he said. She tells me the Logrus came by for dessert.
Yes.
She said it
seems to have chosen you for the throne.
I hoped he saw my
shrug.
It seemed that
way. I don't want it, though.
But you said
you'd do it.
Only if there's
no other way to restore a certain balance of forces. It's a last resort sort of
thing. It won't come to that, I'm sure.
But it chose
you.
Another shrug.
Tmer and Tubble
precede me.
That doesn't
matter. I'd wanted it, you know.
I know. Seems a
pretty dumb career choice.
Suddenly, he
surrounded me.
It does now, he
admitted. It was getting that way some time, though, before you got
designated. I ought I had the edge each time we met, and each time'
a came a little
closer to killing me.
It did keep
getting messier.
That last
time-in the church-in Kashfa, I was certain I could finally take you out.
Instead, you damn near did me in.
Say that Dara or
Mandor removed Tmer and Tubble. You knew you'd have to take care of me
yourself, but what about Despil?
He'd step aside
for me.
You asked him?
No. But I'm
sure.
I moved on.
You always
assumed too much, Jurt.
Maybe you're
right, he said, appearing and vanishing again. Either way, it doesn't
matter.
Why not?
I quit. I'm out
of the running. The hell with it.
How come?
Even if the
Logrus hadn't made its intentions clear,
I was beginning
to feel nervous. It was not just that I was afraid you'd kill me either. I got
to thinking about myself, and the succession. What if I made it to the throne?
I'm not so sure as I once was that I'm competent to hold it. I turned again,
caught a glimpse of him licking his lips, brows knotted. I could mess up the
realm severely, he went on, unless I had good advice. And you know that, ultimately,
it would come from
Mandor or Dara.
I'd wind up a puppet, wouldn't I?
Probably. But
you've gotten me very curious. When did you start thinking this way? Might it
coincide with your treatment in the Fountain? What if my interruption made
yours closer to the correct course there?
It's possible
there's something to that, he said.
I'm glad now I
didn't go the full route. I suspect it might have driven me mad, as it did
Brand. But it may not have been that at all. Or-I don't know.
There was silence
as I sidled along a passageway, my puzzled images keeping pace in the mirrors
at either hand.
She didn't want
me to kill you, he finally blurted from somewhere off to my right.
Julia?
Yes.
How is she?
Recovering.
Pretty rapidly, actually.
Is she here at
Sawall?
Yes.
Look, I'd like
to see her. But if she doesn't want to, I understand. I didn't know it was her
when I stabbed Mask, and I'm sorry.
She never really
wanted to hurt you. Her quarrel was with Jasra. With you, it was an elaborate
game. She wanted to prove she was as good as-maybe better than-you. She wanted
to show you what you'd thrown away.
Sorry, I
muttered.
Tell me one
thing, please, he said. Did you love her? Did you ever really love her?
I didn't answer him
immediately. After all, I'd asked myself that question many times, and I'd had
to wait for the answer, too.
Yes, I finally
said. I didn't realize it till it was too late, though. Bad timing on my
part.
A little later I
asked, What about you?
I'm not going to
make the same mistake you did, he replied. She's what got me to thinking
about all these things...
I understand. If
she won't see me, tell her that I said I'm sorry-about everything.
There was no
reply. I stood still for a time, hoping he'd catch up with me, but he didn't.
Then, Okay, I
called out. Our duel's ended, so far as I'm concerned.
I began moving
again. After a time, I came to an exit and I stepped through it.
He was standing
outside, looking up at a massive porcelain face.
Good, he said.
I drew near.
There's more,
he said, still not looking at me.
Oh?
I think they're
stacking the deck, he stated.
Who? How? What
for?
Mom and the
Logrus, he told me. To put you on the throne. Who's the bride of the Jewel?
I guess that
would be Coral. It seems I did hear Dara use that term at some point. Why?
I overheard her
giving orders last cycle, to some of her Hendrake kin. She's sending a special
team to kidnap this woman and bring her here. I got the impression she's
intended as your queen.
That's
ridiculous, I said. She's married to my friend Luke. She's Queen of Kashfa
He shrugged.
Just telling you
what I heard, he said. It had to do with this balancing of forces thing.
Indeed. I hadn't
thought of that possibility, but it made perfect sense. With Coral, the Courts
would automatically obtain the Jewel of Judgment, or the Eye of the Serpent as
it was known hereabout, and that balance would certainly be affected. A loss
for Amber, a gain for the Courts. It could be sufficient to achieve what I
wanted, the harmony that might postpone catastrophe indefinitely.
Too bad I
couldn't let it occur. The poor girl had been jerked around too much, because
she happened to be in Amber at the wrong time, because she happened to take a
liking to me. I can recall once feeling philosophical in the abstract and
deciding, yes, it would be okay to sacrifice one innocent for the good of the
many. That was back in college, and har something to do with principles. But
Coral was my friend, my cousin, and technically my lover-though under a set of
circumstances that should hardly count; and a quick check of my feelings, so as
not to be caught up short again, indicated that I could fall in love with her.
All of which meant that philosophy had lost yet another round in the real
world.
How long ago did
she send these people off, Jurt? I don't know when they left-or even if
they've left yet, he replied. And with the time differential, they could be
gone and back already for that matter.
True, I said,
and, Shit!
He turned and
looked at me.
It's important
in all sorts of other ways, too, I suppose? he said.
It is to her,
and she is to me, I answered.
His expression
changed to one of puzzlement.
In that case,
he said, why don't you just let them bring her to you? If you have to take the
throne, it will sweeten things. If you don't, you'll have her with you,
anyhow.
Feelings are
hard enough to keep secret, even around non-sorcerers, I said. She could be
used as a hostage against my behavior.
Oh. I hate to
say this pleases me. What I mean is... I'm pleased you care about someone
else.
I lowered my
head. I wanted to reach out and touch him, but I didn't.
Jurt made a
little humming noise, as he sometimes had when pondering things as a kid. Then,
We've got to get her before they do, and move her to someplace safe, he said.
Or take her away from them if they've already got her.
`We'?
He smiled, a rare
event.
You know what
I've become. I'm tough.
I hope so, I
said. But you know what'll happen. ; if there are any witnesses to say it was
a couple of the Sawall brothers behind this? Most likely a vendetta with
Hendrake.
Even if Dara
talked them into it?
It'll look like
she set them up.
Okay, he said.
No witnesses.
I could have said
that averting vendetta would save a lot of other lives, but that would have
sounded hypocritical even if I didn't mean it that way. Instead, That power
you gained in the Fountain, I said, gives you something I've heard referred
to as a `living Trump' effect. Seems to me you were able to transport Julia as
well as yourself with it.
He nodded.
Can it get us
from here to Kashfa in a hurry? The distant sound of an enormous gong filled
the air. I can do anything the cards can do, he said, and
I can take
someone along with me. The only problem is that the Trumps themselves don't
have that range. I'd have to take us there in a series of jumps.
The gong sounded
again.
What's going
on? I asked.
The noise? he
said. That's notice that the funeral is about to begin. It can be heard
throughout the Courts.
Bad timing.
Maybe, maybe
not. It's giving me an idea. Tell me about it.
It's our alibi
if we have to take out some Hendrakes.
How so?
The time
differential. We go to the funeral and get seen. We slip out, run our errand,
come back, and attend the rest of the service.
You think the
flow will allow that?
I think there's
a good chance, yes. I've done a lot of jumping around. I'm starting to get a
real feel for flows.
Then we'll give
it a try. The more confusion the better.
Again, the gong.
Red, the color of
the fire of life that fills us, is the color of mourning garments in the
Courts. I used the spikard rather than the Sign of the Logrus to summon
suitable clothing for myself. I'd a desire to avoid any commerce, even the most
mundane, with that Power, for now.
Jurt then trumped
us to his quarters, where he had suitable garments of his own from the last
funeral he'd attended. I'd a small desire to see my old room, too. Sometime,
perhaps, when I wasn't rushed...
We washed up,
combed, trimmed, dressed quickly. I took on a changed form then, as did Jurt,
and we went through the ritual again at this level, before garbing ourselves
for the occasion. Shirt, breeches, jacket, cloak, anklets, bracelets, scarf,
and bandanna-we looked incendiary. Weapons had to be left behind. We planned to
return for them on the way out.
Ready? Jurt
asked me.
Yes.
He caught hold of
my arm and we were transported, arriving at the inward edge of the Plaza at the
End of the World, where a blue sky darkened above a conflagration of mourners
milling along the route the procession would take. We passed among them, in
hope of being seen by as many as possible. I was greeted by a few old
acquaintances. Unfortunately, most wanted to stop and talk, not having seen me
for some time. Jurt had similar problems. Most also wondered why we were here,
rather than back at the Thelbane, the massive, glassy needle of Chaos far to
our rear. Periodically, the air would vibrate as the gong continued its slow
sounding. I felt it in the ground, also, as we were very near to its home. We
made our way slowly across the Plaza, toward the massive pile of black stone at
the very edge of the Pit, its gate an archway of frozen flame, as was its
downward stair, each tread and riser time-barred fire, each railing the same.
The rough amphitheater below us was also fire-furnished, self-illumed, facing
the black block at the end of everything, no wall behind it, but the open
emptiness of the Pit and its singularity whence all things came.
No one was
entering it yet, and we stood near the gates of fire and looked back along the
route the procession would follow. We nodded to friendly demonic faces,
quivered to the note of the gong, watched the sky darken a little further.
Suddenly, my head was filled with a powerful presence.
Merlin!
I immediately had
an image of Mandor in a changed form, looking down his red-clothed arm, hand
invisible, presumably regarding me through my Trump, wearing the closest thing
I'd seen in a long while to an irritated expression.
Yes? I said.
His gaze moved
past me. His expression suddenly changed, eyebrows rising, lips parting.
That's Jurt
you're with? he asked.
That's right.
I'd thought you
not on the best of terms, he said slowly, as of our last conversation.
We agreed to put
aside our differences for the funeral.
While it seems
very civilized, I'm not certain how wise it is, he said.
I smiled.
I know what I'm
doing, I told him.
Really? he
said. Then why are you at the cathedral rather than here at Thelbane?
Nobody told me I
was supposed to be at Thelbane. Odd, he responded. Your mother was supposed
to have informed both you and Jurt that you were to be part of the procession.
I shook my head
and turned away.
Jurt, did you
know we were to be in the procession? I asked.
No, he said.
On the one hand, it makes sense. On the other, there's the black watch, which
might recommend we maintain a low profile. Who's telling you this?
Mandor. He says
Dara was supposed to let us know.
She didn't tell
me.
You catch that?
I said to Mandor.
Yes. It doesn't
matter now. Come on through, both of you.
He extended his
other hand.
He wants us
now, I said to Jurt. Damn! Jurt mouthed, and came forward.
I reached out and
clasped Mandor's hand just as Jurt came up and caught hold of my shoulder. We
both moved forward then
into the slick
and gleaming interior of Thelbane's main hall at ground level, a study in
black, gray, mossy green, deep red, chandeliers like stalactites, fire
sculptures about the walls, scaly hides hung behind them, drifting globes of
water in the middle air, creatures swimming within them. The place was filled
with no-tiles, relatives, courtiers, stirring like a field of flame '`' about
the catafalque at the hall's center. The gong sounded again just as Mandor said
something to us.
He waited till
the vibrations subsided, then spoke again: I said Dara hasn't arrived yet. Go pay
your respects, and let Bances assign you places in the procession.
Glancing toward
the catafalque, I caught sight of both Tmer and Tubble in the vicinity. Tmer
was talking to Bances, Tubble to someone who had his back turned this way. A
horrible thought suddenly struck me.
What, I asked,
is the security situation for the procession?
Mandor smiled.
There are quite
a few guardsmen mixed in with the group here, he said, and more spotted along
the way. Someone will be watching you every second.
I glanced at Jurt
to see whether he'd heard, that. He nodded.
Thanks.
Keeping my litany
of obscenities subvocal, I moved toward the casket, Jurt at my back. The only
way I could think to produce a double would be to talk the Pattern into sending
in a ghost of myself to take my place. But the Logrus would detect the ringer's
projected energies in no time. And if I just left, not only would my absence be
noticed, but I'd probably be tracked-possibly by the Logrus itself once Dara
called a conference. Then it would be learned that I'd gone off to thwart the
Logrus's attempt to rebalance order, and the headwaters of Shit Creek are a
cruel and treacherous expanse. I would not make the mistake of fancying myself
indispensable.
How are we going
to do this, Merlin? Jurt said softly as we found our way to the end of the
slowmoving line.
The gong sounded
again, causing the chandeliers to vibrate.
I don't see how
we can, I answered. I think the best I can hope for is to try getting a
message through as I walk along.
It can't be done
by Trump from here, he answered. Well, maybe under perfect conditions, he
amended, but not with all these distractions.
I tried to think
of some spell, some sending, some agent to serve me in this. Ghost would have
been ideal. Of course; he'd drifted off to explore the spatial asymmetries of
the Sculpture Hall. That could keep him occupied for a long while.
I could get
there pretty quickly, Jurt volunteered, and with the time differential I
might make it back before anyone noticed.
And you know
exactly two people in Kashfa you might tell, I said. Luke and Coral. They
both met you in church, when we were trying to kill each otherand you stole
Luke's father's sword. Offhand, I'd say he'd try to kill you on sight and she'd
scream for help.
The line advanced
somewhat.
So I don't ask
for help, he said.
Un-uh, I told
him. I know you're tough, but Hendrakes are pros. Also, you'd be faced with a
very uncooperative rescuee in Coral.
You're a
sorcerer, Jurt said. If we find out who the guards are, couldn't you lay a
spell on them so that they think they see us for this whole affair? Then we
disappear and no one's the wiser.
I've a hunch
either Mom or our big brother has laid protective spells on the guards. At such
an ideal time for an assassination, I would. I wouldn't want anyone able to
mess with my people's heads if I were running security here.
We shuffled a
little farther along. By leaning to one side and stretching my neck I was able
to get a few glimpses of the wasted demonic foam of old Swayvill, resplendently
garbed, serpent of red-gold laid upon his breast, there in the flame-formed
coffin, Oberon's ancient nemesis, going to join him at last.
As I moved
nearer, it occurred to me that there was more than one a roach to the problem.
Perhaps I'd dwelled too long among the magically naive. I'd gotten out of the
habit of thinking of magic against magic, of multiple mixed spells. So what if
the guards were protected from any fiddling with their perceptions? Let it be.
Find a way to work around it.
The gong sounded
again. When the echoes died, Jurt leaned near.
There's more to
it than everything I said, he whispered.
What do you
mean? I asked.
Another reason I
came to you back at Sawall was because I was scared, he replied.
Of what?
At least one of
them-Mandor or Dara-wants more than a balance, wants a total victory for the
Logrus, for Chaos. I really believe that. It's not just that I don't want to be
patty to it. I don't want it to happen. Now that I can visit Shadow I don't
want to see it destroyed. I don't want a victory for either side. Total control
by
' the Pattern
would probably be just as bad.
How can you be
sure one of them really wants this?
They tried it
before with Brand, didn't they? He was out to destroy all order.
No, I said. He
planned to destroy the old order, then replace it with his own. He was a
revolutionary, not an anarchist. He was going to create a new Pattern within
the Chaos he brought forth-his own, but still the real thing.
He was duped. He
couldn't have managed a thing like that.
No way of
knowing till he tried, and he didn't get the chance.
Either way, I'm
afraid someone's going to pull the plug on reality. If this kidnapping takes
place, it'll be a big step in that direction. If you can't manage something to
cover our absence, I think we should just go anyway and take our chances.
Not yet, I
said. Hang on. I'm working something out. How's this sound? I don't locate the
guards and hallucinate them. Instead, I do a transformation. I cause a couple
of other people to look like us. You trump us out as soon as I do. That won't
be a hallucination for anyone. Everyone will see them as us; we can go about
our business-and check back if we have to.
You do it and
I'll get us out of here.
Okay, I'll do it
to the two guys in front of us. As soon as I've finished I'll gesture like
this, I said, lowering my left hand from shoulder-height to waist-level, and
we both stoop as if one of us had dropped something. Then you take us away.
I'll be ready.
The spikard made
it easier than working out a transform spell. It was like a spell processor. I
fed it the two end products, and it ran thousands of variations in a trice and
handed me the finished products-a pair of spells it would have taken me a long
while to work out along classical lines. I raised my hand as I hung them and
accessed one of the many power sources the thing commanded off in Shadow. I fed
juice into the constructs, watched the change commence, dropped my hand, and
leaned forward.
There followed a
moment's vertigo, and when I straightened we were back in Jurt's apartment. I
laughed and he slapped my shoulder.
Immediately then,
we were changing back into our human forms and garments. As soon as that was
done, he caught hold of my arm again and trumped us to Fire Gate. A moment
later, and he'd jumped us again, this time to a mountaintop overlooking a blue
valley beneath a green sky. Then again, to the middle of a high bridge above a
deep gorge, the sky putting away stars or taking them on.
Okay, now, he
said, and we stood atop a gray stone wall damp with dew, possibly even the
remains of a v storm. Clouds were taking fire in the east. There was a light
breeze out of the south.
This was the wall
that surrounded the innermost zone of Jidrash, Luke's capital in Kashfa. There
were four huge buildings below us-including the palace and the Temple of the
Unicorn directly across the Plaza from it-as well as a number of smaller
buildings. Diagonally across the way from where we stood was the wing of the
palace from which Gryll had fetched me (how long ago?) from my rendezvous with
the queen. I could even make out the broken shutter of our window amid an
expanse of ivy.
Over there, I
said, gesturing. That's where I last saw her.
An eyeblink later
we stood within the chamber, its only inhabitants. The place had been
straightened, the bed made up. I withdrew my Trumps and shuffled out Coral's.
Staring then till it grew cold, I felt her presence and reached for it.
She was there yet
she wasn't. It was the disjointed sense of presence one encounters in dream or
stupor. I passed my hand over the card and ended our tenuous contact.
What happened?
Jurt asked.
I think she's
drugged, I replied.
Then it would
seem they've already got her, he said. Any way you can trace her in that
state?
She could also
be in the next building, on medication, I said. She wasn't well when I left.
What now?
Either way,
we've got to talk to Luke, I said, searching for his card.
I reached him in
an instant on uncovering it. Merlin! Where the hell are you? he asked. If
you're in the palace, I'm next door, I said.
He rose to his
feet from what I now realized to be the edge of a bedstead, and he picked up a
long-sleeved green shirt and drew it on, covering his collection of scars. I
thought that I glimpsed someone in the bed behind him. He muttered something in
that direction, but I could not overhear it.
We've got to
talk, he said, running his hand through his rusty hair. Bring me through.
Okay, I said.
But first, you'd better know that my brother Jurt is here.
Has he got my
dad's sword?
Uh-No.
Guess I won't
kill him right now, he said, tucking his shirt into his waistband.
Abruptly, he
extended his hand. I clasped it. He stepped forward and joined us.
VIII
Luke grinned at
me, scowled at Jurt.
Where've you
been, anyway? he asked.
The Courts of
Chaos, I replied. I was summoned from here at the death of Swayvill. The
funeral's in progress right now. We sneaked away when I learned that Coral was
in danger.
I know
that-now, Luke said. She's gone. Kidnapped, I think.
When did it
happen?
Night before
last, I'd judge. What do you know of it?
I glanced at
Jurt. Time differential, he said.
She represented
a chance to pick up a few points, I explained, in the ongoing game between
the Pattern and the Logrus. So agents of Chaos were sent for her. They wanted
her intact, though. She should be okay.
What do they
want her for?
Seems they feel
she's specially suited to be queen in Thelbane, what with the Jewel of Judgment
as a piece of her anatomy and all.
Who's going to
be the new king?
My face felt warm
of a sudden.
Well, the people
who came for her had me in mind for the job, I replied.
Hey,
congratulations! he said. Now I don't have to be the only one having all this
fun.
What do you
mean?
This king
business ain't worth shit, man. I wish I'd never gotten sucked into the deal in
the first place. Everybody's got a piece of your time, and when they don't
someone still has to know where you are.
Hell, you were
just crowned. Give it a chance to shake down.
`Just'? It's
been over a month! Time differential, Jurt repeated.
Come on. I'll
buy you a cup of coffee, Luke said.
You've got
coffee here?
I require it,
man. This way. He led us out the door, turned left, headed down a stair.
I had a funny
thought, he said, while you were talking back there-about you reigning, and
Coral a desirable queen. I could get the marriage annulled pretty damn quick,
since I'm in charge here. Now, you want her for your queen and I want that
Golden Circle Treaty with Amber. I think I see a way to make everybody happy.
It's a lot more
complicated than that, Luke. I don't want the job, and it would be very bad for
us if my kinsmen back in the Courts got custody of Coral. I've learned a lot of
things recently.
Such as? Luke
said, opening a postern that let upon a walkway to the rear of the palace.
I glanced back at
Jurt.
He's scared,
too, I said. That's why we're a little more cordial these days.
Jurt nodded.
It's possible
Brand could have been partly victim of a plan originated in the Courts, he
said, part of an idea that's still alive there.
We'd better go
for the whole breakfast, Luke said. Let's swing around back and take it in
the kitchen. '' We followed him down a garden path.
And so we ate and
talked as the day brightened about us. Luke insisted I try Coral's Trump again,
which I did with the same result. Then he cursed, nodded, and said,' Your
timing's actually pretty good. The guys who grabbed her were reported to have
taken off along a black trail into the west.
It figures, I
said.
I've reason to
believe they didn't make it back to the Courts with her.
Oh?
I understand
these black thoroughfares you guys use ', are dangerous to outsiders, he
observed. But I can show you what's left of this one-it's a black pathway ;`
now, actually. I'd like to follow it, but I don't know that I can, get away for
long. Also, is there a way to protect me from the trail itself?
Just being in
our company would keep you from harm as we traveled it, Jurt said.
I stood. The cook
and t vo dishwashers glanced in our direction.
There is
somebody you have to meet, Luke, I told him. Right now.
Why not? he
said, rising. Where is he?
Let's take a
walk, I said.
Sure.
We got to our
feet, headed back to the servants' door. So, whether she was a willing
accomplice or a magical time bomb, Mom might have conned Dad into his efforts
to take over in Amber-and, ultimately, to change the world, Luke said.
Well, I gather
he didn't exactly come to her with clean hands, I said.
True, but I
wonder how elaborate his plans really were, to begin with, Luke mused. This
is the most cheerful thing I've heard all month.
We exited into
the little covered walkway that ran along the side of the palace. Luke halted
and looked around.
Where is he? he
asked.
Not here, I
said. I just needed a point of departure with no witnesses to say I'd kidnapped
the king.
Where are we
-going, Merlin? Jurt asked, as I
swirled a spiral
from the center of the spikard, drawing upon sixteen different power sources.
Good idea.
Kidnap away, Luke was saying as he was caught up along with Jurt.
I used it as I
had when I'd transported myself from Amber to Kashfa, forming the target from
memory rather than discovered vision. Only this time there were three of us and
a long, long way to go.
Have I got a
deal for you, I said.
It was like
stepping into a kaleidoscope, and passing through about 120 degrees of cubist
fragmentation and reassembly, before emerging on the other side beneath a
towering tree, its top lost in the fog, in the vicinity of a red and white '57
Chevy, its radio playing Renbourn's Nine Maidens.
Luke's ghost
emerged from the front seat and stared at the original. Luke stared back.
Hi, I said.
Meet each other. You hardly need an introduction, though. You have so much in
common. Jurt stared at the Pattern.
That's my dad's
edition, I said.
I could have
guessed that, Jurt told me. But what are we doing here?
An idea I had.
But I thought Corwin would be here, and I might discuss it with him.
He came back,
and he left again, said the resident Luke, overhearing me.
Did he leave a
forwarding address, or say when he might return?
Nope.
Damn! Look,
something that got said just a little while ago gave me the idea that you Lukes
might want to change places for a time-if this Pattern could be persuaded to
approve some leave.
Luke, whom I
decided to continue calling Luke when his ghost was around, brightened
suddenly. I resolved to think of his double as Rinaldo, to keep things sorted.
It's an
experience no man should do without, he said.
Then why are you
so anxious to get away from it? Rinaldo replied.
To help Merle
find Coral, Luke said. She's been kidnapped.
Really? By
whom?
Agents of
Chaos.
Hm. Rinaldo
began to pace. Okay, you know more about it than I do, he finally said. If
Corwin gets back soon and the Pattern excuses me, I'll help you any way I can.
The trail will
be getting colder while we wait, Luke observed.
You don't
understand, Rinaldo said. I've got a job to do here, and I can't just take
off-even if it's to go and be a king somewhere. What I do is more important.
Luke glanced at
me.
He's right, I
said. He's a guardian of the Pattern. On the other hand, nobody's about to
hurt Coral. Why don't Jurt and I pop on back to the Courts for a few minutes,
to check on the progress of the funeral? Corwin might show up while we're about
it. I'm sure you two will find something to talk about.
Go ahead, Luke
told me.
Yeah, said
Rinaldo. I'd like to know what we've been doing.
I looked at Jurt,
who nodded. I went and stood beside him.
Your turn to
drive, I said.
Back soon, I
remarked as we faded into the first jump.
... And so again
to the Ways of Sawall, and back into our ruddy garb over demonform. I also
changed our facial appearance to the nondescript before Jurt returned us to the
funeral party, not wanting a matching set marching along.
The Thelbane
proved deserted. A quick check outside, however, showed us the procession,
perhaps a quarter way across the Plaza, halter and in a state of confusion.
Uh-oh, Jurt
remarked. What should I do?
Take us down
there, I told him.
Moments later, we
were at the outer edge of the crowd. Swayvill's blazing casket had been lowered
to the ground, a guard posted about it. My attention was immediately attracted
to a knot of figures perhaps twenty feet off to the right of it. There was some
shouting going on, something lay upon the ground, and two demonic forms were
being held tightly by several others. My stomach tightened as I saw that the
two were the pair I had ensorcelled to resemble Jurt and myself. Both were
protesting something.
As I pushed my
way forward, I withdrew my spells, causing the two to revert to their own
appearance. There were more shouts as this occurred, including an I told you!
from the nearest. The response to this was a Yes, they are! from someone I
suddenly realized to be Mandor. He stood between them and the thing on the
ground.
It was a trick!
Mandor said. A distraction! Release them!
I decided the
moment was propitious for dropping the spells that masked Jurt and myself. Glorious
confusion! Moments later, Mandor saw me and signaled for me to approach. Jurt,
I saw, off to my right, had stopped to talk to someone he knew.
Merlin! he said
as soon as I was near. What do you know of this?
Nothing, I
said. I was way to the rear, with Jurt. I don't even know what happened.
Someone gave two
of the security guards your appearance and Jurt's. This was obviously intended
to create confusion when the assassin struck. They rushed forward insisting
they were guards. Obviously, they weren't. Clever-especially with you and Jurt
on their black watch list.
I see, I
agreed, wondering whether I had helped an assassin to escape. Who got hit?
Tmer, with a
very professional dagger stroke, he explained, left eyelid twitching. A faint
wink? Meaning? And he was gone in an instant.
Four mourners,
having made a stretcher of cloaks, raised the fallen body. After they'd moved
only a few paces with it, I saw another knot of people beyond them.
Seeing my puzzled
expression, Mandor glanced back.
More security,
he said. They're surrounding Tubble. I think I'll order him out of here for
now. You and Jurt, too. You can come to the temple later. I'll see that
security's even heavier there.
Okay, I said.
Is Dara here? He glanced about.
I haven't seen
her. Don't now, either. You'd better go.
I nodded. As I
turned away, I saw a half-familiar face off to my right. She was tall and
dark-eyed, shifting from a swirl of multicolored jewels to a swaying flowerlike
form, and she had been staring at me. I had been trying to recall her name
earlier, and had failed. Seeing her brought it back, though. I approached her.
I have to leave
for a time, I said. But I wanted to say hello, Gilva.
You do remember.
I was wondering.
Of course. .
How are you,
Merlin?
I sighed. She
smiled her way into furry, half-human solidity.
Me, too, she
said. I'll be so glad when this is all settled.
Yes. Listen, I
want to see you~for several reasons. When would be a good time?
Why, anytime
after the funeral, I guess. What about?
No time now.
Mandor's giving me angry looks. See you later.
Yes. Later,
Merlin.
I hurried back to
Jurt and caught him by the elbow. We're ordered to leave, I said. Security
reasons. All right. He turned to the man he'd been talking with. Thanks.
I'll see you later, he told him.
The world slipped
away. A new one dawned: Jurt's apartment, our clothes strewn about it.
Good timing for
us. Bad for Tmer, he remarked.
True.
How's it feel to
be number two? he asked as we changed again-both clothing and form.
It advances your
case, too, I said.
I've a feeling
he died on your account, brother, not mine.
I hope not, I
said.
He laughed.
It's between
Tubble and you.
If it were, I'd
be dead already, I said. If you're right, it's really between Sawall and
Chanicut. Wouldn't it be funny, Merlin, if I were sticking with
you because it's
the safest place to be just now? he asked. I'm sure our guards and assassins
are better than Chanicut's. Supposing I'm just waiting, saving my final effort
till Tubble's out of the way? Then, trusting me and all, you turn your
back-Coronation!
I looked at him.
He was smiling, but he also seemed to be studying me.
I was about to
say, You can have it, without the trouble, in a joking way. But I wondered
just then: Even in jest, if it were a choice between the two of us... It
occurred to me that if we were the only options, this was a circumstance under
which I'd agree to take the throne. I'd resolved to give him the benefit of the
doubt, to meet him more than halfway. But I couldn't help it. For all his
conciliatory talk and apparent cooperation, a lifelong habit is a hard thing to
break. I couldn't bring myself to trust him anymore than I had to.
Tell it to the
Logrus, I said.
A look of
fear-the widening of the eyes, the shifting of the gaze downward, a small
forward tightening of the shoulders-then, You really do have an understanding
with it, don't you? he asked.
There seems to
be an understanding, but it only works one way, I said.
What do you
mean?
I'm not about to
help either side wreck our world.
Sounds like
you're prepared to double-cross the Logrus.
I raised a finger
to my lips.
It must be your
Amber blood, he said then. I've been told they're all a little crazy.
Maybe so, I
said.
Sounds like
something your father would do.
What do you know
of him?
You know,
everybody has a favorite Amber story.
Nobody around
here ever told any to me.
Of course
not-considering.
Me being a half
breed and all? I said.
He shrugged.
Then, Well, yes.
I pulled on my
boots.
Whatever you're
doing with that new Pattern, he said, it probably won't make the old one too
happy.
Doubtless you're
right, I agreed.
So you won't be
able to run to it for protection if the Logrus is after you.
I guess not.
...And if
they're both after you, the new one won't be able to stand against them.
You think they'd
really get together on anything?
Hard to say. You're
playing a wild game. I hope you know what you're doing.
Me, too, I
said, rising. My turn.
I unwound the
spikard at a level I'd never attempted before, and I got us there in a single
jump.
Luke and Rinaldo
were still talking. I could tell them apart by their garments. Corwin was
nowhere in sight. Both waved as we made our appearance.
How's everything
in the Courts? Luke asked.
Chaotic, Jurt
replied. How long have we been away?
Six hours, I'd
guess, Rinaldo replied.
No sign of
Corwin? I asked.
No, Luke said.
But in the meantime, we've worked out a deal with each other-and Rinaldo's
been in touch with the Pattern here. It will release him and continue his
maintenance as soon as Corwin returns.
Regarding
that... Jurt said.
Yes? Rinaldo
asked. ` I'll stay here and cover for Rinaldo while you go find the lady with
the glass eye.
Why? Rinaldo
asked.
Because you'll
do a better job together and I'll feel a lot safer here than I would most other
places.
I'd have to see
whether that's acceptable, Rinaldo said.
Do it, said
Jurt.
He moved off
toward the Pattern. I searched the fog in all directions, hoping to see my
father returning. Jurt studied the car, its radio now playing a Bruce Dunlap
'number from Los Animales.
If your father
comes back and relieves me, Jurt said, I'll return to the funeral and make
excuses for you if you're not there. If you get back and I'm not there, you do
the same. All right?
Yes, I said,
wisps of mist rising like smoke between us. And whichever of us is free first
and has something worth saying...
Yes, he agreed.
I'll come looking if you don't -, get to me.
Didn't happen to
pick up my sword while you were back in the Courts, did you? Luke asked.
Didn't have
time, Jurt replied.
Next time you're
back, I wish you'd make time.
I will, I will,
Jurt said.
Rinaldo moved
away from the Pattern, returned to us. You're hired, he said to Jurt. Come
with me.
There's a spring
I want to show you, and a store of food, some weapons.
Luke turned and
watched them move off to our left.
I'm sorry, he
said softly, but I still don't trust him.
Don't be sorry.
I don't either. I've known him too long. But we have better reasons for
trusting each other now than we've had for a long time.
I'm wondering
whether it was wise to let him know where this Pattern is, and now to leave him
alone with it.
I'm pretty sure
the Pattern knows what it's doing, and that it can take care of itself.
He raised a pair
of crossed fingers.
I'd've argued
against it, he said, save that I need my double.
When they
returned, a deejay's baritone suddenly rolled forth, saying, It all goes to
show, timing is everything. Road conditions are fine. It is a good day for
travel. Immediately, there followed a drum solo I'd have sworn was something I
once heard Random play.
You're on duty
as of now, Rinaldo said to Jurt. To us, he nodded. Anytime.
I caught us up
with the spikard and spun us back to Kashfa, bringing us into Jidrash near
twilight, to the same walltop vantage I had enjoyed earlier with my brother.
And so at last,
Rinaldo said, looking out over the town.
Yes, Luke
replied. It's all yours-for a time. Then, Merle, how's about jumping us to
my apartment?
I turned to the
west where clouds had gone orange, glanced upward to where several hung purple.
Before we do
that, Luke, I said, I'd like to use what daylight's left for a look at that
black trail.
He nodded.
Good idea. Okay,
take us over there.
His gesture
indicated a hilly area to the southwest. I caught us up and spikarded us to it,
creating a verb for which I felt a neer in the same act. Such is the power of
Chaos.
Arriving on a
small hilltop, we followed Luke down its far side.
Over this way,
he said.
Long shadows lay
all about us, but there is a differ-ence between their dimness and the
blackness of a travel-thread from the Courts.
It was right
here, Luke finally said when we came to a place between a pair of boulders.
I moved forward
into the area but I felt nothing special.
You sure this is
the place? I asked.
Yes.
I advanced
another ten paces, twenty.
If this is
really where it was, it's gone now, I told him. Of course... I wonder how
long we've been ' away?
Luke snapped his
fingers.
Timing, he
observed. Take us back to my apartments.
We kissed the day
good-bye as I sent forth a lead and opened our way through the wall of dark. We
stepped.. through into the room I had occupied earlier with Coral.
Close enough? I
asked. I'm not sure where your rooms are.
Come on, he
said, taking us out, to the left and down the stair. Time to consult the
resident expert. Merle, do something about this guy's appearance. Too much of a
good thing might cause comment.
It was easy, and
the first time I'd made anyone look like the big portrait of Oberon back home.
Luke knocked on a
door before entering. Somewhere beyond it, a familiar voice spoke his name.
I have some
friends with me, he said.
Bring them in,
came her reply.
He opened the
door and did so.
Both of you know
Nayda, Luke announced. Nayda, this is my double. Let's call him Rinaldo and
me Luke while we're together. He's going to run things for me here while Merle
and I are off looking for your sister.
I changed Rinaldo
back then, in response to her puzzled look.
She had on black
trousers and an emerald blouse, her hair bound back by a matching green scarf.
She smiled as she greeted us, and when she regarded me she touched her lips
lightly, almost casually, with a fingertip. I nodded immediately.
I trust you are
recovered from any misadventures in Amber, I said. You were, of course, there
at a bad time.
Of course, she
responded. Fully recovered, thank you. Kind of you to ask. Thanks, too, for
the recent directions. It was you, I take it, who spirited Luke away these two
days past?
It's really been
that long? I said.
It has, sir.
Sorry about
that, my dear, Luke said, squeezing her hand and looking long into her eyes.
That explains
why the trail's faded, I said.
Rinaldo seized
her hand and kissed it, while executing an elaborate bow.
Amazing how much
you've changed from the girl I knew, he stated.
Oh?
I share Luke's
memories as well as his appearance, he explained.
`I could tell
there was something not quite human about you, she remarked. I see you as a
man whose very blood is fire.
And how might
you see that? he inquired.
She has her
means, Luke said, though I thought it only a psychic bond with her sister.
Apparently it goes somewhat further.
She nodded.
Speaking of
which, I hope you can use it to help us track her, he continued. With the
trail gone and a drug or a spell barring a Trump call, we'll be needing
assisstance.
Yes, she
answered, though she is in no danger at the moment.
Good, he said.
In that case, I'll order us all food and set to briefing this good-looking
fellow on what's going on in Kashfa these days.
Luke, I said.
It sounds like an ideal time for me to head back to the Courts for the rest of
the funeral.
How long would
you be gone, Merle?
I don't know, I
replied.
Back by morning,
I trust?
Me, too. What if
I'm not, though?
I've a feeling I
should go looking without you.
Try reaching me
first, though.
Sure. See you
later.
I drew my cloak
of space about me, shrugging Kashfa away. When I opened it again I was back in
Jurt's quarters at Sawall.
. I stretched, I
yawned. I did a quick turn about the room, making certain I was alone. I
unfastened my cloak and tossed it upon the bed. I paced as I unbuttoned my
shirt.
Halt. What was
it? Also, where?
I retraced a few
paces. I had never spent a great deal of time in my younger brother's rooms,
but I would have recalled what I was feeling.
There was a chair
and table in the corner formed by the wall and an armoire of dark, almost black
wood. Kneeling on the chair and reaching over the table, I could feel it-the
presence of a way, not quite strong enough for transport, though. Ergo...
I moved off to my
right, opened the armoire. It had to be inside, of course. I wondered how
recently he had installed it. I also felt slightly funny about poking about in
his quarters this way. Still, he owed me for a lot of misery and inconvenience.
A few confirences and a little cooperation hardly cleaned the slate. I hadn't
learned to trust him yet, and it was possible he was setting me up for
something. Good manners, I decided, would have to be sacrificed to prudence.
I pushed garments
aside, making a way clear to the back of the thing. I could feel it strongly. A
final shove at the garments, a quick shuffle to the rear, and I was at the
focus. I let it take me away.
Once there was a
forward yielding, the pressure of the garments at my back gave me a small push.
That, plus the fact that someone (Jurt, himself?) had done a sloppy
shadowmastering job resulting in mismatched floor levels, sent me sprawling as
I achieved destination.
At least, I
didn't land in a pit full of sharpened stakes or acid. Or the lair of some
half-starved beast. No, it was a green-tiled floor, and I caught myself as I
fell. And from the flickering light all about me I guessed there was a mess of
candles burning.
Even before I
looked up I was sure they'd all be green.
Nor was I
incorrect. About that or anything else. The setup was similar to that of my
father, with a groined vault containing a light source superior to the candles.
Only there was no painting above this altar. This one featured a stained-glass
window, lots of green in it, and a little red.
Its principal was
Brand.
I rose and
crossed to it. Lying upon it, drawn a few inches from its sheath, was
Werewindle.
I reached out and
took hold of it, my first impulse being to bear it away with me for eventual
restoration to Luke. Then I hesitated. It wasn't something I could wear to a
funeral. If I took it now I'd have to hide it somewhere, and it was already
well-hidden right here. I'' let my hand rest upon it, though, as I thought. It
con- tained a similar feeling of power to that which Grays- wandir bore, only
somehow brighter, less tragedy, touched and brooding. Ironic. It seemed an
ideal blade for a hero.
I looked about.
There was a book on a reading stand off to my left, a pentagram upon the floor
behind me, worked in different shades of green, a smell-as of a. recent wood
fire-hung in the air. Idly, I wondered what I might find if I were to knock a
hole in the wall. Wa:s this chapel located upon a mountaintop? Beneath a lake?
Underground? Was it drifting somewhere in the heavens?
What did it
represent? It looked to be religious in nature. And Benedict, Corwin, and Brand
were the three I knew about. Were they admired, respected-venerated-by certain
of my countrymen and relatives? Or were these hidden chapels somehow more
sinister?
I removed my hand
from Werewindle, stepped to the vicinity of the pentagram.
My Logrus vision
revealed nothing untoward, but an intense scan with the spikard detected the
residue of a long-removed magical operation. The traces were too faint to tell
me anything of its nature, however. While it seemed possible I might probe
further after this and come up with a clearer picture, I also realized I hadn't
the time such an operation would require.
Reluctantly, I
retreated to the vicinity of the way. Could these places have been used to try
to influence the individuals involved?
I shook my head.
This was something I would have to save for another day. I located the way and
gave myself to it.
I stumbled on my
return, also.
Catching hold of
the frame with one hand, I seized a garment with another, kept myself upright,
straightened, and stepped out. Then I shifted the clothing back into place and
shut the doors.
I stripped
quickly, altering my form as I was about it, and I donned my mourning garb once
again. I felt some activity in the vicinity of the spikard, and for the first
time I caught it drawing upon one of the many sources it commanded to alter its
shape, accommodating the changing size of my finger. It had obviously done this
several times before, though this was the first time I had noted the process.
This was interesting, in that it showed the device capable of acting
independent of my will.
I didn't really
know what the thing was, what its origin might have been. I kept it because it
represented a considerable source of power, an acceptable substitute for the
use of the Logrus, which I now feared. But as I watched it change shape to
remain snug upon my changing finger, I wondered. What if it were somehow
boobytrapped to turn upon me at exactly the wrong moment?
I turned it a
couple of times upon my finger. I moved into it with my mind, knowing this to
be an exercise in futility. It would take ages for me to run down each line to
its source, to check out hidden spells along the way. It was like taking a trip
through a Swiss watch-custommade. I was impressed both with the beauty of its
design, and with the enormous amount of work that had gone into its creation.
It could easily possess hidden imperatives that would only respond to special
sets of circumstances. Yet
It had done
nothing untoward, yet. And the alternative was the Logrus. It struck me as a
genuine instance of the preferability of the devil one didn't know.
Growling, I
adjusted my apparel, focused my attention on the Temple of the Serpent, and
bade the spikard de-liver me near its entrance. It performed as smoothly and
gently as if I had never doubted it, as if I had not dis-covered in it yet
another cause for paranoia.
k And for a time,
I simply stood outside the doors of frozen flame, there at the great Cathedral
of the Serpent at the outer edge of the Plaza at the End of the World, situated
exactly at the Rim, opened to the Pit itself- where, on a good day, one can
view the creation of the universe, or its ending-and I watched the stars swarm
through space that folded and unfolded like the petals of flowers; and as if my
life were about to change, my thoughts returned to California and school, of
sailing the Sunburst with Luke and Gail and Julia, of sitting with my father
near the end of the war, of riding with Vinta Bayle through the wine country to
the east of Amber, of a long, brisk afternoon spent showing Coral about the
town, of the strange encounters of that day; and I turned. and raised my scaly
hand, stared past it at the spire of Thelbane, and they cease not fighting,
east and west, on the marches of my breast, I thought. How long, how long..?
-irony, as usual, a three-to-one favorite whenever sentimentality makes its
move.
Turning again, I
went in to see the last of the King, of Chaos.
IX
Down, down into
the pile, into the great slag heap, window onto the ends of time and space,
where nothing is to be seen at the end, I went, between walls forever afire,
never burnt down, walking in one of my bodies toward the sound of a voice
reading from the Book of the Serpent Hung upon the Tree of Matter, and at
length came into the grotto that backed upon blackness, widening semicircles of
red-clad mourners facing the reader and the grand catafalque beside which he
stood, Swayvill clearly in view within it, half-covered with red flowers
dropped by mourners, red tapers flickering against the Pit, but a few paces
behind them; across the rear of the chamber then, listening to Bances of
Amblerash, High Priest of the Serpent, his words sounding as if spoken beside
me, for the acoustics of Chaos are good; finding a seat in an otherwise empty
arc, where anyone looking back would be certain to notice me; seeking familiar
faces, finding Dara, Tubble, and Mandor seated in frontal positions that
indicated they were to assist Bances in sliding the casket past the edge into
forever when the time came; and in my divided heart I recalled the last funeral
I had attended before this: Caine's, back in Amber, beside the sea, and I
thought again of Bloom and the way the mind wanders on these occasions.
I sought about
me. Jurt was nowhere in sight. Gilva of Hendrake was only a couple of rows
below me. I shifted my gaze to the deep blackness beyond the Rim. It was almost
as if I were looking down, rather than ; out-if such terms had any real meaning
in that place: Occasionally, I would perceive darting points of light or
rolling masses. It served me as a kind of Rorschach for a time, and I
half-dozed before the prospect of dark but terflies, clouds, pairs of faces
I sat upright with
a small start, wondering what had broken my reverie.
The silence, it
was. Bances had stopped reading.
I was about to
lean forward and whisper something to Gilva when Bances began the Consignment.
I was startled to discover that I recalled all of the appropriate responses.
As the chanting
swelled and focused, I saw Mandor get to his feet, and Dara, and Tubble. They
moved forward, joining Bances about the casket-Dara and Mandor at its foot,
Tubble and Bances at its head. Service assistants rose from their section and
began snuffing can
dles, until only
the large one, at the Rim, behind Bances, still flickered. At this point we all
stood.
The ever-eerie
light of flame mosaics, worked into the y walls at either hand, granted
additional illumination to the extent that I could detect the movement below
when the chanting ceased.
The four figures
stooped slightly, presumably taking hold of the casket's handles. They
straightened then and moved toward the Rim. An assistant advanced and stood
beside the candle just as they passed it, ready to snuff the final flame as
Swayvill's remains were consigned to Chaos.
A half dozen
paces remained... Three. Two... Bances and Tubble knelt at the verge,
positioning the casket within a groove in the stone floor, Bances intoning a
final bit of ritual the while, Dara and Mandor remaining standing.
The prayer
finished, I heard a curse. Mandor seemed jerked forward. Dara stumbled away to
the side. I heard a clank as the casket hit the floor. The assistant's hand had
already been moving, and the candle went out at that moment. There followed a
skidding sound as the casket moved forward, more curses, a shadowy figure
retreating from the Rim...
Then came a wail.
A bulky outline fell and was gone. The wail diminished, diminished, diminished...
I raised my left
fist, caused the spikard to create a globe of white light as a bubble pipe does
a bubble. It was about three feet in diameter when I released it to drift
overhead. Suddenly, the place was filled with babbling. Others of sorcerous background
having exercised their favorite illumination spells at about the same time I
had, the temple was now over-illuminated from dozens of point-sources.
Squinting, I saw
Bances, Mandor, and Dara in converse near the Rim. Tubble and the remains of
Swayvill were no longer with us.
My fellow
mourners were already moving. I did, too, realizing that my time here was now
extremely limited. I stepped down over the empty row, moved to the
right, touched
Gilva's still humanized shoulder. Merlin! she said, turning quickly.
Tubble-went over-didn't he?
Sure looked that
way, I said.
What will happen
now?
I've got to
leave, I said, fast!
Why?
Somebody's going
to start thinking about the suc
cession in a few
moments, and I'm going to be smothered with protection, I told her. I can't
have that, not just now.
Why not?
No time to go
into that. But I'd wanted to talk to you. May I borrow you now?
There were
milling bodies all about us.
Of course-sir,
she said, apparently having just thought about the succession.
Cut that out, I
said, spikard spiraling the energies that caught us and took us away.
I brought us to
the forest of metal trees, and Gilva kept hold of my arm and looked about her.
Lord, what is
this place? she asked.
I'd rather not
say, I replied, for reasons that will become apparent in a moment. I only had
one question for you the last time I spoke with you. But now I have two, and
this place figures in one of them, in a way, besides being fairly deserted most
of the time.
Ask, she said,
moving to face me. I'll try to help. If it's important, though, I may not be
the best person
Yes, it's
important. But I haven't time to make an appointment with Belissa. It concerns
my father, Corwin.
Yes?
It was he who
slew Borel of Hendrake in the war at Patternfall.
So I
understand, she said.
After the war,
he joined the royal party that came here to the Courts to work out the Treaty.
Yes, she said.
I know that.
He disappeared
shortly thereafter, and no one
seemed to know
where he'd gotten off to. For a time, I thought he might be dead. Later,
however, I received indications that he was not, but rather was imprisoned
somewhere. Can you tell me anything about this?
She turned away
suddenly.
I am offended,
she said, by what I believe you imply.
I'm sorry, I
said, but I had to ask.
Ours is an
honorable House, she said. We accept the fortunes of war. When the fighting
is ended, we put it all behind us.
I apologize, I
said. We're even related, you know, on my mother's side.
Yes, I know,
she said, turning away. Will that be all, Prince Merlin?
Yes, I
answered. Where shall I send you?
She was silent
for a moment, then, You said there were two questions, she stated.
Forget it. I
changed my mind about the second one.
She turned back.
Why? Why should
I forget it? Because I maintain my family's honor?
No, because I
believe you. And?
I'll trouble
someone else for an opinion.
Do you mean it's
dangerous, and you've decided against asking me?
I don't
understand it, so it could be dangerous.
Do you want to
offend me again?
Heaven forbid!
Ask me your
question.
I'll have to
show you.
Do it.
Even if it means
climbing a tree? Whatever it means.
Follow me.
So I led her to
the tree and climbed it, an enormously simple feat in my present form. She was
right behind me.
There's a way up
here, I said. I'm about to let it take me. Give me a few seconds to move
aside.
I moved a little
farther upward and was transported. Stepping aside, I surveyed the chapel
quickly. Nothing seemed changed.
Then Gilva was at
my side. I heard a sharp intake of breath.
Oh, my! she
said.
I know what I'm
looking at, I said, but I don't know what I'm seeing, if you follow me.
It is a shrine,
she said, dedicated to the spirit of a member of the royal house of Amber.
Yes, it's my
father Corwin, I agreed. That's what I'm looking at. But what am I seeing?
Why should there be such a thing here in the Courts, anyway?
She moved forward
slowly, studying Dad's altar.
I might as well
tell you, I added, that this is not the only such shrine I've seen since my
return.
She reached out
and touched the hilt of Grayswandir. Searching beneath the altar, she found a
supply of candles. Removing a silver one and screwing it into the socket of one
of a numlxr of holders, she lit it from one of the others and placed it near
Grayswandir. She muttered something while she was about it, but I did not make
out the words.
When she turned
back to me again she was smiling. We both grew up here, I said. How is it
that you seem to know all about this when I don't?
The answer is
fairly simple, Lord, she told me. You departed right after the war, to seek
an education in other lands. This is a sign of something that came to pass in
your absence.
She reached out,
took hold of my arm, led me to a bench.
Nobody thought
we would actually lose that war, she said, though it had long been argued
that Amber would be a formidable adversary. We seated ourselves. Afterward,
there was considerable unrest, she continued, over the policies that had led
to it and the treaty that followed it. No single house or grouping could hope
for a deposition against the royal coalition, though. You know the conservatism
of the Rim Lords. It would take much, much more to unite a majority against the
Crown. Instead, their discontent took another form. There grew up a brisk trade
in Amber memorabilia from the war. People became fascinated by our conquerors.
Biographical studies of Amber's royal family sold very well. Something like a
cult began to take shape. Private chapels such as this began to appear,
dedicated to a particular Amberite whose virtues appealed to someone.
She paused,
studying my face.
It smacked too
much of a religion, she went on w' then, and for time out of mind the Way of
the Serpent had been the only significant religion in the Courts. So Swayvill
outlawed the Amber cult as heretical, for obvious political reasons. That
proved a mistake. Had he done nothing it might have passed quickly. I don't
really know, of course. But outlawing it drove it underground, made people take
it more seriously as a rebellious thing. I've no idea how many cult chapels
there are among the Houses, but that's obviously what this is.
Fascinating
sociological phenomenon, I said, and your cult figure is Benedict.
She laughed.
That wouldn't
have been hard to guess, she said.
Actually, I had
the chapel described to me by my brother Mandor. He claimed to have wandered
into it at a party at Hendrake, not knowing what it was.
She chuckled.
He must have
been testing you, she said. The practice has been common knowledge for a long
while: And I happen to know he's a cultist himself.
Really? How do
you know this?
He made no
secret of it in the old days, before the general proscription.
And who might
his personal patron be? I said.
The Princess
Fiona, she replied.
Curiouser and
curiouser...
You've actually
seen his chapel to her? I asked.
Yes. Before the
ban it was not uncommon to have your friends over for a service whenever you
were feeling particularly disgruntled with royal policy.
And after the
ban?
Everyone claimed
publicly that their shrines had been destroyed. Many were simply relocated, I
think, up hidden ways.
And the business
of having friends over for services?
I'd guess it
would depend on how good a friend you're talking about. I don't really know how
organized the Amber cult is. She gestured widely. A place like this is
illegal, though. Good thing I don't know where we are.
I guess so, I
said. What about the relationship between the cult figure and the real thing?
I'd say that Mandor really does have a thing about Fiona. He's met her, you
know, and I've been present and seen it. Someone else I know stole something
belonging to his-patron? -and keeps it in his shrine. And that"- I rose,
crossed the altar, and picked up Corwin's sword-` `is the real thing. I'd seen
Grayswandir close-up, touched it, held it. This is it. But what I'm getting at
is that my father is missing, and the last time I saw him he was wearing that
blade. Would it be in keeping with the tenets of this cult to keep your patron
prisoner?
I never heard of
such a thing, she said. But I don't see why not. It is really the spirit of
the person that is being venerated. There is no reason the person could not be
imprisoned.
Or dead?
Or dead, she
agreed.
Then fascinating
as all this is, I said, turning away from the altar, it doesn't really help
me to find my father.
I moved back to
her, across what must have been a representation of Amber, stylized as the
pattern on a Caucasian rug, there in the dark and light tile, the Chaotic one
far off to my right.
You would have
to ask the person responsible for his blade's being there, she said, rising.
I already asked
the person I believed responsible. The response was not satisfactory.
I took her arm to
steer her back toward the way to the tree, and she was suddenly standing very
close.
I would like to
serve our next king any way I might, she said. Though I may not normally
speak for our House, I am certain Hendrake would agree to help you bring
pressure upon the person responsible.
Thanks, I said
as we embraced. Her scales were cool. Her fangs would have shredded my human
ear, but it was only a nibble in demonform. I will talk to you again if I need
help along those lines.
Talk to me
again, anyway.
It was good to
hold and be held for a time, and that is what we did, till I saw a shadow move
in the vicinity of the way.
Masster Merlin.
Glait!
Yess. I ssaw you
come thiss way. Manform, demonform, grown or ssmall, I know you.
Merlin, what is
it? Gilva asked.
''An old friend,
I told her. Glait, meet Gilva. And vice versa.
Pleassed. I came
to warn you that ssomeone approachess.
Who?
Princess Dara.
Oh, dear! Gilva
remarked.
You suspect
where we are, I said to her. Keep it to yourself.
I value my head,
Lord. What do we do now?
Glait, to me, I
said, kneeling and extending an arm. She flowed up it and made herself
comfortable. I rose and caught hold of Gilva with the other. I sent my will
into the spikard.
Then I hesitated
I didn't know
where the hell we were-really, physically, in terms of geography. A way can
deliver you next door, or somewhere thousands of miles distant from
its point of
origin, or somewhere off in Shadow. It would take a while to have the spikard
figure where we were and then work out the way back, if we were going to bypass
the way. Too long, I was certain.
I could simply
use it to render us invisible. But I feared my mother's sorcerous sensitivity
would be suf ficient to detect our presence at levels beyond the visual.
I faced the
nearest wall and extended my senses past it on a line of the spikard's force.
We were not underwater or drifting on a sea of lava or quicksand. We seemed to
be in a wooded spot.
So I walked
toward the wall and passed us through it when we got there.
Several paces
later, in the midst of a shaded glade, I looked back and beheld a grassy
hillside, with no singing coming from beneath it. We stood under a blue sky,
orange sun
nearing its top. There were bird and insect sounds about us.
Marrow! Glait
exclaimed, unwound herself from my arm and vanished into the gasses.
Don't stay away
long! I hissed, trying to keep my voice low; and I led Gilva away from the
hill.
Merlin, she
said, I'm frightened at what I've learned.
I won't tell
anyone if you won't, I said. If you'd like, I can even remove these memories
before I send you back to the funeral.
No, let me keep
them. I can even wish there were more.
I'll figure our
location and get you back before you're missed.
I'll wait with
you while your friend hunts.
I half expected
her to continue, ...in case I never see you again, what with the near
skateboarding of Tmer and Tubble off this ever-mortal helix. But no, she was a
demure and well-bred battle-maid-with over thirty notches on the haft of her broadsword,
I later learned-and she was above stating the distasteful obvious in the
presence of her possible future liege.
When Glait
returned after an appropriate time, I said, Thanks, Gilva. I'm going to send
you back to the funeral now. If anyone saw us together and wants to know where
I am, tell them I said I was going into hiding.
If you do need a
place to hide...
Talk to you
sometime later perhaps, I said, and I sent her back to the temple at the edge
of everything.
Good vermin,
Glait remarked, as I commenced my shift humanward. (It's always easier that way
for me than the demon-shift.)
I'd like to send
you back to Sawall's sculpture garden, I said.
Why there,
Masster Merlin?
To wait for a
time, to see whether you behold a sentient circle of light. And if you do, to
address it as Ghostwheel and tell it to come to me.
Where shall I
tell it to sseek you?
That I do not
know, but it is good at that sort of thing.
Then ssend me.
And if you are not eaten by ssomething bigger, come tell me your sstory one
night.
I shall.
It was the work
of but a moment to hang the serpent back in her tree. I've never been sure when
she's joking, reptilian humor being more than a little strange.
I summoned fresh
garments and garbed myself in gray and purple. Fetched me blades long and short
then, also. I wondered what my mother might have been up to in her chapel, but
decided against trying to spy on her. I raised the spikard and regarded it for
a moment, then lowered it. It seemed possibly counterproductive to transport
myself to Kashfa when I was uncertain how much time had passed and whether Luke
was actually still there. I took out my Trumps, which I had had along in my
mourning garb, uncased them.
I located Luke's,
focused upon it. Before too long it went cold and I felt Luke's presence.
Yes? he said.
That you, Merle? at about the same time as his image swam and altered,
causing me to see him mounted and riding through a part-blasted, part-normal
countryside.
Yeah, I
answered. I gather you're no longer in Kashfa.
Right, he said.
Where're you?
Somewhere in
Shadow. How's about yourself?
Damned if I know
for sure, he responded. We've
been following
this black path for days-and I can only say `somewhere in Shadow,' too.
0h, you located
it?
Nayda did. I
didn't see anything, but she just led me on. Eventually, the trail got clear to
me. Hell of a tracker, that gal.
She's with you
now?
That's right.
She says we're gaining on them, too.
Better bring me
through then.
Come ahead.
He extended a
hand. I reached forward, clasped it, took a step, released his hand, began
walking beside him, a pack horse to the rear.
Hi, Nayda! I
called, to where she rode at his other side. A grim figure was mounted upon a
black horse ahead and to her right.
She smiled.
Merlin, she
said. Hello.
How about
Merle? I said.
If you wish.
The figure on the
dark horse turned and regarded me.
I halted a death
strike that ran from reflex to the spikard so fast that it scared me. The air
between us was smudged and filled with a screeching note, as of a car grabbing
pavement to avert collision.
He was a big,
blond-haired son of a bitch, and he had on a yellow shirt and black trousers,
black boots, lots of cutlery. The medallion of the Lion rending the Unicorn
bounced upon his broad chest. Every time I'd seen or heard of the man, he'd
been about something nasty, damn near killing Luke on one occasion. He was a
mercenary, a Robin Hood figure out of Eregnor, and a sworn enemy of
Amber-illegitimate son of her late liege Oberon. I believed there was a price
on his head within the Golden Circle. On the other hand, he and Luke had been
buddies for years, and Luke swore he wasn't all that bad. He was my uncle Dalt,
and I'd a feeling that if he moved too quickly the flexing of his muscles would
shred his shirt.
...And you
remember my military adviser, Dalt, Luke said.
I remember, I
stated.
Dalt stared at
the black lines in the air that faded, smokelike, between us. He actually
smiled then, a little.
Merlin, he
said, son of Amber, Prince of Chaos,
the man who dug
my grave.
What's this?
Luke asked.
A little
conversational gambit, I replied. You've a good memory, Dalt-for faces.
He chuckled.
Hard to forget
something like a grave opening itself, he said. But I've no quarrel with you,
Merlin.
Nor I you-now,
I said.
He grunted then
and I grunted back and considered us introduced. I turned back toward Luke.
Is the path
itself giving you any trouble? I asked.
No, he replied.
It's nothing at all like those stories I'd heard about the Black Road. It
looks a little bleak at times, but nothing's really threatened us. He glanced
downward and chuckled. Of course it's only a few yards wide, he added, and
this is the broadest it's been, so far.
Still, I said,
opening my senses and studying its emanations with my Logrus sight, I'd think
something might have threatened.
I guess we've
been lucky, he said.
Again, Nayda
laughed, and I felt foolish. The presence of a ty' iga would count as surely as
my own in offsetting the dire effects of a Chaos roadway in the realm of Order.
Guess you had a
little luck coming, I said.
You're going to
need a horse, Merle, he said then. I suppose you're right, I agreed.
I was afraid to
use Logrus magic and call attention to my location. Still, I had already
learned that the spikard could be used in a similar fashion, and I entered it
with my will, extended, extended, made contact, summoned...
It'll be along
any minute, I said. Did you say something about our gaining on them?
That's what
Nayda tells me, he explained. She has an amazing rapport with her sister-not
to mention a high sensitivity to this pathway itself.
Knows a lot
about demons, too, he added.
Oh, are we
likely to encounter any? I asked her.
It was
demonformed warriors from the Courts who abducted Coral, she said. They seem
headed toward a tower up ahead.
How far ahead?
I asked.
Hard to say,
since we're cutting through Shadow, she answered.
T'he trail, which
consisted of blackened grasses and which produced the same effect on any tree
or shrub that so much as overhung it, wound its way through a hilly area now;
and as I stepped onto and off of it I noted that it seemed brighter and warmer
each time I departed. It had reached this point now after having been virtually
undetectable in the vicinity of Kashfa-an index of how far we were into the
realm of the Logrus.
A little past the
next bending of the trail, I heard a whinny from off to the right.
Excuse me, I
said. Delivery time, and I departed the trail and entered a grove of
oval-leafed trees.
Snorting and
stamping sounds reached me from
ahead, and I
followed them down shaded ways.
Wait up! Luke
called. We shouldn't separate.
But the wood was
fairly dense, not at all easy going
for someone on
horseback, so I hollered back, Don't worry! and plunged ahead.
... And that, of
course, was why he was there.
Fully saddled and
bridled, his reins tangled in the dense foliage, he was cursing in horse-talk,
shaking his head from side to side, pawing at the earth. I halted stared.
I may have given
the impression that I would rather pull on a pair of Adidas and jog through
Shadow than plunge through on the back of a beast driven half-mad by the
changes going on about it. Or ride a bicycle. Or hop through on a pogo stick.
Nor would this
impression be incorrect. It is not that I don't know how to drive the things.
It is just that I'd never been particularly fond of them. Admitted, I never had
the use of one of those wonder horses, such as Julian's Morgenstern, Dad's
Star, or Benedict's Glemdenning, which stood to mortal horses in terms of life
span, strength, and endurance as did Amberites to the inhabitants of most
shadows.
I looked all
about, but could detect no injured rider...
Merlin! I heard
Luke call, but my attention was nearer at hand. I advanced slowly, not wanting
to upset him further. Are you all right?
I had simply put
in an order for a horse. Any old hay burner would have served, for purposes of
keeping up with my companions.
I found myself
looking at an absolutely lovely animal-black and orange-striped like a tiger.
In this, he resembled Glemdenning with his red and black striping. In that I
didn't know where Benedict's mount came from either, I was glad to let it be
the place of magic.
I advanced
slowly.
Merle! Anything
wrong?
I didn't want to
shout back a reply and frighten the poor beast. I placed my hand gently upon
his neck.
It's okay, I
said. I like you. I'll undo it and we'll be friends, all right?
I took my time
untangling the reins, using my other hand to massage his neck and shoulders.
When he was free he did not pull away, but seemed to study me.
Come on, I
said, taking up the reins, this way.
I led him back
the way I had come, talking the while. I realized by the rime we emerged that I
actually liked him. I met Luke about then, a blade in his hand.
My God! he
said. No wonder it took you so long! You stopped to paint it!
You like, huh?
You ever want to
get rid of that one, I'll make you a good offer.
I don't think
I'll be getting rid of him, I said.
What's his
name?
Tiger, I said
without premeditation, and then I mounted.
We headed back to
the trail, where even Dalt eyed my mount with something like pleasure. Nayda
reached out and stroked the black and orange mane.
Now we may be
able to make it in time, she said, if we hurry.
I mounted, and I
guided Tiger over onto the trail. I anticipated all manner of reactions to the
trail, as I recalled from my father's story the possibly intimidating effects
of the thing upon animals. It didn't seem to bother him, though, and I released
the breath I hadn't realized I was holding.
In time for
what? I asked as we found a formation-Luke in the lead, Dalt behind him and to
the right, Nayda to the left of the trail, rear, me to her right and somewhat
back.
I cannot tell
for certain, she said, because she is still sedated. However, I do know that
she is no longer being moved; and I have the impression that her abductors have
taken refuge in the tower, where the trail is much wider.
Hm, I said.
You wouldn't have happened to notice the rate of change in width per unit of
distance traveled on this trail, would you?
I was in liberal
arts, she said, smiling. Remember.
She turned
suddenly then, glancing in Luke's direction. He was still an entire horse's
length ahead, eyes front-though he had looked back moments before.
Damn you! she
said softly. Being with you both this way gets me to thinking about school.
Then I start talking that way
In English, I said.
Did I say that
in English?
Yes.
Shit! Help me if
you catch me at it, will you?
Of course, I
said. It seems to show you'd enjoyed it somewhat, despite its being a job
Dara'd laid on you. And you're probably the only ty' iga with a degree from
Berkeley.
Yes, I enjoyed
it-confused as I was over which of you was which. Those were the happiest days
in my life, with you and Luke, back in school. For years I tried to learn your
mothers' names so I'd know who I was supposed to be protecting. You were both
so cagey, though.
It's in the
genes, I guess, I observed. I enjoyed your company as Vinta Bayle-appreciated
your protection as others, too.
I suffered, she
said, when Luke began his yearly attempts on your life. If he were the son of
Dara I was supposed to protect, it shouldn't have mattered. But it did. I was
already very fond of both of you. All I could tell was that you were both of
the blood of Amber. I didn't want either of you harmed. The hardest thing was
when you went away, and I was sure Luke had lured you into the mountains of New
Mexico to kill you. By then, I suspected very strongly that you were the one,
but I was not certain. I was in love with Luke, I had taken over the body of
Dan Martinez, and I was carrying a pistol. I followed you everywhere I could,
knowing that if he tried to harm you the geas I was under would force me to
shoot the man I loved.
You shot first,
though. We were just standing talking, by the side of the road He shot back in
selfdefense.
I know. But
everything seemed to indicate that you were in peril. He'd taken you to a
perfect spot for an execution, at an ideal time
No, I said.
Your shot went wide, and you left yourself open for what followed.
I don't
understand what you're saying.
You solved the
problem of possibly having to shoot Luke by setting up a situation where he
shot you.
I couldn't do
that, under a geas.
Maybe not
consciously, I said. So something stronger than the geas found a way.
You really
believe that?
Yes, and it's
all right for you to admit it now. You're released from the geas. My mother
told me. You told me-I think.
She nodded. I
don't know exactly when it came undone, or how, she said. But it's
gone-though I'd still try to protect you if something threatened. It's good
that you and Luke are really friends, and
So why the
secret? I interrupted. Why not just tell him you were Gail? Surprise the hell
out of himpleasantly.
You don't
understand, she said. He broke up with me, remember? Now I've another chance.
It's like it was, all over again. He-likes me a lot. I'm afraid to say, `I'm
really the girl you once broke up with. ' It might get him to thinking of all
the reasons why, and make him decide he was right the first time.
That's silly, I
said. I don't know what reasons he gave. He never told me about it. Just said
there'd been an argument. But I'm sure they were specious. I know he liked you.
I'm sure he really broke up with you because he was a son of Amber about to
come home on some very nasty business, and there was no room for what he
thought was a normal shadow girl in the picture. You'd played your part too
well.
Is that why you
broke up with Julia? she asked.
No, I said.
Sorry.
I noticed the
black trail had widened about a foot since we'd begun tallcing. I was in the
market for a mathematical problem just then.
X
And so we
rode-six paces along a city street, amid the blare of horns, our black way
edged by skid marks; a quarter mile along a black sand beach, beside a soft
green sea, stirring palms to our left; across a tarnished snowfield; beneath a
bridge of stone, our way a dead and blackened streambed; then to prairie; back
to wooded way-and Tiger never flinched, even when Dalt put a booted foot
through a windshield and broke off an antenna.
The way continued
to widen, to perhaps twice its width when I had first come upon it. Stark trees
were more common within it now, standing like photographic negatives of their
bright mates but a few feet off the trail. While the leaves and branches of
these latter were regularly stirred, we felt no wind at all. The soundsof our
voices, of our mounts' hooves-came somehow muted now, also. Our entire course
had a constant, wavery twilight atmosphere to it, no matter that a few paces away-which
brief excursion we essayed many timesit might be high noon or midnight.
Dead-looking birds were perched within the blackened trees, though they seemed
on occasion to move, and the raspy, croaking sounds that sometimes came to us
may well have been theirs.
At one time, a
fire raged to our right; at another, we seemed to be passing near the foot of a
glacier on the left. Our trail continued to widen-nothing like the great Black
Road Corwin had described to me from the days of the war, but big enough now
for us all to ride abreast.
Luke, I said,
after a time.
Yeah? he
answered, from my left. Nayda rode to my right now, and Dalt to her right.
What's up?
I don't want to
be king.
Me neither, he
said. How hard they pushing you?
I'm afraid they're
going to grab me and crown me if I go back. Everybody in my way died suddenly.
They really plan to stick me on the throne, to marry me to Coral
Uh-huh, he
said, and I've two questions about it. First, will it work?
The Logrus seems
to think it will, at least for a time-which is all politics is about, anyhow.
Second, he
said, if you feel about the place the
way I feel about
Kashfa, you're not going to let it go to hell if you can help it-even if it
means some personal misery. You don't want to take the throne, though, so you
must have worked out some alternative remedy. What is it?
I nodded as the
trail turned sharply to the left and headed uphill. Something small and dark
scuttled across our path.
I've a
notion-not even a full idea, I said, which I want to discuss with my father.
Tall order, he
said. You know for sure that he's even alive?
I talked to him
not all that long ago-very briefly. He's a prisoner, somewhere. All I know for
sure is that it's somewhere in the vicinity of the Courts-because I can reach
him by Trump from there, but nowhere else.
Tell me about
this communication, he said.
And so I did,
black bird and all.
Sounds like
busting him out's going to be tricky, he said. And you think your mom's
behind it?
Yep.
I thought I was
the only one with these maternal problems. But it figures, seeing as yours
trained mine.
How come we
turned out so normal? I said.
He just stared at
me for several seconds. Then he started to laugh.
Well, I feel
normal, I said.
Of course, he
said quickly then, and that's what counts. Tell me, if it came to an
out-and-out crossing of powers, do you think you could beat Dara?
Hard to say, I
told him. I'm stronger now than I ever was before, because of the spikard. But
I'm beginning to believe she's very good.
What the hell's
a spikard? So I told him that story, too.
That's why you
were so flashy back in the church when you were fighting with Jurt? he said.
That's right.
Let's see it.
I tried to pull
it off, but it wouldn't pass the knuckle.
So I simply
extended my hand. Luke reached for it. His fingers halted a couple of inches above
it.
It's holding me
off, Merle. Protective little devil.
Hell, I said,
I'm not a shapeshifter for nothing. I took hold of it then, slimmed my finger
suddenly, and slid it off. Here.
He held it in the
palm of his left hand as we bounced along, regarding it through narrowed eyes.
Suddenly, I felt dizzy. Withdrawal symptoms from the thing? I forced myself
upright, reversed my breathing, refused to let it show.
Heavy, Luke
said at last. I can feel the power there. Other things, too. It won't let me
in, though.
I reached for it
and he drew his hand away.
I can feel it in
the air all around us, he said. Merle, this thing lays a spell on anybody who
wears it.
I shrugged.
Yes, I said. A
benign one, though. It's done nothing to harm me, and it's helped me a number
of times.
But can you
trust anything that came to you in such
an odd way-almost
by trickery, caused you to abandon Frakir when she tried to warn you about it,
and for all you know has been influencing your behavior ever since you put it
on?
I admit to a
kind of disorientation at first, I said, but I think that was just in the way
of accommodation to the levels of voltage it draws. I've been back to normal
for some time now.
How can you tell
for sure? Maybe it's brainwashed you.
Do I seem
brainwashed to you?
No. I was just
trying to say that I wouldn't completely trust anything with such questionable
credentials.
Well taken, I
agreed, holding forth my hand. But so far the benefits have outweighed any
hypothetical dangers. Consider me warned, and I'll take my chances.
He handed it
back.
If I think it's
making you act weird I'm going to hit you over the head and pull it off,
though.
Fair enough, I
said, slipping it back on. Immediately, I felt a rush of energy throughout my
system as the lines of control were reestablished.
If you're not
sure you can force the information out of your mother, he said, how do you
propose finding Corwin and freeing him?
Several things
suggest themselves, I said. The simplest way may be a foot in the door
technique. That is, I'd open all of the channels on the spikard and go for
another Trump contact. As soon as there's any sort of opening I'd just push
ahead with full force, jamming any spells that try to stop me and burning them
out.
Sounds as if it
could be dangerous.
I can't think of
any way to go about this that wouldn't be.
Then why haven't
you tried it?
It only occurred
to me recently, and I haven't had the time since then.
However you go
about it, you're going to need some help, he said. So count me in.
Thanks, Luke.
I
Now, about the
king business, he said. What happens if you simply refuse to take the throne?
Who's next in line?
It's a bit
tangled when you come to Sawall, I said. By rights, Mandor should be first in
line of succession from our House. He'd removed himself from the line years
ago, though.
Why?
I believe he
claimed he was unfit to rule.
No offense,
Merle. But he seems like the only one of you who is fit for the job.
Oh, without a
doubt, I responded. Most of the Houses have someone like him, though. There's
usually a nominal head and a de facto one, someone for show and someone for
scheming. Mandor likes the climate behind the scenes.
Sounds as if
your House has two, he said.
I'm not really
clear on it, I said. I don't know Dara's status right now in her father's
House-Helgram-or her mother's-Hendrake. But it might be worth a power struggle
within Sawall if that's where the next king is coming from. Still, the more I
learn of Mandor the more intimidating such a struggle would seem. I'd guess
they're cooperating.
I take it you're
next in line, and then Jurt?
Actually, our
brother Despil is next after me. Jurt said that Despil would probably step
aside for him, but I think that was wishful thinking. I'm not at all sure he
would. Anyhow, Jurt says now that he isn't interested.
Ha! I think he's
just taking a different approach. You whipped him too many times, and he's
trying to get in good with you. Hope that spikard can protect your back.
I don't know, I
said. I'd like to believe him. He spent a lot of time making sure that it
wouldn't be easy, though.
Supposing you
all decline. Who's next?
I'm not
certain, I said, but I think it would go to Hendrake then.
Damn, Luke
said. It's as twisted a place as Amber, isn't it?
Neither one's
twisted, exactly. Just a little complicated, till you've learned the ropes.
What say I just
listen, and you fill me in on everything that you haven't so far?
Good idea.
So I talked for a
long while, breaking to summon food and water. We halted twice during that
time, causing me to realize just how tired I had become. And briefing Luke
reminded me yet again that I should be telling all of this to Random. But if I
got in touch and tried it I was certain he would order me back to Amber. And I
couldn't disobey a direct order from the king, even if I was almost his
opposite number.
We're getting
nearer, Nayda announced somewhat later, and I noted that our roarway had
widened even more, almost to the point she'd described. I drew a jolt of energy
into my system, digested it, and kept going.
Shortly
thereafter, she remarked, Much nearer.
Like just around
the corner? Luke asked.
Could be, she
answered. I can't be more precise, the condition she's in.
But a little
later, we heard distant shouts.
Luke drew rein.
Something about
a tower, he said.
She nodded.
Were they
heading for it, holing up in it, or defending themselves there?
All of the
above, she said. I understand now. Her captors were pursued, headed for a
place of refuge, reached it, are there now.
How come you're
suddenly that precise?
She gave me a
quick look that I took as a request for an explanation other than ty' iga
powers.
I was using the
spikard, I offered, trying to see whether I could give her a clearer vision.
Good, Luke
said. Can you boost it even more, so we can see what we're up against?
I can try, I
said, narrowing my eyes at her in inquiry. She responded with a very slight
nod.
I wasn't certain
how to go about it, so I just fed her energy in the way of that jolt I'd given
myself a while back.
Yes, she said
after a few moments, Coral and her captors-six of them, I believe-have taken
refuge in a tower near here. They are under attack.
How large is the
party of attackers? Luke asked.
Small, she
said. Quite small. I can't give you a number.
Let's go and
see, Luke said, and he led the way,: Dalt behind him.
Three or four,
Nayda whispered to me, but they're Pattern ghosts. That's probably all it can
maintain this far from home, on a Black Road.
Ouch, I said.
This makes it tricky.
How so?
It means I have
relatives on both sides.
It also looks as
if Amber's ghosts and the Court's demons are only agents, and that it's really
a confrontation between the Logrus and the Pattern.
Damn! Of
course! I said. It could easily escalate into another of those. I'm going to
have to warn Luke what we're riding into.
You can't! Not
without telling him what I am!
I'll tell him I
learned it myself-that I had a sudden insight into a new spell.
But what then?
Which side are you on? What do we do?
Neither, I
said. We're on our own, and against both of them.
You're crazy!
There's no place you can hide, Merle! The Powers divide the universe between
them!
Luke! I cried.
I just probed ahead, learned the
attackers are
Pattern ghosts!
You don't say?
he called back. Think we should be taking their side? It's probably better for
the Pattern to take her back than for the Courts to get her, wouldn't you
think?
She shouldn't be
used that way, I said. Let's take her away from both of them.
I agree with
your feelings, he stated. But what if we succeed? I don't really care to be
struck by a meteor or transported to the bottom of the nearest ocean.
As near as I can
tell, the spikard doesn't draw its power from the Pattern or the Logrus. Its
sources are scattered through Shadow.
So? I'm sure
it's not a match for either one, let alone both.
No, but I can
use it to start an evasion course. They'll be getting in each other's way if
they decide to pursue us.
But eventually
they'd find us, wouldn't they? Maybe, maybe not, I said. I have some ideas,
but we're running out of time.
Dalt, did you
hear all that? Luke asked. I did, Dalt replied.
If you want out,
now's your chance.
And miss an
opportunity to twist the Unicorn's tail? he said. Keep riding!
We did, and the
shouts grew louder as we raced ahead. There was a certain timeless feeling to
it, though-with the muffled sounds and the dimness-as if we har always been
riding here and always would be...
Then we rounded a
bend and I saw the top of the tower in the distance, heard more shouts. We
slowed as we came to the next turn, advancing more cautiously, working our way
through a small stand of black saplings.
Finally, we
halted, dismounted, worked our way forward on foot. We pushed aside the final
screening branches and looked down a slight slope to a blackened, sandy plain
beside a three-story gray tower with slit windows and a narrow entranceway. It
took a while to sort out the tableau at its base.
There were two
demonformed individuals standing to either side of the tower's entrance. They
were armed and their attention seemed focused upon the contest taking place on
the sands before them. Familiar figures stood at the far end of this impromptu
arena and at either side: Benedict stroked his chin, expressionless; Eric
hunkered and smiled; Caine juggled, 'flipped, palmed, and passed a dagger,
reflexively, through some private routine, an expression of amused fascination
on his face. From the tower's top, I suddenly noted, two horned demons leaned
forward, their gazes as intent as those of Amber's Pattern ghosts.
At the circle's
center Gerard faced a demonformed son of Hendrake, of his own height and
greater girth. It looked to be Chinaway himself, who was said to have a
collection of over two hundred skulls of those he'd dispatched. I preferred
Gerard's collection of a thousand or so mugs, steins, and drinking horns, but
your ghost will walk, you lover of trees, in an English lane, if you know what
I mean.
Both were
stripped to the waist, and from the scuffedup condition of the sands about them
I guessed they had been at it for some time. Chinaway tried to trip Gerard just
then, who caught his arm and head as he stepped behind him, and sent him
cartwheeling away. The demon lord came up on his feet, however, and immediately
advanced once again, arms extended, hands weaving a sinuous pattern before him.
Gerard simply waited in a ready position. Chinaway stabbed taloned fingers
toward Gerard's eyes and hooked a blow against his rib cage. Gerard caught
hold. of his shoulder, however, as Chinaway dropped and caught him about the
thigh.
Let's wait,
Dalt said softly. I want to watch. Luke and I both nodded as Gerard locked
Chinaway's head and Chinaway wrapped his other arm about Gerard's waist. Then
they simply stood there, muscles bulging beneath two hides, one pale and
smooth, the other red and scaly. Their lungs worked like bellows.
I assume the
thing's been dragging out, Luke whispered, and they decided to settle it
champion against champion.
Looks that way,
I said.
Coral must be
inside then, wouldn't you think?
Wait a minute.
I ran a quick
probe into the structure, locating two people within. I nodded then.
Her and a single
guard, I'd say.
Gerard and
Chinaway still stood like statues.
Now might be the
best time to grab Coral, Luke said, while everybody's watching the fight.
You're probably
right, I told him. Let me see whether I can make myself invisible. That might
simplify matters.
Okay, he said
about a quarter minute later. Whatever you did just then worked. You're gone.
Indeed I am, I
said. Back in a bit.
How will you get
her out?
I'll decide
after I've reached her. Just be ready.
I moved slowly,
careful not to scuff the sand. I skirted the circle, passing behind Caine. I
approached the door to the tower, soundless, checking about me constantly.
Gerard and Chinaway still stood exactly as they had been, locked, and applying
enormous pressures to each other.
I passed between
the guards, entering the dim interior of the tower. It consisted of a single
round room with a bare earth floor, stone pedestals beneath each slit window. A
ladder led up to the second floor through a hole in the ceiling. Coral lay upon
a blanket to my left; the individual who was ostensibly guarding her stood upon
a pedestal, watching the fight through the nearest window.
I moved nearer,
knelt, caught up her left wrist and felt her pulse. It was strong and steady. I
decided against trying to awaken her, though. Instead, I wrapped the blanket
around her, raised her in my arms, and stood.
I was about to
try extending the invisibility spell to include her when the watcher at the
window turned. I must have made some noise in moving her.
For a moment, the
guard stared at the sight of his prisoner drifting below him. Then he opened
his mouth, as if to give alarm-leaving me with small choice but to shock his
nervous system into insensibility with a charge from my ring.
Unfortunately,
there was a rattle of arms as he fell from his pedestal to the floor. Almost
immediately, I heard a cry from overhead; followed by sounds of rapid movement.
Turning, I
hurried to the door. I had to slow and turn because of its narrowness. I wasn't
certain what the guards outside would think when a comatose Coral drifted by,
but I didn't want to be trapped inside. Peering ahead, I saw that Gerard and
Chinaway seemed in the same position as before. Seconds later, however, as I
turned my body and took my first sidling step, there came a sudden, sharp
twisting movement from Gerard, followed immediately by a sound like that of a
snapping stick.
Gerard let his
arms fall and stood erect. The body of Chinaway hit the ground at his side,
neck at an unnatural angle. Eric and Caine applauded. The two guards beside the
door moved forward. Behind me, within, the ladder rattled at the other side of
the room. I heard a cry from that direction.
Two more steps
and I turned, headed left. The outside guards were rushing toward their fallen
champion. A half dozen paces, and there were more cries at my back, as my
pursuers exited the tower; and there were human cries as well, from the killing
circle.
I knew that I
couldn't outrun any of them, carrying my burden; and all that motor activity
interfered with my concentration to the point where I was incapable of
performing magical operations.
So I dropped to
my knees, lowering Coral to the ground before me, turned without even rising,
and extended my left fist, plunging my mind deep within the ring, calling for
extreme measures to halt the pair of Hendrake commandos who were only a few
paces away now, edged weapons ready to pierce and to slash.
... And then they
were caught up in the midst of flames. I think they screamed, but there was a
lot of noise just then. Two paces more, perhaps, and they fell, blackened and
twitching, before me. My hand was shaking, from its proximity to the powers
that caused this; and I hadn't time, even, to think or to feel as I swung
toward the sandy place of the recent contest and whatever might be coming at me
from that direction.
One of the two
guards who had rushed forward lay smoldering on the ground at Eric's feet.
Another-who had apparently attacked Caine-clutched at the knife in his gullet,
fires spreading outward, downward, upward, from his throat, as he sank slowly,
then toppled to the rear.
Immediately,
Caine, Eric, and Benedict turned to stare at me. Gerard, having just drawn on a
blue shirt, was buckling his swordbelt in place. He turned, too, just as Caine
said, And who, sir, are you?
Merlin, I
replied, son of Corwin. Caine actually looked startled.
Does Corwin have
a son? he asked the others. Eric shrugged and Gerard said, I don't know. But
Benedict studied me.
There is a
resemblance, he said.
True, Caine
agreed. All right, boy. Even if you are Corwin's son, that woman you're making
off with belongs to us. We just won her fair and square off these well-done
Chaosites.
With that, he
began walking toward me. A moment later, Eric joined him. Then Gerard fell into
step behind them. I didn't want to harm them, even if they were only ghosts, so
I gestured and a line was drawn in the sand before them. Immediately, it caught
fire.
They halted.
Suddenly, a huge
figure appeared at my left. It was Dalt, a naked blade in his hand. A moment
later, Luke was there. Then Nayda. The four of us faced the four of them,
across the fire.
She's ours now,
Dalt said, and he took a single step forward.
You are
mistaken, came the reply, and Eric crossed the line, drawing his weapon.
Dalt was a couple
of inches taller than Eric, and he had a longer reach. He moved forward
immediately. I expected some kind of cut from that big blade he carried, but he
went in for a point-attack. Eric, using a lighter weapon, sidestepped and came
in under his arm. Dalt dropped the point of his blade, moved to his left, and
parried it. The two weapons were suited for very different styles-Eric's being
at the heaviest end of the rapier class, Dalt's at the lighter end of
broadsword. Dalt's could be a single-handed weapon for a big-enough,
strong-enough guy. I'd have had to use it two-handed myself. Dalt tried an
upward cut just then, of the sort a Japanese swordsman would refer to as
kiriage. Eric simply stepped back and tried for a wrist cut as it passed him.
Dalt suddenly moved his left hand to the haft and executed a blinding
two-handed cut of the sort known as naname giri. Eric continued to circle,
trying for the wrist yet again.
Suddenly, Dalt
opened his right hand and let it drift back, as his right foot performed a huge
semicircular step to his rear and his left arm moved forward, leaving him in a
left-handed European en garde position, from which that massive arm and
matching blade immediately extended, performing an inside beat upon Eric's
blade followed by a lunge. Eric parried as his right foot crossed behind his
left and he sprang backward. Even so, I saw a spark as his guard was creased.
He feinted in sixte, however, dropped his point beneath the parry that
followed, extended his arm in quatre; raised himself and his blade into
something resembling a stop-thrust targeting the left shoulder as the parry
crossed, turned his wrist, and slashed Dalt across the left forearm.
Caine applauded,
but Dalt simply brought his hands together and separated them again, executing
a little hopstep as he did so, leaving him in a right en garde position. Eric
drew circles in the air with the point of his weapon and smiled.
Cute little
dance routine you have there, he said.
Then Eric lunged,
was parried, retreated, sidestepped, threw a front kick at Dalt's kneecap,
missed, then moved with perfect timing as Dalt attempted a head cut. Switching
to the Japanese himself, he spun in to the larger man's right, a maneuver I'd
seen in a kumatchi exercise, his own blade rising and falling as Dalt's cut
swept past. Dalt's right forearm went suddenly wet, a thing I did not really
notice until after Eric had rotated his weapon, blade pointing outward and
upward, and, the guard covering his knuckles, had driven his fist against the
right side of Dalt's jaw. He kicked him then behind the knee and struck him
with his left shoulder. Dalt stumbled and fell. Eric immediately kicked him,
kidney, elbow, thigh-the latter only because he missed the knee-set his boot
upon Dalt's weapon and swung his own about to bring its point in line with the
man's heart.
I had been hoping
all along, I suddenly realized, that Dalt would kick Eric's ass-not just
because he was on my side and Eric wasn't, but because of the rough time Eric
had given my dad. On the other hand, I doubted there were too many people of
such ass-kicking prowess about. Unfortunately, two of them stood on the other
side of the line I had drawn. Gerard could have outwrestled him. Benedict,
Master of Arms at Amber, could have beaten him with any weapon. I just didn't
see us as having much of a chance against them all, with Caine thrown in for
good measure-not even with a ty' iga on our side. And if I were suddenly to
tell Eric that Dalt was his half brother, it wouldn't slow his thrust by an
instant, even if he believed me.
So I made the
only decision I could make. They were, after all, only Pattern ghosts. The real
Benedict and Gerard were somewhere else at this moment and would in no way be
harmed by anything I did to their doubles here. Eric and Caine were, of course,
long dead, Caine being the fratricidal hero of the Patternfall war and subject
of a recent statue on the Grand Concourse, on the occasion of Luke's
assassinating him for killing his father. And Eric, of course, had found a
hero's death on the slopes of Kolvir, saving him, I suppose, from dying at the
hands of my father. The bloody history of my family swam through my head as I
raised the spikard to add a footnote to it, calling again for the wave of incineration
that had taken out two of my Hendrake kin.
My arm felt as if
someone had struck it with a baseball bat. A wisp of smoke rose from the
spikard. For a moment, my four upright uncles stood unmoving. And my fifth
remained supine.
Then, slowly,
Eric raised his weapon. And he continued to raise it, as Benedict, Caine, and
Gerard drew theirs. He straightened as he held it before his face. The others
did the same. It looked strangely like a salute; and Eric's eyes met mine.
I know you, he
said.
Then they all
completed the gesture, and faded, faded, turned to smoke, and blew away.
Dalt bled, my arm
ached, and I figured out what was going on just moments before Luke gasped and
said, Over there.
My line of fire
had gone out some time ago, but beyond the mark it had left, where my faded
kinsmen had just been standing, the air began to shimmer.
That will be the
Pattern, I said to Luke, come calling.
A moment later
the Sign of the Pattern hovered before us.
Merlin, it
said, you certainly move around a lot.
My life has
become very busy of late, I said.
You took my
advice and left the Courts.
Yes, that seemed
prudent.
But I do not
understand your purposes here.
What's to
understand?
You took the
lady Coral away from the agents of the Logrus.
That's right.
But then you
attempted to keep her from my agents as well.
That, too, is
correct.
You must realize
by now that she bears something that contributes to our balance of power.
Yes.
So one of us
must have her. Yet you would deny us both.
Yes. Why?
It's her whom I care about. She has rights and feel
ings. You're
treating her like a game piece.
True. I
recognize her personhood, but unfortunately she is become both.
Then I would
deny her to both of you. Nothing would be changed, in that neither of you has
her now, anyway. But I would take her out of the game.
Merlin, you are
a more important piece than she is, but you are still only a piece and you may
not dictate to me. Do you understand?
I understand my
value to you, I said.
I think not, it
responded.
I was wondering
just then how strong it really was in this place. It seemed obvious that in
terms of energy expenditure, it had been necessary for it to release its four
ghosts to be able to manifest itself here. Dared I oppose it with every channel
on the spikard opened? I had never tried accessing every Shadow source it
controlled simultaneously. If I did . this, and if I were to move very quickly,
could I get us all out of here before the Pattern reacted? If I couldn't, could
I punch through whatever it raised up to stop us? And if I succeededeither
way-to what place should we flee?
Finally, how
might this affect the Pattern's attitude toward me?
(... if you are
not eaten by something bigger, come tell me your story one night.)
What the hell, I
decided. It is a good day to be listed a la carte.
I opened all the
channels.
It felt as if I
had been jogging along at a good clip and a brick wall had suddenly appeared
six inches before me.
I felt the smash
and I went away.
I lay upon a
smooth, cool stone surface. There was a terrible rushing of energies in my mind
and body. I reached into their source and took control of them, dampening them
to something that didn't threaten to take the top of my head off. Then I opened
one eye, slightly.
The sky was very
blue. I saw a pair of boots, standing a few feet off, faced away from me. I
recognized them as Nayda's, and turning my head slightly, I saw that she wore
them. I also saw then that Dalt lay sprawled several yards off to my left.
Nayda was
breathing heavily, and my Logrus vision showed a pale red light about her
vibrating hands, menacing.
Propping myself
upon my left elbow and peering about her, I saw that she stood between me and
the Sign of the Pattern that hovered in the air perhaps ten feet away.
When it spoke
again it was the first time I'd heard it express anything like amusement: You
would protect him, against me?
Yes, she
replied.
Why?
I did it for so
long that it would be a shame to fail him when he really needs it.
Creature of the
Pit, do you know where you stand? it asked.
No, she said.
I looked beyond
them both at a perfectly clear blue sky. The surface upon which I lay was a
level area of rock, perhaps oval in shape, opening onto nothing. A quick
turning of my head showed that it seemed bitten out of a mountainside, however,
several dark recesses to the rear indicating the possibility of caves. I saw,
too, that Coral lay behind me. Our stony shelf was several hundred meters wide.
And there was movement beyond Nayda and the Sign of the Pattern. Luke had just
hauled himself up into a kneeling position.
I could have
answered the question put to Nayda, but there was no percentage in my doing so.
Not when she was doing such a fine job of holding our captor's attention and
providing a crucial respite.
To my left, I saw
gold-pink swirls within the stone, and though I had never been here I recalled
the description from my father's story and knew this to be the place of the
primal Pattern, the deeper level of reality that underlay Amber itself.
I rolled onto all
fours then, and crawled a few steps, seaward, Patternward.
You are at the
other end of the universe, ty' iga, in the place of my greatest power.
Dalt groaned and
rolled over, sat up, massaged his eyes with the palms of his hands.
I could feel
something like a vibration just at the edge of hearing coming from Nayda now,
and her entire form had taken on that reddish glow. I knew that she would die
if she attacked the Sign, and I realized that I would attack it myself if it
killed her.
I heard a moan
from Coral.
You will not
hurt my friends, Nayda said.
I wondered then
at its slapping me down before I could use the spikard, and transporting us
immediately to its stronghold. Did this mean I might actually have had a chance
against it, out there in Logrus territory where it was weakened?
Creature of the
Pit, it told her, such a doomed, pathetic gesture as yours verges on the
heroic. I feel a certain fondness for you. Would that I had such a friend. No,
I will not harm your companions. But I must detain Coral and Merlin here as
power counters, and the rest of you for political reasons, until this dispute
with my adversary is settled.
Detain? she
said. Here?
There are
comfortable quarters within the rock, it said.
I rose carefully
to my feet, fumbling at my belt for my dagger.
Luke got up and
walked over to Coral, knelt beside her.
Are you awake?
he asked.
Sort of, she
answered.
Can you stand?
Maybe.
Let me help
you.
Dalt rose while
Luke was assisting her. I continued to sidle toward the design. Where was
Dworkin when I really needed him?
You may enter
the caves behind you and inspect your quarters, the Sign said. But first you
must remove that ring, Merlin.
No, now's hardly
a time to be unpacking and getting comfortable, I answered, slashing my left
palm with the dagger and taking a final step. We won't be staying long.
A sound like a
small thunderclap emerged from the Sign of the Pattern, but there was no
lightning, nor did I think there would be. Not when it realized what I was
holding in my hand, and where I was holding it.
A thing I
learned from Luke's father, I explained. Let's talk.
Yes, said the
Sign of the Pattern, like the reasonable beings that we are. Would you care
for some cushions?
Immediately,
three such objects appeared nearby.
Thanks, I said,
drawing up a green one. I could sure use an iced tea.
Do you take
sugar?
XI
Seated upon a
cushion, dagger at my side, I held my left hand out over the Pattern, cupped
palm filled with my blood. The Sign of the Pattern hovered in the air before
me, seeming, of a sudden, to have forgotten Coral, Nayda, Dalt, and Luke. I
sipped from the frosted glass in my right hand, a sprig of fresh mint visible
amid the ice.
Prince Merlin,
inquired the Sign, tell me what it is that you desire, and let us resolve this
matter quickly. Are you sure I mightn't fetch you a napkin to place at the danger
point? It would not minimize your bargaining ability, if you stop to think of
it. But it would serve to prevent accidents.
No, that's
okay, I said, half-gesturing with the blood-filled hand, so that its contents
were stirred, a small line of red trickling up my wrist. Thanks, anyhow.
The Sign of the
Pattern vibrated, grew still.
Prince Merlin,
you have made your point, it said. But I do not think you realize the full
implications of your threat. A few drops of your blood upon my physical design
could disturb the functioning of the universe.
I nodded.
I know, I said.
Very well, it
answered. State your demands.
Our freedom, I
said. Let us go, and you remain intact.
You give me
small choice, but the same applies to your friends.
What do you
mean?
You may send
Dalt whenever you wish, it said. As for the demon lady, I relinquish her with
regret, as I feel she would have provided good company
Luke regarded
Nayda.
What is this
`creature of the Pit,' `demon lady' business, anyway? he asked.
Well, there are
a few things you don't know about me... she responded.
Is it a long
story? he asked.
Yes.
Am I an
assignment? Or do you really like me?
You're not an
assignment, and I really like you.
Then we'll hear
the story later, he said.
As I said, send
her, it went on. And Dalt. And Luke. I will be happy to send the three of
them wherever you wish. But does it occur to you that you and Coral are
probably safer here than anywhere else?
Maybe. Maybe
not, I answered. Coral, how do you feel about it?
Get me out of
here, she said.
So much for that
notion, I told it. Now
Wait. You want
to be fair to your friends, don't you?
Sure I do.
Then let me
point some things out to them which they may not have considered.
Go ahead.
Lady, it said,
they want your eye in the Courts of Chaos. Your feelings on the matter are
immaterial. If this can only be achieved by making you a prisoner, then it will
be done.
Coral laughed
softly.
The alternative
being to remain your prisoner? she asked.
Think of
yourself as a guest. I will provide for your every comfort. Of course, there is
a positive gain for me in this state of affairs-apart from denying the
adversary your presence. I acknowledge this. But you must choose one of us,
else the other will grab you off.
I looked at
Coral, who shook her head slightly.
So what'll it
be? I asked.
l Coral came over
and placed her hand upon my shoulder.
` Get me out of
here, she said.
You heard 'em,
I told it. Everybody goes.
I crave your
indulgence a moment more, it said.
For what? I
asked.
Consider.
Choosing between the Logrus and myself is not a mere matter of politics-of
selecting this person or that to do a particular job. My adversary and I
represent two fundamental principles by means of which the universe is
organized. You may tag us with nouns and adjectives from most languages and
dozens of disciplines, but we represent, basically, Order and ChaosApollonian
and Dionysiac, if you like; reason and feeling, if you prefer; madness and
sanity; light and dark; signal and noise. As much as this may seem to indicate
it, however, neither of us seeks the other's extinction. Heat death or
fireball, classicism or anarchy, each of us proceeds along a single track, and
without the other it would lead to a dead end. Both of us know this, and the
game we have played since the beginning is a far more subtle thing-ultimately,
perhaps, to be judged only esthetically.
Now, I have
gained a significant edge over my ancient adversary, for the first time in
ages. I am in a position now to produce a historian's dream throughout
Shadow-an age of high civilization and culture such as shall never be
forgotten. If the balance were tipped the other way we would be contemplating a
period of upheaval at least on par with that of an ice age. When I spoke of you
as game pieces it was not to minimize your roles in this. For this is a time of
great fluidity, when the Jewel and the man who would be king will make a
difference. Stay with me, and I will guarantee the Golden Age of which I spoke,
and you a part in it. Leave, and you will be snatched away by the other.
Darkness and disorder will follow. Which would you have?
Luke smiled.
I know a good
sales pitch when I hear it, he said. Narrow it down to a simple choice. Make
them think it's their own.
Coral squeezed my
shoulder. We're going, I said.
Very well, said
the Sign. Tell me where you want to go, and I'll send you all there.
Not all, Luke
said suddenly. Just them.
I do not
understand. What about you?
He drew a dagger
and slashed his palm. He advanced and stood beside me, extending his hand out
over the Pattern, also.
If we go, only
three of us may arrive, he said, if that. I'll stay here and keep you company
while you deliver my friends.
How will you
know I've done it in a satisfactory fashion?
Good question,
he said. Merle, you got a set of Trumps on you?
Yes.
I removed them
and showed them to him.
Still got one of
me in there?
Last time I
looked I did.
Then get it out
and have it ready. Figure your next move before you take off. Stay in touch
with me till you make it.
What about
yourself, Luke? You can't sit there forever as a bloody threat to Order. It's
only a temporary stalemate. You have to surrender your position sooner or
later, and when you do
Do you still
have some odd cards in that deck?
What do you
mean?
The ones you
once referred to as the Trumps of Doom.
I riffled
through. They were mostly near the bottom. Yes, I said. Beautifully
executed. I wouldn't have tossed them.
You really think
so?
Yeah. Get
together a bunch of stuff this good, and I'll get you an exhibit back in
Amber.
You serious?
You're not just saying that because
The Sign of the
Pattern emitted a growling sound.
Everybody's a
critic, Luke observed. Okay. Pull all the Trumps of Doom.
I did this.
Mix 'em up a
little. Keep 'em face down, please.
All right.
Fan 'em.
He leaned
forward, took a card.
Okay, he said.
I'm in business. Whenever you're ready, tell it where to take you. Stay in
touch. Hey, Pattern, I want an iced tea of my own.
A frosty glass
appeared near his right foot. He stooped and took it up, sipped from it.
'Thanks.
Luke, Nayda
said, I don't understand what's going on. What will happen to you?
Nothing much,
he replied. Don't cry for me, demon lady. I'll see you later.
He looked at me
and quirked an eyebrow.
Send us to
Jidrash, I said, in Kashfa-to the open area between the palace and the
church.
I held Luke's
Trump in my moist left hand, near to a humming spikard. I felt the card grow
cold just as Luke said, You heard him.
And the world
swirled and unswirled, and it was a brisk, windy morning in Jidrash. I regarded
Luke through his Trump. I opened channel after channel of the ring.
Dalt, I might as
well leave you here, I said. You, too, Nayda.
No, the big man
said, just as Nayda said, Hold on a minute.
You're both out
of the picture now, I explained. Neither side wants you for anything. But
I've got to get Coral someplace safe. Me, too.
You're a focus
of the action, Nayda said, and I can help Luke by helping you. Take me
along.
I feel the same
way about it, Dalt said. I still owe Luke a big one.
Okay, I said.
Hey, Luke! You hear all that?
Yeah, he said.
Better be about your business then. Shit! I spilled it
His Trump went
black.
I didn't wait for
avenging angels, tongues of fire, lightning bolts, or an opening of the earth.
I got us out of jurisdiction real quick.
I sprawled on the
green grass beneath the big tree. Wisps of fog drifted by. Dad's Pattern
sparkled below me. Jurt was seated cross-legged on the hood of the car, blade
across his knees. He hit the ground when we made our appearance. Corwin was
nowhere in sight.
What's going
on? Jurt asked me.
I am beat,
bushed, and whacked-out. I am going to lie here and stare at the fog till my
mind goes away, I said. Meet Coral, Nayda, and Dalt. Hear their story and
tell them yours, Jurt. Don't wake me for the end of the world unless it has
very good special effects.
I proceeded to do
as I had promised, to the tune of a fading guitar and the distant voice of Sara
K. The grass was wondrous soft. The fog swirled through my brain. Fade to
black.
And then, and
then... And then, sir...
Walking. I was
walking, almost drifting, through a California shopping mall I used to
frequent. Knots of kids, couples with infants, women with parcels, passed,
words smothered by sounds from a music store speaker. Potted oases sheltered,
deli smells drifted, sale signs promised.
Walking. Past the
drugstore. Past the shoe store. Past the candy store...
Narrow corridor
to the left. I'd never noticed it. Must turn...
Odd there should
be a carpet-and candles in high holders, and sconces, and candelabra atop
narrow chests. The walls glittered with their re
I turned back.
There was no
back. The mall was gone. The corridor ended in that direction at a wall. A
small tapestry hung upon it, depicting nine figures who looked back at me. I
shrugged and turned again.
Still something
left to your spell, Uncle, I remarked. Let's be about it then.
Walking. In
silence now. Ahead. To the place where the mirrors glittered. I had seen this
place long ago, I recalled, though its disposition-I suddenly realizedwas not
peculiar to Amber Castle. It was right there, on the tip of memory-my younger
self passing this way, not unaccompanied-but the price of that recollection
would be loss of control here, I knew. Reluctantly, I released the image and
turned my attention to the small oval mirror to my left.
I smiled. So did
my image. I stuck out my tongue and was so saluted in return.
I moved on. Only
after several paces did I realize that the image had been my demonformed self,
while my person had not.
A soft
throat-clearing sound occurred to my right. Turning in that direction, I beheld
my brother Mandor within a black-framed lozenge.
Dear boy, he stated,
the king is dead. Long live your august personage as soon as you have assumed
the throne. You had best make haste to return for a crowning at the End of the
World, with or without the bride of the Jewel.
We ran into a
few small problems, I said.
Nothing worth
resolving just now. Your presence in the Courts is far more important.
No, my friends
are, I said.
A momentary smile
touched his lips.
You will be in
an ideal position to protect your friends, he said, and to do as you would
with your enemies.
I will be back,
I said, soon. But not to be crowned.
As you would,
Merlin. It is your presence that is desired.
I promise
nothing, I said.
He chuckled, and
the mirror was emptied.
I turned away. I
walked on.
More laughter.
From the left. My mother's.
From within a red
frame of carved flowers, she stared at me, a look of vast amusement upon her
features. Seek him in the Pit! she said. Seek him in the Pit!
I passed, and her
laughter continued at my back for a time.
Hsst! To my
right, a long, narrow mirror bordered in green. Masster Merlin, she said. I
have ssought, but the
ghosst-light bass
not passsed my way. Thanks, Glait. Keep looking, please.
Yess. We musst
ssit together in a warm place by night once again and drink milk and talk of
the old dayss.
That would be
nice. Yes, we must. If we are not eaten by something bigger.
S-s-s-s-s!
Could that be
laughter?
Good hunting,
Glait.
Yess. S-s-s!
... And on.
Walking.
Son of Amber.
Wearer of the spikard"-this from within a shadowy niche to my left.
I halted and
stared. The frame was white, the glass ` was gray. Within was a man I had never
met. His shirt
was black and
opened at the neck. He wore a brown leather vest, his hair dark blond, eyes
perhaps green. Yes?
A spikard was
hidden in Amber, he stated, for you to find. It conveys great powers. It also
bears a series of spells that will cause its wearer to act in certain ways
under certain circumstances.
I suspected
this, I said. What is it set to do?
Formerly worn by
Swayvill, King of Chaos, it will force the chosen successor to take the throne,
behave in a certain fashion, and be amenable. to the suggestions of certain
persons.
These being?
The woman who
laughed and cried, `Seek him in the Pit. ' The man in black, who desires your
return.
Dara and Mandor.
They laid these spells upon it? Just so. And the man left it for you to
find.
I hate to
surrender the thing just now, I said, when it's proving so useful. Is there a
way to lift these spells?
Of course. But
it should not matter to you.
Why not?
The ring you
wear is not the one of which I speak.
I do not
understand.
But you will.
Never fear.
Who are you,
sir?
My name is
Delwin, and we may never actually meet-unless certain ancient powers come
loose.
He raised his
hand, and I saw that he, too, wore a spikard. He moved it toward me.
Touch your ring
to mine, he commanded. Then it can be ordered to bring you to me.
I raised mine and
moved it toward the glass. At the moment they seemed to touch, there was a
flash of light and Delwin was gone.
I let my arm
fall. I walked on. On an impulse, I stopped before a chest and opened its
drawer.
I stared. There
was no way to one-up this place, it seemed. The drawer contained a miniature,
scaled-down representation of my father's chapel-tiny colored tiles, diminutive
burning tapers, even a doll-sized Grayswandir upon the altar.
The answer lies
before you, dear friend, came a throaty voice I knew yet did not know.
I raised my gaze
to a lavender-bordered mirror I had not realized hung above the chest. The lady
within had long, coal-black hair and eyes so dark I could not tell where the
pupils left off and the irises began. Her complexion was very pale, emphasized
perhaps by her pink eye shadow and lip coloring. Those eyes... Rhanda! I
said.
You remember!
You do remember me!
...And the days
of our bonedance games, I said.
Grown and
lovely. I thought of you but recently.
And I felt the
touch of your regard as I slept, my
Merlin. I am
sorry we parted so, but my parents
I understand, I
said. They thought me demon or vampire.
Yes. She
extended her pale hand through the mirror, took hold of my own, drew it toward
her. Within j the looking glass, she pressed it to her lips. They were cold.
They would rather I cultivated the acquaintance
of the sons and
daughters of men and women, than of our own kind.
When she smiled I
beheld her fan
gs. They had not
been apparent in her childhood.
Gods! You look
human! she said. Come visit me in Wildwood one day!
Impulsively, I
leaned forward. Our lips met within the mirror. Whatever she was, we had been
friends.
The answer, she
repeated, lies before you. Come see me!
The mirror turned
red and she was gone. The chapel stood unchanged within the drawer. I closed it
and turned away.
Walking. Mirrors
to the left. Mirrors to the right. Only myself within them.
Then"Well,
well, nephew. Confused?
As usual.
Can't say as I
blame you.
His eyes were
mocking and wise, his hair red as his sister Fiona's or his late brother
Brand's. Or Luke's, for that matter.
Bleys, I said,
what the hell is going on?
I've the rest of
Delwin's message, he said, reaching into his pocket and extending his hand.
Here.
I reached into
the mirror and accepted it. It was yet another spikard, like the one I wore.
It is the one of
which Delwin spoke, he said. You must never wear it.
I studied it for
several moments.
What am I to do
with it? I asked.
Put it in your
pocket. A use may suggest itself at some point.
How did you come
by it?
I switched it
after Mandor left it, for the one you wear now.
How many are
there, anyway?
Nine, he
replied.
I suppose you
know all about them.
More than most.
That wouldn't be
hard. I don't suppose you know where my father is?
No. But you do.
Your lady friend with the sanguinary tastes told you.
Riddles, I
said.
Always
preferable to no answer at all, he responded.
Then he was gone
and I walked again. After a while, this was gone, too.
Drifting. Black.
Good. So good...
A bit of light
found its way through my eyelashes. I shut it out again. But the thunder
rolled, and after a time the light leaked in once again.
Dark lines in
brown, great horny ridges, ferny forests...
A little later
the faculty that evaluates perceptions awoke and pointed out that I was lying
on my side staring at the cracked earth between a pair of roots from the tree,
clumps of grass dotted here and there across the prospect.
... And I
continued to stare, and there was a sudden brightness as of a lightning flash
followed almost immediately by a crack of thunder. The earth seemed to shudder
with it. I heard the pattering of drops upon the leaves of a tree, the hood of
a car. I continued to stare at the largest crack that traversed the valley of
my regard.
... And I
realized that I knew.
It was the numb
knowledge of awakening. The sources of emotion still dozed In the distance, I
could hear familiar voices in soft converse. I could also hear the sounds of
cutlery against china. My stomach would awaken in a bit, I knew, and I would
join them. For now, it was so very pleasant to lie here wrapped in my cloak,
hearing the gentle rain and knowing...
I returned to my
micro-world and its dark canyon... The ground shook again, this time without
benefit of lightning or thunder. And it kept on shaking. This irritated me, for
it disturbed my friends and relatives, causing them to raise their voices in
something like alarm. Also, it stirred a dormant California reflex at a time
when I just wanted to loll and savor my fresh-acquired knowledge.
Merlin, are you
awake?
Yes, , I said,
sitting up suddenly, giving my eyes a quick rub, and running my hands through
my hair.
It was the ghost
of my father that knelt beside me, having just shaken my shoulder. We seem to
have a problem, he said, with rather extreme ramifications.
Jurt, standing
behind him, nodded several times. The ground shook once again, twigs and leaves
fell about us, pebbles bounced, dust rose, the fogs were agitated. I heard a
dish break in the vicinity of the heavy red and white cloth about which Luke,
Dalt, Coral, and Nayda sat eating.
I untangled my
cloak and rose to my feet, realizing then that someone had removed my boots
while I slept. I drew them back on. There came another tremor, and I leaned
against the tree for support.
This is the
problem? I said. Or is something bigger about to eat it?
He gave me a
puzzled look. Then, Back when I drew the Pattern, he said, I'd no way of
knowing that this area was faulted, or that something like this would one day
occur. If these shocks should crack the Pattern, we've had it-in more ways than
one. As I understand it, that spikard you wear can draw upon enormous sources
of energy. Is there some way you could use it to defuse this thing?
I don't know, I
told him. I never tried anything like it.
Find out fast,
okay? he said.
But I was already
spinning my mind about the circle of tines, touching each one to life. Then I
seized upon the one possessed of the most juice, drew hard upon it, filled
myself, body and mind, with its energy. Ignition completed and engine idling,
with me in the driver's seat, I shifted into gear then, extending a line of
force from the spikard down into the ground.
I reached for a
long while, seeking a conversion metaphor to the subjective for anything I
might discover.
... Wading out
from the beach into the oceanwaves tickling my stomach, my chest-feeling with
my toes the rocks, the strands of sea-weed... Sometimes a rock would turn,
slip, bump against another, slide...
I couldn't see to
the bottom with my eyes. But I saw the rocks, the wrack, in their disposition
and movement, just the same, beheld them as clearly as if the bottom were fully
illuminated.
Feeling, feeling
my way now, down through the strata, single toe soft as a flashlight's beam
running along rocky surfaces, testing the pressures of one upon another,
isostatic kisses of mountains beneath the earth, orogenic erogenies of slow
movement, flesh caressing mineral in the darkest of secret places
Slip! The rock
slides off. My body follows...
I dive for it,
following the sliding passage. I race ahead, pouring forth heat, cracking rock,
splintering new pathways, outward, outward... It was coming this way. I broke
through a wall of stone, another. Another. I was not certain this was the way
to divert it, but it was the only one I knew to try. Go that way! Damn it! That
way! I accessed two more channels, a third, a fourth
There was a
slight vibration within the ground. I opened another channel. Within my
metaphor the rocks grew stable beneath the waters. Shortly thereafter, the
ground ceased its vibration.
I returned to the
place where I had first felt the slide begin, stable now, yet still stressed.
Feel it, feel it carefully. Describe a vector. Follow. Follow it to the point
of original pressure. But no. This point is but a confluence of vectors. Trace
them.
Yet again. More
junctions. Trace them. Access more channels. The entire pressure structure,
intricate as a nervous system, must be described. I must hold its tree within
my mind.
Another layer. It
may not be possible. I may lx courting infinity in my topographic branchings.
Freeze frame. Simplify the problem. Ignore everything beyond the tertiary.
Trace to the next junction. There are some loops. Good. And a plate is now
involved. Better.
Try another jump.
No good. Too big a picture to contain. Discard tertiaries.
Yes.
Thus general
lines sketched. Vectors of transmission simply drawn-back to plate, almost.
Pressure exerted less than full pressure extended. Why? Additional point of
input along second vector, redirecting shear forces this valley.
Merlin? Are you
all right?
Let me be, I
hear my voice respond.
Extend then,
input source, into, feeling, transmission signature...
Is this a Logrus
that I see before me?
I opened three
more channels, focused on the area, began heating it.
Soon rocks were
cracking, but a little later they melted. My newly created magma flowed down
fault lines. A hollowed-out area occurred at the point whence the precipitating
force had originated.
Back.
I withdrew my
probes, shut down the spikard.
What did you
do? he asked me.
I found the place
where the Logrus was messing with underground stresses, I said, and I removed
the place. There's a small grotto there now. If it collapses it may ease the
pressure even more.
So you've
stabilized it?
At least for
now. I don't know the limits of the Logrus, but it's going to have to figure a
new route to reach this place. Then it's going to have to test it out. And if
it's doing a lot of Pattern watching just now, that may slow it.
So you've bought
some time, he said. Of course, the Pattern may move against us next.
It could, I
said. I've brought everyone here because I thought they'd be safe from both
Powers.
Apparently you
made the payoff worth the risk.
Okay, I said.
I guess it's time to give them some
other things to
worry about.
Such as?
I looked at him,
Pattern ghost of my father, guardian of this place.
I know where
your flesh-and-blood counterpart is, I said, and I'm about to set him free.
There came a
flash of lightning. A sudden gust of wind lofted the fallen leaves, stirred the
fogs.
I must accompany
you, he said.
Why?
I've a personal
interest in him, of course.
All right.
Thunder crashed
about us, and the fogs were tom apart by a fresh onslaught of wind.
Jurt came up to
us then.
I think it's
begun, he said.
What? I asked.
The duel of
Powers, he said. For a long time the Pattern had an edge. But when Luke
damaged it and you snatched away the bride of the Jewel, it must have weak
ened it more,
relative to the Logrus, than it's been in ages. So the Logrus decided to
attack, pausing only for a quick attempt to damage this Pattern.
Unless the
Logrus was just testing us, I said, and this is simply a storm.
A light rain had
begun while he was speaking.
I came here
because I thought it was the one place neither of them would touch in the event
of a contest, he went on. I'd assumed neither would care to divert energy
from its own attack or defense for a swipe in this direction.
That reasoning
may still hold, I said.
Just for once
I'd like to be on the winning side, he stated. I'm not sure I care about
right or wrong.
They're very
arguable quantities. I'd just like to be in with the guys who win for a change.
What do you think, Merle? What are you going to do?
Corwin here and
I are going to head for the Courts, and we're going to free my father, I said.
Then we're going to resolve whatever needs resolving and live happily ever
after. You know how it goes.
He shook his
head.
I can never
decide whether you're a fool or whether your confidence is warranted. Every
time I decided you were a fool, though, it cost me. He looked up at the dark
sky, wiped rain from his brow. I'm really torn, he said, but you could still
be King of Chaos.
No, I said.
...And you enjoy
some special relationship with the Powers.
If I do, I don't
understand it myself.
No matter, he
said. I'm still with you. I crossed to the others, hugged Coral.
I must return to
the Courts, I said. Guard the Pattern. We'll be back.
The sky was
illuminated by three brilliant flashes. The wind shook the tree.
I turned away and
created a door in the middle of the air. Corwin's ghost and I stepped through
it.
XII
Thus did I return
to the Courts of Chaos, coming through into Sawall's space-warped sculpture
garden.
Where are we? my
ghost-father asked.
A museum of
sorts, I replied, in the house of my stepfather. I chose it because the
lighting is tricky and there are many places to hide.
He studied some
of the pieces, as well as their disposition upon the walls and ceiling.
This would be a
hell of a place to fight a skirmish, he observed.
I suppose it
would.
You grew up
hereabout, huh?
Yes.
What was it
like?
Oh, I don't
know. I don't have anything to compare it to. I had some good times, alone, and
with friendsand a few bad times. All a part of being a kid.
This place..?
The Ways of
Sawall. I wish I had time to show you the whole thing, take you through all of
the ways.
One day,
perhaps.
Yes.
I began walking,
hoping for the Ghostwheel or Kergma to appear. Neither did, however.
We finally passed
into a corridor that took us to a hall of tapestries, whence there was a way to
a room that I desired-for the room let upon the hallway that passed the gallery
of metal trees. Before we could depart, however, I heard voices from that
hallway. So we waited in the room-which contained the skeleton of a Jabberwock
painted in orange, blue, and yellow, Early Psychedelic-as the speakers
approached. One of them I recognized immediately as my brother Mandor; the
other I could not identify by voice alone, but managing a glimpse as they
passed, I saw it to be Lord Bances of Amblerash, High Priest of the Serpent
Which Manifests the Logrus (to cite a full title just once). In a badly plotted
story they'd have paused outside the doorway, and I'd have overheard a
conversation telling me everything I needed to know about anything.
They slowed as
they passed.
That's the way
it will be then? Bances said.
Yes, Mandor
replied. Soon.
And they were by,
and I couldn't make out another word. I listened to their receding footsteps
till they were gone. Then I waited a little longer. I would have sworn I heard
a small voice saying, Follow. Follow.
Hear anything
just then? I whispered.
Nope.
So we stepped out
into the hallway and turned right, moving in the opposite direction from that
which Mandor and Bances had taken. As we did, I felt a sensation of heat at a
point somewhat below my left hip..
You think he is
somewhere near here? the Corwin ghost asked. Prisoner to Dara?
Yes and no, I
said. Ow!
It felt like a
hot coal pressed against my upper leg. I jammed my hand into my pocket as I
slid into the nearest display niche, which I shared with a mummified lady in an
amber casket.
Even as my hand
closed about it, I knew what it was, raising all manner of philosophical
speculations I had neither time nor desire to address at the moment and so
treated in the time-honored fashion of dealing with such things: I shelved
them.
It was a spikard
that I withdrew, that lay warmly upon my paten. Almost immediately a small
spark leapt between it and the one that I wore upon my finger.
There followed a
wordless communication, a sequence of images, ideas, feelings, urging me to
find Mandor and place myself in his hands for the preparations for my crowning
as the next King of the Courts. I could see why Bleys had told me not to put
the thing on. Unmediated by my own spikard, its injunctions would probably have
been overpowering. I used mine to shut it off, to build a tiny insulating wall
about it.
You have two of
the damned things! Corwin's ghost observed.
I nodded.
Know anything
about them that I don't? I asked. That would include almost anything.
He shook his
head.
Only that they
were said to be very early power objects, from the days when the universe was
still a murky place and the Shadow realms less clearly defined. When the time
came, their wielders slept or dissolved or whatever such figures do, and the
spikards were withdrawn or stashed or transformed, or whatever becomes of such
things when the story's over. There are many versions, of course. There always
are. But bringing two of them to the Courts could conceivably draw a lot of
attention to yourself, not to mention adding to the general power of Chaos just
by virtue of their presence at this pole of existence.
Oh, my, I said.
I'll order the one I'm wearing to conceal itself, also.
I don't think
that'll work, he said, though I'm not certain. I'd think they must maintain a
constant fluxpin with each source of power, and that would give some indication
of the thing's presence because of its broadcast nature.
I'll tell it to
tune itself as low as it can then.
He nodded.
It can't hurt to
make it specific, he said, though I'd guess it probably does that anyhow,
automatically.
I placed the
other ring back in my pocket, departed
the niche, and
hurried on up the hallway.
I slowed when we
neared what I thought to be the area. But I seemed mistaken. The metal forest
was not there. We passed that section. Shortly, we came to a familiar
display-the one that had preceded the metal forest, on approaching it from that
direction.
Even as I turned
back, I knew. I knew what had happened. When we reached what had been the area,
I stopped and studied it.
What is it? my
ghostly father asked.
It seems a
display of every conceivable variety of edged weapon and tool that Chaos has
ever spewed forth, I said, all of them exhibited point up, you'll note.
So? he asked.
This is the
place, I answered, the place where we were going to climb a metal tree.
Merle, he said,
maybe this place does something to my thought processes, or yours. I just
don't understand.
It's up near the
ceiling, I explained, gesturing. I know the approximate area-I think. Looks a
little different now...
What's there,
son?
A way-a
transport area, like the one we passed through to the place of the Jabberwock
skeleton. Only this one would take us to your chapel.
And that's where
we're headed?
Right.
He rubbed his
chin.
Well, there were
some fairly tall items in some of the displays we passed, he observed, and
not all of them were metal or stone. We could wrestle over that totem pole or
whatever the hell it is, from back up the hall, clear away some of the sharp
displays below that place, set the thing up
No, I said.
Dara obviously caught on to the fact that someone had visited it-probably this
last time around, when she almost surprised me. The display was changed because
of this. There are only two obvious ways to get up there-transport something
unwieldy, as you suggest, and clear away a lot of cutlery before we climb. Or
rev up the spikard and levitate ourselves to the spot. The first would take too
long and probably get us discovered. The second would employ so much power that
it would doubtless set off any magical wards she's installed about the area.
He took hold of
my arm and drew me on past the display.
We've got to
talk, he said, leading me into an alcove containing a small bench.
He seated himself
and folded his arms.
I've got to know
what the hell's going on, he said.
I can't help
properly unless I'm briefed. What's the connection between the man and the
chapel?
I figured out
something I think my mother really meant when she told me, `Seek him in the
Pit,' I explained. The floor of the chapel bears stylized representations of
the Courts and of Amber worked out in tiles. At the extreme of the Courts' end
is a representation of the Pit. I never set foot in that area when I visited
the chapel. I'm willing to bet there's a way located there, and at the other
end is the place of his imprisonment.
He'd begun
nodding as I spoke, then, So you were going to pass through and free him? he
asked.
Right.
Tell me, do
these ways have to work both ways? he said.
Well, no... Oh,
I see what you're getting at.
Give me a more
complete description of the chapel, he said.
I proceeded to do
so.
That magic
circle on the floor intrigues me, he said. It might be a means of
communicating with him without risking the dangers of presence. Some sort of
image-exchange, perhaps.
I might have to
fool with it a long while to figure it out; I said, unless I got lucky. What
I propose doing is to levitate, enter, use the way at the Pit to reach him,
free him, and get the hell out. No subtlety. No finesse. If anything fails to
do what we expect, we force our way through it with the spikard. We'll have to
move fast because they'll be after us once we start.
He stared past me
for a long while, as if thinking hard. At length, he asked, Is there any way
her wards might be set off accidentally?
Hm. The passage
of a stray magical current from the real Pit, I suppose. It sometimes spews them
forth. What would characterize its passage?
A magical
deposit or transformation, I said.
Could you fake
such a phenomenon?
I suppose. But
what would be the point? They'd still investigate, and with Corwin gone they'd
realize it was just a trick. The effort would be wasted.
He chuckled.
But he won't be
missing, he said. I'm going to take his place.
I can't let you
do that!
My choice, he
said. But he's going to need the time if he's going to help stop Dara and
Mandor from advancing the conflict between the Powers beyond anything at
Patternfall.
I sighed.
It's the only
way, he said.
I guess you're
right.
He unfolded his
arms, stretched, and rose to his feet.
Let's go do it,
he said.
I had to work out
a spell, a thing I hadn't done recently-well, half of a spell, the effects
half, as I had the spikard to juice it. Then I lay it in a swathe across the
display, turning portions of blades into flowers, joined at the molecular
level. As I did, I felt a tingling I was certain was the psychic alarm taking
note of the enterprise and reporting it to central.
Then I summoned a
lot of juice and lofted us. I felt the tug of the way as we nears it. I had
been almost dead-on. I let it take us through.
He whistled
softly on regarding the chapel.
Enjoy, I said.
It's the treatment a god gets.
Yeah. Prisoner
in his own church.
He stalked across
the room, unbuckling his belt as he went. He substituted it for the one upon
the altar.
Good copy, he
said, but not even the Pattern can duplicate Grayswandir.
I thought a
section of the Pattern was reproduced on the blade.
Maybe it's the
other way around, he said.
What do you
mean?
Ask the other
Corwin sometime, he said. It has to do with something we were talking about
recently.
He approached and
passed the lethal package to meweapon, sheath, belt.
Be nice if you
take it to him, he said.
I buckled it and
hung it over my head and shoulder.
Okay, I told
him. We'd better move.
I headed toward
the far corner of the chapel. As I neared the area where the Pit was
represented I felt the unmistakable tug of a way.
Eureka! I said,
activating channels on the spikard. Follow me.
I stepped forward
and it took me away.
We arrived in a
chamber of perhaps fifteen feet square. There was a wooden post at its center
and the floor was of stone with some straw strewn upon it. Several of the big
candles, as from the chapel, were spotted about. The walls were of stone on two
sides, wood on the others. The wooden walls contained unlatched wooden doors.
One of the stone walls contained a windowless metal door, a keyhole at its left
side. A key, which looked about the right size, hung from a nail in the post.
I took down the
key and checked quickly beyond the wooden door to my right, discovering a large
barrel of water, a dipper, and a variety of dishes, cups, utensils. Behind the
other door were a few blankets and stacks of what were probably toilet tissues.
I crossed to the
metal door then and knocked upon it with the key. There was no response. I
inserted the key in the lock and felt my companion take hold of my arm.
Better let me do
that, he said. I think like him, and I think I'll be safer.
I had to agree
with the wisdom of this, and I stepped aside.
Corwin! he
called out. We're springing you! It's your son Merlin and me, your double.
Don't jump me when I open the door, okay? We'll stand still and you can take a
look.
Open it, came a
voice from within.
So he did, and we
stood there.
What do you
know? came the voice I remembered, finally. You guys look for real.
We are, said
his ghost, and as usual, at times such as this, you'd better hurry.
Yeah. There
came a slow tread from within, and when he emerged he was shielding his eyes
with his left hand. Either of you got a pair of shades? The light hurts.
Damn! I said,
wishing I'd thought of it. No, and if I send for them the Logrus might spot
me.
Later, later.
I'll squint and stumble. Let's get the hell out.
His ghost entered
the cell.
Now make me
bearded, thin, and grimy. Lengthen the hair and tatter the clothes, he said.
Then lock me in.
What's going
on? my father asked.
Your ghost will
be impersonating you in your cell for a while.
It's your plan,
Corwin stated. Do what the ghost says. And so I did. He turned and extended
his hand back into the cell then. Thanks, buddy.
My pleasure,
the other replied, clasping his hand and shaking it. Good luck.
So long.
I closed and locked
the cell door. I hung the key on its nail and steered him to the way. It took
us through.
He lowered his
hand as we came into the chapel. The dimness must have been sufficient for him
to handle now. He drew away from me and crossed to the altar.
We'd better go,
Dad.
He chuckled as he
reached across the altar, raised a burning taper, and used it to light one of
the others that had apparently gone out in some draft.
I've pissed on
my own grave, he announced. Can't pass up the pleasure of lighting a candle
to myself in my own church.
He extended his
left hand in my direction without looking at me.
Give me
Grayswandir, he said.
I slipped it off
and passed it to him. He unfastened it and buckled it about his waist, loosened
it in its sheath. All right. What now? he asked.
I thought fast.
If Dana was aware that I had exited through the wall last time-a distinct
possibility, considering-then the walls might well be booby-trapped in some
fashion. On the other hand, if we went out the way I had come in we might
encounter someone rushing this way in answer to the alarm.
Hell.
Come on, I
said, activating the spikard, ready to whisk us away at the glimpse of an
intruder. It's going to be tricky because it involves levitation on the way
out.
I caught hold of
him again and we approached the way. I wrapped us in energies as it took us,
and I lofted us above the field of blades and flowers as we departed.
There were
footfalls from up the corridor. I swirled us away to another place.
I took us to
Jurt's apartment, which didn't seem a place anyone was likely to come looking
for a man who was still in his cell; and I knew that Jurt had no need of it
just then.
Corwin sprawled
on the bed and squinted at me. By the way, he said, thanks.
Anytime, I told
him.
You know your
way around this place pretty well? he said.
It doesn't seem
to have changed that much, I told him.
Then how's about
raiding an icebox for me while I borrow your brother's scissors and razor for a
quick shave and haircut.
What would you like?
Meat, bread,
cheese, wine, maybe a piece of pie, he said. Just so it's fresh and there's
lots of it. Then you're going to have a lot of story to tell me.
I guess I am, I
said.
And so I made my
way to the kitchen, down familiar halls and ways I had traversed as a boy. The
place was lit by just a few tapers, the fires banked. No one was about.
I proceeded to
raid the larder, heaping a tray with the various viands requested, adding a few
pieces of fruit I came across. I almost dropped the wine bottle when I heard a
sharp intake of breath near the doorway I had entered.
It was Julia, in
a blue silk wrap.
Merlin!
I crossed to her.
I owe you
several apologies, I said. I'm ready to make them.
I'd heard you
were back. I heard you were to be king.
Funny, I heard
that, too.
Then it would be
unpatriotic of me to stay mad, wouldn't it?
I never meant to
hurt you, I said. Physically, or any other way.
Suddenly, we were
holding each other. It lasted a long time before she told me, Jurt says you're
friends now.
I guess we sort
of are.
I kissed her.
If we got back
together again, she said, he'd probably try to kill you again.
I know. This
time the consequences could really be cataclysmic, too.
Where are you
going right now?
I'm on an
errand, and it's going to take me several hours.
Why don't you
stop by when you're finished? We've got
a lot to talk
about. I'm staying in a place called the Wisteria Room for now. Know where that
is?
Yes, I said.
This is crazy.
See you later?
Maybe.
The next day I
traveled to the Rim, for I'd heard report that the Pit-divers-those who seek
after artifacts of creation beyond the Rim-had suspended operations for the
first time in a generation. When I questioned them they told me of dangerous
activities in the depths-whirlwinds, wings of fire, blasts of new-minted
matter.
Sitting in a
secluded place and looking down, I used the spikard I wore to question the one
I didn't. When I removed the shield in which I'd encased it, it commenced a
steady litany, Go to Mandor. Get crowned. See your brother. See your mother.
Begin preparations. I wrapped it again and put it away. If I didn't do
something soon he was going to suspect that I was beyond its control. Did I
care?
I could just
absent myself, perhaps going away with my father, helping him at whatever
showdown might finally develop over his Pattern. I could even ditch both
spikards there, enhancing the forces in that place. I could still rely on my own
magic in a pinch. But my problem was right here. I had been bred and
conditioned to be a perfect royal flunky, under the control of my mother, and
possibly my brother Mandor. I loved Amber, but I loved the Courts as well.
Fleeing to Amber, while assuring my safety, would no more solve my personal
problem than running off with my dad-or returning to the Shadow Earth I also
cared for, with or without Coral. No. The problem was here-and inside me.
I summoned a
filmy to bear me to an elevated way to take me back to Sawall. As I traveled, I
thought of what I must do, and I realized that I was afraid. If things got
pushed as far as they well might, there was a strong possibility that I would
die. Alternatively, I might have to kill someone I didn't really want to.
Either way,
though, there had to be some resolution or I'd never know peace at this pole of
my existence.
I walked beside a
purple stream beneath a green sun atop a pearly sky. I summoned a purple and
gray bird, which came and sat upon my wrist. I had thought to dispatch it to
Amber with a message for Random. Try as I might, however, I could phrase no
simple note. Too many things depended on other things. Laughing, I released it
and leapt from the bank, where I struck another way above the water.
Returned to
Sawall, I made my way to the sculpture hall. By then, I knew what I must try to
do and how I must go about it. I stood where I had stood-how long ago?
-regarding massive structures, simple figures, intricate ones.
Ghost? I said.
You in the neighborhood?
There was no
response.
Ghost! I
repeated more loudly. Can you hear me?
Nothing.
I dug out my
Trumps, located the one I had done for Ghostwheel, bright circle.
I regarded it
with some intensity, but it was slow to grow cool. This was understandable,
considering some of the odd areas of space to which this hall gave access.
Also, it was irritating.
I raised the
spikard. Using it here at the level I intended would be like setting off a
burglar alarm. Amen.
I touched the
Tarot with a line of subtle force, at
tempting to
enhance the instrument's sensitivity. I maintained my concentration.
Again, nothing.
I backed it with
more force. There followed a perceptible cooling. But there was no contact.
Ghost, I said
through clenched teeth. This is important. Come to me.
No reply. So I
sent power into the thing. The card began to glow and frast crystals formed
upon it. Small crackling sounds occurred in its vicinity.
Ghost, I
repeated.
A weak sense of
his presence occurred then, and I poured more juice into the card. It shattered
in my hand, and I caught it in a web of forces and held all of the pieces
together, looking like a small stained-glass window. I continued to reach
through it.
Dad! I'm in
trouble! came to me then.
Where are you?
What's the matter? I asked.
I followed this
entity I met. Pursued her-it. Almost a mathematical abstraction. Called Kergma.
Got caught here at an odd-even dimensional interface, where I'm spiraling. Was
having a good time up until then
I know Kergma
well. Kergma is a trickster. I can feel your spatial situation. I am about to
send bursts of energy to counter the rotation. Let me know if there are
problems. As soon as you're able to Trump through, tell me and come ahead.
I pulsed it
through the spikard and the braking effect began. Moments later, he informed
me, I think I can escape now.
Come on, then.
Suddenly, Ghost
was there, spinning about me like a magic circle.
Thanks, Dad. I
really appreciate this. Let me know if there's ever anything
There is, I
said.
What?
Shrink yourself
down and hide somewhere about my person.
Wrist okay
again?
Sure.
He did that
thing. Then, Why? he asked.
I may need a
sudden ally, I replied.
Against what?
Anything, I
said. It's showdown time.
I don't like the
sound of that.
Then leave me
now. I won't hold it against you.
I couldn't do
that.
Listen, Ghost.
This thing has escalated, and a line must be drawn now. I
The air began to
shimmer, off to my right. I knew what it meant.
Later, I said.
Be still.
... And there was
a doorway, and it opened to admit a tower of green light: eyes, ears, nose,
mouth, limbs cycling about its sea-like range-one of the more inspired demonic
forms I'd beheld of late. And, of course, I knew the features.
Merlin, he
said. I felt you ply the spikard here. I thought you might, I replied, and
I am at your service, Mandor.
Really?
In all respects,
brother.
Including a
certain matter of succession?
That in
particular.
Excellent! And
what business were you about here?
I was but
seeking something I had lost.
That can wait
upon another day, Merlin. We have much to do just now.
Yes, that is
true.
So assume a more
pleasing form and come with me. We must discuss the measures you are to take
upon assuming the throne-which Houses are to be suppressed, who outlawed
I must speak
with Dara immediately.
I would rather
lay some groundwork first. Come! Shift, and let us be away!
Would you know
where she is just now?
Gantu, I
believe. But we will confer with her later.
You wouldn't
happen to have her Trump handy, would you?
I fear not. I
thought you carried a deck of your own?
I do. But hers
was inadvertently destroyed one night when I was drinking.
No matter, he
said. We will see her later, as I explained.
I had been
opening channels on the spikard as we spoke. I caught him at the center of a
whirlwind of forces. I could see the transformation procedure within him, and
it was a simple matter to reverse it, collapsing the green and spinning tower
into the form of a whitehaired man clad in black and white and looking very
irritated.
Merlin! he
cried. Why have you changed me?
This thing
fascinates me, I said, waving the spikard. I just wanted to see whether I
could do it.
Now you've seen
it, he said. Kindly release me to turn back, and find a more fitting form for
yourself.
A moment, I
said, as he attempted to melt and flow. I require you just as you are.
I held him
against his effort, and I drew a fiery rectangle in the air. A series of quick
movements filled it with a rough likeness of my mother.
Merlin! What are
you doing? he cried.
I suppressed his
effort to extricate himself by means of a transport spell.
Conference
time, I announced. Bear with me.
I didn't just
meditate upon the impromptu Trump I had hung in the air before me, but
practically attacked it with a charge of the energies I was cycling through my
body and the space about me.
Suddenly, Dara
stood within the frame I had created-tall, coal-black, eyes of green flame.
Merlin! What's
happening? she cried.
I'd never heard
of it being done quite this way before, but I held the contact, willed her
presence, and blew away the frame. She stood before me then, perhaps seven feet
tall, pulsing with indignation.
What is the
meaning of this? she asked.
I caught her as I
had Mandor and collapsed her down to human scale.
Democracy, I
said Let's all look alike for a minute.
This is not
amusing, she responded, and she began to change back.
I canceled her
effort.
No, it isn't, I
answered. But I called this meeting, and it will be run on my terms.
Very well, she
said, shrugging. What has become so terribly urgent?
The succession.
The matter is
settled. The throne is yours.
And whose
creature am I to be? I raised my left hand, hoping they had no way of telling
one spikard from another. This thing confers great powers. It also charges for
their use. It bore a spell for control of its wearer.
It was
Swayvill's, Mandor said. I got it to you when I did to accustom you to the force
of its presence. And yes, there is a price. Its wearer must come to terms with
it.
I have wrestled
with it, I lied, and I am its master. But the main problems were not cosmic.
They were compulsions of your own installation.
I do not deny
it, he said. But there was a very good reason for their presence. You were
reluctant to take the throne. I felt it necessary to add an element of
compulsion.
I shook my head.
Not good
enough, I said. There was more to it than that. It was a thing designed to
make me subservient to you.
Necessary, he
responded. You've been away. You lack intimate knowledge of the local
political scene. We could not simply let you take the reins and go off in your
own direction-not in times such as these, when blunders could be very costly.
The House needed some means to control you. But this was only to be until your
education was complete.
Permit me to
doubt you, brother, I said.
He glanced at
Dara, who nodded slightly.
He is right,
she said, and I see nothing wrong with such temporary control until you learn
the business. Too much is at stake to permit otherwise.
It was a
slave-spell, I said. It would force me to take the throne, to follow orders.
Mandor licked his
lips. It was the first time I'd ever seen him betray a sign of nervousness. It
instantly made me wary-though I realized moments later that it may have been a
calculated distraction. It caused me to guard against him immediately; and, of
course, the attack came from Dara.
A wave of heat
swept over me. I shifted my attention at once, attempting to raise a barrier.
It was not an attack against my person. It was something soothing, coercive. I
bared my teeth as I fought to hold it off.
Mother I
growled.
We must restore
the imperatives, she said flatly, more to Mandor than to me.
Why? I asked.
You're getting what you want.
The throne is
not enough, she answered. I do not trust you in this, and reliance will be
necessary.
You never
trusted me, I said, pushing away the remains of her spell.
That is not
true, she told me, and this is a technical matter, not a personal one.
Whatever the
matter, I said, I'm not buying.
Mandor tossed a
paralysis spell at me, and I pushed it away, ready for anything now. As I was
doing this, Dara hit me with an elaborate working I recognized as a Confusion
Storm. I was not about to try matching them both, spell for spell. A good
sorcerer may have a half dozen major spells hung. Their judicious employment is
generally enough for dealing with most situations. In a sorcerous duel the
strategy involved in their employment is a major part of the game. If both
parties are still standing when the spells have been exhausted, then they are
reduced to fighting with raw energies. Whoever controls a greater quantity
usually has the edge then.
I raised an
umbrella against the Confusion Storm, parried Mandor's Astral Club, held myself
together through Mom's Spirit Split, maintained my senses through Mandor's Well
of Blackness. My major spells had all gone stale, and I had hung no new ones
since I'd begun relying on the spikard. I was already reduced to reliance on
raw power. Fortunately, the spikard gave me control of more of it than I'd ever
held before. All I had to do was force them to use up their spells, then all
trickiness would be removed from the situation. I would wear them down, drain
them.
Mandor sneaked
one partway through, hurting me in a brush with an Electric Porcupine. I
battered him with a wall of force, however, slamming him into a system of
revolving discs that flashed off in all directions. Dara turned into a liquid
flame, coiling, waving, flowing through circles and figure-Bights, as she
advanced and retreated, tossing bubbles of euphoria and pain to orbit me. I
tried to blow them away, hurricane-wise, shattering the great porcelain face,
uprooting towers, family groups with holes in them, glowing geometries. Mandor
fumed to sand, which filtered downward through the structure upon which he
sprawled, became a yellow carpet, crept toward me.
I ignored the
effects and continued to beat at them with energies. I hurled the carpet
through the flame and dumped a floating fountain upon them. Brushing out small
fires in my clothing and hair, I forced my consciousness through numbed areas
in my left shoulder and leg. I fell apart and drew myself back together again
as I mastered Dara's spell of Unweaving. I shattered Mandor's Diamond Bubble
and digested the Chains of Deliverance. On three occasions, I dropped my human
form for things more suitable, but always I returned to it. I hadn't had a
workout like this since my final exams with Suhuy.
But the ultimate
advantage was obviously mine. Their only real chance had lain in surprise, and
that was gone now. I opened all channels on the spikard, a thing which might
have intimidated even the Pattern-though, now I thought on it, it had gotten me
knocked senseless. I caught Mandor in a cone of force that stripped him down to
a skeleton and built him back up again in an instant. Dara was harder to nail,
but when I blasted her with all of the channels, she hit me with a Dazzlement
spell she'd been holding in reserve, the only thing that saved her from turning
into a statue as I'd intended. Instead, it left her in mortal form and restricted
to slow motion.
I shook my head
and rubbed my eyes. Lights danced before me.
Congratulations,
she said, over a span of perhaps ten seconds. You're better than I'd thought.
And I'm not even
finished, I replied, breathing deeply. It's time to do unto you as you'd have
done unto me.
I began to craft
the working which would place them under my control. It was then that I noticed
her small slow smile.
I'd thought-we
might-deal with-you-ourselves, she said as the air began to shimmer before
her. I was-wrong.
The Sign of the
Logrus took form before her. Immediately, her features grew more animated.
Then I felt its
terrible regard. When it addressed me, that pastiche-voice tore at my nervous
system.
I have been
summoned, it said, to deal with your recalcitrance, oh man who would be
king.
There came a
crash from downhill as the house of mirrors collapsed. I looked in that
direction. So did Dana. Mandor, just now struggling to his feet, did also.
The reflective
panels rose into the air and drifted toward us. They were quickly deployed all
about us, reflecting and re-reflecting our confrontation from countless angles.
The prospect was bewildering, for space itself seemed somehow bent, twisted now
in our vicinity. And in each image we were surrounded by a circle of light,
though I could not detect its absolute source.
I stand with
Merlin, Ghost said, from somewhere.
Construct! the
Logrus Sign stated. You thwarted me in Amber!
And a short
thwart for the Pattern, too, Ghost observed. It sort of balances out.
What are your
wishes now?
Hands off
Merlin, Ghost said. He'll rule here as well as reign. No strings on him.
Ghost's lights
began cycling.
I pulsed the
spikard, open on all channels, hoping to locate Ghost, give him access to its
energies. I couldn't seem to make contact, though.
I don't need
that, Dad, Ghost stated. I access sources in Shadow myself.
What is it that
you want for yourself, construct? the Sign inquired.
To protect one
who cares for me.
I can offer you
cosmic greatness.
You already did.
I turned you down then, too. Remember?
I remember. And
I will remember. A jagged tentacle of the constantly shifting figure moved
toward one of the circles of light. There was a blinding rush of flame when
they met. When my vision cleared, however, nothing had changed. Very well,
the Sign acknowledged. You came prepared. It is not yet time to weaken myself
in your destruction. Not when another waits for me to falter.
Lady of Chaos,
it stated, you must honor Merlin's wishes. If his reign be a foolish thing, he
will destroy himself by his own actions. If it be prudent, you will have gained
what you sought without interference.
The expression on
her face was one of disbelief.
You would back
down before a son of Amber and his toy? she asked.
We must give him
what he wants, it acknowledged, for now. For now...
The air squealed
about its vanishment. Mandor smiled the smallest of smiles, reflected to infinity.
I can't believe
this, she said, becoming a flowerfaced cat and then a tree of green flame.
Believe as you
would, Mandor told her. He's won.
The tree flared
through its autumn and was gone. Mandor nodded to me.
I just hope you
know what you're doing, he said. I know what I'm doing.
Take it however
you would, he said, but if you need advice I'll try to help you.
Thanks.
Care to discuss
it over lunch?
Not just now.
He shrugged and
became a blue whirlwind.
Till later
then, came the voice out of the whirlwind, before it blew away.
Thanks, Ghost,
I said. Your timing's gotten a lot better.
Chaos has a weak
left, he replied.
I located fresh
garments of silver, black, gray, and white. I took them back to Jurt's
apartments with me. I had a long story to tell.
We walked
little-used ways, passing through Shadow, coming at length to the final
battlefield of the Patternfall War. The place had healed itself over the years,
leaving no indication of all that had transpired there. Corwin regarded it for
a long while in silence.
Then he turned to
me and said, It'll take some doing to sort everything out, to achieve a more
permanent balance, to assure its stability.
Yes.
You think you
can keep things peaceful on this end for a while?
That's the
idea, I said. I'll give it my best shot.
That's all any
of us can do, he said. Okay, Random has to know what's happened, of course.
I'm not sure how he's going to take having you as an opposite number, but
that's the breaks.
Give him my
regards, and Bill Roth, too.
He nodded.
And good luck,
I said.
There are still
mysteries within mysteries, he told me. I'll let you know what I find out, as
soon as I have something.
He moved forward
and embraced me.
Then, Rev up
that ring and send me back to Amber.
It's already
revved, I said. Good-bye.
...And hello,
he answered, from the tail end of a 'I rainbow.
I turned away then, for the long walk back to Chaos.